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(2 Left Me To Die | Lick My Bleeding Wounds) take your HATRED out on me...make your VICTIM my head [17 Sep 2003|09:12pm] [ mood | loved ] [ music | 'Horrible Pain Inside My Heart' - My Ruin ] well monday was my and my beloved Phil's 6 month anniversary ^_^ we made it, it was almost unbelievable because it is by far my longest relationship ever but im glad its with him and no one else. I LOVE MY PHIL SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!

(Lick My Bleeding Wounds) i want to feel you from the inside [02 Sep 2003|03:40pm] [ mood | apathetic ] [ music | none ] sorry i havent updated here in a while, ive been sick and busy getting ready for skool (which starts tomarrow). i took my babysitting money and i got all new kool clothes for skool and a new bookbag. ^_^ i cant wait to be back in skool and see all the people i havent seen in so long...im also dreading to see all the peoplei hate (which is ALOT) lol. ill update here more often, dont worry... the one, the only, the dead sexy... -Spyke-

(Lick My Bleeding Wounds) stolen from Kevin who took it from Joyce... [19 Aug 2003|07:39pm] [ mood | distressed ] [ music | none, just the voices in my head screaming at each other ] WHAT... ...ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? My Ruin ...WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Pizza ...WAS THE LAST THING YOU SAID ONLINE? I hate you so fuck off! ...DO YOU SEE TO YOUR IMMEDIATE LEFT? my framed pic of Manson ...IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION? Phil XxXsighsXxX ...WILL YOU NAME YOUR FIRST CHILD? Marilyn Manson ...IS YOUR FAVORITE HOBBY? masterbation/music ...JOB DO YOU SEE YOURSELF DOING IN THE FUTURE? chef/singer ...DID YOU DO YESTERDAY? babysat some kids and cleaned my room ...ARE YOU AFRAID OF? drowning, the ocean, heights, of being alone, bees... WHO... ...DO YOU ADMIRE MOST? Phil ...DO YOU WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WITH? Phil ...MAKES YOU HAPPY TO BE AROUND? Phil ...IS AT THE TOP OF YOUR BUDDY LIST? Phil ...WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ONLINE? sadly, not Phil *

(Lick My Bleeding Wounds) i said im sorry and im sorry [19 Aug 2003|07:09pm] [ mood | groggy ] [ music | 'Liberate' - Slipknot ] You are a Trojan Her Pleasure! You like to be pleased, but you don't mind pleasing everyone else too. Getting other people off helps get you off... Not that you ever had any trouble in the first place. Click here for totally free condoms, lube, and more. What Trojan Condom Are You? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva I cleaned and rearranged my entire room, nonstop from 7am-1/130pm. Missy and Megan came over then Jesse came over and we all walked to Sal's and made Jesse buy us a pizza ^_^; hehe. Missy walked Megan home while me and Jesse hung out in my newly rearranged room. he played my guitar for awhile, then Missy came back. The 3 of us hung out upstairs for ahwile and played with their new ferret. ^_^ he's so kyoot! i felt really bad today though...go to my deadjournal to read abuot that though... the one, the only, the dead sexy... -Spyke-

(Lick My Bleeding Wounds) for your info... [18 Aug 2003|04:23pm] [ mood | irate ] [ music | 'Tainted Love' - My Ruin (Soft Cell cover) ] just in case you dont see me online much this week and if you were wndering why...i shall tell you...im babysitting everyday this week and while im babysitting ill be cleaning/rearranging my room and after im done babysitting ill be at band practice. if you need me feel free to call my house phone (not my computer phone) if you forgot the # just email me @ < SpyketheKlown@hotmail.com >and ask or you can wait until i decide to come online. bye now. the one, the only, the dead sexy... -Spyke-

(Lick My Bleeding Wounds) *~*~*dont ask*~*~* [17 Aug 2003|04:12pm] [ mood | apathetic ] [ music | 'Beauty Fiend' - My Ruin ] You Are a Growl! What Sex Sound Are *You*? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva GRRRR BABY.....VERY GRRRRRRRRRRRR......

(Lick My Bleeding Wounds) ill make this as short as possible... [17 Aug 2003|04:07pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | 'I Hate' - Manson ] ok well starting from the beginning...well Ash came and got me at 9am on Saturday morning...we went to WaWa for coffee and sang all kinds of songs for like an hour and a half in the car. we arrive at the shore around like 1030, we passed the college that im going to be going to ^_^ but we went swimming for like an hour... THE WATER WAS SOOOOOOO FUCKING FREEZING COLD!!!! but after we ate some chips and got dressed, we walked around the boardwalk until 2pm...i went into this one store a saw this wristband i wanted...it was $20 and i only had $25, so i talked him into giving it to me for $15 and he even shined it up for me ^_^ then i took my last $10 and bought Ash this aweasome Godsmack shirt. she loooooooves it ^_^ so we went back and fell asleep on the way home. we finally get back to Ash's dads and he gets a shower and goes out for the night, me and her started walking to Mandy's house...she moved so it was an hour and a half walk to get there...we were both like dying but we made it and stayed at Mandy's for like 20mins then walked back. on the bike trail on the way home we saw the biggest fucking dirt hill ever...IT WAS FUCKING TALLER THEN THE TREES!!! i was in my 4inch heeled boots and i had my wristbands on and all kinds of shit but me and her still climbed to the top of that hill and we stodd there looking out into the night, and watching for cops so we could run our asses off. we were covered in dirt by the time we got home, but it was fucking worth it! we watched a movie then fell asleep around 1am. woke up at 630a and had to drive to Ash's mom's house in Sicklerville (we were in Williamstown at her dads) but we were going to go straight to sleep...ha fat chance, we were up and in just sitting in her room doing nothing til like 10a when we got dressed and walk to the park, then back to her house like an hour later. we called Missy and told her to come over, and we called Sander to apologize for not being able to go to the mall lastnight, so i didnt get to see Sander...o fucking well. Missy finally got there around 2pm. we looked through her magazines and sang ICP songs and shit that we always do. haha on 'Mad Professor' they thought it was Shaggy singing and they thought he said 'J?'...i was like no, thats J singing and he says 'Shaggy?'...they had to prove me wrong so they went and listened to it carefully...they came out and said, i owe you an apology, your right. i was like 'i know'. we walked around sicklerville for a while and up to WaWa and shit. i had fun. Friday me, Ash, Missy, and Joyce are going to the mall...yes Joyce your going *<=oP in williamstown when i was wlaking with Ash down the streets we got 2beeps, 1 wave, 1 guy screaming 'you're hot!', 1 guy screaming 'hey girls', and 1 guy going 'woo-hoo!' from the cars as we walked. in sicklerville when i was walking with Ash and Missy we got 4 beeps. lol. it was interesting. Sander was sad that we didnt feel like going to the fucking mall. o well. Ash kind of put into his head that i liked him...lol i was like Ash, i already dated him, you think id make that mistake again?! lol. o well bye now, i shall go and make everyones life miserable now...XxXsighsXxX i have a problem, i want to go to the shore next weekend with everyone, but i also want to see my beloved, if i go ill only get to see him on Saturday and i miss him like fuck! *

(4 Left Me To Die | Lick My Bleeding Wounds) he's makes me bleed...makes me whole [13 Aug 2003|12:44pm] [ mood | giggly ] [ music | 'Choke' - Kittie ] this is going to be short: my brother joined football...hey so do my sister...lol Joyce is home (i forgot to write that on sunday). me and Rachel have become really good friends, its weird how fast it happened(lol ive only talked to her twice and saw her once...)but i trust her with everything, ive told her things about my life, she's told me things about hers. ok ive got to go now... the one, the only, the dead sexy... -Spyke-

(Lick My Bleeding Wounds) id kill myself to love you [12 Aug 2003|07:56am] [ mood | amused ] [ music | 'Brackish'- Kittie ] XxXstares at herself in a mirror for like 10mins...then says...XxX whoa...i think i lost some weight...i dont know though since i havent been on a scale since January/February-ish. ok thats all i wanted to say for now... the one, the only, the dead sexy... -Spyke-

(Lick My Bleeding Wounds) XxXputs her hand up to the mirror, but doesnt feel glass...instead...feels skinXxX [11 Aug 2003|08:30pm] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | 'Hello'- Evanescance ] well not much happened today...except i had an interesting conversation with Rachel...its kind of scary how i could relate to everything about her. we started out with simple chit chat and i told her that i could get really annoying and she said that she could too and i told her that i was really weird, but she said it was kool because im interesting...ive never been called interesting before XxXfeels specialXxX...but then eventually we started getting into what we originally thought of each other...she thought i was a bitch, i thought she was a home-wrecker...stuff like that. but we just...i dont know...it was...amazing. she told me that she knew that i had hurt Phil before and all that then i told her how i never wanted to hurt him and that i loved him dearly and she said she experienced love once too, i didnt get the chance to ask her about that. but lol she tried sending me this AOL Instant Greeting thing and i have AIM so i had to download it and she didnt know that and it took forever so i signed on AOL and told her to send it there and she couldnt because it was being a pain in the ass and eventually we gave up and she kept getting kicked offline. but we talked about Manson and his sexiness and how we'd both like to fuck him. but to make a long story short...we trust each other...and we're going to become good friends and do everything we can to not let the whole factor with Phil get in the wayXxXhappy and relievedXxX, but we know that wont be a problem since we both value friendships more then anything and hy guess what?!... we both only have $1. lol. ...but she had to get offline so we're going to talk again tomarrow. ^_^ i think i shall stop it here before i start writing alot... the one, the only, the dead sexy... -Spyke-

(Lick My Bleeding Wounds) I wont look prettier if i smile for the picture [11 Aug 2003|08:28am] [ mood | stressed ] [ music | Better of 2 Evils' - Manson ] this journal is now only for the happy and good points in my life... wanna read about the bad side of my life? go here then: http://www.deadjournal.com/~xxmiseryqueenxx the one, the only, the dead sexy... -Spyke-

(Lick My Bleeding Wounds) im sick, but im pretty [10 Aug 2003|08:49pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | 'Antichrist Superstar' - Manson ] not much has happened since i last updated, went over Phil's yesterday and watched 'Just Married' it was ok. we went to the mall today(i know, twice in one week, that has to be a record for me or something) but it wasnt bad. i watched Ben and some others playing some Beyblade game, it was weird how hypnotizing it was. o yea i talked to Rachel last night, she's kooler then i thought she'd be, she said the same about me but i was hoping to hang out with her & Laura today at the mall but they didnt come. o well there's always friday. well im not going to write much because im tired as all fucking hell. i think i may go to bed really early tonight. the one, the only, the dead sexy... -Spyke-

(Lick My Bleeding Wounds) boredom... [09 Aug 2003|12:03pm] [ mood | weird ] [ music | 'Tourniquet' - Manson ] What Johnny the Homicidal Maniac (JtHM) character ish you be? brought to you by Quizilla +*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+* my style of love is: MANIA I experience love as a roller coaster. It is filled with intensity, jealousy and insecurity. what's your style of love? | mewing.net. where love goes to die. +*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+* take the death quiz. and go to mewing.net. laura = great. +*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+* take the virgin-whore dichotomy quiz. and go to mewing.net. where we're all studs. that's not entirely true! +*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+* Candy Cane- You are a sweet person! You may not be here all the time, but everyone looks forward to your visits. Stay sweet, and you'll get lots of friends!!! What type of candy are you? brought to you by Quizilla +*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+* Red: Aren't you the romantic? Life is poetic. If you don't already, write poetry, you're good at it. Made by Sara What color do you see the world in? brought to you by Quizilla +*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+* Suspicous; eh? What facial expression are you? brought to you by Quizilla +*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+* Your creativty and craftsmenship doesn't come from nowhere. You used to be an artisan in your past life, painting murals, sculpting statues, and crafting wood for more noble people. Who were you in your past life? brought to you by Quizilla +*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+* Where do you deserve to be right now? +*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+* you're a Snake what animal r u? brought to you by Quizilla +*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+* you are one, somewhat insecure but still tries to help others what number are you. brought to you by Quizilla +*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+* dig in! you're cherry pie! what flavor pie are you? brought to you by Quizilla +*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+* Oh my Gosh!! You are so Heartbroken!!! But don't worry! there's someone out there that will love you 4 who you are and be with you forever in body mind and spirit. ~* R u HeArTbRoKeN?*~ brought to you by Quizilla uh...no im not! Ó_ô +*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*

(Lick My Bleeding Wounds) 'omg we are like so going to the maaaaaaaaaaallllllllll' [09 Aug 2003|09:48am] [ mood | giddy ] [ music | 'Antichrist Superstar' - Manson ] well yesterday was interesting, i got bored and got asked to go to the mall, i said ok since there was nothing else to do, so i called up Eryka and Jesse and told them to come, Eryka brought Megan then it turned out that person who asked me to go wasnt allowed to go and Jesse was already at my house, so i had to call Eryka to get a ride. well we finally get to the mall. YAY! *<:o\ these="these" you="you" home.="home." my="my" fun="fun" buy="buy" couldnt="couldnt" phil="Phil" eventually="eventually" cadillac...guess="cadillac...guess" sometime.="sometime." parking="parking" what="what" megan="Megan" night="night" them="them" apearing="apearing" again="again" grrrrr...anyways="grrrrr...anyways" steps="steps" 18.="18." eryka's="Eryka's" of="of" month="month" time="time" still="still" all="all" claire's="Claire's" much="much" closing="closing" going="going" stalking="stalking" said="said" greasy,="greasy," looks="looks" off?!="off?!" can="can" ate,="ate," where="where" well.="well." her...as="her...as" thing.="thing." left="left" a="a" posters,="posters," comments="comments" plate="plate" tried="tried" ive="ive" liscense="liscense" collar="collar" seen="seen" up.="up." in="in" walls="walls" comic="comic" walked="walked" pornstar="pornstar" hid="hid" only="only" me="me" anyway.="anyway." awhile="awhile" hall="Hall" boscov's="Boscov's" feel="feel" 'blood,="'Blood," quickly="quickly" black,="black," calling="calling" mall....im="mall....im" looked="looked" after="after" phil,="Phil," get="get" tv="tv" hungry...i="hungry...i" jokes.="jokes." back="back" go="go" there="there" as="as" showed="showed" o="o" heroes,="Heroes," know="know" victoria's="Victoria's" on="on" shall="shall" laughing.="laughing." ran="ran" earrings.="earrings." course="course" out="out" joyce's="Joyce's" video="video" jesse="Jesse" upstairs="upstairs" kool="kool" yea,="yea," came="came" behind="behind" hate="hate" into="into" bad="bad" camden...that="Camden...that" really="really" time...ill="time...ill" yea="yea" work="work" little="little" then="then" he'd="he'd" things="things" anyways="anyways" us...o="us...o" waited="waited" since="since" eryka="Eryka" it's="it's" whole="whole" went="went" about="about" down="down" new="new" articles="articles" dad="dad" us?!="us?!" im="im" yesterdays horoscope: 'Just when you think you're being triumphantly stubborn, your sweetheart wears away your resistance. Deep down, you know how right he or she is. You really chose your partner well.' the one, the only, the dead sexy... -Spyke-

(Lick My Bleeding Wounds) If You Like Marilyn Manson...look here: [07 Aug 2003|03:16pm] I was bored yesterday so I made a message board 'A Shrine to Marilyn Manson' join if you want, if not just atleast look around...thanx... 'A Shrine to Marilyn Manson': http://pub218.ezboard.com/bashrinetomarilynmanson81790 the one, the only, the dead sexy... -Spyke-

(Lick My Bleeding Wounds) stolen from Ashley -aka- seductive_bunny [06 Aug 2003|10:13pm] [ mood | cynical ] [ music | 'Horrible Pain Within My <3' - My Ruin ] My father thinks I am: weird My mother thinks I am: nothing but a babysitter My stepmother thinks I am: an embarrassment to everyone My brother thinks I am: his mother My sister thinks I am: weird My grandma thinks I am: weird My grandpa thinks I am: weird My best friend thinks I am: uh...(Joyce, you can answer this one...) XYes or No. X +you keep a diary= yes +you like to cook= definately +you have a secret you have not shared with anyone= i do, but im hoping to share it with somebody this sunday +you fold your underwear= no +you talk in your sleep= no, but i snore and drool +you set your watch a few minutes ahead= i dont own a watch +you bite your fingernails= i used to +you believe in love= of course, and i believe that it conquers all XLast. X x. movie you watched = Children of the Corn IV (4) x. song you listened to = 'Horrible Pain Within My Heart' - My Ruin x. song you've downloaded = 'Sex and Candy' - MarcyPlayground x. cd you bought = OTEP - Jihad x. person you've called = my psychiatrist x. person that's called you = my psychiatrist, but i miss the call *

(Lick My Bleeding Wounds) horoscopes for yesterday and today... [06 Aug 2003|07:58am] yesterday: 'You have a say in how this romance goes. Let your partner know what's on your mind. He or she is happy to do most of what you ask. If you meet with some resistance, it's okay to push a little harder. You're both strong enough to take it.' today: 'Postpone your personal wishes. Surrender your time to someone who needs it more than you do. Think of your sacrifices as gifts. Satisfying your main squeeze feels like the right thing.'

(Lick My Bleeding Wounds) What's Your Bedroom Personality? (quiz) [06 Aug 2003|07:53am] Your Bedroom Personality Is Romantic! For you, sex is an act of love. What this means: You wait the longest of all types to have sex. You've got to be sure that you're in love... And that your lover is devoted to you. What your lovers love about you: You make sex meaningful, passionate, and emotional. You are caring and gentle throughout the whole act. And once you have sex, you're likely to stick around for a while. What your lovers can't stand about you: For you sex and love are so entertwined... That good sex can make you too attached. And bad sex can make you feel unloved. What's *Your* Bedroom Personality? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva

(Lick My Bleeding Wounds) uh...holy fucking shit... [06 Aug 2003|07:09am] [ mood | drained ] [ music | any of the Subtonic songs i have ] uh...you are never going to believe what just happened to me...no, i know you wont believe it...how? well i dont believe it...i went into my room around 1030p to read a book and hoing to get to sleep early...ha! i shouldve known that wasnt going to happen. im an insomniac!!! but anyways i get done reading and go out to watch tv, by now its like 1230a...i watch tv until about 400a...then i go into my room to sleep, realized i could get to sleep so i resorted to reading about insomnia in one of my self-help books...i finally get to sleep around 430a...and i swear to fucking anybody that i was asleep forever...i know i remember looking at my clock after waking up at somepoint and my clock said '1207' noon...i though, yea ok thats normal...i fell back asleep...then i woke up again i dont know how much later and my clock said '704'...i didnt look to see if it was am or pm so here i am thinking its pm so i get up and run out in the living room just to see my sister putting shoes on...i asked her what she was doing here and she said that it was only 700a and they dont leave until 730a... now i am the most confused person in the world. was in all in my mind?! did i really only get 2 and a half hours of sleep?! it was so real though, i knew i slept longer because im not tired anymore and when im as tired as i was last night...er...2 hours ago...2 hours of sleep does not satisfy me...so what happened?! maybe i was the guinea pig in some alien experiment...maybe im just insane...Ó_Ò please if you have any comments, dont hesitate to leave them...go ahead, call me a fucking psycho who's fucked up in the head...

(2 Left Me To Die | Lick My Bleeding Wounds) dude...YOU'RE ONLY 10!!! [05 Aug 2003|08:33pm] [ mood | apathetic ] [ music | 'The Boys of Summer' - The Ataris ] ok, what is it with me attracting guys under the age of 13?! do i have a sign of me that says 'I DATE 10 YEAR OLDS!!!'?! this 10 year old hit on me a couple days ago...asking if i had a boyfriend and stuff, i didnt know how old he was until late though...he goes how old are you?...i said 15...he goes im 10...Ó_ô then he talks to me again today and was asking me if i had a pic and what i looked like and all kinds of stuff like that...XxXholds a gun to her temple...pulls the triggerXxX...XxXlifeless body falls to the groundXxX...

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