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[21 Oct 2003|11:18pm] Today was a half day. Woohooo fun fun. 3 fucked me over || I trusted you with my feelings

I was thinking to myself this could be heaven or this could be hell. [19 Oct 2003|12:09pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Hotel California - Eagles ] Some dance to remember, some dance to forget Im trying my best to keep this journal going. Its pretty hard to keep both, but Im doing it. Last night I went to the movies with Meg, Lindsa, Brian, Sam, Tim, John Wills, and Griffin. It was sooooo much fun. Sam was being a dick and wouldnt give me a hug :( I was doing the mental patient thing again so he got freaked out haha. Then John Wills gave me a hug instead :) We saw the RunDown. So gay, never see it. Megan got a cherry coke last night and won another one so Brian got another one. Im sharing all these tiny details haha. Brian asked Lindsa out!!!!! YAYYYYY So Brian and Lindsa are goign out. He asked her out then he took a piss on Applebees. He really had to go. Me and Poopy are translating back and forth. Its a good thing to do when you're bored. out of your mind. Lindsa said that Brian was having a band practice today and she was gonna ask him if we could go but she probly forgot. I gotta call her. I love their band practices. chicka chicka. There were voices down the corridor, thought I heard them say Welcom to the hotel california such a lovely place, such a lovely place such a lovely face welcome to the hotel california any time of year, any time of year you can find it here. 1 fucked me over || I trusted you with my feelings

Say tan. Say tan. Say tan. [18 Oct 2003|01:16pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Tetris Techno .. Happy Hardcore ] Hey, in case you all dont know, I got a digital camera and all that shit. Fun stuff! I take so many pictures its horrible. I post them all in my livejournal. I made a poem in the entry before this. Tell me how you like it. Last night he was being really sweet and he was being so nice. Is that why I'm still trying? I trusted you with my feelings

This Breakup [16 Oct 2003|11:38pm] [ mood | thoughtful ] [ music | Bizarre Love Triangle ... Frente ] I made a poem and its not about anybody in particular. Its stupid. The girl in this is stupid. I go to the back of my mind Try to remember those words that you whispered Pain is so clear in my blurred eyes. Its all gone now, its always going to end like this Frustration cuts at my legs as I try to run away from it all Everything is bringing me down, trying to make me suffer. This time I suffer alone without you holding me Those warm arms made the pain go away The happiness we once had was so unbelievable How you couldn't care anymore makes the pain worse Makes the stinging go straight to my chest Makes my stomach squeeze into a tight ball My whole body aches and then I feel nothing Everything is numb.. there is no feeling. It has ended my misery, a foolish act but there is no more pain The two bullets worked fast, I did the wrong thing, I will regret it Right now there couldn't be a better feeling. Now I wont feel the strength of this breakup. I trusted you with my feelings

Jigga wha? [11 Oct 2003|10:27am] [ mood | confused ] [ music | Avenged Sevenfold .. Warmness on the soul ] Yooo I havent updated in a shitload of a while. In my livejournal I havent updated in a couple days too. Just so much goin on. Blurty is so weird. It will tell me im not signed in when I am. So gay. Homecoming is so confusing. I dont know what time everything is tonight with my plans with the people Im going with. Brian and I are thinking to just go to pizza hut and order a pizza. Sounds better than going out to eat but Im doing it for people. Yes Im going with Brian. Yes Brian is with Lindsay.. but I guess not going out with eachother.. yet. Lindsay is going with Mike Johnson, so since Brian and I are really good friends and she already has a date, he asked me. This is so cute. Ok Megans sisters boyfriend was going to go to some place for hockey and wouldnt be here for homecoming, but sprained his leg or something and he didnt end up going. Megans sister already had a date and decided she wasnt gonna ditch him so Megans sisters boyfriend is going with Megan!! Yayyy well I gotta go start trying to get ready and call people to see whats up. Buh byeee 2 fucked me over || I trusted you with my feelings

I made a poem [19 Sep 2003|10:51pm] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | The radio. ] He misses her How sweet someone can act if in doubt but cruel to the wrong views Not wanting to hurt one another but after all is said that will change. Hes thinking about things she is scared to talk about He says its a joke but who could ever know His eyes filled with pain when she tells him she doesnt feel that way he tries to cover it up wih an 'im joking' But really inside hes choking back the rejection Or thats how he takes it. Naiive little boy. He takes it too far Fucks up what they had. The gentle touch so soft and caring. cut through the relationship with foolishness He fucked over something beautiful. I like it. I just made it. Its shorter than I thought. It took a while. 4 fucked me over || I trusted you with my feelings

So happy [19 Sep 2003|04:52pm] [ mood | unsure ] [ music | Second Vision ] I got a liiiiiiiiiiivejournal wooohoooo here: Say-tan. Say-tan. Say-tan. Yesterday I went to the coffee beenery to watch Second Vision, Pete Jive, and Generation. I met the hotties from generation ohhhh yeahhhh. and from second vision ohhhh yeahh hehehe. Well Im bored right nowwwww so Im gona go I trusted you with my feelings

These tears arent for you [17 Sep 2003|02:44pm] [ mood | shocked ] [ music | Im sorry - The smiths ] It was driving through hell. Fire came up on the sides of the loopty loop road and the car that Tuma (sister) and I were driving along. It would get foggy then clear up on a rollercoaster track-like road. Finally we ended up landing the flying Harry Potter car down at a house in the middle of the snow. (the car had changed into a harry potter car and flew down out of the clouds from the sky). She dropped me off. I went inside the house and passed two dead looking figures that jumped out at me and I had to throw them off. Then I went through a doorless doorway into a room with light pink walls and a checkered fireplace. On top of the fireplace mantel was the pictures of Liz (mom), Mohammad (dad), Fatima, Abdullah and I. Zachs painting was missing. Suddenly it hit me. They took my little brother. They came and killed my little brother and took him away.(Ive had a dream like this before, my other brother had died in it. Supposedly I had made a deal with these people that I would play the acoustic guitar for there band or something like that..but it had to do with tea. But a while later they would take part of your family and kill them, and I didnt know about that.) It just went right through my head like someone was controlling my mind and seeing it in front of their eyes realizing that he is dead. I was in shock. Suddenly Paige walks in the room and said 'whats wrong?' and I told her. Then all these weird things tried to come and get us. A huge dark figure came up to Paige and I grabbed it and wished with my mind that it was 5 times smaller. It became 5 times smaller. So I grabbed it (it was about 3 feet long now) and threw it into the fireplace. Then I told Paige to not let them get her and to think that they are something else. I needed to go find my mom. So I went into the first room where those two dead figures were and they attacked me so I thought to myself "They are blondes! pretty blondes! BARBIE DOLLS!" So first they turned into blondes.. with the same face. It looked like they were dead ugly things wearing wigs then they turned into pretty blondes but still coming at me then they turned into Barbie dolls and just sat there. Then I went into a next room to find my mom. I told her everything and she looked really surprised so I told her how to handle the monster tihngys and went back into the room where Paige was. I looked around frantically for Paige and then I saw something or someone lying on the couch. I picked it up and looked at it and it looked like a dead Paige that had been dead for 20 years. I thought "Bring back Paige!" and it turned into a big posterboard rectangle that at the part I was looking at said in letters: Paige McClain Age blah blah blah Born on May 2nd And I screamed at it "NO!! MAKE IT IN ABERCROMBIE AND FITCH LETTERS, NOT POWERPUFF LETTERS!!!!" The writing on the box was written in powerpuff girl letters and I needed it to be Abercrombie and Fitch letters for it to be Paige. So I screamed and thought at the same time. "MAKE IT ABERCROMBIE AND FITCH LETTERS!!!!!" Over and over and over again until it was. Then one of my tears went down and dropped on the box. Then I turned around to tell my mom Paige was going to be ok. And my mom was stiff as a bored. She was blue! She looked cold. For some reason I took the coffee she had been making while she was in her room and splashed it on her face. She woke up! Then this huge hand about 10 feet tall, all scabby, and yellow and gross came up to me to get me and I picked it up and thought of it as 2 feet big, then threw it into the now vortexy fireplace. Then I dropped to my knees and thought about my brother being dead. The feeling was unbelievably sad. It was really weird. Then I woke up. I started bawling and crying so hard my whole body was shaking. There was nobody around me to comfort me. I just wanted my little brother to be there right then, and all my closest friends. I wanted to lay my head on anybodys lap and have them play with my hair and tell me its alright.. 1 fucked me over || I trusted you with my feelings

Nervous and hopeful, but still denying myself. Trying not to give up. [17 Sep 2003|11:29am] [ mood | nervous ] [ music | Selah .. Lauryn Hill ] Right now at school it issss..6th period. My favorite. Im at home, sick... cough cough.. I LOVE MY ICON!! I was going to do the fat black kid eating but it was too much KBs or whatever. I MISS STEPHO AND MEG AND KICKS AND MY BABY AND BRIAN. Lunch time is the best part of the day. I wanna go to school for 6th period just to hang out with Brian and Steph. AGH this is such a great song. Download it. Selah by Lauryn Hill or however you spell it. Its so good. I watched The Divine Secrets of the YaYa Sisterhood. That is such a good movie. It makes me wanna cry and it makes me frustrated and happy. A couple days ago I watched everwood and it made me cry. That show is my favorite show ever. That and Smallville. AHHH I love. Well my moms gonna be home soon and she said during school hours since Im sick I cant watch T.V., talk on the phone, go on the computer. I can only read and sleep. Well Ive broken that rule. Fill me in on all the shizzle that went on today, everybody. I trusted you with my feelings

Theres always someone else.. always [16 Sep 2003|09:11pm] [ mood | loved ] [ music | Second Vision Demo ] Well heres what happened today. Its morning, school hasnt started, Im walking around with Brian. Then my eyes start hurting like hell. AGAIN. they get really red and I go to the nurse because its horrible. I get there..to make a long story short I end up there for 2 periods, have to sit in the nurses offfice, blind for 20 minutes, then I go to Spanish and miss half the test :) yesss! then the cool kid that sits next to me whispers the answers so I can write them down. :) My eyes are still watering a little bit but it doesnt look like im crying anymore. Brian told me it looks like I just smoked a lot of pot. Hahaha! Speaking of which abdullah go caught bein stupid, now my parents are yelling at eachother upstairs. Anyway.. Then Im waiting and waiting counting down the minutes until that one period where the rest of the day is sooo fun and good. I have a good time that period, then the one after it is just as fine, then the one after that was boring but ok. Then I got REALLY happy and the last per. I was in such a good mood. I decided to stay after and work out then I found out who the guy I like likes.. well its not me. And Brandis having a bad day and so is my brother and Meg says she is sexually deprived still, my parents are yelling at eachother. Its not a good day for anybody. Then I go outside the school with Steph, Meg, Paige and Mark. Paige and Mark are so goddam cute. She had her head in his lap and he was touching the side of her face then lightly kissing her. Makes me want a guy. Dejavou. Then Meg and I went to Stephos house and we hung out there eating pizza then hanging out on her deck. Ladybugs where everywhere and they were freaking out. HAHAHA they are afraid of ladybugs! Then we went up in her room, played with her guitar and did our harlem shake to some ghetto music. Fo sheezy. I came home went online and left an away message on sayin if you wanna cheer me up then call me. Johnny called me :) I loooove you Johnny. He made me feel a lot better. Someone told me that me and Johnny should hook up. I don't think Im his type. Well Meg, Aaron and Mikey are bein nice and comforting me :) I might stay home sick tomorrow because Im getting my mothers sickness I think and Im not allowed to wear my contacts (my mom wont let me) so maybe (this means mostlikely I will go to school) I will not be in school tomorrow. I think I will post pics of my fake tears (tears that came with no emotion, from my sick eyes..ew I just remembered I licked one of em.. tears are yummmmy but not when you are sick) because I will have to go on the other comp to get them though. Yeah thats all. Why am I only settling for what I want? Im pissing myself off. 6 fucked me over || I trusted you with my feelings

Just kiss me, dumbass.Give me the satisfaction of thinking you want me like I want you. [15 Sep 2003|10:55pm] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | Some ghetto music of my brothers in the backround fo sheezy ] New Layout. Its ok I guess, Brandi says she really likes it. Tell me if you do. Ahhhh my eyes feel so much better. Ive been making more and more friends at school.. Kelly L. John Kid with accent Ricardo Mahtab Jeff Jenna Mark Curtis Beecatcher and If theres more just remind me. Hanging out with Brian John Bret Steph and sometimes Ryan is shitloads of fun. Bret let me wear his axe yesterday and everyone else put it on and we all smelled soooooooooooo good! I LOVE axe. My sisters friend (and friends boyfriend, pinky!) just went to the store to get my sister some candy and her friend some candy and he was gonna get me a snickers and he came back and brought a huge bag full of fun size snickers. Im bringing them to school tomorrow. On thursday go to the coffee beenery for $5 to watch Second Vision play (Brian and Johns band) go here to see their site.. Second Vision Now I gotta go do my hw.. bye 2 fucked me over || I trusted you with my feelings

Tears are falling but not for you. [14 Sep 2003|03:38pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | Healthy Choice meal sizzling in the microwave ] AHHH eyes hurt like hell. I finally took my contacts out last night and put them back in this morning and they stung so incredibly bad. Me and Momma went to the mall and they stung SOOOOO bad its horrible!! My tears were coming down extremely fast and I couldnt control them. My eyes were sooooo bloodshot. So I take them out in the bathroom and they hurt even more! I get out of the bathroom and there is a breeze so it felt better. I could barely see anything. My eyes returned from the bloodshot state. This is what I got at the mall.. + like 6 pairs of undies :) + adorable kitty snow hat thingy with ears! + kitty wallet thats kickass + HOMECOMING DRESS (my mom didnt make me pay! im so surprised after her saying I would have to all this time! Now I have $30 saved up) Its black tubetob dress with hot pink polka dots :) - weird thing happened to my eyes so now Im wearing Kiks type of glasses..Ive had them for about 3 years. Ahhh Im going to relax now and watch a movie or sumthin. Call if you wanna hang out even though Im sick and wearing glasses and I have to wash all my makeup off now :(. So if I dont want you seeing me without makeup then dont come over haha. 4 fucked me over || I trusted you with my feelings

3rd day...practically 4th. YES [14 Sep 2003|01:34am] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | Sweet Emotions _-_ Aerosmith.. Beginning of Dazed and Confused ] Im dead tired. I got a new icon and Im too lazy to fix my journal to go with the colors. I got a backround picture already made and it kicks ass. I have a huge headache. I cant walk. I got up because my mom was going to take my blood pressure and I got up and my legs wouldnt work with me and one went in front of the other and I almost fell flat on my face. Mmmmm V8 splash + Rasberry vodka = yummy. Im going to keep this short. Yesterday.. Ahhhh what a day. Guy crushing on talks with me a lot today. I melt when he smiles at me ahh. Then later Kiki, Steph, Meg and I meet up with Johnny Tad and Aaron and at Wendys (AARON HAS A DATE FOR HOMECOMING WITH BRANDI. Im very happy) and we went to Steve's (his real names Mike but I used to call him Steve because I used to think that was his name..well anyway) work and waited for him to finish. So we went to consumers. Stupid bitches work there. That is all I have to say. I got cookies because Im sad. cookies = heavenly. I layed down and Kiki played with my hair. I lurve it. Then we went into a field and decided to play cowboys and indians. It was awesome. We ran at eachother and started slamming eachother to the ground and it was so fun. Then Mike came and he wrestled me and Meg. I pinned him down one time. Then he got me .. a couple times. haha. It was fun when he picked me up.. then he acted like he was eating me out. Ahh right. Wild sofomore. I like wild guys they are fun. Then we hung out in old empty houses and then went to Megs coldesack and some of us layed in eachothers laps. Steph played with my hair. PLAYING WITH HAIR JUST PLAIN ROCKS. I want a guy to play with my hair. If you do it perfect it makes me really horny. Today.. Paige and I met up with Aaron and Johnny at Wendys then met up with Steph Kiki and Meg like 5 minutes later. Then we hung out there then walked to Kikis house and Johnny and Aaron left before that. Then Mark came over and Paige and him were makin out the whole time it was cute (we got pics of them and a bunch of other pics that we all took, if Kiki is able to give them to me I will post them up here). We were supposed to hang out with Brandi but its kinda difficult I guess. But its for the best for today she says. We drank some but nobody got drunk. Then we went outside and hung out by the swingset and took pictures. Im gonna take out my contacts and watch dazed and confused. Im sleepy but not sleepy enough to miss this awesome movie. We own it but still. Its so great. Slater is so hot. Hes the coolest guy ever ahahaha. 2 fucked me over || I trusted you with my feelings

Starting from here, let's make a promise. [12 Sep 2003|03:36pm] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | Elmo pimp song woo yea ] This is Nisreen, you may not think shes pretty but I always have.. maybe it grows on you. I dunno. Here are just some pictures of the bitch. ( Nisreen is Arabic..it means white rose. Shes definetly a rose. Pretty but she hurts you. ) Well thats her. Today was such a good day. Of course it is, its perfect: I make it to the bus, I have time to put pics in my locker, its a rainy day (lots of +'s), and the guy im crushing on talked to me quite a bit and hung out with me :). Happy happy meeee! Well tonight I think Im hanging at Captain Stephos with Mark, Billy, Kiki, Meg and if you wanna come, theres no problem with that. :) Today I found out that Im not the only one that knows the Elmo pimps ho's song! Brian, John, and Ryan know it too :) Then I had it stuck in my head forever after that then Davy let me listen to the Clams have feelings too song and all the ghetto fabulous songs on his cd. :) Starting from here, let's make a promise You and me, let's just be honest We're gonna run, nothing can stop us Even the night that falls all around us Yep Im listening to Not gonna get us..but its the Russian version. Bayam. 4 fucked me over || I trusted you with my feelings

Im not going to change 'more' because of you. [11 Sep 2003|08:40pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | I wont ever be happy again {()} Bright Eyes ] Go to fataaron Mwahahah. Well last night I had a very sad dream. Im not going to explain it in very vivid detail because I dont believe all you anonymous fucks need to know too much about me. First of all download the song I wont ever be happy again by Bright Eyes. Listen to it and remember it for later references in my dream. Well two of my friends (that I dont know very well) (dont even ask if its you because im not saying) told me to stay away from them. They didnt wanna be around me at all. Then they told me how stupid I was and how they felt about me and wouldnt stop beating on me telling me how much they hate me blah blah blah. It hurt 10 times more than it should. Then this song came on. I wont ever be happy again by bright eyes. I wanted to cry so hard. It was unbelievable how I could get so sad, but I did. I was just about to bawl my eyes out, outside of my dream and inside it. Then my mom woke me up and started yelling at me because I left my CD playing over and over pretty loud the whole night (the song playing was the song by Bright Eyes) and I had to rush to get ready and made my mom late for her class, made it to advisory a 30 seconds before the bell rang, and forgot all my shit for Spanish because we had a test and thought we didnt need anything (half the test was a wrong paper so we only had to do one sheet of paper of the test. it was so easy). This morning was shit. People ignoring me, people yelling at me. I was so glad to see that the guy I have been crushing finally came up to me and we started talking. It was nice. Lots of people were nice to me in the end of the day. I liked it a lot. People actually care, they may not notice how good it makes me feel but it makes me happy. Then just recently Brandi told me Im one of her best friends and I cant get in the way of anything because shes never been mad at me. That made me feel really good. My sister put off a bunch of shit we had planned a week ago that me and her would do together and if my mom felt better she would join us. That really hit me hard. I find myself spending less and less time with my family. My mom said I should have known she would have done this and that she does this all the time and it was surprising I didnt see it coming. I got so angry. It may seem like I was overexaggerating but you dont know. My sister always puts of things. It reminds me too much of my Aunt. In case you dont know, I used to love my Aunt with everything I had. She was 22, young and so pretty. She was one of my Idols. She was a fuckhead who didnt know right from wrong, and when she did, she didnt care whether she hurt someone or not. I finally realized that. She would use people, lie to her own neice, forget about her neice, plan things with her neice then put it off last minute. I was going crazy. I would cry myself to sleep. I cant stand to think about her anymore. I even thought I should have done things that is so stupid to think when I look back. Ill put up pictures of her when I can find some. 4 fucked me over || I trusted you with my feelings

Blinded by the science [10 Sep 2003|08:50pm] [ mood | Flushed. I love that word. ] [ music | Show me how to live [(]) Audio Slave ] Wanna see my picture? Wanna? Wanna? Well Aaron, Crusty, and Brandi do so I'm gonna put it up here :) ( Preeeety preeeeety ) I have a weird bump on my hand that looks like the one on spidermans hand..YES!!! IM GONNA TURN INTO SPIDERMAN! Steph has a date for homecoming!!! Mike Hinkhouse, cute kid. Me and Brian are good at matchmaking people. Wo0t! HAHAHA Brandon asked Taryn to homecoming pretty sweet. Cute cute. Today was so funny! Steph and I were going to surprise Dave and Brian by jumping out around a corner and this girl ran past us and they started laughing so I told her instead to run past them and so she did and it was so funny, you just had to be there. Then we really had to pee. So we peed..upstairs. Then we saw pube haid and I said hey its pubic hair! and right as a teacher rounds the corner behind her she says "PUBERTY HEAD!!" Then she tries to run, trips on her flip flops and both fly off and the teacher starts yelling at her to stop yelling and yelling at us for not being somewhere in a MOVING OPTION. Oh god im laughing so hard right now. It was so funny. Well I have to go take a shower because I feel gross after workin out then callin her, buh bye. P.S. The basement is alllll mine tonight :) 2 fucked me over || I trusted you with my feelings

Cha Cha Cha [09 Sep 2003|08:26pm] [ mood | I feel like its my fault. ] [ music | Just what I needed ([]) The Cars ] Yesterday night me and Aaron had the funniest convo. ( Anything for condoms ) Im playing matchmaker with two people. Stephs relationship that I'm doing is a done deal. The other one (Im not sure if I should put her name) is really getting there. She said shes not as strong as me hahaha. As in she cant do things bravely as I can..? I guess its not that hard to relax around people when I dont like them like she does. Today I felt like my hips were going to be pulled off. It was not fun. Then it got better in Biology with Mr Kirkpatrick babalicious (ugh i used that word again.) and we did tests with termites. It was quite fun and for the rest of the day Paige and I decided to annoy the hell out of Lindsay by using a british accent the whole day. But I couldnt in art because there was actually a british girl in there and I didnt want it to seem like I was making fun of her. Yesterday I went to the YMCA with Paige and Mego. Meg said she was surprised that i was wearing a bright blue shirt. I liked the color but the shirt in general was a little funky but its all good. Lots of schtuff happened, I saw an ex boyfriend from 6th grade can you say hot HOT HOT Ill update more later, I gotta go now. Plus I got pics of my new hair. They are bad pics but its fine. Wheeeee Edit Posting pic..only a couple.. sorry ( Yeah, yeah, get it over with ) Tomorrow Im wearing pig tails. Because I'm in the mooooooooood. And my hair doesnt look really chunky when I do it now! yayyy. Yes yes well homecoming is stressing me out because I'm worrying about myself and friends, and situations are fucked. But everything should work out in the end...hopefully...sometimes it does. So nobody worry! Im eating mentos that me and my sister got yesterday and mint thingys that me and kid with accent (Mike Bentell [sp?]) got at lunch today. I like option, you get to roam the halls. At Neuqua they let you go wherever you want..you can sit by lockers, anywhere but at our school we gotta be in the lunch room, LMC or the Computer room...hmm...computer room..maybe tomorrow I will update the journal there. Hmmmmm..interesting. Yep thats all folks. EditEDIT sorry for editing again..its midnight and im bored so me and Mo took pics.. here ya go.. yeah I have nothing better to do so shutup. ( click here for a surprise ;) ) Yayyyy well hope you liked my millions of pics. Ugh. 5 fucked me over || I trusted you with my feelings

Wo0t. Wo0t. Wo0t. Wo0t. Hahaha Steph that was hiiiilarious [07 Sep 2003|01:34pm] [ mood | excited ] [ music | Shake hands with beef [()] Primus ] Last night I put my hair up in a ponytail. My hair actually is long enough! Woohoo. Well I put a grumpy bear Keychain sorta thingy necklace sorta thingy rapped around it..well I took pics so here it is.. ( Grumpy Bear Rocks the Cocks ) Yesterday I worked out then cleaned all day. At night Steph slept over and we watched the faculty and I FINALLY TOOK OUT MY CONTACTS!!!! YAYYY my eyes feel so good! but im so blind :( She said I looked like an owl with glasses or a camel because my hair was all funky it was perty funny. stephxxx Go to her journal if you wanna see all the other shit. Well my sister is going to redo my color in my hair (AH so excited) And I will scan pics of my hair later I guess. P.S. Kiki and Billy are going out. Thats a date for homecoming. P.S.S. Steph was gonna double peirce my ears last night but my sister convinced me to do it at the mall..she said she would take me so woohoo. (last time my ears were double peirced it was done by Kelly and they were crooked and infected haha probly because my brother was in the room) 4 fucked me over || I trusted you with my feelings

I like him again [06 Sep 2003|04:41pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Radio .:. Alkaline Trio ] Im in love.. with my journal As you can see, I changed everything about my journal. AND I LOVE IT. This is my favorite pictrure I have ever fucking taken. Nobody knew I was taking a picture when that was taken It tells you what these people do everyday Meg is off in space (I do it too haha), James is sleeping, Brandon and Mikey are talking and they look like brothers. I think Megan is so gorgeous, and shes so pretty in that pic!! God, all the guys in that pic are so hot. I LOVE IT! God that is the best picture ever. I dont like the font color. I have a feeling I will be changing it soon. Well guess what Brandon Lee is hot!! Me and Brandi were talking about that today. mmm so hot. Brandi has a new journal xdyinginsidex And I made it so perrrty. Last night i went to Only A Stage to watch Brians band play: Second Vision, and some other awesome bands play, Generation, Pete Jive, and Stomp Aberdeen (I LOVE YOU MIKEY I asked him to tell them to play Coffee Cake Break and they did! Woohooo! I loved it. I almost know all the words to that song. Everybody was there that night. everybody. Lots of peoples I saw my brother and his girlfriend. I approve of her, shes a really nice girl. I swear she makes my brother nicer, he was actually cool with me hanging out with his friends after that. I saw some of his friends, Jarod Mason, man that kid is the best I havent talked to him in forever. He gives the tightest strongest hugs ive ever had. Cool kid. Then I got introduced to Eric. Eric is cuuyuute. Aghh IM SUCH A GIRL! Then I saw Kyle Susnowski or whatever and he almost poked me in the eye and he rustled my hair. He was well maybe I shouldnt say. If he was drunk I would say it. haha it was funny though. After we watched Second Visoin, Stomp, and a tiny bit of Generation ( :( we missed Pete Jive), Dan S, Ryan W, Mike H, Pubic hair (hes cool), the guy who has immigrant stories, Steph, and I went to some food store thingy and bought food then hung out around there. And before we left we walked down the stores to East China Inn and we talked around there and sat on benches. Steph and I were cold so Steph was in the middle and Mike and me were on either side and we had our legs crossed on Stephs legs and Mike looked hilarious I couldnt stop laughin! Ahh. and they said I never laughed or smiled at anything. That was just tooo funny, I guess you had to see it. AHAHAHAA. He said I look like a 16 year old. Wow. That really made me surprised. Well I should be showering so goodbye. 6 fucked me over || I trusted you with my feelings

I am Meatwad. Meatwad am I. [04 Sep 2003|04:14pm] [ mood | indescribable ] [ music | The Marley Man .'. Don't Worry, Be Happy ] I havent been online in a while. Hott hott hot man. Gorgeous eyes. What a surprise. . Takin her cothes off fuckin nakey. HAHAH That and To the sweat drop down my balls. To all these bitches crawl. GREAT SONG. I love. Yesterday Steph ran up to me and jumped on me haha. Aaron calls that Erotic. Tit Cock Erotic Pussy Cooch Great words DAVY YOUR SO CUTE. He might have a date for hooooooomecoming :) --Im really smiling. And Paige has one. Definetly. And Lindsay has one. Fo sho. The guy that Steph likes...I think he likes her back and they should go together. Megan should talk to that guy we talked about, get to know him then use my advice-o. Kiki, START TALKING TO THAT HOTTIE! Jesus. Hes very fine and so are you, BeeHach, so go talk to him I babysat this little girl last night and got $20 bucks. It was for two hours. The baby woke up (the mom said that was really unusual) so I had to take care of two little girls and watched Snow White then my choice, Little Mermaid. I hate that movie. I only wanted to watch it cuz I liked 2 songs hehe. For some reason I'm extremely happy. Ugh Today in gym it was hell. Now Im mad. My teacher was like you! come here and be an example for this machine (im in physical fitness) and davy was like come on sarah! yea!! and im wearing the frutiest gym clothes, its so gay. Especially when there is a hottie in that class. Anyway, another person, this guy next to me had to do it too, but this guy works out, and I havent worked out like all summer. Because Im lazy. And we all looked at my heart rate and it said that the guy was more healthier and she was like who is healthier? and had everyone point to the guy. Ugh. It was kinda embarassing. I was talking to Meg about it in the locker room (WE HAVE THE SAME GYM PERIOD! CHA CHING) and she was outraged haha. Food, you rock. So does Kiks. Im Meatwad. I convinced a guy yesterday (in fact it was the guy who was healthier than me) in my gym period, that my name was Dave. I took Dave Stegemollers nametag that said "Hello, Im Dave" even though my Sarah nametag was right under it, and This is what happened.. Tony:Hi..your names Dave?..or Sarah? Me: Both (I was joking around but he took it seriously) Tony: Wow..how? Me: Sarah is my middle name but thats what people call me. My real name is Dave. Tony: Wow, thats pretty cool. So Im daydreaming and dazing off.. Tony: Dave..Dave! (I just remembered that I told him that was my name) Me: Yes..? Tony: I like your bracelet Me:Thanks When Roll call comes around the teacher calls Sarah Tony: Your name isnt Dave..is it? Me: Have you ever heard of a girl named Dave?.. Tony: I guess not I hate it when girls take guys names. Its really gay. Its for BOYS. Not you stupid sluts. Im turning into SUCH a girl. Jesus. I twist my hair. I play with my hair. I complain about my makeup and hair (oh god no). I have to redo my makeup, I laugh like one, Im starting to talk like a squeeky toy! AHHHHHHH NOOOOOOOOO. Maybe I'm exaggerating. Ive been drawing a heart into my skin. Take a look. ( And then she got bored ) I hate hearts. On Friday (tomorrow) I'm going to see Brian's band and Stomp Aberdeen play at Only A Stage for $5 at 7 o clock. Wanna come with Paige and I? Yeah, thats all. Oh by the way..Im happy again. Meatwad RULES P.S. TormentedxLove: Naps are evil. slob on a cob: Yeah gay naps slob on a cob: They aren't erotic TormentedxLove: Not. at. all. TormentedxLove: un-erotic slob on a cob: Totally Buh buh bayam. Naps suck 2 fucked me over || I trusted you with my feelings

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