| Listen To The Sea |
[27 Jun 2005|04:01pm] |
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Westlife - Loneliness Know Me By Name |
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Saturday
It ended up that way, just like a few of the previous nights. Is compromise such a hard thing to do? At least it's something worth trying. But I'm glad that at least we tried. =)
Sunday
Looking at the sun. Sitting on the beach. Watching couples walking their dogs. Listening to the sea. And talking on the phone. Everything seems, I don't know, pointless? (Of course there are the occasional eye candies =P)
I think after all these while of staying independently alone in a 4 room flat, all those events that happened in my life. I am starting to become a solitary creature.
I used to detest being alone.
Until you grow up one day and realise that being alone doesn't necessary means that you will feel lonely.
And even though you might be out with loads of people doesn't guarantee that you will be escape the vicious claws of loneliness.
I wonder and think a lot pointlessly, going round and round, and not coming up with any conclusion or solution that might be able to put my mind at peace at least for a while.
Am I becoming self-righteous and obnoxious?
It's really hard to judge one's self isn't it?
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One day I will want to complete a triathlon.
One day I will live with my spouse in a 3-room condo or flat and we'll have a dog and we'll go to the beach every week.
One day I want to bring my mum out for dinner at restaurants once a week
Someday… my prince will come.*glees*
P.S. and I actually doing something these days about all these “one day” and "some day" ok. =)
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