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[11 Aug 2003|01:36am] |
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The realist - Poison the Well |
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Yes kiddos, it's been quite a while. I'm well aware. I've been in Old Orchard Beach, Maine with my whores, Laura and Shayla. Had an AWESOME time there with them. I was supposed to only stay till Tuesday but ended up staying the whole week. Why, you ask? 1.) Shayla and Laura wanted me to stay 2.) I met someone up there and I just couldn't leave. While I was up there I met a really special whore named Chris. Oh, how I miss him. I really like him a lot. A LOT. A LOT. A LOT. A LOT. DO YOU GET MY POINT!? Good. Ok? Ok. Laura and I leave for NYC on Tuesday morning. I'm excited. It should be a good time. We plan on doing some shopping in the East Village. If you don't know where or what that is... you qualify to be put on my death list. I miss Chris. I'm such a dork.
I got my tickets to go to the MxPx, Dashboard, Vendetta Red, and Brand New show on September 6th. I'm getting the Drive-thru Invasion tour tickets sometime later when they actually go on sale. I'm smart.
I feel really bad about this other person, but I just can't feel the same and I don't even know what happened anyways. Nothing really happened with it and I just moved on.
Here's my confession of undying stupidness. I'm not good at just saying it and I'm better with words when it's in poetry form, so here it goes.....
Not knowing what to say or how to feel
Staring into your eyes wondering if this is real
I can’t tell if it means everything or nothing at all
I sit around everyday waiting for you to call
My eyes are sore from the tears I’ve cried
My heart alone and cold I believe has died
It hurts to picture your face inside my mind
Kissing you has caused our emotions to intertwine
I told myself I would not fall at all
Instead I fell so hard that only you broke my fall
How am I supposed to feel
Is everything I’m feeling even real?
Loving and breathing are so very similar
The feeling of loneliness so very familiar
Wishing you would show up and stay for so long
If only every ounce of strength I have would just hold on
I will never forget the memories and the time we spent
Even if it leaves my heart bruised and bent
Knowing my heart aches for you, it kills
It has been cut open and the blood spills
Everything I need is all in your eyes
Wasting away thinking about broken long goodbyes
As you told me how you felt, the look on your face
It meant so much that my heart explodes and wishes to be replaced
I would give anything just to hold you again
The time that passes does not help to mend
My heart it aches and longs to be yours
Forever and ever till it is torn
Knowing you feel different would stop my heart from beating
But only being with you again will stop my heart from bleeding
I don’t think you understand, I’m not the same when we’re not together
I only hope you come back, but this time, stay forever
Yeah, that was kind of written with a specific person in mind. *cough* Chris *cough* I miss him *cough*
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[11 Aug 2003|02:58pm] |
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Hands Down - Dashboard Confessional |
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Stellar - Incubus
Meet me in outer space
We could spend the night
Watch the earth come up
I've grown tired of that place
Won't you come with me?
We could start again
How do you do it?
Make me feel like I do
How do you do it?
It's better than I ever knew
Meet me in outer space
I will hold you close
If you're afraid of heights
I need you to see this place
It might be the only way
That I can show you how
It feels to be inside of you
How do you do it?
Make me feel like I do
How do you do it?
It's better than I ever knew
That song reminds me of someone......yeah.
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