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[06 May 2007|01:04am] |
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Porphyria%27s_Lover
!!! i just read the commentary below the poem, and re-read the poem with the commentary in mind. i also googled it a bit because i was intrigued (no, fascinated) and ugh, too late, i am freaking out now. it's too vivid, i can see her! dying-- but not quite! was it murder? everything about it is gruesome, bloody, perverse. the more i read it, the more plausible the asphyxia scenario seems. i'm quite terrified now, damn lurid 19th C poets. i don't really understand how kids who smoke hookah pipes get a high from the oxygen deprivation. i'm also beginning to wonder about famous supposed autoerotic strangulation deaths, e.g. micheal h. (former inxs frontman). do you actually know exactly when the 'high' ends and the dying begins, does your brain or heart stop first, and do you end on a 'high'? if your brain stops do the pain receptors/nerves fail to work and does that mean the actual moment of death is painless? i guess i'll never know-- not that i want to, anyway. the whole thing makes me feel sick in a way i can't explain.
now it's your turn, share with me your asphyxiation in literature scary find (or anything that's been scaring you lately).
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[06 May 2007|09:16pm] |
to do:
-russian revolution essay
-buy moisturizer, cinnamon powder, jell-o pudding mixes for making late-night tart fillings
-transfer thousands of songs from cds to ipod, re-add 50+ podshows i haven't caught up since post A levels
-deal with anger/temper/violence/rudeness issues :(
-spend a few minutes at rjc, and then head for rgs and hang around for a few hours
-book driving lessons
-buy shower scrub, more nail polish, this month's long-overdue nylon, frankie and Q mags, dressmaking wheel
-buy presents/make things for may kiddos and mothers' day
-go swimming soon
i'm also starting on dresses finally-- tight dresses, shift dresses, A-line, half A-line, balloony dresses, kimono dresses, etc- it's all so mindboggling, i had to draw all the different cuts on ohp sheets (based on a fixed basic dress template) and then i had to put all 12 sheets together and see how each cut differs from the neckline to the collars and shoulders, to the sleeves and the drop of the waist from the underarms, to the hips and the ends. it's really fun in a strange way. i've grown sick of sewing 30+ skirts, and pinning hundreds of box pleats and knife pleats and doing darts that it's exciting to move on to something new, i.e. dresses. i hardly wear skirts but i've recently been buying lots of dresses, and i have all sorts of ideas. i can't wait to be confident enough to experiment on real, expensive but pretty fabric i've been lusting over on the internet (:
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