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[26 Mar 2007|04:32am] |
4:32AM: insomnia is bad enough, but not wanting to fall asleep at all, and having no reason to wake up in the mornings any more, might be worse. i'm also having serious hunger pangs and am eating entire meals every two hours. and then i start panicking and turn on some music on my ipod and start dancing with the curtains drawn shut and only the dim orange wall-light turned on, with music so loud i can't really think. and i don't really dance, i just let my hair down and shake my head and basically gyrate ridiculously, vigorously and violently (!!) to the music, until i get dizzy after a couple of songs and decide to stop, breathless.
in the past four hours alone (i.e. after midnight), i had a tuna sandwich and a chicken ham and cheese sandwich, all crisp and pretty with the sandwich-maker crust, the way i like it. and then shortly afterwards i had half a can of button mushrooms, cut and sauteed with a bowl of homemade pasta sauce (!!) and lots of wensleydale cheese. i also had loads of custard biscuits and soya milk in between. the worst thing is that in a few hours i'm going to get hungry all over again, and i think it's true that sleep deprivation makes you ravenous, all the time.
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[26 Mar 2007|05:11pm] |
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i just want to sit here, and watch you undress.
(and i'm singing, over and over: this is love, this is love, what i'm feeling)
tomorrow i'm going to get started on my nus application before the boy i tutor comes over-- thank goodness the nus form doesn't require an essay. i'm quite surprised that the deadline hasn't passed, actually. and then hopefully on wednesday i'll be able to figure out the smu application and decide if i should apply.
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[26 Mar 2007|11:16pm] |
oh god. i just did the stupidest thing ever, which resulted in me choking on half a can of green tea and spewing it all out on my bedroom floor. even while i was choking, i couldn't stop laughing.
i'm stuffing myself with chilled greek yoghurt and an amazing green spinach/pine nut/feta cheese/paprika dip i made. i also have chicken rice chilli (the best in the world, ever, thanks to my maid) and everything goes together fabulously. i'm dipping french loaf slices into all three and it's so orgasmic, mmm. i'm not a fan of raw fruits and only eat them in cakes and desserts. i don't even like fruit juices, and i've never really understood the whole fruit-yoghurt thing. yoghurt, however, is excellent with salty things-- i like to crush loads of crispy seaweed into it, and crumbly cheese, and i dip foccacia and garlic bread, as well as chips and tacos in yoghurt. greek yoghurt is amazing; it has a much higher fat content than ordinary yogurt because it's highly concentrated, and tastes especially creamy-- think cheese, but with less of the saltiness. greek yoghurt tastes phenomenal with honey drizzled over and crushed mixed nuts rolled in. i've got bags of pistachios, brazil nuts and pine nuts, but unfortunately no honey. i've been looking for inexpensive cloudy honey but have only been able to find the clear, glue-like sort.
i want an apartment of my own, because i'd like to cook for people and have them over and just have my own kitchen and fridge and couch and everything. i'm also buying a dress online-- credit cards are the devil, but lately i've discovered that dresses are indispensable, and i need more of them. i'm just trying to decide which shade to pick-- (powder pink, plum, or chocolate?!?) instinctively i'd have picked plum, but perhaps the pink will be nicer on my tanned skin. it's quite expensive, and i don't want to regret buying it:
  
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