Zak's Blurty

Life Sucks... Tremendously
Ugh, everything seriously sucks.

I get such shit from Eddie. God, this is my fucking house too! Hell, it's more of my house than his. He never asks me if I think it's a good idea to fucking remove the carpet "to expose the finished wood flooring" underneath the fucking stairs. People can die on those stairs. And the dogs can't use them at all. He also doesn't ask me if I comfortable with absolute fucking asshole strangers walking through the office. GUESS WHAT?!?!?! I HATE ALL THE ABOVE! Can he at least replace the carpeting? No, because I have no say in anything. His exact words. Fuck them. Fuck everyone. My mother won't let us change anything or clean any crap out of this house. She wants to keep it as a shrine to my grandparents. WELL GUESS WHAT, BITCH? WHEN YOU FUCKING DIE, I'M GOING TO HAPPILY TRASH YOUR SHIT!

You know what they're doing? They're driving me away. Seriously, college is only three years away. And I plan on going to Vanderbilt, which is pretty damn far. After college, I am never coming back. I'm going to get my own cell phone and give it to select trustworthy people. And if I ever call Sky, it will be one someone else's phone. I will lose all fucking contact with them. They're all so fucking stupid. I can't stand it. I'm trapped in a fucking nightmare. They do this to me on purpose. My mother treats me like shit, hoping that I will have a low self-esteem so that way I can take care of her because I'll have a fear of the world. She also yells and screams at me until I do her work for her. HOW MUCH FUCKING WORK CAN SHE HAVE? She has no fucking job, she never cooks, never does laundry, never CLEANS, never changes out of her pajamas, never does anything. Yeah, I want to stay in this fucking town and end up like her. Bullshit. I'm getting the hell out of here. And I will never spend one minute in this house when I can drive, which is less than a year away. SO IN YOUR FACE, ASSHOLES!

I got fed up with the jackass family, so I left to Kathy, Carol, and Auntie's house. They like me there, and at least treat me like I'm human, and talk to me, which THEY don't do. I was also going to help set up for the tag sale tomorrow. Well, apparently they don't like me either. They're mad at me because my mother is such an asshole. Seriously. They got irritated by the mess the house is because my mother can't part with anything, the fucking pat rack. So I wasn't wanted there, either. Hell, what else is new? No one wants me.

Lately, I've been having a hearing change. I've been losing low frequency and becoming more sensitive to high frequency. And of course Emily MUST whistle in her fake soprano-ness. I can usually put up with it, but today I was so irritated I asked her to stop. And Emily decided to push her luck, of course. She said, "Why?" and I told her because it hurt my ears. Then she asked why again, and I explained my frequency situation. Then, being the asshole she is, she asked why again, just to get a rise out of me. I told her if she asked why again, she'd get a serious whacking. And she did. So I did. And she complained, and I got yelled at by Carol since, I'm in a crabby mood. I FUCKING WONDER WHY!

OMIGOD, I HATE PEOPLE!

Current Mood: pissed off
Current Music: "I'm On Fire" by Kenny Chesney