Saturday, April 17th, 2004

Time	Event
4:16p	I've basically wasted my first day of Spring Break... Well, I woke up at noon. I had "breakfast" at 1 p.m. which consisted of two pancakes grossly drowned in syrup. Where is my doggie when I need her? lol. I took a bubble bath for the first time in what seems like forever. I went in at 1:30 and I got out at 3:30, just in time for my aunt to tell me it was time to go to church... oops. Nothing too fascinating. I found some cute 101 Dalmation "tattoo" bandaids, so I have them all over my arms. Sky has one too, but he really does have a boo-boo from falling on the porch. I'm trying to write a song about an occurrence that happened yesterday. I think it's a piece of shit, but I think that about most of the songs I write. Speaking of shit, this room smells like cat shit. Eddie must be moving some crap from the old house in here. Eddie and my mother are so filthy and gross, it must be illegal to make us live in such a shithole. Oh well. Seeyah. Current Mood: blah Current Music: "Hands Down" by Dashboard Confessional (Comment on this)
9:56p	Realization Okay, I figured out what's wrong with me. (stop snickering) I have to stop idolizing the guys I like, because then they become unapproachable and therefore beyond human in my mind. Hence what has happened with me liking Alex. I can't ever be his friend. Hell, I can't even have a normal conversation with him. But I can idolize him. Doing that shit SUCKS! Stupid Allison. *slaps across face* I did that last year, but the guy I liked was the biggest asshole yet. And he proved not to be idolization-worthy. In fact, I hate him now. It took me over a year to figure that out. Stupid Allison. *slaps across face* Right now I'm listening to LeAnn Rimes, because I figure that if I can sing like her, I might have an ounce of talent. Not working. I suck. I can't sing. What the hell am I doing? Who am I fooling, I have absolutely no talent. WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING IN VOCAL CLASS AMONG THE MOST TALENTED PEOPLE IN MY SCHOOL?????!!!! Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: LeAnn Rimes (2 Comments | Comment on this)

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