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Saturday, April 10th, 2004
11:32 pm	Some news... I have a newfound love of everything Italian. (hehe) Music, dressing, food.... boys.... bella bella bella bella bella bella bella bella bella bella bella Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: "On the Night We Met" - Vocal Class (1 Comment |Comment on this)
11:06 pm	Kids (and people in general) Suck Oh God. You knew it was coming. The day of hell in which the Easter Egg Hunt takes place. I spent the whole fucking day surrounded by stupid people. No, I seriously mean this. Macho guys, don't feel like they're living up to their potential unless they are doing something pointless, but nonetheless doing SOMETHING. So, duh, my lawn is a swamp. So, duh, there is mud. So, duh, my brother is the worst-behaved kid ever and is going to play in that mud. DUH! These macho, useless men feel the need to do something about his playing in the mud. So they take *reflectors* and put them around the muddy area (the only one) and "string" up the mud so that way the kids won't go over there. STUPID ASSHOLES! THERE IS A FUCKING *REFLECTOR*. AKA IT *REFLECTS*. THEY WILL GO OVER THERE! AND THE STRING IS ABOVE THEIR HEADS! THEY CAN GO *UNDER*. This is the stupidity I was surrounded by all day. And guess what? The kids hung over there. Big crowd. I went to the Easter Vigil at St. Joseph's with my aunt. One and a half hours. But, believe it or not, it was actually quite good. Now I don't have to go tomorrow and I get to sleep in. I tried to get my brother all ready and happy for Easter. We set up a plate of carrotts for the Easter Bunny and stuff. He was really excited and wanted to go to bed so that way the Easter Bunny could come. but my mother and Eddie lacked enthusiasm in that, so he did too. Damn idiots. Okay. Seeyah. Current Mood: stressed Current Music: "The River" by Keith Urban. (look up the words. dirty song) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, April 9th, 2004
11:19 pm	ugh... I'm ridiculously tired. A while ago, in the process of moving computers and stuff, I lost some half-written songs. Well guess what?!?!?! I found them all! So I transferred them all to the new computer and am currently finishing them and adding them to my archives. ("archives". hehe.) Tomorrow at 10:30 is the easter egg hunt. I guess I gotta get up and take a shower really early so that way I can walk around half-naked without the intrusion of toddlers (besides my bugger). Yeah. That sucks. Little kids hanging around all day. Nosy "family and friends" (aka people i do not know) trying to make themselves at home in house by wandering around and crap. That sort of stuff irritates me like hell. And the ground is all wet since my yard is a swamp. So little spoiled brats get to run around an get dirty. Not cool. Well, I'm working on a present for Aaron that I hope will be ready for Monday so that way I can give it to him in class. I hope he likes it. I didn't work so hard on it. hehe. I'm going through my pictures and stuff trying to make it and stuff. This singer I'm listening to has an obnoxious high voice with an Aussie accent. grr. Skip. hehe. I'm mean. And bitchy too. Hell, I'll admit it. I think I'll play "Kokomo." Aleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeexxxxxxxxxxx........................... Shut up, brain. I'm sorry to those have read my useless rambling. You're as stupid as me. (Damn, why do I have to diss my fans like that?) Okay, Seeyah. Love ya. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: "Kokomo" by The Beach Boys (1 Comment |Comment on this)
11:10 pm	Fanlistings More fanlistings to add from my frequent fanlisting binges... hehe Fanlistings: http://www.scattered-horizons.net/bestfruit The Official Strawberries Fanlisting http://handsdown.rusticstarlight.net The "Hands Down" Fanlisting The "Hot in Herre" Fanlisting (i'll provide the link later) http://fan.englishsun.org/punkd The Punk'd Fanlisting http://wwwbm.whenirun.org The "Who Wouldn't Wanna Be Me" Fanlisting http://fans.beautiful-soul.net/life The "There Goes My Life" Fanlisting http://fan.ravishing.net/citd The "Crawling in the Dark" Fanlisting http://www.fatal-tragedy.net/scientist The Official "The Scientist" Fanlisting http://riverphoenix.so-rocks.com The Official River Phoenix Fanlisting (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 8th, 2004
4:10 pm	I was so bored that I took some internet quizzes, so I am... center> you are darkslateblue #483D8B Your dominant hue is blue, making you a good friend who people love and trust. You're good in social situations and want to fit in. Just be careful not to compromise who you are to make them happy. Your saturation level is medium - You're not the most decisive go-getter, but you can get a job done when it's required of you. You probably don't think the world can change for you and don't want to spend too much effort trying to force it. Your outlook on life can be bright or dark, depending on the situation. You are flexible and see things objectively. the spacefem.com html color quiz 64% Of The Internet Loves Me! I am loved by 64% of the population, including: 18546 people who love artistic people 12009 people who love quiz takers 12855 people who love punks In return, I love 69% of the population, including: 6001 fat people 17070 students 12400 happy people show the love at spacefem.com hehe. I need some mental help. Desperately. It must be the freedom I now experience. hehe. Current Mood: amused Current Music: "Rain on the Scarecrow" by John Mellencamp (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 7th, 2004
9:11 pm	I'm sick ... wah. blah. I didn't go to school today. And believe it or not, I wanted to. Wendesdays are the best because I have two hours of Math (a breeze), two hours of vocal (yAY!!), two hours of science (another breeze), and two hours of English (yet another breeze). Damn. My nose is in such pain. And I slept all day. I'm so bored. And I have a sore throat. And I knew I'd be a pointless waste in vocal, as I usually am. What the hell am I doing in that class surrounded by such talented people?! oh well........... We have a whole week off. What am I going to do? Sleep all day... probably. My brother is having his easter egg hunt on Saturday. Not cool. Toddlers traipsing around my house all fucking day. Not cool. Perfect time to lock myself in my room... oh wait... damn.. Eddie took my fucking door off! (do you sense some bitterness here?) You know, I really hope something good can come of me after high school to make up for all the shit I've been dealt. Like, maybe someone can care about me. Or I won't get yelled at by my mother when I'm forty for not coming over sponge-bathing her. I tell you, that's all she wants. Ruin Sky. Make him care after her. You know, maybe I don't even need to date Alex. It would just be nice to be his friend. I know that if I ever do become his friend, he'd be one of the best friends to have. I am so undeserving of him or even talking to him. Damn. Current Mood: apathetic Current Music: "Where Did They Go Lord?" by Elvis Presley (Comment on this)
8:55 pm	I went a little fanlisting crazy.... (hehe) Fanlistings: http://phanatic.org/british/ The Official British Accents Fanlisting http://afflatus.saraneth.net/peach/ The Official Peach Colour Fanlisting http://blink182.crushed-innocence.org The "What's My Age Again" Fanlisting http://benstiller.virtual-obsession.com/ The Official Ben Stiller Fanlisting http://www.flossie.us/Myne/NoSuchThing/ The Official "No Such Thing" Fanlisting http://www.flossie.us/Myne/KissMe/ The Official "Kiss Me" Fanlisting http://fan.modified.nu/rocksteady The Official "Hella Good" "Hey Baby" "Underneath It All" Fanlisting http://true-loyalty.com/songs/rockshow The Offical "The Rock Show" Fanlisting http://xo.forsaken-faith.org/attitude The Happy Bunny Fanlisting http://www.pure-thoughts.net/dtwirler/ttr The Official "The Thunder Rolls" Fanlisting http://jet.truefanatics.us The Official "Are You Gonna Be My Girl?" Fanlisting http://members.rogers.com/kiwi_fun/index2.htm The Official Kiwi Fanlisting Moved Fanlistings: http://www.the-road-between.net/fanlistings/divas The Official Lisa Marie @ Divas Fanlisting http://www.the-road-between.net/fanlistings/important The "Important" Fanlisting http://true-loyalty.com/musicians/mcgraw The Official Tim McGraw Fanlisting http://www.the-road-between.net/fanlistings/gone The "Gone" Fanlisting After searching through tons of fanlistings, I must say that I am very disappointed. There isn't one for fans of bass voices. I'm am so stupid. As though you were unaware. Seeyah. Current Mood: sick Current Music: "Playing For Keeps" - Elvis Presley (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 4th, 2004
12:50 am	My Personality Test Results Cattell's 16 Factor Test Results Warmth ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Intellect ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Emotional Stability |||||||||||| 38% Aggressiveness ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Liveliness |||||||||||||||||| 54% Dutifulness ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Social Assertiveness ||||||||||||||| 42% Sensitivity ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% Paranoia |||||||||||||||||| 58% Abstractness ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Introversion ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Anxiety ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Openmindedness ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Independence |||||||||||||||||| 54% Perfectionism ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Tension |||||||||||||||||| 58% Take Free 16pf based Personality Test personality tests by similarminds.com (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 3rd, 2004
12:38 am	OPENING NIGHT WAS TONIGHT! Hehe! YAY! Maddie was awesome. She truly is an angel and she's so beautiful! Believe it or not, I wasn't nervous at all. I felt sad, though, that Papa was unable to see my debut in a musical (despite my miniscule chorus part). He would've gotten a "kick" out of the show. We had a fairly good opening night. hehe. Alex had his hair dyed gray (his beautiful dark brown hair... ahhh!) and his skin was "painted" this horrible color that matched his lips. He looked horrible. But I love his eyes. Ahh, the world's most beautiful eyes are on that man, I tell you. And I so badly want to put eyeliner on him. *shut up* Shout out to: APRIL! YAY APRIL! SHE KISSED MIKE! YAY FOR APRIL! Current Mood: excited Current Music: All the songs in "Anything Goes" (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 30th, 2004
3:27 pm	grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr........ DAMN! Alex knows I like him. Some bitch told him. DAMN! FUCK! FUCK AARON! FUCK ERIN! FUCK GINA! (fuck heather) I can't believe he knows I like him. This sucks. This sucks about as much as Aaron and Erin. And the whole cast of "Anything Goes" knows I like him too. FUCK! And the musical is on Friday. DAMN! I am so pissed off. I swear to god I am never talking to Erin ever again. I can promise you all that much. FUCK ERIN! And there is not a soul on Earth that can protect Aaron when I beat the shit out of him. On the bright side, I like a Russian. And I'm not sure if I like Alex anymore after all this bullshit. But I can say that he has the most beautiful eyes I've ever seen. And he's so damn nice. I can't like him anymore. I don't want to screw him up and make him bad. I have the tendency to do that a lot. He deserves better. DAMN! Current Mood: bitchy Current Music: "When The Sun Goes Down" by Kenny Chesney (Comment on this)
Monday, March 29th, 2004
4:39 pm	Fanlistings More To Add To My List (the ones in quotes are songs) Fanlistings: http://fanlistings.virbeta.net/hershey Fan of Hershey Kisses (and ironically I JUST had one) http://brendan.somewhere-beautiful.org The Official Brendan Fraser Fanlisting http://www.kindatragic.org/midnight The "Quiet" Fanlisting http://fan.eleventyone.org/oldnavy The Official Old Navy Fanlisting http://www.bitchslap.org/lmp The Official "Nobody Noticed It" Fanlisting http://www.the-road-between.net/divas The Lisa Marie @ VH1 Divas Fanlisting http://levis.so-rocks.com The Official Levi's Fanlisting (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 27th, 2004
10:00 pm	Updating my current list of... FANLISTINGS! New Fanlistings: http://xo.forsaken-faith.org/fluffy "Fluffy Feet" The Slippers Fanlisting http://www.black-eyeliner.net/listings The Black Eyeliner Fanlisting Fanlisting Sites that Have Moved: http://www.true-loyalty.com/musicians/martina The Official Martina McBride Fanlisting http://true-loyalty.com/songs/nowornever The "It's Now or Never" Fanlisting http://collageon.org/jared The Official Jared Padalecki Fanlisting (Comment on this)
9:53 pm	YAY! It's been awhile, so I'll fill you in Yesterday was my brithday party. I had three friends over and we did some karaoke. It was fun! The musical is in a week. I'm so nervous. I'm doing horribly on the dancing, and I'm not sure if that can be fixed in a few days. And I'm bruised like hell. I don't know if it has to do with the musical and the dancing, but they are absolutely hideous. My brother tortured my friends last night. He "loves" them all now. And he keeps beating up my Elvis cardboard cutout. I think that is very mean of him. Very violent little kid. I just watched the Dashboard Confession MTV Unplugged Special. I like them a lot. My favorite song of theirs is probably "Hands Down." Also, I got my hair cut. It really isn't a big difference, but I like it a lot better now. After reading all the things I just wrote, I realize that I need a life. I'm really boring. Seeyah. Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: "Hands Down" by Dashboard Confessional (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 20th, 2004
12:49 pm	Hey, Guess What? MORE Fanlistings! Since I didn't say this earlier, Shout out to Maddie and Aaron. It's their ONE-YEAR anniversary! YAY for them! Fanlistings: http://www.ravensrealm.com/toby/ The Official Toby Keith Fanlisting http://twimc.diamond-road.net The Official "To Whom It May Concern" Fanlisting (Comment on this)
12:08 pm	It was my birthday on Thursday! Yay! I had an okay birthday. We had a mini party with my family, Sky being the center of attention, of course. It was bit of a last-minute thing. And then I had to go to rehearsal afterwards. Which is a good thing, because I needed to get away from THEM. (my family) Rehearsal was fun as usual. In one scene, these two lines like this (=) have to go to the other side of the stage set like this: (_ | (_ (going up) Bad illustration, but I am in the line that has to get through the people in the line next to me. And they're back up against the stairs and the boat in the set. So I get catapulted over people's shoulders so that way I'm out of their way and they can dance. how fun. (lack of caps suggests the opposite) I got a splinter. Ben tried to help me get it out, but he had to memorize his lines since he was going to be onstange any second. How nice of him. And my friends did the sweetest thing. They got a card for my birthday and had some of the cast sign it. And guess who's on there? You guessed it. hehe. He scribbled it and stuff, but it was still nice of him to take time out of his busy life to sign his name for three seconds. hehe. I'm crazy. Nothing else interesting I don't think.... OH! My birthday party is this Friday, I'm so excited! We get to karaoke! YAY! hehe. I love to sing, is it obvious? hehe. Seeyah. Current Mood: awake Current Music: The "Elvis 2nd To None" Cd (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 16th, 2004
7:40 pm	wow. I haven't written in here in forever. Apologies to my fan club. hehe. Well, the only reason I haven't updated much is because there's nothing to say. I'm not so fascinating as I'm sure you all believe I am. *wink* Well, the only interesting thing I can say is that Resha (my friend) wants to take me shopping. She's tall and skinny and has long flowy brown hair and sparkling brown eyes. I hate her. She's convinced we're the same size and stuff. Nope. Not even close. Well, anyways, she wants me to show more cleavage and skin in general. She's crazy. I'd get rotten fruit thrown at me, quite literally. She says maybe then Alex will like me. I've already been down that route, dressing trashy for a guy. I don't think I ever want to do that again. It was demeaning and self-degrading, and hell, if he's gonna like me, he'd better like me with my clothes on first. Current Mood: tired Current Music: "You Leave Me Weak" by Toby Keith (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, March 12th, 2004
8:00 pm	blah blah blah It's been a blah kinda day. Blah. Blah. Sorry for not keeping up lately. My cousin cannot sing. She proves this to me all the time. Yet she is under the mistaken impression she can. And she always wants me to hear her. The fact that one can't hear their horribly off-key notes is completely beyond my comprehension. It's horrible. Absolutely horrific. It's so bad I'm going to yell at her chorus teacher. Seriously. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr........... (anger for no apparent reason. i experience this frequently.) Bye Ya'll!!! Current Mood: irritated Current Music: "Constantly" by Cross Canadian Ragweed (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 9th, 2004
9:37 pm	hahahahahahaha.......... The most hilarious and ironic thing happened to me at rehearsal tonight. Okay, Alex's sister is Maddie, and she's like a real-life angel. She's also my friend. (which only makes my feelings for him worse. *bite lip*) So, I went to the place where Alex laid his head, and I found a hair of his there. It had streaks of blond in it and it was thick. And I'm staring at it, thinking of how I now have his dna. Alright Allison. (you have officially reached stalker level) And Maddie comes over with her boyfriend. He looks at me like I'm psycho because I'm admiring this strand like one would a winning lottery ticket. I can understand his concern. So Maddie looks at it, and she's like, "Hmm... it looks like a dog's." And, Maddie isn't a person I want to discuss my feelings for her brother with, so I'm trying to hold back crying and/or laughing. She's like, "It has streaks in it like a dog or cat would." And I'm still there, nodding while I try with all my might not to wet my pants. Then she *has* to examine it more closely. "Hey, you know, that looks like my brother's hair!" My friend and I are seriously trying not to laugh. I don't know if I denied it being his hair or what my reaction was, because it was such a horrifying moment, that I've blocked it from my memory. OMIGOD THAT WAS SO CLOSE!!!! It only happens to me. I swear. By the way, Alex is a purty S.O.B. Wait, I like his mommy. He's a purty.... something. Just know that he's purty. Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: "Rain on the Scarecrow" by John Mellencamp (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, March 8th, 2004
5:51 pm	argggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhh.... No one deserves to be happy. If I'm not happy, no one else should. grrr. I know that sounds rude and selfish, but damnit, why can't something good happen in my life?!?!?!!? Well, it's been another day in the boyfriend epidemic. I have a friend on the bus, who is a bit of a loner and I guess you could call her a nerd. But she's very nice and smart. GUESS WHAT?!?! She has a boyfriend, too!!! So I was booted from my seat. Seriously. Life sucks. I feel like a piece of shit, shit, shit, shit, shitty shit, shit, shit, shit....... Current Mood: depressed Current Music: "You Raise Me Up" by Josh Groban (4 Comments |Comment on this)
1:16 am	Fuck................. This is such fucking shit. I'm staying up ridiculously late to do a fucking assignment for vocal. We're supposed to complete these fucking lessons and have a fucking quiz tomorrow. Or actually today. Fuck. I don't know any of this shit. And it's all shit. What the fuck is a semitone, diatonic semi-tone, or a chromatic semi-tone? And what the fuck do I care? And I'm also supposed to think of fucking ideas for how the music should be written for our fucking "class song." WTF?! Do I look like a fucking songwriter to you? FUCK! The number of times I have said "Fuck" in this entry : 12 Count for "shit" : 2 Someday I'll bet I can beat that. Not now. Too fucking tired. Okay, the fuck count just went up to 13. Or maybe I should include the times I said fuck without meaning a swear by it. So My fuck count really is : 18 I'm too fucking retarded. Damn. Now up to 19. (1 Comment |Comment on this)