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[14 Mar 2005|12:17pm] |
oh the sadness. i have moved on in the world.
this may come as a shock, but i had to give in to the demands of my people.
~irokkbiotchhh
goodbye darling blurty. until we meet again*
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[09 Mar 2005|09:02am] |
bon. so. exciting news just on the horizon ladies and gentlemen. in no less than one week, the infamous bern (along with katie) will be on a plane from good old pa into mother london. from london, they will take another plane into la france, or more specifically, paris. thus, friday the 18th at 1pm, i will be on a train going from rennes to paris to meet them! aaand spend another weekend in pariss<3333. omgitsgonnabesoawesome. hah i haven't seen either of them in over six months and i knoww that bern's not gonna be able to resist the paris shopping (aka buying me things) so this will possibly be a really super freakin good weekend.
shit i'm late for tpl, but the bottom line is if you read this and love me, give bern a pack of light blue orbit or some mix cds to bring over for me! because duh, i said so. or if you reallyyy love me, maybe you'll send me something from the abercrombie spring line. maybe? okay deal.
peace out computer nerds*
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[01 Mar 2005|03:03pm] |
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welcome back from february vaca. that was pretty amaaazing. as we all know, i spend week 1 in pariss with the school and then for week 2 me and katie jetted off to italy to spend 3 days in a countryside villa (gorgeous) and then 3 days in roma. ohh yeahh. italy was like one of those ridiculous "finding yourself" trips for me. it's like.. i went there, and freakin everyone looked like i could be related to them. they're my peopleee. my homeland. it was so cool. and they all thought i was italian too. when i was with katie, they'd try and speak to us in english, but when i was alone, they'd always just assume i was italian. i learned a couple words, and now italian is my next language to conquer. considering i have french down pretty well at this point in time. yayyy. so anyway, i have a few paris pictures right now but just a few. just a.. sprinkling. until i get the rest. je ne veux pas travailler // je ne veux pas dejeuner // je veux seulement oublier // et puis. je. ( fume. )
yes. so those are my pictures. love them like you love me. and like i love vincent<3
and now a song, because i'm bored.
j'aimerais trouver les mots. les mots justes, les mots qu'il faut. mais tout les mots sont démodés. tu sais. alors j'écris, je cherche encore. les mots vrais, les mots plus forts. j'ai l'impression que je le trouverai jamais. c'est vrai, je séche comme tu vois. et toi.. la musique de tes mots s'impose, s'installe sur ce thème. je t'aime.<3
that song's by the best french band everrrr-- M. who is also my background. because he rules meee. and billie, his guitar. woopwooop.
okie i'm gonna go noww. life is goood byatch. byeee!*
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[10 Feb 2005|03:36pm] |
my nails currently match my journal layout. ohh how color coordinating. last night at like 1am after i finally finished all my homework, i sat at my desk and painted my nails black. then got a little scared of myself so i made hot pink polka dots on top. i wish i had a picture. they look fucking awesome. if i was a webcam whore i'd be able to do something about it.
oh yes, and leah painted her nails black first. we split the cost of the bottle of polish. because 4 euros is way too expensive for one person to pay all by themselves. aka WE'RE CHEAP.
urmm.. so i'm really tired. but i don't really care because the day after tomorrow we're going to paris and it's gonna be so much funn! we get to go out and we have so much free time and i just can't wait it's going to ruuule. especially because everyone's dying their hair. i'll be rooming with katie and leah and all three of us are dying our hair various colors. katie's going red. leah's going black. i'm going blueblack. cross your fingers on that one. i told vincent i was coloring my hair for the break and he made a terrible face and said fine, he's going to dye his hair red over the break. i told him if he dyes it red then i'm going to dye mine hot pink. then he made an even more horrible face and i think he changed his mind. not that he was serious in the first place.
okay i'm gonna go do stuff. if i don't write tomorrow.. see you in two weeks suckaa!*
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[09 Feb 2005|05:10pm] |
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okay i wanna go home from school so i'm gonna quick write this shiaat. today i had a smart day and i was somehow able to pay attention in all of my classes and got grades back that kicked your dog's ass. that's good point number one.
good point number two-- it's GORGEOUS outside today. it's spring here. or at least today it was. no jacket needed biatch. i went for a stroll during free periods. which lead to more good things..
good point number three-- on my stroll en ville i got to see a protest of hundreds of high school students! they were all screaming and playing drums and hold banners. they were protesting the french education system. they had a walk out today. politically informed high schoolers. amazing. i love france.
then it got late so i didn't have time to walk back to school before my next class and i had to take the bus. i get on the bus and..
good point number four-- monsieur nicolas is sitting there on the bus! ohh my goddd. he see's me and turns around and gives me a huge smile and i jumped up and down and ran over to him and we sat together and talked about life for 10 minutes until it was my stop. apparently, i'm in love with him. because when i got off the bus i was sooo giddy and i ran back to school and ran into pascal and i must've looked particularly happy because something compelled him to shake my hand and ask me how i'm doing. i told him ca va TROP bien parce qu'il fait beau aujourd'hui. he said he was completement d'accord avec moi. which is way rare. pascal? d'accord with something? surpriseee.
yeah and then there's good point number five-- it's mardi gras! so when i got back from school i went to the duche and had a celebratory cidre. even though it's against the rules. but oh well suck it i break rules on mardi gras. and yesterday it was bernie's 50-somethingth birthday so i said bon anniversaire and i think i made his mardi gras. i also said bon mardi gras and he asked where my costume was. i told him "plus tard" and went on my way.
then i came back to school and aced my math quiz and got out of school early.
and now i get to go home to my boyfriend and show him how well i did on my quiz of the european union. he'll be so proud. and then i'll kiss him.
because my life is fantastic. and now.. i'm gonna go and prance through the gorgeous springtime streets of rennes and go home to the lovely smalltown life that is pace. god god god i love my life and everythingg.
4 days til paris/italy!<33 PEACE suckaaa*
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[08 Feb 2005|08:18am] |
so saturday morning i leave for paris. the saturday after that i go to rome. i'll be gone for 2 weeks. i should be pretty psyched but.. two weeks. away from vincent. i honestly think i'm going to go into a depression of some sort. especially on valentine's day. ughhh.
i had a nightmare last night and i almost went to wake him up to comfort me back to sleep. but he has 2 4-hour dissertations today at school so i thought better of it. i didn't wanna fuck him up for like his hardest day of ever. he was so tired after studying last night that he barely had the energy to kiss me. it was sad. i had to remind him that in a few days i'd be gone so that he'd liven up a little. then he tried to speak to me in english. i had to yell at him not to. i hate when he speaks english. his god-given language is so gorgeous and he speaks english with that weird french/british accent. whateverr.
ah whatever i'm such a complainer. i gotta go to class. byeee!*
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[04 Feb 2005|05:05pm] |
new layout biatch. nice to know that i can live thousands of miles away and still get off my ass to make a pretty journal.
now i'm gonna waste my time and then go meet vincent. i make him speak to me in german. almost as sexy as when he's speaking french. but.. actually not quite at all. i got a little violent with him last night and now i have to make up for it. ho hum.
i'm speaking jibbering but i'm guessing it's just because i'm a woman in love. speaking of which, i told my mother that i fell in love. not exactly the reaction i was hoping for but.. you know. she's my mom, what can you expect. it's never what you think, ya knoww?
in other news.. 8 days until paris and italy!
life = goood son. effing. good. son.
i love you!*
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| back from sick and dying.. |
[03 Feb 2005|12:42pm] |
i had an awesomee sickness this weekend! fever and everything. i'm finally back to school today. wooop.
daisy just barked downstairs at the same time i wrote woop. i think it's because we're spiritually linked.
so when i came to france basically everyone and their mom told me the same thing. and that was don't fall in love. butt.. you know.. some things can't be helped. and ohh i'm so happy. so. so.
and i'm going to paris/italy in t-minus 9 days! YEAHH.
my life's going good. and now i'm going. good. bye!*
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| killing some time.. |
[26 Jan 2005|12:14pm] |
okay i never write anymore. i'm sorryy but as we all know my life is insane and.. wonderful.. and it's hard to fit this into my busy schedule. hah i sound like such a self-centered asshole. i'm not really like that, i swear. i just wanna say that i think i might have mono. becausee.. it makes perfect sense. and if i have mono i swear i'll die. because in 17 days i'm going to paris for a week, and then italy for a week. and i wanna be in perfect health for the beautiful italian men..
although i shouldn't be thinking about italian men because i don't wanna be a bitch.
do i make any sense? i'm writing about my life like i've been giving detailed updates every day when i haven't. so sorry, you'll just have to take what you can get i suppose.
anyway since the beginning of the year, vincent's always been suffering from this killer fatigue. he gets tired really early, and sleeps a lot. but the doctors didn't know what was wrong with him and figured he was just over-exerting himself. but now i am feeling super tired all the time.. i almost fell asleep doing my homework at 945 last night. maybe i'm just regular getting sick. but i get nautious when eating and always feel like vomiting and my throat hurts and plus my fatigue? all signs point to: mono. so maybe mono's been like harboring in vincent since the beginning of the year and just no one realized that's what it was? i dno. but if i come down with something as serious as that, i'm NOT gonna be happy. which would stink, because right now my happiness level is at an all time high.
i talked to ALL the girls yesterday, in various ways. i only talked to monica and meis by IMing their cell phones.. and then i came online after school and i talked to colette, shanny, sammy, ang, michelle.. it was possibly.. the coolest thing ever. except one other thing which is also really really cool and is controlling my miiiind so that i can't concentrate on ANYTHING and barely hold a conversation without totally going insane..
but yeah bottom line.. i have never felt this happy in my life, i lovedddd talking to the girls and i miss them so very much, and umm.. i better not be sick or someones gonna PAY.
ps - my life here is really adventurous and exciting and when im a mom i'm moving back to raise a bilingual family. the. end.
pps - i'm gonna go see lolita malgre moi today with marie-claire. wanna know what movie that is? mean girls. i'm gonna go see french mean girls. and i cantt waiiit.
okay now its time for lunch lubby you byeeee!*
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[19 Jan 2005|08:56am] |
i would just like to say..
i'm alive! i haven't written in forever and ever but i'll give a little list of exciting things.
1. christmas in normandy. i met the whole french fam. they rule.
2. new years in paris. amazinggg.
3. went to my first rennes soccer game. the fans.. are insane. it was somuchfun.
4. paris again for my school trip in less than a month.
5. directly after paris.. i'm off to italy with katie and then london and then back to rennes!
ohhh yeah suck it. my life is amazing. PEACE.
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[17 Dec 2004|12:34pm] |
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me + katie + one week ago today + digital camera + city of rennes = ( yay! )
oh crayap time for listening to the carol of the bells? i gotta go. love you!*
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| birthday aftermath |
[14 Dec 2004|04:34pm] |
yeah not really considering my birthday was a week ago.. but it was the last time i wrote so i suppose this is the closest thing to an aftermath we're going to get. anyway, the only reason i'm writing is so i can post this david sedaris story for all to read before i have to return his book to the franco-american institute. i don't care if you don't like it. although if you have the patience to read it all, i can guarantee you will laugh out loud at least once, and if you don't, you are a terrible human being. i'll give a little setup. david sedaris is a 41-year old many i believe at the point in time of this story. he's very openly homosexual, although i don't think that comes up in this particular story. his significant other, hugh, is fluent in french, and so the pair go off to live in paris for a few years when david is, as i have just mentioned, 41 years old. being okay at french, david decided to enroll in a french class for adults, so that he'll eventually gain fluency. here's an average day in his class:
( lisez bien. )
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[08 Dec 2004|08:37am] |
so yeah. today's my birthday. it's a kind of interesting experience this year considering i'm not so sure that anyone in my house knows what today actually is. they all already got me presents, and gave them to me this past weekend, thus i think the actual day of my birth has been forgotten. because you know, once the presents are given that's usually a whole weight of stress off your shoulders and one tends to forget completely about the birthday from that point on, until the next year. no matter though, it's kind of fun just celebrating with myself. i wore clothes that i really like today, because that's important. i had pain au chocolat from the best boulangerie in the city for my birthday breakfast. i read the newest gossip girl in one night last night, and i finished right at midnight, so i was the first to wish myself a happy birthday. it was fun. and then i thought long and hard about the first word i wanted to come out of my mouth, kind of a word to start the newest year of my life on. and it was actually quite difficult. seriously, try to think of one word that can encompass everything you want to do for yourself within the next year.
perfect? no, too much pressure, too psychotic.
better? no, that implies that last year was lacking, and i'd constantly be comparing everything to the past.
crazy? no, it's hectic enough already.
live? no. too boring.
but yes i did finally settle on a word. i think it was a good choice. and no, you do not get to find out.
the year of 17 is a rather nice milestone though. it's my last year of being a kid. last year of my minor criminal record. they get exponged at the age of 18. first year of rated r movies. the year that i will hopefully finally get my license. the year that i will become fluent in french. or highly proficient, i should say. it's also the age that i would always pretend to be when i was little and my friends and i would play house. yes, house. you know you played it too. but i'd always beg to be the 17 year old daughter. maybe it's because the number 7 itself is so appealing. maybe it's because i figured that all 17 year-olds were officially cool. which i did. i mean, clueless kind of gave me that picture.
but yes. a new year, a new chapter. i was pretty sure this would be the worst birthday ever. i'm sick, my mom hates me, not very many people here know that it's my birthday, and i'm not so sure anyone at home knows either. but i don't know, i'm feeling rather calm. and happy. i'll call it content.
je suis contente.
and now i have class. goodbyee*
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| general announcement |
[06 Dec 2004|03:15pm] |
i do not know what bernadette has been up to but let it be known that my email is currently not working. i don't know why, i don't know how, i just know that i'm completely cut off from civilization.
and it sucks.
the good news is shannah sent me a birthday/christmas package that was big enough to contain a human. so that basically made my YEAR although i can't open the christmas half until, of course, christmas. i love her. i haven't talked to her in forever. blame my fucked up email.
yesterday evening was christmas present exchange avec ma famille française<3. c'était vachement incroyable et je les adore trop. pour toujours. et toujours. et toujours. okay sorry, je vais parler en anglais maintenant. ahh i can't help the fact that the french is overtaking my braiin. c'est pas ma faute.. ANYWAY. my brothers bought me three new crazyy ass bracelets which are now added on top of my daily usuals. so now i wear seven. on the same wrist. my fam thinks i'm totally nuts but i think they're also intrigued by it. yeah and they got me possibly the frenchest sweater of all time. i call it a marie-anne after my lit teacher. and they got me chocolate. and isabelle painted me a picture which is AWESOME. i wish i could scan it, it's so pretty. i love it. but best of all i got a cd of the children of pacé singing church songs. does life get any better? i'm thinking not.
and also it's my birthday wednesdayyyy! yeahhyeahh aka le jour après demain SALOPE.
okay this is abrupt but i'm gonna go byeee*
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[01 Dec 2004|08:46am] |
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okay so i have like 10 minutes before the next class gets out, and since it's physically impossible for me to do like 5 math assignments in that allotted period of time, i figure i'll just write here. since that never happens.
ummm yeah so school is ridiculously busy so i've turned into like a zombie. and i used to go to bed at like 10 every night and now i'm going to bed at like 12. which isn't bad because i'd wake up 2 hours earlier in the mornings last year and still go to bed at 12 but i never did homework ever last year so it all balanced out. ugh enough about school.
my birthday's in a week from to day. aka i will be 17. hah i'm really young. sweet. and i can't drive. double sweet. and i have umm.. 4 days to buy gifts for my french fam? there's 6 people to buy gifts for. and as of right now, i've bought 2. awesomeee.
i would just like to say to everyone at home that i'm not enjoying anything i'm hearing about that place. and everyone better shove their problems/bad attitudes up their asses before i get back or i will seriously freak a shit on someone. that being said, fucking follow my orders. jesus.
umm yeah i don't know, there's nothing i can say about my life right now. besides the billion pounds of school work, i like it very much. it's getting cold, and dark early, so i have fun walking around the city in weather like that. it makes me feel more like a city person. although i don't know why. andd today i'm going to the fine arts museum for art history after the last class at 1230. yay.
okay i suck at this. my eyes are tired and i'm still a little cold from my commute into town. it's freeeezing outside today. but i like it. and hate it. love hate. you know.
anddd.. i'm gonna go.*
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[26 Nov 2004|01:41pm] |
i just realized that it's black friday at home. that's such craaaappp. i was so chill about missing thanksgiving and everything, but now i'm like super sad at missing black friday. black friday and the day after christmas were like the besttt mall days everrr.
yeah so this is a really deep entry.
i don't know where i'm going with this because i have class in like 2 minutes. i just wanted to bitch about my black friday sadness. bitchhhbitchhhhbitchhh.
whatever tonight's gonna be fun. bowling with the veritables jeunes francaises. i roulez.
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[19 Nov 2004|01:05pm] |
hey it's meee. guys i'm in such a good mood you know whyy?! because it's fridaayyy.
yeah i think this entry was basically an excuse for me to use that picture.. i honestly have no idea what that contraption is though.
so wanna hear something awesome? i just found out that i'll be celebrating the exchanging gifts aspect of christmas with my french family on december 6th which is so fuckingg soon and theres a million freaking people to buy presents for. oh yeah and i'm poor because the dollar is worth like 70 euro cents. it's pretty awesomee..
things that are awesome about the home front:
1. the new water bottle rule
2. male cheerleaders
3. sephora in the plaza
but that's it. everything else sucks especially the fact that people are getting their licenses because as everyone knows and loves to make fun of me for, i won't have mine until i'm eight fucking teen. yeah sweet. i'd do a list of everything that's awesome about here but i don't have that kind of time on my hands. we're going on another trip tomorrow sooo i will most likely have photos posted within the next week or somethaang.
okay i'm gonna peace out. this was the most i wrote about my life in like a year and a halff. and ps my birthdaays soon.. although i'm not one of those obnoxious people who knows how many days there are until my actual daay.. but that's only because i don't have a calender near me to count. umm. yeah.
on that note i'm peaaaceing. have a good weekendd although chances are it'll SUCK compared to mine. biaatch*
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[12 Nov 2004|03:02pm] |
okay i have pictures so therefore i don't have to talk about my lifee. woopwooop.
um yeah so okay ( clickkk )
okay that's it for todaaayy. peace out childrennn*
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[09 Nov 2004|04:22pm] |
i don't know when the last time i wrote was but.
i really don't have that much to say i'm just doing this because i do know SOME people still read it and its the one time that i don't feel obnoxious writing about my life. i hate writing all about me in the letters i write people because i'd rather know what THEY'RE up to. tu connais? fucking language.
i had a dream that i was home and went to cheerleading practice and nobody noticed me, and then when they did, they thought they were going insane. by the way, i wish i had a license that i could go home to. im sooo screwed with that.
shoot i just tried to find some pictures to paste in here so that i didn't have to talk about my life. pictures are so much easier.
hey i found some. OC SHOREE! ( especially for colette )
PEEEEEEEEEEACEEEEEEEEE. i'm not obnoxious i swear.
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