i am not indie at all!




How indie are you? test by ridethefader

Who are you trying to fool? Just because you own a couple of Weezer albums
doesn't mean that you're uberindie. Indie people don't hear about cutting edge
new bands from MTV. At least the ignorant don't know what they're missing...

Date:	2004-12-16 19:10
Subject:	Dial 6 For Murder
Security:	Public
Mood:	full

I just ate a whole pizza. Now I feel sick. This always happens. I am that guy from SE7EN that eats hisself to death. Well, maybe not that bad, but still. I'm surprised that I could eat the whole thing this time, actually, because recently I have been eating a lot less, and I could tell that my stomache had shrunk. Proof: I could only eat two tacos today instead of my normal three! :P I get three tacos cuz that's the #4 at Taco Bell. I like ordering by number. I guess it's similar to painting by number, which I also loved, as a child.

So I had my first final today. It was in my french phonetics class. I think it went pretty well. I took the first part, the written part, and that was fine. Then there was the oral part (stop giggling, you fags) and I parled french like there was no demain! I actually spoke really fast, which was kinda scary cuz the faster you go, the greater the chances of a train wreck. But I did it!

I'm pissed that there's nothing on tonight except The Apprentice, so now I'm left to my own devices. I should be studying tonight actually, but I don't wanna. I have another exam tomorrow in my Irish history class. I'm gonna get an F in the class regardless of how well I do on the final anyway, so it seems a bit pointless to put any effort into it.

I had a phone interview for a job working for an associate dean in the school of education. It's a fulltime state job, which would be so nice right now. State benefits are really good. And the pay is of course better. Yes, I would have to drop down to part-time at school, but I'm doing so bad right now that I think it would be a good idea for me to cut back and just take one class at a time for a while and bring up my GPA. Besides, they're gonna suspend my financial aid anyway. Go me.

*sigh*

I'm trying not to think about it too much cuz I just don't need to go crazy over it. I'll deal with it, and all will be well.

*sigh*

Alright, I'm gonna putz around the internet for a while. Salut!

Do any of you guys remember the show Kidd Video from the 1980's? I LOVED THIS SHOW!!!

Date:	2004-12-15 13:36
Subject:	Typing with little sticks of ice
Security:	Public
Mood:	cold
Music:	The Weakerthans - Everything Must Go

COLD! I don't think there's any heat in my office. My poor little fingers are clacking away on the keyboard like a dog's toenails on a tile floor. I swear.

So, today is the 15th. That means 15 more days to my birthday. Meh. I'm not all that excited, to tell you the truth. As I edge ever closer to 30, I just care less and less about birthdays. I don't think I'm afraid of getting older, but I don't want to race towards it either. 30 sounds too grown up. I am nowhere near having the stability that I imagine comes with being that old. I guess I shouldn't think about that stuff yet since I'm only turning 27. I suppose a lot could happen in those 3 years.

Date:	2004-12-13 07:57
Subject:	Dear Monday: Fuck You!
Security:	Public
Mood:	sleepy
Music:	Destiny's Child - Lose My Breath

I've been awake since 3:30 this morning. It just isn't fair. My mind was racing all night, just cuz. Now I'm just totally off today. First the not sleeping, then, I washed myself in the wrong order in the shower. I stopped in mid-scrub and thought "what the fuck am i doing?!" I know that if I mess up in the shower that the day will not go well. And true enough, I dropped my toast. Then, I got water splashed on my shirt. Then, as I was on the bus going to work, I noticed that my coffee mug was leaking. Just a very, very bad morning so far, and it's only 8:00.

On a better, happier note, I have just learned that Bright Eyes is coming to Milwaukee on January 16th. BRIGHT EYES. CONOR. YUMMMMMMM!!! Now I must decide: dare I go see him, and risk the chance of a spontaneous ejaculation? If he sings "Lover I Don't Have To Love" I will have no choice but to cum in my pants.

Anyway.....

Saturday I was a lazy piece of shit. I sat on the couch all day. I watched TV Land's 100 Most Memorable TV Moments. It was quite entertaining, although I'm not sure I agree that 9/11 is the most memorable TV moment. My first choice would have been their #2, the Moon landing. But anyway, I watched all of that, then I finally showered at 4pm. I was gonna go out later that night, but I was feeling really anti-social, so I stayed home and watched more TV. Good times.

Sunday I was a little more productive, and much more clean. I went over to Amy's in the afternoon and chatted with her for a bit. Then I went home and finally finished decorating the xmas tree.

Well, tomorrow is the last day of classes. Then I have finals Thursday and Friday, and Monday and Tuesday next week. I need this to be over, even though I know the end result of this semester is going to be disasterous. I don't care at this point, I just need to put it behind me now.

I hope you all have a better Monday than me. I'm sure I will have more bad things happen to me today. I will keep you all posted!

I am SO over the Western Hemisphere...

Date:	2004-12-07 11:46
Subject:	Etymology fun!
Security:	Public
Mood:	nerdy

Words and language have always fascinated me, and I thought I'd share a few links that have some great facts of a useless nature with you all. Enjoy!

Link 1

Link 2

Link 3

Date:	2004-12-04 22:44
Subject:	What's up, Doc?
Security:	Public
Mood:	good
Music:	Stars

I just got home from my second chorus performance this for this weekend. Two more to go. It's exhausting, but it's fun for the most part.

The concert that is going on this weekend is the annual Holiday Pops that the Milwaukee Symphony does every year, and every year it is conducted by Doc Severinsen. Yes, the same Doc that was Johnny Carson's bandleader on the Tonight Show. Whoopty-doo! He actually is a very fun and eneretic guy, and he's really amazing because he's 77 years old now. I hope I'm still that full of life at 77. Or dead. I can't decide what would be better...

Well after this weekend, there is one full week of school left, then two more days the following week. Then finals. I am really looking forward to things be done, even though I am dreading the eventual outcome of this semester. Up to this point I've still been too busy to stop and think about what will happen once my grades are turned in.

*sigh*

Au revoir et bonne nuit!

Date:	2004-12-01 15:55
Subject:	Worst. Week. Ever.
Security:	Public
Mood:	depressed

Paper due: 20 minutes ago.

Chorus performance this coming weekend: sapping up any free time I have.

Money: gone...mostly to starbucks and booze.

Food: gone...left only with various forms of pasta.

School: hmm...it'll be a miracle if I'm allowed to return next semester.

French: parlez who?

*cry*

Date:	2004-11-19 12:56
Subject:	WOW!
Security:	Public
Mood:	silly
Music:	The Magnetic Fields - You And Me And The Moon

HOLY SHIT. This fucking website just made my day.

Date:	2004-11-19 09:22
Subject:	A Hoy Hoy!
Security:	Public
Mood:	mellow
Music:	Liz Phair - Why Can't I?

Hello everyone! Happy Friday!

I think I may be a bit on the cranky/bitchy side today. I kinda reamed someone out who commented anonymously in one of my posts from yesterday. If you have something to say, say it to my face! :P

I would now like to share a few links with you all!

First, to make you laugh: this is awesome! Make sure you have the sound on.

Next, I invite you all to check out my Yahoo photo album! I only have about a dozen pics so far, but I have been shutter-happy with my phone lately, so I’m sure there will be more as time progresses.

I’m going out again tonight, and my goal is to not throw up...or, to at least wait till I get home to throw up. No more puking in bar bathrooms for me!

Tomorrow is my gay birthday. I came out seven years ago tomorrow. Woo hoo! I hope you all are sending me a present. You may need to FedEx it if you haven't sent it yet...

Date:	2004-11-18 15:25
Subject:	Have you met Mike Rotch?
Security:	Public
Mood:	anxious
Music:	10,000 Maniacs - Noah's Dove (Unplugged)

So now I'm just sitting here, waiting, because I was screwed up as to what day it was and thought I had a class at 3:30...but it's Thursday, so my class isn't until 4:00. So now I have some time to kill. The anxiety is killing me!

I hate when people hand me things to do when I only have 15 minutes left of work. I'm just not gonna do it. Fuck it. It's only copying anyway, not a big deal.

I cannot fucking wait for Harry Potter to come out on DVD next week! Speaking of movies, I finally saw Shrek 2 last weekend. OMG it was so much better than the first one! The best parts of the movie are all the innuendos that kids would never get. HA! Take that you fucking little kids!

Hm...I'm a little on the mean side today. I wonder why that is? Nothing bad has happened to me today. I guess it's one of those mysteries of life that I just shouldn't question.

Okay, it's time to go to class now. French Phonetics. It sounds really boring, but the prof is cool, so it's okay. A wonderful evening to all!

Date:	2004-11-17 09:36
Subject:	Scone of death
Security:	Public
Mood:	sick
Music:	The Music - Welcome to the North

I bough a scone, but I can't eat it. The thought of it is turning my stomach. I don't even know why I buy scones cuz they're really not that good. They must be the dryest food on the planet. It's like eating sand...with blueberries.

I'm about to go to my French Poetry and Fiction class. I hate the class so much. HATE. Poetry is supposed to be interpretive, and yet the professor still feels like he has the right to tell us our impressions are wrong. What the fuck. And, has anyone French written anything since the 1800's? GRRRRRR!

Date:	2004-11-17 08:50
Subject:	No subject
Security:	Public
Mood:	indifferent
Music:	Maria Mena - My Lullaby

I have been sitting here thinking about what I should write about, but I can't think of anything interesting. I don't like going so long without writing anything in here, but when I do write stuff it just feels so unimportant. But of course, I am always harder on myself than others may be. Someone out there may love the pointless things I write here. Even if that's true, it doesn't matter to me at all.

I think this is indicative of my mood lately. Perhaps it's seasonal, or school related, but again I've been feeling sorta depressed lately. It comes and goes, good days and bad days. But the bad days are really bad. I'm gonna go see a psychologist again, but I hated it so much last time. I don't like that they try to get you to do things to "better yourself". The last time I saw my counselor I had to set small goals for myself and then try to achieve them, and that in turn would help me feel better. I lied about achieving those goals, because in fact I had done nothing, but I couldn't tell the doctor that. Then I just stopped going.

I'm also going to see a psychiatrist again...he/she will probably give me pills again. I was on Lexapro and Wellbutrin last time...but then I stopped taking them after 8 months or so. I didn't wanna be one of those people that needs pills to function properly...but maybe I do. I still don't like thinking about it. Ugh.

I used to be more than okay having no idea where my life was going. Now it's all I can think about. It's probably due to age and knowing that I can't really just be a student forever. As I get closer to (possibly) graduating, the urge to not finish gets stronger. I remember feeling the same way at the end of high school too. I know at this point that I just need to get Bachelor's in something. Grrr, this is all just so frustrating and annoying. Why am I not a trust-fund baby, without a care in the world?

Well would you look at that! It seems I did find something to write about after all.

Date:	2004-11-15 14:10
Subject:	Ouchies
Security:	Public
Mood:	nauseated
Music:	Sprites - Acting Like We Quit

Ugh...

Here I am again trying to overcome a bad night of drinking. What's different this time is that I drank on Saturday night, and now it's Monday and I still feel like shit.

I spent all day Sunday laying on the couch watching TCM. For some reason, I could not turn off TCM. I watched "My Fair Lady", and I watched "Vertigo"...there was another movie in between those two, but I can't remember what it was for the life of me. Oh well, it doesn't matter. All I remember feeling about that afternoon is that those movies made me angry. I like "My Fair Lady" solely for seeing Audrey Hepburn wearing those fabulous clothes...but Rex Harrison makes me want to slit my wrists. He doesn't sing EVER in the entire movie, but just speaks his way through the songs...badly. And he is SO obviously in love with Colonel Pickering. "Why can't a woman be more like a man?" Only a fag would say that. And the movie is about 2 hours longer than it really needs to be. But like I said, I couldn't turn of TCM.

Then there was "Vertigo". Something about a hangover and Alfred Hitchcock just do not mix well. I wanted Jimmy Stewart to die. So much. And again, the movie went on for much longer than it needed to.

So that was my weekend. Huzzah.

I am eternally upset about the election, but there were a couple of positive things I forgot to mention as I got carried away in my rant:

Wisconsin has elected its first black Congresswoman, Gwen Moore. GO GWEN!

Barack Obama is the hottest piece of ass to walk the halls of Congress since Russ Feingold first came along.

Date:	2004-11-05 08:11
Subject:	What the fuck
Security:	Public
Mood:	angry

America, what the fuck is wrong with you.

You stupid sons of bitches.

Do you fucking realize what you've done? Did you know that Hitler was also elected? Makes you fucking think, doesn't it. Or, apparently not. As an American, I should NEVER be in fear of my own life, but for the first time, I am.

And what the FUCK is with the whole "voting on the basis of religion" thing that so many of you stupid fucking assholes do? If a politician in any other industrialized nation on the PLANET ever ran on religion, they'd NEVER get elected. SEPARATION OF CHURCH AND STATE! And I don't give a FUCK what your religious beliefs are, you have NO FUCKING RIGHT to impose those beliefs on anyone else. Does Bush really think overturning Rowe v. Wade will actually stop abortions? Do any of you? If you would have even stopped for one second to actually find out that in the long run, Kerry would have better on decreasing abortions, well then maybe things would be different. Kerry doesn't believe in abortion, because he is a Christian. But he is smart enough to realize that he has no right to tell that to anyone else, let alone try to pass laws about it.

And gay marriage. Here, both candidates sucked. But Bush, after the election, actually said that he would like to appoint judges that will stop extending rights to homosexuals. HE FUCKING SAID THIS. And when he was governor of Texas, during that trial that decided that homosexuals do indeed have the right to privacy, HE CAME OUT AGAINST THAT RULING!

I just want to die. I think it wouuld be less painful than having to live in this bastion of hate and stupidity for another 4 years.

If this journal entry offends and of you...I don't give a fuck! I'm sick and tired of trying to please everyone.

I have been so busy. SO busy. Work. School. Chorus. School.

I have piles of work to do, and I haven't had any time to make a dent in it.

I miss you all, and hopefully, now that my first performance with the Chorus is out of the way, I'll be able to get caught up, and start updating this thing a bit more regularly.

Take care everyone!

Date:	2004-09-08 08:06
Subject:	Today's anectdote
Security:	Public
Mood:	working
Music:	Super Furry Animals - Do Or Die

I swear to God, Robert Goulet was on my bus this morning.

What is with the recent trend of pseudo-punks dressing like they just stepped out of The Clash's "London Calling" video? I might understand it if we were actually in the UK or something, but I'm in Milwaukee. Milwaukee. Whatever...