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[01 May 2003|11:20am] |
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t.A.T.u. - How Soon Is Now? |
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I didn't just take her side because she's my girlfriend. I'll make my own choices and I'll do what I want. I'm not the girl back in high school where I let people walk over me and make descisions for me. Buffy, I don't hate you. I could never. You're my best friend, always. It's just... the end's coming. We don't have time to be reckless, we don't have time for anything. That especially includes going out and possibly killing the potentials! *bites her lip* I'm sorry.
Who knows what direction Faith'll take us in. We don't have much of a choice. But if we kept doing what we were... soon enough, we'd all be dead. Fast. I can't afford to lose anyone else. And Xand.. *gives a half smile* you know I love you. I promise.. card games soon, ok?
I want to cry. But I can't. The people I love won't let me, and it's not like crying will do anything right now. Everyday feels almost the same. I feel that maybe I'm getting powerless. I couldn't even keep my concentration on the damn detective! How am I going to help fight this.. thing. I can't lose hope, I know. I don't know what else to do now, though. Flip open a book and keep doing research on the 'net? Yeah, that's getting us at a good nowhere. I'm sorry. Maybe I should of never wrote this in the first place. I'm going back to bed.
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[01 May 2003|11:17pm] |
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Velvet Chain - Strong |
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The King of Swords is whispering to me... psst psst psst... he tells me the little girl is cold... she weeps and shivers... all alone...
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