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[30 Apr 2003|12:44am] |
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Vast - Pretty When You Cry |
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Home sweet home. A little bird told me to come back, 'cause there was still fun to be had...
I didn't like that man on the train.... he got all over my dress.
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[30 Apr 2003|06:48pm] |
*Sits in his chair*
*Opens his laptop and starts to write in his journal*
"I went out last night i was feeling quit lonely so i thought to do some training.I went to the park and caught some vamps trying to eat a bird..man those guys must me desperate.so, I got the slaying thing out of the way for the most part.I then went and sat under the big bridge near the interence of Sunnydale and just watched the sky...yes, I was that bored that stars in the sky started to speak to me but then again it sounded like those voices i hear that oh so often try and make me do things i shouldn't..i have come accustome to them.Things like "angel how couldyou" and "angel i thought you loved me how could you""you killed my family."at times they bother me only because i know that now i am a better person and that i do regret hurting them oh so much..I sit at night thinking about my darker half and how i am so much like doctor jackyl and Mr.Hyde...angel being the doctor and angelus being hyde.How like a mixure of something will change me make me evil...and like the story goes..i have no control over what i do or say and remember nothing afterwords.evil is my sin..evil is my death..evil is apart of me....evil is why i can't or shouldn't know love or atleast the physical part.so what do i do...It's simple I stalk a 17 year old woman and her friends just so i can have some type of connection with there world...the first time wissler showed me buffy I knew something about her and cared for her...So i guess this concludes my ramblings about tonight and my swollow of how "life" bytes..no pun intendede."
*closes his journal*
*gets up and leaves his apartment*
*dropping a rose *
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