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[06 Feb 2003|05:29pm] |
Just coz I knew what I needed/wanted to say, Buffy -- yours is coming as soon as I get all my thoughts in order *hugs* I love you.
Spike:: You know how much you mean to me, your – my one and only friend. true friend, I haven’t always been the best to you but you haven’t always been the best to me. So we’re even. You weren’t around for me much last year to busy fucking to care I guess, but I’m over that. I’m not angry … anymore. I saw you’re eyes that night .. Something in your eyes keeps haunting me (song by the cult) when I was on the tower and Doc ::sighs looking down:: well you know the story, that look still gets to me. It was when I knew you … cared about me for me … wanted to be my friend not just for buffy … and the summer after she died .. just consummated that, I’ll never be able to repay you….but even before that before then …you were there for me that whole year (s5), you we’re the one there with me when I found out, always treated me like a person. I’ve never been dawn to you, I’ve never been the slayers little sister, always li’l bit or Nibblin or pigeon or some other nick name. I don’t mind that why? Because unlike everyone else, who you call by generic ‘pets’ and ‘luvs’ I have my own, and they mean something, to me anyway. You and I have the oddest conversations we talk about everything from vampire dust to vampire urine to love to shows to teen angst to .. I could go on forever. I thank you for putting up with me; you’ll never know just how much you mean to me. I like to think I know you best of the people, who know you. You know whats scary? ::laughs:: your eyes.. totally transparent…::sighs:: once again spike, Thank You.
Xanaday:: .. jesus where to start, you where the second guy I ever felt anything semi serious for… turned out being the only guy I ever loved, and with how things are going think you might be the only one. You know how I feel about you so I’m not going to repeat it just gonna use .. lyrics
I was trying everything that I can
To get my heart to forget you
But it just can't seem to
I guess it's just no use
In every part of me
Is still a part of you
Thank you, for always being honest with me … for seeing me. And no matter what people see you, even if you don’t know it. We rock Alexander, and you know it. Sometime it will all be alright, some day everything will be right ::nods:: and you will know how amazing you are..
..okay enough emotion for one night... I have the others written just don't feel like .. typing them.
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[06 Feb 2003|09:42pm] |
This isn't a real update.
I'm just giddy because this house has been...REALLY quiet the past few days.
Ah sweet serenity. ... wow that sounded kind of deep. *makes a face* Maybe I'm getting a cold, because I never say things like that.
I also messed with my icons, I'll probably do a little more with 'em later. Yep.
Anyway, Dawn wants to watch a movie. girly sister bonding time.
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[06 Feb 2003|11:10pm] |
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Well, thank you Dawn, Xander, Anya...and Andrew for that wonderful...attack as Xander put it. Who knew camping in the middle of the desert would be so exciting. Don't ask how I am connected to the internet right now. Something complicated involving satelite phones and computers...Willow could explain it all I'm sure. If I was the first, then obviously you would have noticed. Don't think that the first could slip in unnoticed. I give all of you more credit then you think you deserve. Sense the First. Don't be worried about who it is and who it isn't. When you feel the original evil in your presence then we can fight it. Don't begin distrusting one another.
Buffy don't worry about me not being there. I know you can handle it on your own, that's why I felt safe enough to leave you in charge. What am I saying, you are always in charge. I don't know what I thought you've been doing while I'm away.
With any luck the potentials and I will be back soon.
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