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-I had to have got the funniest present today from Dawn. She gave me a cape ::grins:: and on the back on it - it said 'xan-man'. My mood is amused, 'cause right now I am. She thought I was gonna hate it and think it was lame but I didn't - I don't think anyone is gonna know what I'm talking about....they're all going Xander? Your wonder-woman now? To everyone who was thinking that -
Yes. It's true - time to come out with the whole me being wonder-woman. We worked side by side on ya know....stuff. Quiet a duo we are ::sighs:: me and wonder-woman.
Dawn? Please tell me you didn't hear any of that! You know you don't compare to her right? ::Laughs:: Okay I'm getting offline now!
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[01 Feb 2003|09:55pm] |
Wow, it's Saturday.. Er technically it's Sunday morning and I still haven't updated about the dance, bad bad bad me!
Alright, he picked me up got all oogley ::laughs:: I didn't look like anything special .. Unless you count a skirt.. like buffy high school length with a slit up one side, the skirt was black by the way, and a black sparkly tank top special.. ::smirks::
as soon as we got to the dance; everyone was already there we were a bit late because Xander decided he had to go pee at the 711 ::shakes her head:: but anyway it was cool the music was really loud and funky -- all these slutty girls were like eyeing Xandie ::snorts:: annd then Teressa my 'friend' came up to him all hip swinging boobs about to fall out of her LEATHER top "hey stud wanna dance?" mmm I was pissed, but luckily xanders a sweetie and was like 'uh .. no I'm here with Dawn' ::grins, popping her back:: We danced so much .. it isnt even funny, hes like the funniest dancer, half the songs where grindy songs ::smirks:: remember the bronze? remember the 'spell'? Remeber the dance I did at bronze while under the spell? ::chuckles under her breath:: enough said. I think he liked it .. his hands were roamy ::shrugs::
We did the slow songs too, I think the only songs we didn't dance to was who let the dogs out and cotton eyed joe -- which come on!
::sighs slightly, running her hand over her arms:: the slow songs where sweet, this guys tried to 'cut in' ::laughs:: Xander got so red faced ... like he was going to sock him, I was like 'sure -- theres a another couple dancing right there have at it'
Last song rolled around they did the whole 'alright last song -- grab someone and make it count' which in my opinion is the stupidest thing in the world to say .. .. ::looks down at her feet sighing:: we danced to this song to and when the song was almost over he looked down at me and was like 'can I kiss you' .. I was floored, only thing I could do was nod.
He did..it was .. better then any kisses had been before ... it was kind of needy/hungery ... and all that missing of eachother came out in it, I think that kiss said more then any of our words ever could ... but the song ended and he took me home .. ::sighs::
I went by his place to say and we talked... a real talk no bullshit, we talked about everything from this possibly being our last battle against evil -- all us dying to us.
a lot of things I dont want to think about ::sighs:: your too much for me...I mean I get around you and my heart stops I see you and I pant...you make me feel like I've never felt before, you make me feel like a strong guy....you make me want so much, Dawnie. So much that I know wont end good. I- I want you and it drives me crazy
thats the thing! ::raises voice a little:: 7 years and noone looks at me! Noone gives me anything because its always about Buffy....the slayer....her looks could kill and they do but the thing is NOONE has looked at me before and you- you start the little crush a while back and then it just grows and grows and everything just gets so- so- so GOOD and its too good to be true dawn
I'm such a dork -- when he said the 'no one saw me thing' I had to say something.. speechy to that ::laughs:: I was like
Willow looked at you -- in highschool she was like .. obsessive ::sighs:: and I looked at you for seven years Xander -- I remember the first time I saw you .. when mom and I dropped buffy off for her first day at the old sunnyD high .. you were on that damned skateboard .. you like slammed into railing ... :;she laughed slightly:: and I fell for you at that very moment .. well as much as a little kid can ... this isnt a new things Xander .. my feelings are more mature and all but this isnt new ... and maybe its to good because its supposed to be? maybe this is what we get Xander .. we got thrown into this .. fucking hell maybe THIS is what we get as a reward though I dont know why they would reward you with me you deserve someone .. not dawnish
::sighs, hugging her knees::
What if we dont make it through this? what if the 'FE' does .. is the end? ...I want you to think
all of you to think about this ..
If this is the end what you say to all the people you know? what would you do different?
and I think you should say those things to everyone let everyone know they mean to you ... so that if this is .. it .. ::looking down she wiped her eyes:: we'll go knowing the truth about everything ... which is why I'm going to start letters ... to all of you ::smiles slightly:: so expect them! soon!
ANYWAY .. on with the happy .. the dance rocked .. thanks Xander meant alot..
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