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Saturday, March 20th, 2004
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6:10 pm - Curious
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I just want to be happy. For a long time. I want to make someone happy everyday...make him smile and laugh and be happy to be alive. Because that would make me happy to be alive. Is that so bad? Does that make me a bad person?
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| Friday, March 19th, 2004
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12:22 pm
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mhmm...try-outs are over, finally. I'm excited. Our first game is April 2nd.
Cassie made Varsity!!!
What else?
He keeps talking to me..and it's like, I don't know what to say, so I just say hi, and that's basically it. He only talks to me when I have an a/m up. And we dont even talk really. It's just "hey" and "sup". Blah. But when he told me the other day, I Felt nothing.
I'm still can't wait for next month.
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| Wednesday, March 17th, 2004
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6:27 pm
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It amazes me how I didn't feel any hurt or anything after you told me. It was like....I didn't care. And I'm just waiting patiently....maybe not even waiting at all.
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6:25 pm
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Life isn’t about keeping score. It’s not about how many people call you and it’s not about who you’ve dated, are dating or haven’t dated at all. It isn’t about who you’ve kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl like’s you. It’s not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school. In fact, it’s not about graces, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn’t about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it’s not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn’t about that. But life is about who you love and who you hurt. It’s about how you feel about yourself. It’s about trust, happiness and compassion. It’s about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love. Life is about avoiding
jealousy, overcoming ignorance and building confidence. It’s about what you say and what you mean. It’s about seeing people for who they are and not what they have. Most of all, it is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else’s in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise. These choices are what life’s about.
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| Tuesday, March 16th, 2004
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10:11 pm - Hockey
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"wooo" "wambulance" "wamburger"
"thats a new one, I don't know where I pulled that out from"
"TROUBLE TIME"
Oh, and...QUIT WITH THE DIRTY LOOKS! Please:-)
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| Monday, March 15th, 2004
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12:22 pm
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Softball try-outs are today...I don't feel like going..today's more of a lazy day:-\ Just like...the other day, whichever day it was. The whole friggen weekend.
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| Sunday, March 14th, 2004
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8:03 pm
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8:02 pm
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Wouldn't life be wonderful
If Monday mornings were fun,
If junk food had no calories...all kisses were magical
life was always worth living for and...
....love never hurt anyone....
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5:24 pm
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I’ve lost my friends, my hopes, and dreams.
I’ve lost trust in anyone I see.
I’ve lost my faith, my goals, and pride.
I even ran out of tears to cry.
I’ve lost all love for so many things.
I’ve lost my strength and all my beliefs.
I’ve lost my sight to even see clear.
I no longer have feelings, well except for fear.
So when you ask me to smile,
I’m going to need your help…
because I lost that too,
when I lost myself....:-\
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4:36 pm
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| Saturday, March 13th, 2004
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11:53 am
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When are we going to be together?
Will you love me now or will it take forever?
I Love you always with all my heart
Be with you and never apart
With this poem I have one thing in mind
You just have to read the first word in each line...
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| Friday, March 12th, 2004
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11:10 pm - Something to Read
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Here's something that my dad sent me a while back, which follows along with my previous entry.
YOU REMEMBER WHEN...?
All the girls had ugly gym uniforms?
It took five minutes for the TV warm up?
Nearly everyone's Mom was at home when the kids got home from school?
Nobody owned a purebred dog?
When a quarter was a decent allowance?
You'd reach into a muddy gutter for apenny?
Your Mom wore nylons that came in two pieces?
All your male teachers wore neckties and female teachers had their hair done every day and wore high heels?
You got your windshield cleaned, oil checked, and gas pumped, without asking, all for free, every time?
And you didn't pay for air?
And, you got trading stamps to boot?
Laundry detergent had free glasses, dishes or towels hidden inside the box?
It was considered a great privilege to be taken out to dinner a real restaurant with your parents?
threatened to keep kids back a grade if they failed. . .and they did?
When a 57 Chevy was everyone's dream car...to cruise, peel out, lay rubber or watch submarine races, and people went steady?
No one ever asked where the car keys were because they were always in the car, in the ignition, and the doors were never locked?
Lying on your back in the grass with your friends and saying things like, "That cloud looks like a ....."
And playing baseball with no adults to help kids with the rules of the game?
Stuff from the store came without safety caps and hermetic seals because no one had yet tried to poison a perfect stranger?
And with all our progress, don't you just wish, just once, you could slip back in time and savor the slower pace,and share it with the children of today?
When being sent to the principal's office was nothing compared to the fate that awaited the student at home? Basically we were in fear for our lives, but it wasn't because of drive-by shootings, drugs, gangs, etc.
Our parents and grandparents were a much bigger threat! But we survived because their love was greater than the threat.
Send this on to someone who can still remember Nancy Drew, the Hardy Boys, Laurel and Hardy, Howdy Dowdy and the Peanut Gallery, the LoneRanger, The Shadow Knows, Nellie Bell, Roy and Dale, Trigger and Buttermilk.
As well as summers filled with bike rides, baseball games, Hula Hoops, bowling and visits to the pool, and eating Kool-Aid powder with sugar.
How many of these do you remember?
Candy cigarettes
Wax Coke-shaped bottles with colored sugar water inside
Soda pop machines that dispensed glass bottles
Coffee shops with tableside jukeboxes
Blackjack, Clove and Teaberry chewing gum
Home milk delivery in glass bottles with
cardboard stoppers
Newsreels before the movie
P.F. Fliers
Telephone numbers with a word....(Raymond 4-601).
Party lines
Peashooters, Howdy Dowdy, 45 RPM records,
Green Stamps, Hi-Fi's
Metal ice cubes trays with levers,
Mimeograph paper,
Beanie and Cecil,
Roller-skate keys,
Cork pop guns,
Drive ins and Studebakers
Washtub wringers, The Fuller Brush Man,
Reel-To-Reel tape recorders,
Tinkertoys, Erector Sets, The Fort Apache
Play Set, Lincoln Logs,
15 cent McDonald hamburgers and a sack of White Castles
5 cent packs of baseball cards - with that awful pink slab of bubble gum
Penny candy
35 cent a gallon gasoline, Jiffy Pop popcorn
Do you remember a time when...
Decisions were made by going
"eeny-meeny-miney-moe"?
Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming, "Do Over!"?
"Race issue" meant arguing about who ran the fastest?
Catching the fireflies could happily occupy an entire evening?
It wasn't odd to have two or three "Best Friends"?
The worst thing you could catch from the opposite sex was "cooties"?
Having a weapon in school meant being caught with a slingshot?
A foot of snow was a dream come true?
Saturday morning cartoons weren't 30-minute commercials for action figures?
"Oly-oly-oxen-free" made perfect sense?
Spinning around, getting dizzy, and falling down was cause for giggles?
The worst embarrassment was being picked last for a team?
War was a card game?
Baseball cards in the spokes transformed any bike into a motorcycle?
Taking drugs meant orange-flavored chewable aspirin?
Water balloons were the ultimate weapon?
If you can remember most or all of these, then you have lived!!!!!!!
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10:43 pm - READ AND COMMENT!
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I was thinking today, yes, I know...scary, but I mean it. We live in an extremely boring and lazy generation. Look at it. If we're bored, we go on the computer and sit there and be bored. People think its stupid if u wanna go do shit outside, and it pisses me off. How much fresh air have you gotten lately? And not just from sports, I'm talking from something you wanted to do on your own. Not walking to your car. When's the last time you've seen a teen rollerblading, or riding a bike? Other than BMX and whatnot.
I always hear my parents talking about memories they've had from their childhood. Mine compares NOTHING to their's.
And RESPECT?!? Is there any out there? No. Yeah, I don't expect respect to adults everyday. But sometimes I FEEL BAD! All it is...is shit talk. And I'll admit this, I do get an attitude and say un necessary things, but come on. Give the people some respect.
Winter....when's the last time you've seen teens outside everyday with snow on the ground, having fun, enjoying it? You just hear "it's too cold". YOU'RE TOO LAZY!!!!
I actually am scared for the future. What will it be like? Will there even be one? Everything's gonna fall apart. No one cares about education. No one will know what to do. It's the end of the world as we know it.
I'll add more to this later.
current mood:  pissed off
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5:07 pm
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1.Full Name: Kimberly Ann Barnauskas
2. WHAT COLOR PANTS DO YOU HAVE ON RIGHT NOW? blue
3. WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
4. LAST THING YOU ATE? nachos
5. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? probably orange
6. WHERE WOULD U LIKE TO GO ON YOUR HONEYMOON? hmmm......Hawaii
7. RAIN OR SNOW? snow
8.HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? kinda cloudy, and a tad bit chilly
9. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? my mom
10. WHATS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ON THE OPPISITE SEX? eyes, smile, and hair
11.HOW ARE YOU TODAY? today...so far pretty good
12. HOW DO YOU EAT AN OREO? i twist them apart and eat all the cream off.. then i eat the cookie part
13. WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY? playing sports and being with friends
14. BIRTH DATE? February 9th
15. Hair color? brownish/blondish
16. EYE COLOR? anywhere from blue to green to hazel
17. HEIGHT? 5'6-5'7ish
18: SIBLINGS AND THEIR AGES? yes, 18 & 21
19. WHAT SCHOOL DO YOU ATTEND? lamphere:-\
20. LIVING ARRANGEMENT? mom dad lisa n jen....?
21. WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO? talk to peoples, movies, zone out, hang out with people
22. WHAT'S THE BEST ADVICE GIVEN TO YOU? whatever my advice givers say...goes
23. ARE YOU A VIRGIN? lol...yes:):):):)
24. WHO DO YOU LIKE? well...no one?
25. WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET MOST? I'd rather leave this one blank..._______
26. WHATS THE WORST SICKNESS YOUVE EVER HAD? when my temp was like 108
27. WHAT'S THE STUPIDEST THING YOU'VE EVER DONE? trusting someone with everything, and then them totally forgetting about me
28. WINTER OR SUMMER? thats a toughy
29. HUGS OR KISSES? as long as they are meaningful and with the person i love, then both are wonderful
30. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN LOVE? nope
31. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? Fearless
32. FAVORITE DOG? whatever my cousins have
33. FAVORITE BOARD GAME? i forget the name, but its fun!
34. FAVORITE SOUNDS? wtf
35. WORST FEELING? trusting someone, only to know that in the end you've lost it
36. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING U THINK OF IN THE MORNING? I wanna go back to bed
37. FAVORITE COLORS? black orange and yellow
38. CHILD'S NAME? well well well, lol,i dont know yet
39. FAVORITE PERSON IN LIFE? that's a toughy, either one of my family members, or a really good friend
40. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? vanilla
41. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? now how would i know
42. WHAT IS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN? aquarius
43. DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS? sometimes
42. WHATS UNDER YOUR BED? who knows
45. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER? 24
46. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? some "providing the knowledge of networks" thing
47. ARE YOU A LEFTY OR A RIGHTY? righty
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| Thursday, March 11th, 2004
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3:09 pm
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| Wednesday, March 10th, 2004
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3:43 pm
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Oh God, life sure is rocky. Up and down, back and forth. Drags you along until you figure out ways to get yourself up, and flow with the current. I'm still trying to get on my feet, and go with the flow... yet, I tumble and stumble a lot along the way. Yet, I have to look on the good side more. The thing is... every time I fell, I always got back up someway, somehow.
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3:33 pm - Humor me....please?
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1. My name (FULL name):
2. Where did we meet?:
3. Have I ever done drugs?:
4. How long have you known me?:
5. How well do you know me?:
6. Do I smoke?:
7. Do you think I'm ugly, below average, average,
above average, beautiful, hot, gorgeous?
8. What’s your name?
9. My age?:
10. My birthday?:
11. Hair color?:
12. Eye color?:
13. Am I tall or short or average?:
14. Do I have any siblings? If so how many:
15. Have you ever had a crush on me?:
16. Have you ever been jealous of me?:
--IF ANSWERING YES TO THE FOLLOWING, EXPLAIN WITH DETAILS--
17. Who am I in love with? If no one say no:
18. What is one of my favorite things to do?:
19. Do you remember one of the first things I said to you?:
20. What's your funniest memory of me?:
21. What's my favorite type of music?:
22. What is my best feature?:
23. What is my worst feature?:
24. Do you look up or down on me... as a person?:
25. Do I wear contacts?:
26. Am I a leader or a follower?:
27. Am I shy or outgoing?:
28. Can you picture me dancing?:
29. Can you picture me Rollin’?:
30. Would you say I am funny?:
31. Am I a rebel or do I follow all the rules?
32. Do I have any special talents?:
33. What's my best accomplishment?:
34. Would you consider me a friend?:
35. Would you call me preppy, slutty, a homey, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else?:
36. Have you ever seen me cry? Or heard me say I was crying?:
37. If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be?:
38. What is your favorite thing to do with me?:
39. Do I drink alcohol?:
40. Am I addicted to drugs?:
41. Have I ever been there for you?:
42. Am I fun to be with?:
43. Am I smart?:
45. Do you you have undying love for me?:
46. Name one way I have changed your life or made an impact in it:
47. Would you kiss me?
48. Would you go out with me if I asked you?
49. Have I ever cut myself? If so how many times do you think?
50. Why do you think I cut myself, if I do, in your opinion?
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| Tuesday, March 9th, 2004
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9:35 pm
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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
I DONT EVEN KNOW.
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12:26 pm
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Eeee!!! Another good day.
Well.....I went to the game....but woot:) lol Erika I'm stealing all ur words
Me n Jay are goin' 1-1....I'm game...he says I'm just ready to get killed
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| Monday, March 8th, 2004
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4:21 pm
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1. Do you start the water before or after you get in? before!
2. Do you read the labels on your shampoo bottles? Before I’m in the shower, yeah, sometimes.
3. Have you ever showered with someone of the opposite sex? Ummm…..:-x
4. Have you ever been forced to shower with one of your siblings? Yes!
5. Have you ever brushed your teeth in the shower? Nope, but sounds like a good ideaJ
6. Have you ever dropped your soap on your foot? I drop everything on my foot
7. How old do you look while wet and when a towel is the only thing on your body? I look….ok?
8. What's the last song you sang in the shower? Who says I sing in the shower?
9. What kind of soap do you use? Whatever my mom buys, or if I’m lucky, whatever I get from Bath n Body Works
10. What color is your shower? bluee
11. What color is your towel? We have a rainbow of towels
12. Do you shave in the shower? Yep
13. Does your shower have a seat in it? Haha, are you kidding me?
14. Have you ever been walked in on while you were showering? Oh yah. All the time. There’s no privacy in my house.
15. Do you have the anti-slip sticky pads on the floor of your shower? Yes, and it’s white…
16. Do you wear a robe around the house after your shower? Nope, I walk from the bathroom to my bedroom with a towel, and then get changed in my room.
17. Do you get dressed in the bathroom after your shower? Sometimes, if not, see above.
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