|
|
Thursday, January 1st, 2004
| |
7:13 pm - sea, i told ya suicide was stupid
|
jessica and i were talking on the enternet and she sent me this poem that some chick rote about suicide and i liked it so much im puttin it in here and i dont give a flying fuck if u reed it or not:
Your mind’s made up
You can’t take it anymore,
Life’s impossible
And suicide’s the answer to Heaven’s Door!
Before you kill yourself
Ask the 15-year-old,
Who tried to electrocute himself.
He lived, but now…
He must carry on
With both of his arms gone!
What about jumping?
Come see Jack, who survived his leap
From a 10 story building.
He lived, but now…
He’ll always need care,
He’s a vegetable—a mind like a cabbage,
He lives in a fog,
With irreversible brain damage.
But worst of all…
He knows he use to be normal!
Come see the All American Football player
Who thought he was cool and bought a gun
And shot himself in the head at 21.
He thought it would be easy
And without any harm,
He lived, but now…
He can’t feel his legs and has a useless arm!
He lost his dream, his vision and his hearing on one side
But he lived
Through his attempt at suicide!
Then there was this Prom Queen
Who was left comatose
With extensive brain damage
From her drug overdose.
She mixed some alcohol with some pills
It took awhile…but it definitely kills.
First, you’re in excruciating pain
Your eyes roll back & your skin turns yellow
It’s not a pretty sight and it’s a hell of a way to go!
Who will cut the rope from where you hang down?
Who will identify your body after you’ve drowned?
Who will scrape your brains from the ceiling?
Or clean the blood off the carpet?
A cleaning crew will refuse the job
But somebody’s got to do it!
Oh…and that carefully worded suicide note is no help
For the unending pain that is forever felt!
Who will it be? Your Sister? Your Mother?
Your Father? Your Brother?
Those who love you will never recover!
They’ll have to live with regret and with all the guilt
Along with all those unanswered questions.
They love you…but down deep inside they hate you
For thinking only about yourself and your life ending decision!
There are people who can help you
Before you decide to put your life to an end,
Call a hotline…or call a doctor
Call the hospital…or call a friend.
Call a minister…or call a priest
Call a family member…or call the police!!
They will help you
And they’ll give you hope
When your will is down
And you can no longer cope!
You say you don’t want to be stopped
Are you definitely sure
You want to commit suicide?
Because if you fail
You’re gonna wish that you were left to die!
So…Before You Kill Yourself…
Remember...
Suicide is not always the answer,
Nor is it always successful
Consider your actions
Because living with the results are dreadful!
current mood:  amused
|
|
(comment on this)
|
| |
3:02 pm - this year is gonna be SHIT.
|
well. new years sucked....once again. i sat at home and watched south park.
rite when the clock hit 12. i tripped over my own feet and slammed my head into the ground. that was a great start to a new year.
5 minutes into 2004. i burned my finger with my lighter. yup. new years ROCKS man. i swear.
leni sleeped over last nite. it was a phomenom. sarah, wasnt there.... ::HUGH GASP::
i no i no. its a shocker. but we lived.
i got a really kewl ligher. it says in cursive pink letters:: the bitch's lighter. and it has flowers on it two.
well if i lose it everyone will no who it belongs to. me....the bitch....
lol
wow. i have no life at man. im talking about a lighter that i got because i dont have anything to talk about.
im gonna go and gather my thoughts.
heart
tuesday
current mood:  sleepy
current music: Toxic Narcotic- Asshole
|
|
(comment on this)
|
| Saturday, December 27th, 2003
| |
2:06 pm - mmmmm it was a good show ::drools::
|
well fuck me in the ass 3 times, the show was wicked.
everyone was fucking there. and of course they all new one of my friends died. yea.
isaac was there. he bought me my christmas presant, a brats tee shirt, a cd and a toy dolls pin. i love him :: and no u uncle fuckers im not just saying that cause he bought me shit::
heh alex was drunk and he kame up to me and talked for 10 minutes on how i was gonna sea laura again when i die. he had the best of intentions but it made me feal bad...ironic i no lol.
the pit was awsome also, the last 3 show ive been to were a fucking drag.
umm what else happend. o there was skinhead drama. wasnt really apart of it, but i did sea david get in a fight with a nazi. pretty interesting. the dildo showed up ::note, i am only talking about him because if u check in his journal he talks about me, which is really fucking stupid and i hope him a painful and aggonizingly slow death::
lauras funerals today. its also ryans birthday. god i feal so fucking guilty, i had the best fucking time last nite and jessica probably sitting at home working on her speech for the furneral. and today is the furneral, i tryed to kall her but she wasnt home and now shes probably crying her eyes out at the church and im fucking sitting on my ass trying to get off the subject and talk to leni about funny shit.
im just a bad person i guess.
current mood: really really fucking guilty
current music: lower class brats- just like clockwork
|
|
(15 Ran In to a Random Objects| Pull a Tuesday comment on this)
|
| Friday, December 26th, 2003
| |
9:44 am - x-mas
|
well x-mas wasnt a total drag. my parents forgot where they hid my presant so i had to find it. heh it was spiffy.
todays the brats show. which will also be very spiffy. i feel so guilty though. yea eye no eye shouldnt but hey, u kant help what the fuck u feal. i mean im going to a fun show in a couple of hours and jessica has to organize her speech for the furneral tomarrow.
i just want to run away from all of this, and i guess eye have i mean i havent talked to anyone about it, with the exception of leni, and even when i do that i hold a lot back. ive cried a hole fucking lot in the course of 5 days, but i still feal i havent done enough ya no? ugh, or maybe im unbelieveably weird and a phsyco, but who no?
being at the show will take my mond off of things. ::thank god::
i got a cell fone for x-mas. pretty kewl huh?
the doc matens dont fit. they sent me the rong pair. size 5 not size 9. but i see there mistake because 5 look exacally like 9. x_x
i rote a little R.I.P Laura Burkett on my arm. its little but hey its something. i remembered a picture of her yesturday that was in my scrap book of houston. its the suckest picture of her, she has her eyes closed and its blurry. but its her all rite and eye got me a picture of her. that made me a little happier.
but uhhhhhhhhhhhh yea. nothing else is new so byes.
current mood:  guilty
current music: lower class brats- not for sale
|
|
(comment on this)
|
| Wednesday, December 24th, 2003
| |
3:39 pm - ugh
|
well its christmas eve. and im spending it alone in the house with the kat. humm wonder who woulda thought that was gonna happen?
well, at least the brats show is in 2 days. whoot whoot.
i watched pulp fiction last nite. great movie. it has everything: big black men getting raped by hilbilles to girls almost o.d.ing becuase she snorted heroin and samuel l. jacksone having brains and skull pieces in his fro.
it was a father daughter bonding thing fore me and my dad.
we have the most fucked up realtionship. i love it. we dont have to say anything at all to eachother and we still no what the other ones thinking. or maybe were just really fucking weird.
found out yesturday how laura died.
she hung herself.
why the hell would u do that ya no? i still kant believe it. eye really havent showed much emotion about it other than talking about it with leni fore like 5 mintues. i just wanna like, make it go away and shit.
but i kant so might as well deal with it.
tomarrow im getting my sewing machine and my doc martens and i get to order all this shit online. its such a fucking spiffy time of the year i swear.
well i guess the world has to celebrate the birth of christ.
i mean we celebrate his death ::easter::, y not his birth rite?
well ive come to the conclusion that christmas is a scam.
its not about family or the birth of the son of god. its about greed and pity.
pity: this is the one and only time of year we give the homeless blankets. we only give em food on thanksgiving.
greed: yea okie we give some presants away. but we also revieve a lot more than we give. and if someone get the rong presant. theyll complain about it. not to ur face, no of course not. that would be rude.
so fuck christmas. its now dead to me.
i dont believe in jesus, but im fine with draining my parents walets.
yea ill give someone a presant here or there. but that doesnt mean im in the "spirt" of x-mas. so fuck it.
the egg nogs okie, but the fucking fruit cakes that u get by the ppl that dont matter FUCKING SUCK.
im just havent been in a happy mood the last couple of days.
probably because i got a big reality check when laura died.
but other than that my lifes fucking great.
fuck u all
tuesday
current mood:  pissed off
current music: dead kennedys - kill the poor
|
|
(5 Ran In to a Random Objects| Pull a Tuesday comment on this)
|
| Tuesday, December 23rd, 2003
| |
4:39 pm - just let me vent..
|
fuck christmas. fuck it in the ass. it should take a picture of itself, cut a hole in it and fuck itself.
first of all one of my friends DIES.
this morning my mom tells me to rap my own presents.
i think im getting sick.
my sister is rubbing it in my face that shes in maine and im not ::because of course eye kare about it::
i havent seen my boyfriend in almost 2 weeks.
my wife hung up on me because shes a slut and wanted to fuck her lover.
and my BRAIN CANNOT PROCESS A LOT OF THESE THINGS!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
well fuck christmas because the song lies, its not the most wonderful time of the year, its the most depressing. god its almost as bad as birthdays ::dont fucking ask me on y eye hate birthdays, the theroy of me and my birthday is a long a paingful process of bitching.::
thank u fore listening to me vent.
heart
the girl who hates x-mas with a bloody passion.
tuesday
current mood:  enraged
|
|
(2 Ran In to a Random Objects| Pull a Tuesday comment on this)
|
| Monday, December 22nd, 2003
| |
10:19 pm - wow, this is depressing.
|
i hate loosing a friend. i hope ill never lose another one.
its so weird to no that if u ever visit houston, that she wont be there to greet me with jessica and cassie.
the funeral is on saturday i think. ryan's birthday. ryan was jessica's friend who killed himself too. must be horrible for her.
god, death sucks. death should...like....die and stuff....
fucking shit.
i kant even think aobut it without crying. ive cryed so much in just 2 fucking days.
current mood:  gloomy
|
|
(comment on this)
|
| |
1:41 pm - shit
|
well, i never thought id be affected by someone who actually went through with suicide.
u no theres the stupid bullshit that people say in middle skewl on how theyve tryed to kill themselves, have to scars to prove it but were too pussy enough to go through with it. laura wasnt those kind of people. i mean i remeber once at lunch me her and jessica had a water fight. it was spiffy.
and now shes gone. im gonna try to fly to houston for the funeral. if i dont then i hope jessica will be alrite
its weird how people deal with deaths ya no? first ur unbelieveably sad, then ur angry, then ur depressed again, then u look back on the good times and ur happy, then u get sad and angry again.
what the fuck?
well eye guess this is all part of life right?
death.
but how come she had to do this now? ya no?
she had so much to look forward too.
high school, collage, first job, first kid, first time u move outta ur house.
all she got to no is how fucking middle skewl is.
god, if any other one of my friends commit suicide, ill kick there ass.
yes u heard rite i will kick there dead corps in there fucking coffin because it doesnt even matter how fucked up ur life is now. if u just fucking wait just a little bit longer, itll work out.
she took the easy way out of a situation that she selfishly didnt wanna deal with.
when i was talking to jessica yesturday, she told me how if laura could have seen how many people would have cryed for her, then maybe she wouldnt have done it.
god dammit. loseing a friend sucks.
she was kewl too.
dammit.
all i no is if someone comes up to me and tells me that there gonna kill themselves cause they think there life sucks...... i will fucking blow there fucking brains out cause there fucking stupid and they should infact die.
current mood: pessimistic
|
|
(comment on this)
|
| Sunday, December 21st, 2003
| |
1:24 pm - Laura Burkett December 20, 2003
|
Laura Burkett killed herself last nite. she was really kewl when eye new her. i kant believe she gone. i new her for a year in houston before i moved. jessica new her since kindergarten.
its unbeliveable. we dont even no y the hell she did such a stupid thing? i mean jessica talked to her wednesday and she was fine. y didnt she talk to someone or something? what a fucking retard.
god ive been crying all morning cause of her rotten decition to do something so horrible that it would effect practically everyone that eye no in houston.
i talk to jessica for 2 hours on the fone. i tryed to make her feel better, but i just started crying too so it didnt really help too much.
what a fucking drag. i dont wanna talk about it anymore so byes
current mood:  depressed
|
|
(comment on this)
|
| Wednesday, December 17th, 2003
| |
8:06 pm - theres dreams, and wishes.......then theres reality.......
|
fuck this weeks been boaring as hell. eye got to stay home from skewl today. i ruined christmas. walked half way to skewl cause eye got kicked outta the kar and my mom decided to let me stay home. x_x
my dad's in albaqurque.....doing his shannanagans, my sister leaves tomarrow. so im stuck with the bitch who thinks im a crack hore until christmas.
wow. i have an interesting life.
made a gingerbread house today. it looks like nuclear war hit it.
i got my sister a christmas presant today, and leni and sarah.
eye hope my sister dies on the plane to maine so ill never have to listen to her whinny little valley girl concided voice again.
better yet eye hope that my mom and my sister die in the car ride on the way to the airport.
eye havent seen isaac all week...which makes my week a really peachy o_o.
eyem still confused with him but im getting over it. hell soon ill probably forget about the hole thing. or at least say that eye did so fuck it. fuck it in the ass. yes eye am refurring that it kan take a picture of its ass, kut a hole it in, and fuck it. the situation sucks so im not gonna talk about it anymore unless new information occurs, which it probably wont, so be happy u maggot.
o yea eye ruin christmas. last nite eye was looking for my p.e. shirt, it wasnt in the kar so eye looked in the trunk :;my parental units informed me that they didnt get me a presant because were poor::
eye was on the fone with chris and eye poped the trunk and yes younge ones there was my presant. a sewing machine from sears. whoot whoot. eye dont have ta kill myself with the constant hand sewing.
well. that ruining christmas for my mom so she went off on me this moring. fuck it. eye dont even kare about her anymore. hell eye wish her dead. i have dreams on how eye kill her and wake up laughing.
wow. im really lame fore that huh?
all my friends are sick ::literally::, and eye think im playing mind games with myself making me think that im getting sick too. or maybe i really am sick.
who the fuck nos?
cheap sex and the dekoys are playing on friday. whoot whoot. probably the only people that are gonna go is me and sarah mcewin. hence everyone else is sick.
cant wait till lower class brats.
well u smegma eaters,
eye think ive lost my self, so eye have decided two go look fore me. if eye should come back please tell me that eye have gone two go look fore myself. but dont worry if eye kome back and eye still havent found myself, then ill look fore me tomarrow.
heart
tuesday
current mood: board as fuck
current music: Lower Class Brats- Psycho
|
|
(comment on this)
|
| Sunday, December 14th, 2003
| |
9:07 pm - nothing new
|
well, nothings new....still. i talked to isaac. he reasured me that he DOES in fact love me so as far as eye no he does. im still kinda in the confusion zone though because eye still have the she said he said bull shit. which sucks.
my moms a stupid idiot. she actually fucking said to my sister and kelly "i just want to thank u for trying to help me break it off between kristen and isaac" ::yes all my real name IS kristen so dont shit ur pants::
so yea, my moms a bitch and eye hate her and eye wish her a painful and horribley slow death soon. my sisters in on there little "plot" its not like im gonna belive the bitch on anything she says anymore. fuck her. im a good sister to her and what do EYE get in return?! HER FUCKING TELLING MY PARENTS ABOUT ME "SMOKING" AND TRYING TO MAKE ME AND ISAAC BRAKE UP.
news flash laura. eye dont fucking give a shit if my parents dont trust a word that comes outta my mouth.
and eye dont kare if u try everything in ur bitchy bones to break me and isaac up cause it aint happenin anytime soon as far as eye no so FUCK OFF.
well other than that my lifes boaring ass hell and eye hope something exciting will happen soon.
heart
tuesday
p.s. sarahs gonna be a pirate so leni's gonna be a fairy with a handful of glitter and im gonna be a easter bunny and SOMETIMES wear pink so itll make me an easter bunny....... x_x......sarah....ur stupid.....
current mood:  frustrated
current music: coal chamber- alienate me
|
|
(comment on this)
|
| Thursday, December 11th, 2003
| |
7:52 pm - love....what a fucked up word
|
ah fucking shit. eye found out the most fucked up thing. ::fyi, im crying rite now::
sarah m. informed me that isaac likes me a lot but he doesnt love me. how that bothers me? hummm lemme think..maybe cause im in love with him. eye kalled kelly and asked her how she know. yup, eye passed that test. sarah m made me feal bad though, she said eye shouldnt be "looking for love" im only 13.
well fyi to sarah m. im never looked or searched for it, it founded me.
if he doesnt love me, how come hes the one that said it 1st?
or how come he told leni and sarah that he loves me?
maybe its because of me. i mean im the one who put myself in the position of falling fore em. but it seemed like the rite thing to do ya no? fuck, even though im balling rite now, i still like him, and maybe thats love who the fuck nos. kelly explain to me like this, and eye no fore a fact that shes in love, even though shes not even with the guy:
its like if he did the worst thing that u could possibly think of, ud still wouldnt be able to consider urself anyone elses girl, no matter what the situation might be, like u no how sometimes when u have a crush u kan picture urself with that guy, but also be able to picture urself with like brad pitt, well if u love the guy then u kant do it, no matter how big of ur fucking imagination might be.
yees yees eye no i am 13, and hes 16 but who the fuck kares? age doesnt and shouldnt matter. its a fucking stupid ass number that humans keep track of so they kan celebrat one more year closer to death and no how long weve been on this god damm fucking earth.
yea eye love him. and i dont want to. EYE DIDNT EVEN WANNA GO OUT WITH HIM THE FIRST TIME EYE MEAT HIM. but nooooooooooooo now eye have to talk about how eye love him, and he kares about me and thats it. nope, no love fore the tuesday, just karing. WELL EYE KARE ABOUT MY HAMSTER BUT EYE DONT MAKE IT FALL FORE ME AND TELL ALL ITS FRIENDS THAT I LOVE IT and then after 5 beatuiful months of being together, change my mind or whatever the fuck he did, and say "well eye kare about her and like her a lot, but eye dont love her."
god, eyeve never felt this way before about someone and eye want it to stop.
eye dont no, maybe ive been crying fore the past 2 hours fore nothing. or maybe im not......
god eyem thinking like hes gonna break up with me or something. o god, what if he does?! fuck, id kil myself lol jk.
but god damm, how come he had to mess with my head like this? if u guys didnt no im not that hard to play mind games with.
i tried so fucking hard not to fall fore him, and when eye did it was so much more than the other bf that ive had.
yea eye no some of the ppl reeding this are gonna be like "shes 13 she doesnt have enough life experience fore love." well u kan take a look at my middle finger and fuck urself in the ass.
how could someone do that to someone else? make them think that they love them, and suddenly decide that they just kare fore em. hows that fair to me?
fuck it eye dont kare............wait............this hole entry proves that eye do kare, so eyem a hypocrite gotta problem with it?
fuck.
im so fucking screwed up rite now with my fealings. well IM not but apparently isaac is, which fucks with my head, which isnt fucking fair.
well if ya got any suggestions on what the fuck eye gotta do to get outta this fucked up shitty ass stupid heart-murdering situation leave a comment.
heart
the liked but not loved
tuesday.
current mood: crushed
current music: The adicts- love sucks
|
|
(comment on this)
|
| Wednesday, December 10th, 2003
| |
9:42 pm - boardum....stange thing isnt it?
|
well eye just got off the fone with sarah m. turns out isaacs board with our relationship. eye guess eye am two so this weekend me and her made a plan, well more than one plan and hopefully itll work out.
one of em is fore him to come over to my house when everyones sleeping ::highly unlikely that itll happen::
another ones with the show thing that leni made up a while ago which is fore me to tell my parents that im going to the dekoys show, then when eye get there meat up with him and leave ::another highly unlikely situation::
and the last it what sarah made up which is to tell my parents that im sleeping over stephanie's house ::kelly's little sis:: and then meat up with him somewhere and go to his place ::that one might actually work::
but whatever happens happens. im just kinda paranoid now that hes "board" with me. whatever. ill figure out something.....hopefully..
current mood:  sad
current music: Crass- Mickey Mouse is dead
|
|
(1 Ran In to a Random Object| Pull a Tuesday comment on this)
|
| Monday, December 8th, 2003
| |
4:23 pm
|
What time is it?: 4:41
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
01 old peopl
02 whales
03 the candy man
---------------------------------------- --------------------
THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH MOST:
01 all my friends
02 dan cook
03 denis leary
---------------------------------------- --------------------
THREE THINGS I LOVE:
01 pepsi, and food
02 isaac
03 all my friends
---------------------------------------- --------------------
THREE THINGS I HATE:
01 people in general
02 hot topics and preppies
03 you
---------------------------------------- -------------------
THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
01 why people are so fucking stupid
02 people who think that there the shit
03 y peopke kall it "rap music"
---------------------------------------- -----------------
THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
01 a kup of pepsi
02 the comp
03 the keyboard
---------------------------------------- --------------------
THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
01 filling this out
02 drinking this lovely glass of pepsi.....did eye meantion that eye love pepsi
03 being alive?
---------------------------------------- --------------------
THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
01 go to the lower class brats show on the 26
02 sea isaac again lol
03 uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
---------------------------------------- --------------------
THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
01 spit
02 burp
03 twich
---------------------------------------- ---------------------
THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
01 say florecent
02 eye dont no
03
---------------------------------------- --------------------
THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
01 aparently crazy and
02 weird
03 im increadibly lame
---------------------------------------- --------------------
THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
01 all the kewl bands
02
03
---------------------------------------- --------------------
THREE THINGS I DON'T THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO EVER:
01 emo
02 new wave
03 rap
---------------------------------------- --------------------
THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
01 smgema
02 penis
03 uhhhhhh
---------------------------------------- --------------------
THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
01 uhhhhhhhhh the ones that u eat
02
03
---------------------------------------- --------------------
THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:
01 guitar
02
03
---------------------------------------- --------------------
THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
01 pepsi
02 coke
03 rc cola
---------------------------------------- --------------------
THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
01 sesame street ::eye still watch that..::
02
03
I AM: named after a day of the week
I WANT: penis
I HAVE: pepsi, which i am drinking rite now x_x
I WISH: on nothing, it never fucking works GOD DAMMIT!
I HATE: a lot of ppl
I MISS: my wife and jessica
I FEAR: old people and whales
I HEAR: myself typing
I SEARCH: fore.....things?
I WONDER: when my funs gonna end
I LOVE: my boyfriend
I ACHE: my ass is cold..
I ALWAYS: say smegma and penis..fun filled words eye no
I AM NOT: kewl lol
I DANCE: all the time, especially when no ones watching
I SING: all the time, its fun
I CRY: when no one seas lol
I AM NOT ALWAYS: being stupid....eye think..
I WRITE: things....dun dun dun...
I WIN: whoot whoot EYE WON!....
I LOSE: everything
I CONFUSE: everyone and thing. they confuse me two.
I NEED: more food. cause im a fatass
I SHOULD: die
current mood:  bored
|
|
(comment on this)
|
| Friday, December 5th, 2003
| |
10:07 pm - eye have a reason fore these storys....im just trying to think of one...
|
yea nothings happend with my life.......still.....lol
eye was over sarahs house the other day and eye kalled kelly to sea if she was kumming to planned parenthood on saturday ::dont ask y hence eye wont tell u:: and heres my coversation with her brother:
"hello"
"is kelly there?"
"who is this"
"tuesday"
"who?"
"tuesday"
"jesus?"
"yea its jesus"
"jesus? can eye ask you a question?"
"yes my child, go"
"y did u leave us?"
"because eye saw u and ur hemorid hernia ass and decided to leave."
"how did u no about that?!"
"wasnt it embarrasing to ask ur mom to go to the doctor fore that, did u have to say something like 'mom, eye picked up something to heay so my ball sac ripped open and now my lower intestence is hanging outta my tesical and now eye have three', or ' mom, eye was constipated one day, and eye push to hard so a vain poped out and my shit rubbed against it so now im bleeding from the ass"
"holy shit kelly told u everything huh?"
"yees in great detail"
and then he handed the fone to kelly. smooth of me huh?
eye got locked in the bathroom at jack in the box today. it sucked. eye went inside and locked the upper lock thingy, went to the bathroom and forgot that eye locked it, so eye was sitting there for five minutes wondering y it would open screaming ahh! im locked in! and yea.
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
heart
tuesday
current mood:  jubilant
current music: a song off of the cd that sarah left at my house.....yea....
|
|
(comment on this)
|
| Tuesday, December 2nd, 2003
| |
7:24 pm - penis fucking wrinkel okie?!
|
ugh, what a waste of a day. went to skewl, nothing exciting happend....again,
highlight of the day: i got to sea isaac! whoot whoot
this weekend eye got to sea clockwork orange good movie, its funny two so it all works out.
im against weed.
ive only tryed it two times, and both times i failed at getting, what u younge folk kall, "high", sucks, so if weeds against me, im against it. lol.
people in general are pisssing me the fuck off. ::wow, ive never heard that fucking line before x_x::
i might dye sarah m.'s hair this weekend, spiffy.
well since my life is dull and uneventful i will depart the lovely conversation that im having with myself.
heart
tuesday/
current mood: lame
current music: super thanks for asking- big gay al
|
|
(comment on this)
|
| Saturday, November 29th, 2003
| |
11:15 am - kick me hard ::it makes me horney::
|
yea last nite wasnt a waste...kinda.... me my sister and kelly went two the scene two sea if the bands that were playing were good or not. there was only one good band because the other ones the ppl just swayed and it confused me probably cause eye got tricked into going to an EMO SHOW! AHHHHHHHHHHH ....eye wanna kill my self now.........
eye met this guy there and now eye gots me another show buddy, eye guess im gonna play cupid and hook him up with my sister. but whatever. heh me and him were holding up signs that said "may i please have ur 411" and he held up one that said "kick me hard (it makes me horney):: but the guy in the band couldnt reed it so he just said "kick me...fuck me? o okie" good times man, i finally crowd surfed. it was spiffy. the 2nd time eye did it though...they dropped me. they didnt really have a "pit" but what they did have me and my show buddy were doing the sea walk and rave moves, it was funny as fuck
but yea, im anshamed of myself fore going but whatever eye was TRICKED!
heh eye screamed out penis wrinckel when the guy in the band was talking and he stopped turned his head to the side and said "penis wrinckel?" yea THAT WAS THE HIGHLIGHT OF THE NITE FUCKERS!
well im gonna go
heart
tuesday
current mood: i want to die now.....
current music: Toy dolls- nellie the elephant
|
|
(2 Ran In to a Random Objects| Pull a Tuesday comment on this)
|
| Wednesday, November 26th, 2003
| |
2:53 pm - did u no theres pear flavored jelly beans? ITS MADDNESS!
|
eye gots ta stay home from skewl today. it was spiffy. eye had two go shopping with my mom and sister two get thanksgiving shit.
yesturday was a half day so eye actually got two sea isaac. eye havent been hangout with him that much lately and eye want two more. meh maybe we'll do something this weekend. ::crosses fingers::
saturday eye almost died. lol. eye drank more than half of a huge bottle of pepermint shnops ::<
current mood:  okay
current music: The Casualties- Oi! Song
|
|
(comment on this)
|
| Sunday, November 23rd, 2003
| |
7:24 pm - Im lame so eye did a lame survey
|
Single or Taken: taken
2) Height: 5'5"
3) Birthday: March 23
4) Sign: aries
5) Siblings: a faggot valley girl who goes by the name of laura
6) Hair color: eye still kant figure it out....
7) Eye color: grey
8) Shoe Size: 9 or 10
9) Full name: ::takes breath:: Tuesday Purpel Kristen Marie Klyza Nork ....jesus im gey
*-;-* R e l a t i o n s h i p s~*
1) Who is your best friend: sarah and leni
2) Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend:yea. got a problem with it?
*-;-*F a s h i o n S t u f f *-;-*
1) Where is your favorite place to shop: the store?
2) Any tattoos or piercings: eye gots me ears pierced, and thats about it.....sad eye no.....
;-* T h e E x t r a S t u f f *-;-*
1) Do you do drugs: no comment
2) What kind of shampoo do you use: y do u kare?
3) What kind of conditioner do you use: the one that smells goood
4) What are you most scared of: interacting with old ppl
5) What are you listening to right now: Toy Dolls- Nellie the Elephant
6) What car do you wish to have: one that moves
7) Who is the last person that called you: Sarah M. my homie
8) Where do you want to get married: im not planning on staying alive long enough to get married, but if eye do, then probably as far away from my mother as possible ::eye have a heart, eye swear::
9) How many messenger buddies do you have on right now: that question doesnt process.
10) If you could change anything about yourself: uhh two be pretty?
*-;-* F a v o r I t e s *-;-*
1) Colour: lime green dammit!
2) Food: eye like food as much as chris f likes penis! ~a quote from the amazing leni lol
3) Boy's names: x_x
4) Girls names: tuesday, hence eye made the name fore me.
5) Subjects in school: WHAT KIND OF GOD DAMM QUESTION IS THAT?! AHHHH
6) Animals: polish chickens, they look like they gots mohawks
7) Game: running around in circles screaming random things.
8) Place to be kissed: kiss my kidney u bastard!
9) place to kiss someone else: o_o
10) place to be massaged: back?
*-;-* H a v e Y o u E v e r *-;-*
1) Given anyone a bath: yea baby.......................................my kat u sick bastard!
2) Smoked: yea
3) Bungee jumped: o my marilyn manson eye wish
4) Broken the law: Yea, just so happens eye did it last nite at our lovely party with chris
5) Made yourself throw up: Yea, so?
6) Gone skinny-dipping?: yup
7) Ever been in love: yees
8) Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? nah, that shit doesnt work.
*-;-* F i r s t T h i n g T h a t C o m e s T o M i n d *-;-*
1) Red: blue
2) cow: pie
3) Greenland: cheese
*~-;-~*W h a t ' s W o r s e ?*~-;-~*
1) Barfing on your date or your date barfing on you?: barfing on ur date
2)having nuthing to wear on a date or not going on a date?: not going on a date, shit id go on a date naked fore all eye kare!
3) Do you like filling these out?: no.
4) How many people are you sending this to?: what?
5) Who will send it back: WHAT?!
6) Gold or Silver: gold
7) what is the last film you saw at the cinema: uhh eye think scary movie 3
8) Favorite cartoon characters: BUBBLES cause shes the only powerpuff who kan talk two squriels
9) What do you have for breakfast in the morning: if eye have time
10) Who would you hate being locked in a room with: no one, eye kant stand myself, we get into arguments all the time
11) who would you love being locked in a room with: eye dont no.
current mood:  sick
current music: The Virus- Full circle
|
|
(comment on this)
|
| Friday, November 21st, 2003
| |
11:07 pm
|
wow, hot topics are a hoot, eyem having a funny one with there leader at this exact moment in time ::but dont worry eye wont speak names lord nos they wouldnt have there way with that one::
but anywhos, wow a lots happen since eye last updated.
sarah m spent the nite at me house and sarah d. it was confusing cause whenever eye kalled fore them the other would answer x_x but yea we went to this fucked up party at this ranch. eye got to listen to emo bands HURRAY! o_o isaac was meen two me so eye felt bad the begging of the nite but he kallled me the next day :::bells ring in backround: no u didnt hear rong HE ACTUALLY KALLED ME!::
but yea he was having a weird day so whatever, later that nite was pretty funny, me and sarah m had a water fight and she hit me in the head with the water bottle really hard so eye fell saying "im hit, im down"
then eye made a song about smegma, and it was funny, then eye picked up a guitar and started singing "im a amatur guiarits, eye dont no how to play" and so on, sarah d and this guy alex made a bet on how much trouble eye would get into BUT they both losted it because eye didnt :)
then me and a guy alec :::eye think thats his name::: had a contest about who kould spiun around in circles the fastest and eye won all 8 times. but the last time was the most violent because he fell and he was like "WHOA" and eye triped over him so eye was like "WHOA" and my brain hit a bar so eye was like "WHOAAAAA" and yea
this morning sucked, eye kame two skewl crying, it was alrite though because it didnt take me long to walk to sarah and once she saw me she just huged me and made everyone back off, but of course everyone asked if eye was okie and if eye was alrite which made me cry more. but mike made me laugh in advisory so it worked out. the reason eye was crying was cause my mom kept on saying all this stupid shit, basically on how much of a hore eye am fore datin isaac because HC ::my papa's co worker:: informed my mother on how eye was making out with MY BOYFRIEND on the street, which didnt make sence ::and sarahs a stupid:: but it didnt make sence becuase eye havent seen him fore 3 MOTHER FUCKING DAYS ::breathes hard::
okie im done
but uhh yea eyem tired so im gonna go two bed, tomarrow supposed two be fun cause leni's comming voer and its gonna be a parta!
eye hate u all
with the exception of my friends! :)
heart
a calender
wait no
a day of the week
wait no
the tuesday
~a quote from chris franklin
current mood: amused
current music: Im a amatur guitarest - by meself
|
|
(2 Ran In to a Random Objects| Pull a Tuesday comment on this)
|
|
|
|
|