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Monday, April 5th, 2004
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5:21 pm
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10 year anniversary of kurt cobain's death. my sisters b-day and 107 since laura killed herself. depressing aint it?
current mood:  sad
current music: Nirvana- Lithum
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| Saturday, March 13th, 2004
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8:25 pm
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wow, i havent updated in a while. ive got me new livejournal. all who havent joined......JOIN!
lets see, nothings really happend, found out some fuckd up shit about fucked up people, my moms in denial not realizing that im NOT a druggie. purple hair patches and studs give her a dead giveaway that im a crack hore.
my dad's shitfaced rite now and im sitting here messing around on the computer looking for tetris. i dont no what website to go to to play it and im sad. lol o well. my birthday is in 10 days and im going to the casualties show in 7. leni was gonna go to the dropkick murphy show a day before but shes not with the skinhead thing now. hey, whatever floats ur boat man. im moving into a two story house with a hot tub. im not looking foward to it becuase im living in my dream house as we speak but i guess u gotta do what u gotta do. at least i get to re-decorate a room. what fun x_x
anyways i probably have more to say but have already said it too many times so i wont repeat it here, insted i shall burn the blurty and go to the better, livejournal. wow. i need a life......
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current mood:  blah
current music: Adicts
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| Sunday, February 22nd, 2004
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7:01 pm
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my hair is fixed. i spent 3 and 1/2 hours bonding with a chick with two naked mirmaids on her arms just so i could get a purple head with skunk tails in the front. i do say it looks fabulous.
current mood:  excited
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| Monday, February 16th, 2004
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2:26 pm
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yea, well my new nickname is orange juice cause my fucking hair is.........ORANGE. not just any orange but brite god damm orange. and it sucks.
my self confidence is now : -1,514,548,878,645,001
i stress the (-) ::negitive:: in that
my sis said i look like a cross between the chick from the 5th element and fucking vitamin c or some shit.
ahhhhh
well fuck it, it was supposed to be a wicked color blonde with purple streaks and it turned out to be shit SHIT I TELL U SHIT!
well thats all my life has in it rite now.
o i went to a party wednesday. turns out im stronger than i though.
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current mood:  aggravated
current music: Oxymoron- Obscene Army
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| Thursday, February 12th, 2004
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3:55 pm - whateva
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yea well that stupid drama that was completly unnessicary that sarah so happened to cause it over.
i forgave her and now were kewl.
i made a new vest and it looks spiffy.
my cats dead....well at least we think she is. what a nice presant for v-day huh?
everyones all loveydovey on the tube with there mates, and it sickens me.
i dont think im gonna go to the subhumans show for personal reasons. ::no not my mentrual cycle. for "emotional" personal realsons:: lol.
my dads drunk and is thinking of driving to carls jr. for me, cause im fat and i want food...now..., my cat might be dead and my sister is talking on the fone long distance, so im having a blast at my house.
sarah m. told me that she talked to isaac when he was hammered some friday, and her being her stupid self had a convo that sounded somewhat like this:
"good thing tuesday isnt here, it would be ockward for her"
"y?"
"well its kinda obvious, shes not over u"
"o well, im not over her either"
yea, thanks sarah. i doubt that he said that but i dont that she told him what she did. ugh, fuck it. im an evil bitch of doom and im kinda glad that he misses me. cause i miss him and thats fucked that yea. i donno. i realy didnt want her to say that but shes stupid and she didnt no....cause shes incredibly stupid.
but anyways, im really fucking worried about my kat and shit............damm that would suck if she died. cause yea, that would make me sadder than i already am and shit. penis.
grr...
well thats all i got to say just so i could update the nobodies who reed theses things.
leave a comment cause im lonely. lol.
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current mood: crappy
current music: GBH- alcohol
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| Thursday, February 5th, 2004
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8:19 pm
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fuck this piece of shit. im gonna go update my live journal!
::oo burn to the blurty::
current mood:  accomplished
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| Sunday, February 1st, 2004
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9:55 pm
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Well looks like IM FUCKED SOMETHING UP AGAIN, I TOLD SARAH HOW I FELT AND SHE "TOLD ME HOW SHE FELT"
she doesnt kare about me, and i kare about her, but u no what? shes the one thats not a good friend to me. im willing to forgive. im willing to give her another chance but here inquotes she said that she doesnt care about me or a friendship that ive tryd to keep:
XxcrakhorxX: i dont care anymore
XxcrakhorxX: not about u
XxcrakhorxX: or this friendship
yea im in the RONG ONCE AGAIN FOR SOMETHING SHE STARTED. SHES THE ONE THAT SAID SOME FUCKED UP SHIT TO ME IN A COMMENT THAT SHE LEFT IN HER LITTLE MOTHER FUCKING BLURTY JOURNAL AND NOW SHES PISSED AT ME FOR SOMETHING THAT I DIDNT DO ANYTHING BAD, OR AT LEAST I THINK I DIDNT, I TOLD HER THE TRUTH
SO FUCK IT,
IVE TRYED TO KEEP HER AS A FRIEND.
IVE FORGIVEN HER FOR SHIT THAT I PROBABLY SHOULDNT HAVE.
AND NOW SHES PISSED AT ME.
FUCK. IM JUST NOT A GOOD PERSON RITE? IS THAT WHAT U WANNA HEAR SARAH?
WELL I STILL KARE ABOUT OUR FRIENDSHIP AND UNTILL U FUCKING STIGHTEN UP AND REALIZE WHAT THE FUCK U SAID TO ME GO TO HELL
current mood:  enraged
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9:55 pm
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Well looks like IM FUCKED SOMETHING UP AGAIN, I TOLD SARAH HOW I FELT AND SHE "TOLD ME HOW SHE FELT"
she doesnt kare about me, and i kare about her, but u no what? shes the one thats not a good friend to me. im willing to forgive. im willing to give her another chance but here inquotes she said that she doesnt care about me or a friendship that ive tryd to keep:
XxcrakhorxX: i dont care anymore
XxcrakhorxX: not about u
XxcrakhorxX: or this friendship
yea im in the RONG ONCE AGAIN FOR SOMETHING SHE STARTED. SHES THE ONE THAT SAID SOME FUCKED UP SHIT TO ME IN A COMMENT THAT SHE LEFT IN HER LITTLE MOTHER FUCKING BLURTY JOURNAL AND NOW SHES PISSED AT ME FOR SOMETHING THAT I DIDNT DO ANYTHING BAD, OR AT LEAST I THINK I DIDNT, I TOLD HER THE TRUTH
SO FUCK IT,
IVE TRYED TO KEEP HER AS A FRIEND.
IVE FORGIVEN HER FOR SHIT THAT I PROBABLY SHOULDNT HAVE.
AND NOW SHES PISSED AT ME.
FUCK. IM JUST NOT A GOOD PERSON RITE? IS THAT WHAT U WANNA HEAR SARAH?
WELL I STILL KARE ABOUT OUR FRIENDSHIP AND UNTILL U FUCKING STIGHTEN UP AND REALIZE WHAT THE FUCK U SAID TO ME GO TO HELL
current mood: enraged
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1:26 pm - im betraying blurty. lol.
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yup, thats rite folks, im betraying blurty. i got me a new journal at http://www.livejournal.com/users/bloodstaindlip
if u got one tell me and ill add u to my friends list!
nothing else has really happened to me, o i did get a bunch of patches on studs on the internet. im makin a new vest.
my dad let me get a pulp fiction poster too, they still owe me a bunch of shit but they didnt let me get it this friday cause me and my "rebel" self walked outta skewl on friday.
well thats all i gotta say.
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current mood:  creative
current music: The Adicts- Viva la Revolution
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| Wednesday, January 28th, 2004
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5:22 pm - in need to get outta here...
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well the fucking deed is done i guess.
i thought be and him were already broken up.
im just really slow i guess, he didnt want to be a pussy about it and so he waited after for me in person.
i didnt no that he was waiting for me so me sarah m and kortney were hanging out after skewl with brad and all of them. then someone came up to me and told me he was waiting there. well i got really fucking confused about that so i walked up to him and heres our convo:
"what r u doing here? i though we broke up and stuff..."
"i didnt want to be a pussy about it so i came to see u and tell u in person"
"uhh okie" ::note im trying as hard as i fucking can NOT to look at him because i no if i do then ill see him and no what the fuck im gonna be missing::
"i dont want to be a bad boyfriend and not be here for u and have u be everyday like 'o hes not here, o hes not here' so yea"
"okie. i understand"
then he put his arm on my shoulder and said
"thats y u were always rad. were still buds rite?"
and of course i said yea.
i wantd to get outta there as soon as i fucking could so me and sarah m walked to del taco ::there was no where else to go.::
i didnt wanna cry cause ive already cried about it ya no?
well i did cry and it was funny cause me and sarah were the only ones in del taco and shes hugging me and im cry.
what a sight to see huh?
i no me and him have been broken up for what? one hour or something,
i miss him......so fucking bad......
anyone who says to u, its better to have love and lost than to have never loved at all is full of shit cause id rather not have loved anyone at all and not felt this way ever.
i dont want to feel this way again and i dont think im gonna be so gulible as to fall for someone so deep.
i no he wants me to be happy and shit and i understand y he broke up with me.
it just hurts.
a lot.
and
im not gonna let anyone make me feal this "heart broken" or whatever u kall it again.
i dont kare who it is.
im not falling again.
current mood:  crushed
current music: Devotchkas- Sorry.
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| Tuesday, January 27th, 2004
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8:58 pm - im sick of being a magnet to bullshit.
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fuck everything.
fuck skewl,
fuck friends,
fuck my family,
fuck love,
fuck heartbreak,
fuck everything. nothing has actually come out to be good. yea for a little while but of course....it turns to shit.
i always get into this shit that makes me get hurt....a lot....
friends that dont show me there true identity when its the worst time,
friends who act all "o u can trust me ill always be there for u"
yet thats bullshit.
friends that shit on u every single seconds.
fuck all of them. i cant handle bad friends rite now.
and this fucked up shit ppl kall "love"
fuck that. its stupid and it needs to stop. im against fucking love. which is y i shall die alone. and be proud cause i didnt fall for something that will end. because i now no how it feals.
r me and isaac even still together?! fuck i dont even no!
i no that hes IS gonna break up with me, but uhhhh has it happend yet? i dont no.
wow thats a load of shit...
psh i need to stop being shit on.
i have leni and sarah m. thats all i really need.
fuck everyone else. i dont need em. sure its awsome if i had more that two ppl i can really count on, but YA NO.
people surprise me everyday on how fucked up this world is.
meh i guess theses are "test" rite?
like im supposed to act like a good person when they happen.
well ive had more tests like this that i can count.
i no how to act during these things.
fuck everyone who thinks i dont no what im talking about,
ive been through more shit that the average person goes through in there lifetime,
AND IM NOT EVEN IN HIGH SKEWL!
fuck it i dont kare.
like i said, fuck everyone and everything I DONT KARE ABOUT ANYTHING RITE NOW.
so shit on me all u want, doesnt matter y?
CAUSE I DONT KARE.
fuck u.
current mood:  indescribable
current music: Toxic Narcotic- Fuck You
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8:26 am - alrite
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im guessing a lot of ppl no and im the last too.
well guess what mother fuckers!
i dont need ur simpathy im fine. im gonna be fine. and theres nothing rong with it. im understanding about it and im not gonna fucking crumble so before ANYONE trys to tell me how sorry they are, why dont u try feeling ur teeth knocked in first!
fuck it i dont no kare, no one has shown me good friend ship expect for a chick ive met 3 times, 3 FUCKING TIMES! whatever i dont kare. ive had bad friends before and ill have em again....i just thought this time i got some good ones...silly me...
current mood: enraged
current music: Toxic Narcotic- Fuck You
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| Friday, January 23rd, 2004
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9:49 pm - im gonna fucking slaughter someone.
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i was watching this fucked up show today. it was about people who tryed to kill themselves and failed.
well heres what i have to say to all u fuckers who tryed:
ur all fucking pussys with no life.
the reason u didnt suceed is probably cause u really did want to live.
u just seeing how "kewl" it is on tv or on the internet or on a cd or something,
wanted to have something depressing to tell all ur little buds at skewl.
u think its like so totally awsome to slit ur wrists and tell ur little dorky friends that
poor wittle u didnt get enough attention from ur wittle mommy or daddy
so u tryed to kill urself but it didnt work?
AHHH i could fucking slaughter all of u!
if u try to kill urself. do it. dont fucking be a no good pussy and not suceed.
follow through with everything that u do! ::is what my mom always says::
and to even think that suicides something kewl to try?
what the fuck?
i no what it feels like to loose a friend from that shit.
it aint all fun and games from ur little wanna-be depressed teen phase that ur going through.
what happens if u try to do it just for a scar or something to tell ppl when the doctors relieve u,
and IT WORKS?!
does any of u even KNOW what its like for the people around u?!
IM GUESSING NOT CAUSE U KEEP ON TRYING IT.
"o but i needed someone to talk to, i felt like no one was there!"
boofuckingwoo.
ur all scum of the earth as far as im concerned.
the only good reason to kill urself is if ur like 102 and u have cancer and all ur friends and family member are dead.
i know that people that i walk the halls with at skewl are like this.
it seems like everywhere i go now i find them.
i want to sock every single one of them in the face and watch them bleed.
if u wanna killurself, dont fail. cause ur a fucking pussy if u do.
...........fucking cunts.............
god fuck u all.
current mood: enraged
current music: Toxic Narcotic- Fuck You
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| Thursday, January 22nd, 2004
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5:26 pm - survey that i stole from sarah who stole from someone else...
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CURRENTS
current clothes: vest, shirt, and pants. ::wow im exciting.::
current hair: on head.
current mood: hungry
current music: toxic narcotic- drink
current taste: chicken
current smell: chickem
current annoyance: laura
current thing I ought to be doing: im supposed to be doing something?! ::shrugs::
current desktop: desky?
current favorite band: so many to choose from, id say toxic narcotic, lower class brats, the adicts, dead kennedys, oxymoron, and i kant think of anymore rite now..
current book: give a boy a gun ::its about a kid who shoots up his skewl, its a atmosphere booster!::
current cd in cd player: the antidote cd that isaac lended to leni who lended it to sarah and now i have it x_X
current color of fingernails: chiped rainbow
current worry: what the hell isaac was thinking about last nite ::those are the famouse last words of my ex's::
Current Crush: mt boyfriend?
LAST PERSON
you talked to: kitty
you hugged: dezimen
you instant messaged: my cousin neil
you yelled at: laura, my sis.
who broke your heart: well seaings i havent given my heart to any of my ex's no one yet, but well see.
FAVORITE
family member: mr. pickels or my dad, everyone else is a dildo
food: cheesecake......mmmmmm......
drink: pepsi
color: lime green
shoes: my doc martens
candy: the ones that are goood?
animal: hamster
tv show: fairly odd parents.
dance: the munkey
song: too many to choose from
vegetable: i dont no any.
fruit: chris franklin of course!
ARE YOU
understanding: yea
open-minded: i try to be
arrogant: i donno, i hope not
interesting: no
hungry: yea
friendly: yea
smart: pshyea
moody: not really, "your always in the same mood::happy" a quote from brad today.
childish: nah, i kan act like i am though
independent: more than most.
organized: have u seen my room? well....at least its not as bad as sarahs :P
shy: hell no
difficult: sometimes, who isnt?
attractive: hell no
bored easily: yea, but i kan be easily amused to. its strange really..
Messy: yup
Thirsty: yees
responsible: yea
obsessive: nah
angry: when ppl piss me the fuck off!
sad: when something sad happens
happy: ......yea?
trusting: yea
ill: yea, i kant hear outta one of my ears, leni's ill too.
talkative: i can be, i can be really quiet too, but everyone assumes somethings rong when i am.
different: no i look exacally like u x_x
unique: yea im unique, just like everyone else.
ignored: i donno, unlikely.
content: yea
a thinker: yupers
sleepy: nah
lonely: nope, i got lots of peeps
WHO DO YOU WANT TO
kill: someone i hate with a unbelievable passion.
kiss: my boyfriend?
hug: my kitty
hook up: my boyfriend u twitch.........and maybe johnny depp lol
be like: no one
HAVE YOU EVER
-Kissed your cousin?: on the lips? no ::shivers::
-Ran away?: ive wanted too
-Broken someone's heart?: yea but it wasnt my fault, he was obessed!
-Been in love?: yup
-Cried when someone died?: yea, probably too much too.
-Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have?:who the fuck hasnt? and i STILL kant get johnny depp! AHH!
-Broken a bone?: yees, my poor wittle finger :( lol
-Drank alcohol?: yupers
-Lied?: ............yea.......
-Cried in school?: yea, but im pretty sure it was for a good reason..
WHICH IS BETTER
-Coke or Pepsi?: pepsi
-Sprite or 7UP?: mountain dew
-Girls or guys?: meh doesnt really matter
-Flowers or candy?: if its a flower : pink tulips if its kandy: a mr goodbar but i prefer a chocolate flower.
-Quiet or loud?: depends on the situation
-Blondes or brunettes?:well, ive been a blonde. and for a couple of weeks a burnette. and ive realized its a fucking hair color....it doesnt matter.
-Tall or short?: tall
-Panties or boxers?: depends if its on a guy or girl.
WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX
-What do you notice first?: hair.
-Last person you slow danced with?: i kant dance.
-Worst question to ask?: "r those real or do u stuff??" yea meh are ignorent. lol
-Had a great time with the oppostie sex?: i donno, i havent seen isaac in a while.
WHAT IS
-Your good luck charm?: i dont got one,
-The person you hate the most?: theres a selected few. but i got a great reason for haten em! but i kant decide on just one person, thats narrowing it down too much.
-The best thing that happened to you today?:i saw taylor? that was groovy.
Favorite
-Color(s)?: lime green bitch!
-Movie(s)?: let sea: pulp fiction, clockwork orange, detroit rock city, blaizing saddles, casino, taxi, and some others that i cant think of rite now.
-Book(s)?: of mice and men, give a boy a gun, cut, and some others but i dont read that often so its hard to remember..
-Subject in school?: lunch?
-Ice cream?: pecan butter
-Holiday?: im not very fond of holidays. too much work put into em.
-Season?: fall
-Breakfast food?: benedict eggs. god damm u now im hungry.
-Place to go on your honeymoon?: well im not sure if anyone will wanna keep me forever lol, but if i had to choose probably at home.
WHO
-Makes you laugh the most?: so many funnt people i no, but probably sarah, cause shes really lame. lol.
-Makes you smile?: leni
-Gives you a funny feeling when you see them?: isaac lol who woulda thought that one?
-Has a crush on you?: i hope my boyfriend, but i could be rong.
-Do you have a crush on?: how many times have u asked me that?!
-Can make you feel better no matter what?: i donno, probably leni cause there isnt very many incidences where ive needed to feel better, and the ones that i do, leni's the one who does it the best, even if she doesnt no what to say.
-Is easier to talk to, guys or girls?: sarah, cause she listens the best.
DO YOU EVER
-Sit by the phone waiting for a call all night?: yea, cause im lame....they never kalled either.....
-Save AOL conversations?: yea, but only important ones.
-Save E-Mails?: yea, i got like 8 of leni's poems in my inbox psh.
-Wish you were someone else?: no often
-Wish you were a member of the oppostie sex?: yea especially when i need to pee really bad and theres no toilets except for a fucking bush or something.
-Cried because of someone's mean words?: yea, that sticks and stones bullshit is....bullshit..lol
BEST
-Perfume?: i dont wear em so i donno
-Kiss?: ill never teeellll ::hehe::
-Most recent advice given to you?: ur fat stop eating ~my mom
-Fallen for your best friend?: yea, but i stoped after a while
-Made out with "just a friend"?: yupers
HAVE YOU EVER
-Been in love?: yees
-Used someone?: nah
-Been used?: yea
-Been cheated on?: probably
-Been kissed?: yea
-Done something you regret?: thats a stupid question, everyone has.
-What is it?: probably when i trusted people i shouldnt have and saw there truw colors after i opened up to em.
-My mother thinks I am: fat, ugly, ignornet, o the list goes on and on lol.
-My father thinks I am: kewl.
-My siblings think I am: lame.
-My grandma thinks I am: worthless
-My grandpa thinks I am: i aint got one so i donno
-My boyfriend/girlfriend/husband/wife thinks I am: i hope something good!
-My best friend thinks I am: lame.
-Your three best qualities? from sarah "funny, sweet as hell, and a good friend"
-What are you often complimented for?: always bringing up someone when there down.
-A compliment you got that made you blush? lol when leni screamed at me for being pretty.
-You get embarrassed when?: i get embarssed 987587512687951 times a day.
-What upsets you?: 1) when people either lie, backstab me, or act low 2) when someone takes a over the counter drug, too much, and then complains cause they think something bads gonna happen 3) try too hard to be something that there not
wow, i just describled about 10 ppl i no.humf.
YES OR NO
-Keep a journal?: ...what r u looking at u twitch
-Like to cook?: yea
-Have a secret you have not shared with anyone?: yea
-Talk in your sleep?: yea, heh i screamed out pumpernickel one.....i love that bread...
-moved your clock a few minutes ahead?: yea
-Bite your fingernails?: yea
-Believe in love?: yea
-Believe in underage drinking?:yea
-Like streaking?: yea, in my house.
LAST
-Movie you rented?: freddy vs. jason, it was a failed attemped.
-Movie you bought?: finding nemo ::it was me mums idea::
-Movie you watched?: uptown girls, my sister made me join her. its all sad and stuff.
-Song you listened to?: no nazis in punk- antidote
-Song that was stuck in your head?: i dont remember
-Last song you've downloaded?: something from the dead kennedys
-Person you've called?: meh probably sarah d.
-Person that's called you?: sarah d
-TV show you've watched?: ed edd and eddy
-Person you were thinking of?: laura burkett ::im talking to britteny long rite now...::
DO
-You wish you could live somewhere else?: nah, im dandy rite here.
-You believe in online dating?: hell no
-Others find you attractive?: some do
-You want more piercings?: yea
-You want more tattoos?: considering i dont have any, yea.
-You drink?: sometimes
-You like cleaning?:no
-You like roller coasters?: ive only been on 2
-You write in cursive or print?: print
HAVE YOU
-Ever cried over a boy/girl?: yea..
-Ever lied to someone?: who the hell hasnt
-Ever been in a fist fight?: yea
-Ever been arrested?: not yet
WHAT
-Shampoo do you use?: the ones that r in the shower
-Perfume/cologne do you use?:i dont use em
-Shoes do you wear?: either my doc martens or my 3 year old converse
-Are you scared of?: whales, old people, the movie the candyman, and losing the ppl i love again.
NUMBER
-Of times I have been in love?: once, and its still happenin lol
-Of times I have had my heart broken?: 1 time, but i really wasnt in love, i just liked him a lot and trusted him. silly me.
-Of hearts I have broken?: 1 but it wasnt my fault.
-Of girls/guys I have kissed?: i donno, i dont keep kount
-Of people I consider my enemies?: too many.
-Of CDs' that I own?: 4 or 5, im gonna burn some soon and im getting some on the interenet
-Of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: 0
-Of things in my past that I regret?: tooooo many
WHAT IS
- Your most overused phrase on AIM: lol
- Your first thoughts waking up: how to keep sleeping while getting ready for skewl
- Your best physical feature: tits lol
- Your bedtime: 10 or so
- Your most missed memory: the longest weekend me and leni ever had, and the time she almost killed me, and we went up to sarah a couple of seconds later and she had her fly down braging about her new pants lmfao
DO YOU
- Cuss: i dont fucking cuss what the shit are u fucking talking about u cunt!
- Sing: never really tryed too
- Take a shower everyday: ill never tell ::oo i pulled a brittney murphy!::
- Have a crush: yea, my boyfriend, i think thats the 8th time uve asked me
- Do you think you've been in love: yea
- Want to go to college: yea in new york
- Believe in yourself: no, im a fairy tale that parents tell there children so theyll cry.
- Get motion sickness: nah
- Think you're attractive: fuck no i break mirrors.
- Think you're a health freak: no, im eating fried chicken as i type this
- Get along with your parents: my dad yea but not my mom
- Like thunderstorms: mmm thunderboomers, i miss those so fucking much
IN THE PAST MONTH...
- Drank alcohol: no
- Been drunk: nope
- Been trashed: i told u no
- Had Sex: saddly no
- Made out: yees
- Gone on a date: well if just being with ur boyfriend is considered a date then yea, but if ur talking alike movies and dinner bullshit then u kan suck a beaver.
- Gone to the mall?: yea, and fucking leni made me go into hot topic FOREVER!
- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: nah id spew.
- Eaten sushi: mmmmm sushi
- Been on stage: yup
- Been dumped: yea..
- Gone skating: yea
- Made homemade cookies: yea they turn out like shit run over 8 times.
- Gone skinny dipping: yea
- Dyed your hair: yea
- Stolen anything: yea
EVER...
- Played a game that required removal of clothing: not yet
- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: yea
- Been caught "doing something": lol yea
- Been called a tease: nope
- Shoplifted: too many times
- Changed who you were to fit in: once for like a day, but quickely changed back.
- Age you hope to be married: meh like 25 or some shit, i just dont wanna die alone
- Numbers and Names of Children: 0 and no names. i dont wanna be a bad mom so im gettin my tubes tide.
- Describe your dream wedding:yea once
- How do you want to die: with someone i love
- Where you want to go to college: nyu
- What do you want to be when you grow up: either a teacher, radio person, or something else i donno im only 13!
IN A GUY/GIRL
- Best eye color? shit brown, u have too look real hard to look into there eyes its great!
- Best hair color? red or green its all peachy
- Short or long hair: depends
- Height: taller than me
- Best articles of clothing: something that looks good on em?
- Best first date location: i donno
- Best first kiss location: lol che cafe
yea i no im lame but hey i didnt have anything else to do!
current mood: bored
current music: dead kennedys- MTV get off the air
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| Tuesday, January 20th, 2004
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11:09 pm - ahhh
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being at home all day fucking sucks.
ive watched way too many re-runs of the farily odd parents today.
i keep on getting dizzy from the pills that the doc gave me.
i wanna go two skewl ::no children not to learn::
so i kan see all my lovely pals.
i havent seen isaac in a while either and its bugging me.
sarah is gonna come over tomarrow around three and were gonna
eat and stuff x_x
i got in a bitch fight with her crush. it was amusing,
but it got old real fast.
its 11 and im gonna go to bed soon,
i had a dream the other nite that i slit my own throat and i woke up real thursty.
it confused me.
i probably had it cause i watched the failed horror flick attemped
im chopin off my hair friday and i kant wait.
my sister told me that i should get a mulet.
cause it would be really original.
buisness in the front and party in the back x_x
i told her to fuck a duck.
umm let sea what else is new.
theres a subhumans show the 27th of febuary i think. ::thats what im told::
and a causalties show three days before my birthday.
it will be spiffy.
"I love twinkies, note the only reason im saying this is becuase im trying to think of reasons to live"
i forgot where i got that quote humf.
does anyone even reed theses things anyways?
meh doesnt matter anyway its supposed to be my journal rite? cause we all no i put my deep and dark secrets that i have in here o_o
well my little robots, i must depart,
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tuesday
current mood:  groggy
current music: Oxymoron- You're a bore U Whore
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| Monday, January 19th, 2004
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8:54 pm - ugh
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yea, i feal like shit
and i look like shit ::as always::
o and i just ate shit ::my moms cookies::
hummm wat a shitty day for poor ol me x_x
yea
i almost passed out in the doctors office today.
my doctors a fruit so he talks constantly, about.....nothing...so he finally said me and my mum kan wait outside for my meds, and as i stood up he starting talking about his daughter, remember im sick so i kant stand up for a long time without wanting to pass out or sit down cause, im weak and stuff
so i was hunched over saying softly "im dizzy" lol
its madness i tell u
turns out i got me a double ear infection.
not that u should kare
sarah the other sarah and leni came over, heh in the nick of time too cause me and my mom were in a tussle.
my mom thought that i was abusing my meds, cause she nos that im the kind of person who does that sorta stuff.
fuck i hate my sister and my mom. they need to die, but anyways
uhhhhhhh ::drools::
o im gettin me hair kut on friday. it will be spiffy.
its gonna be kewl cause its gonna be super short in the back and like, slide to the front of my hair to my bangs, so it looks like a diagnol thingy. ::i suck at explaing things::
but yea
im not gonna go to skewl tomarrow, cause the meds that the doc gave me arnt gonna work until 48 hours is up.
nothing else has really happend.
o my mom kept on looking into all the high skewls that fuckin sent me shit and i guess they get good grade students to sign up for them so they kan have better scores for there tests,
so it looks like either clairmont or la jolla, ::most likely clairmont, y? because its convenyant and stuff::
well i dont really have a life so
byes
current mood:  jubilant
current music: i kant hear. therefor there i kant hear any music.
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| Saturday, January 17th, 2004
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10:01 pm - i feal like shit.
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well, im sick. i kant hear outta one of my ears cause i guess fluids backed up in it or some shit.
i keep on fealing like im gonna pass out, but enough about my problems.
nothing new has really happend.
o, i got 2 letters from these high skewls today. apparently someone recomended me for san diego high and cortez hill ::the one sarah goes to::
im sure as hell not gonna go to cortez cause from what sarah has told me theres a lot of stupid ignorent people who are posing there. he its funny cause theres this chick bebu or whatever the fuck her name is, she doesnt like me cause my vest has nothing but cloth patches on em. wtf?! am i suppoosed to staple bunnys on my vest or something? i well shes a cow anyways so fuck it......heh.....moo.......
i might go to san diego high though.
i dont think i want to go to clairmont cause everyone keeps on telling me how much that skewl sucks.
or maybe they just think it sucks cause, hey its skewl, and they have to attend.
i told sarah m, and she reasured me that im not. shes not gonna let me. lol.
i guess thats the only reason i dont want to go to clairmont is because i hear the teachers are stupid.
sure i dont wanna start over again in another skewl, but it wouldnt be that bad. jesus ive dont it over a dozen times.
i donno, i dont have to make that decision today, i mean i got a hole semester and summer to see if i want to go threw with it. meh o well.
sarah and leni are at some show of a band that i dont no, im sure im not missing out on much.
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tuesday
current music: oxymoron-Insane
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| Monday, January 12th, 2004
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6:56 pm - mmmmmm milkshakes
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the show sucked.
i dont like cheap sex anymore,
but i still like the virus's music, so i donno.
my weekend was fucked.
i greatly dislike my family.
they woke me up at like 7 30 or something, my dad came in and yanked off the covers and slapped me to get it.
so i had to.
i stayed quiet a lot during the hole trip.
my mom said some fucked up shit about laura burkett,
so i locked myself in the bathroom.
she made me feel bad the hole trip.
i did get to sea the govenator.
but he looks like a girly man, and my dad could probably kick his ass
he lost all of his musle.
i asked for a hug but he ignored me.
but i still like conan the barbarian.
i asked for a hug from frekinstien, and i got one.
so of course my mom had to tell me how stupid i was for asking for all these hugs.
the rest of the scullions agreed.
well thats been my life so far, interesting huh?
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current mood:  hungry
current music: 007 is on the tv, therefor i am listening to the theme song.
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| Thursday, January 8th, 2004
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8:19 pm - ugh, relatives
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well, granny and aunt liz are over.
x_x
i got bumbarded with unsults one car ride home.
i stuck up for myself.
they kicked me outta the car.
i had to walk up the hill,
my mom decides to pick me up when the hill is over.
i got a lecture about respect
i had to apologise.
i tryed to do something nice today,
i tryed to make my grandma a hancerchief for her suit case
i didnt make it perfect.
i got on the fone with leni and left to room for a least 1 minute.
my sister took over MY sewing jobs when i got back.
im unwanted in my own fucking house.
my mom kalled my 4th period.
made me think someone died and that it was an emergency.
it wasnt.
she wanted to tell me that were going somewhere friday.
because THAT couldnt have waited till tonite.
i try my fucking best not to think about what happend to laura.
and when i start. its fucking hard as hell not to cry.
and of course, people bring her up, and when i say i dont wanna talk about it. they ask more questions.
god, fuck the world rite now.
current mood: enraged
current music: vaurkers- die for your government
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| Monday, January 5th, 2004
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9:55 pm - yeaaa
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well nothings happened.
went to skewl today.
fucking sucked.
i felt like a zombie all day.
everyone new that laura died.
it was hard not to cry during 6th period.
after skewl leni and sarah were waiting for me.
sarah m. want me to go to albertsons with her to help steal some vodka for her.
i had a really really fukcing bad feeling about being there so i left.
and walked home because i didnt want to go back where leni and sarah were cause i new i was gonna cry.
i cryed as i was walking home.
the door was open when i got there so i thought that a robber was gonna be there so i was waiting for me just to get kiddnaped and gunned down by pervs.
turns out my grandma left the door open by mistake.
tomarrow im gonna give isaac his x-mas presant ::if he comes after skewl::
i changed it though. i pasted a pic of me and him on the hood ordimant i stole cause he was bugging me one day fore a pic of me.
so there he goes.
i got my boots.
they fit perfectly.
i was supposed to wear em with sarah on the same day but my relatives are gonna make me wear em tomarrow.
so its sucks.
ignorence in my skewl is at a all time high.
everyone thinks sarah m and kortney are "copying me"
even though there the fuckers who copy me more than anyone ive ever seen in my fucking lifetime.
talked to leni after skewl. s
he did the fucking funnyest impression of isaac.
and thats my life so far.
so fuck a donkey and get on with your lives!
current mood:  sleepy
current music: Dead Kennedys- California Uber Alles
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