Sirius Black's Blurty

Advice
He wants me to cut back on the wine. My therapist that is. Today in my sesssion I told him just how much I was drinking a day. He wants me to start with cutting it in HALF. That would bring me down to two bottles a day. I suppose if I limit myself to drinking ONLY when cooking or eating I should be able to do it.

I had another idea the other day. A Potion. There has to be a potion that "picks up ones emotions" in all of those books of Sev's. I think tonight I shall start researching it, and see if one exists that I can brew without poisoning myself, for I am not suicidal. Far from it. I just get the blues so bad from time to time, I can't seem to function. Then again, there was the time when I was at Hogwarts as "Jack" that I tried doping myself to non-sexuality with a potion. IT worked, much to the frustration of Severus when he found out. This was early into our taboo relationship of Professor-Master / Student-Consort phase. When he found out, he not only gave me a counter-acting potion but destroyed the rest of what I had brewed. I am wondering, do I need to cure everything with a chemical, or potion? I wonder if HE had been doing the same for all these years? Maybe I should go into work more often and volunteer for some cases instead of waiting for them to call me up on the Nigh Impossible Ones.

Maybe.

I definitely need a hobby, or something to distract me. Perhaps I should get a hob at the school. Right. That will work. It will be Jack and Snape all over again. Shagging each other silly in every abandone crevice of the school when ere we aren't teaching or marking papers.

Wait, that could be a GOOD thing...

More later.

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