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Blurty for I wish I could be as invisible as you make me feel.
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| Thursday, April 8th, 2004 |
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Hello Mr Blurty. Been a long time. So, let's review the past month. March 6th- I went to Dropkick Murphys! Went upto London before the gig for a bit of light shopping with Cara, Nick and Luke. Then later we went to the Astoria, met up with Spudy and other people. Twas a good evening. The support bands were quite good too. And, er, that 'text message' screen thing was really exploding wth 'the hooligans' and general Reading related text messages. From March 8th- March 30th, I had normal weekends, going out, seeing Nick, Cara and other friends. During the week, school of course. Managed to hand in my FOOD and IT coursework on time. SUCCESS! On March 31st - I had a half day, but actually I only went into school for half an hour to hand in my Food coursework. Then Becki, Rax and I went into town for a cake and some bits and bobs. We met up with Joss in town, went shopping. Then at like 11:45 about 15 of us met up at Pizza Hut and went for my birthday lunch! Thanks everyone for coming and for the lovely presents <3 Hope your knee's okay Joss <3 April 1st - MY 16th Birthday! Woo! In the daytime, Nick came over. We hung out. Then later in the afternoon, Cara came over. Thanks for the presents both of you. <3 'DAAANGERMOUSE the worlds greatest secret agent'. I really am digging that CD Cara. And we need to play that shots/stripping game! :P Then in the evening, we went to Nando's with my siblings and their other halves. Yummy chicken. Thanks mummy, daddy, sisters, brother for presents <3 Since then, I've just been doing pretty much nothing! Should be revising. Tonight, I'm going to Oxford. Should be good. NO COMPLY are playing. But now I shall go eat my BLT. [peace] |
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| Thursday, March 4th, 2004 |
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'This is my life, it's not what it was before, all these feelings I've shared, these are my dreams, I've never lived before, somebody shake me 'cause I must be sleeping. And now that we're here, so far away.....' Wow. It's March already. And fuckthisshitup, I'm seeing dropkick murphys on saturday with Cara, Nick, Luke, Spudy, etc. It'll be great. LETS GO MURPHYS!! And I was looking forward to updating this but I've just realised I don't even want to write how I am feeling. Because I'm selfish like that. OKAY? <3 <3 |
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| Saturday, February 14th, 2004 |
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Happy Valentines Day everyone! <3 <3 <3 Bigg it up to Cara and Matt, hope they have a romantic evening ;) ;) |
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| Tuesday, January 13th, 2004 |
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Hands Down Breathe in for luck breathe in so deep this air is blessed you share with me this night is wild so calm and dull these hearts they race from self control your legs are smooth as they graze mine we're doing fine we're doing nothing at all. My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me. So won't you kill me, so I die happy. My heart is yours to fill or burst or break or bury or wear as jewelery, which ever you prefer. The words are hushed lets not get busted, just lay entwined here undiscovered. Safe from the earth and all the stupid questions.. "hey did you get some?" Man, that is so dumb. Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear, so we can get some. My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me. So won't you kill me, so I die happy. My heart is yours to fill or burst or break or bury or wear as jewelery, which ever you prefer. Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember, I'll always remember the sound of the stereo, the dim of the soft lights, the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late and the walk that we shared together. The street was wet and the gate was locked so I jumped it and let you in and you stood at the door with your hands on my waist and you kissed me, but you meant it and I knew that you meant it, that you meant it, that you meant it, and I knew, that you meant it, that you meant it. |
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| Thursday, January 1st, 2004 |
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Happy New Year everyone. It doesn't feel much different, except I do have one hell of a hangover. Started drinking at like 7pm and stopped at like 4:30am. Woo. That was fun. I managed to use alot of credit on my phone texting and I also played bass down the phone to alot of people, it was fun...they seemed to like it, and my friend played some guitar and he's SO good, so it was quite embarassing. Eventually at like 6am I fell asleep. Only woke up recently. Am beginning to worry about things like school. I haaaave to do well on my GCSE's. I'm going to fail so badly, I know. I have my mocks in 5 days and I haven't done ANY revision, don't even have adequate notes. SHOOT ME NOW. :\ Still have a bloody I.T. project to do that was due on Dec16th. I might just get drunk tonight, tomorrow and the following night. Then the night before exams, revise for 2 hours. :| Yes. Yes. Grrrr. Help meeee. [chokes] |
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| Wednesday, December 31st, 2003 |
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WHO KNOWS. WHO CARES. WHO HAS THE ANSWER? Pffft. Too much thinking can be seen as extremely un-healthy, it fucking sucks. All I do is think. When I think that one change could make a massive impact on hundreds or even thousands I wish I could help make that one change. But when I actually put my mind on something and am sure I can do something, I end up giving up too soon or completely failing. This probably doesn't make any sense to any reading this, but it does in my mind, slightly. Well, it's like this really, you TRY so HARD and you never do get what you REALLY want. And just when you're close, it suddenly goes 100 times quicker than it took to get you that far. Ugh. I'm mummbling. :\ |
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| Saturday, December 27th, 2003 |
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this world this world is cold but you don’t you don’t have to go your feeling sad your feeling lonely and no one seems to care your mothers gone and your father hits you this pain you cannot bear but we all bleed the same way as you do and we all have the same things to go through hold on if you feel like letting go hold on it gets better than you know the days, you say they're way too long and your nights, you cant sleep at all and you're not sure what you're waiting for but you don't want to no more and you're not sure what you're looking for but you don’t want to no more but we all bleed the same way as you do and we all have the same things to go through hold on if you feel like letting go hold on it gets better than you know don’t stop looking your one step closer don’t stop searching its not over hold on what are you looking for what are you waiting for do you know what your doing to me GO AHEAD what are you waiting for hold on if you feel like letting go hold on it gets better than you know don’t stop looking your one step closer don’t stop searching its not over...hold on |
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Christmas was good. I got too drunk though. Nevermind. Was fun. I got: Polar bear fur rug. Black duvet and pillow cases. Jump rope with calorie counter. Ben Sherman shirt. Pale pink Ra Ra skirt. Belt. Scarf. 'Nice one' tshirt. Sweatband. Bangles. Makeup brushes set. Jamie Oliver recipe book. Limp Bizkit - Results May Vary. Bouncing Souls - Anchors Aweigh. The Coral. Fred Perry Blue zip up jumper. Powerpuff girls knickers. Comic knickers. PJs. Red wellies with white stars. Airbrush tattoo's kit. Grease DVD. Nail whitener pencil. Various chocolates. Red glittery lava lamp. Pool table. Two big chunky crackle candles. Decorate celotape. Luxury pink pillowcase. Thanks Santa, family and friends. <3 I used to know the sound of a smile in your voice. Please don't walk away, I know you want to stay, just give me a sign, say anything, say anything. Best friends can become strangers. :: I MISS YOU :: |
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| Monday, December 22nd, 2003 |
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It's so cold today, indoors and outdoors. C'mon heating! I'm still ill. Last night my mum said my feet were ice cold. But the rest of me was boiling! But it's dangerous to have cold feet apparently. They're freezing right now. I might have to try putting on some socks! These slippers don't really work very well. I missss you. The more we're apart, the more I miss you. But I miss you even if we've only been apart for 10 minutes. It's crazy, but like I said, I'm crazy for you. <3 Merry Christmas everyone. Not much time left! The happy day is on Thursday! xxx |
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| Saturday, December 20th, 2003 |
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Wow. Christmas is on Thursday, quite exciting! But, I'm ill. So it really sucks. I'm on antibiotics because I have tonsilitus and an ear infection. Can't really go out, have to stay indoors and try not be as bored as ever. I wanted to go to his house! I was looking forward to it 'cause I really like him. Had to be ill now, DIDN'T I? Silly me. Silly Silly ME! Humpfh. Last night was alright, but the Kings tavern is quite empty and the bands playing weren't amazing either, so it more or less sucked! Nevermind that. The next roebuck isn't untill January 24th. Take the next step. Woo! Sexy bassist. [grins] I never know quite why I react like I do, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to argue with you, but you were quite irresponsible and it gets to me because you're seen as the responsible one, and I'm seen as the irresponsible one, so when you messed up, I had a go at you. Some things you said, hurt me inside, but after all, we're family, and we're always going to be there for eachother. I'll try be better towards you, I just feel like we've not been as close and as nice to eachother recently. I'll try improve. MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE. |
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I put that record on just to make a sound The rhythm hit got my movement off the ground The soundtrack of what i want to be If i want to change the world, it's gotta start with me. I put the needle on the record and play that song again And in the end what have we learned? Are we just faces in the crowd? I died and was reborn again today Hold fast to myself, make these good feelings stay We laughed we cried The music shaped our lives so tell me why our movement's out of time? Are we so out of line? I put the needle on the record and play that song again A movement with no leaders We stand tonight hearts in our hands |
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| Wednesday, December 17th, 2003 |
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My feelings are so mixed up. I'm angry because you've broken the deal, and now I can't see him today. I'll have to wait till Friday or Saturday. That makes me unhappy and very upset. Happy 'cause I'm talking to *him* though. <3 <3 <3 :-D It's almost Christmas. 8 sleeps left I think. Still need to do some Christmas shopping though. Dayum, I'm hungry. |
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| Wednesday, December 10th, 2003 |
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| 2 DAYS TILL THE BOUNCING SOULS WILL ROCK MY LIFE. | ||||
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| Tuesday, December 9th, 2003 |
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It's 3 till Cara, James, Spudy and I shall be catching a train up to London, and seeing THE BOUNCING SOULS. I'm more excited then I have ever been about a gig before, mainly because they're my favourite band. CANNNNNNY WAIIITTT!!! On another note, haven't written here for ages! Been doing random bits and pieces. No work of course though. Think I failed my gcse mock spanish oral, but nevermind. Pfft. Only a mock. =) I'm not quite sure what more I can blab on about. I'll write more when I can think properly. At the moment all I'm thinking about is BOUNCING SOULS!!! <3 .. <3 <3 <3 .. |
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| Monday, December 1st, 2003 |
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Bouncing souls no one can beat us we drink beer and wear adidas anywhere we get the itch we're off to find a proper pitch Lace your sambas get on out off we go to kick it about When we're lose we're having fun we won't quit until we're done We got heart when we play Take you on anyday |
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I've got to be me baby and you gotta be you Something isn't right but i know i love you I only want what's best i don't know Is this some kind of test. Yeah and you're failing all we do is bicker Say goodbye Kiss my ass I hope you die Wish me well You can go to hell We were so different a short time ago Love is supposed to make us happy supposed to make us grow But i just wanna punch you in the face i love you i guess needed the space Oh well another time and another place Say goodbye Kiss my ass I hope you die Wish me well You can go to hell |
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| Tuesday, November 25th, 2003 |
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I hate this computer. The Internet line is really bad recently, just because it's rainy and also, when I want to be online more than anything to speak to *YOU*, it happens to chose its turn not to work! I won't say I love you, because at this stage that's impossible. But you mean A LOT. More than A LOT. You mean so much. I'd do loads for you. For your happiness..For you in general. I don't want anyone else. I want you. YOU.YOU.YOU. [Do you get the idea? ;-)] Sorry if I upset you, I'm worried now. Hope you're okay. Take care xxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxx |
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| Monday, November 24th, 2003 |
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And I'd give up forever to touch you Cause I know that you feel me somehow You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be And I don't want to go home right now And all I can taste is this moment And all I can breathe is your life Cause sooner or later it's over I just don't want to miss you tonight And I don't want the world to see me Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming Or the moment of truth in your lies When everything feels like the movies Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive And I don't want the world to see me Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am I don't want the world to see me Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am |
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It's been too long since I did a proper journal entry. Please accept my most sincere apologise, SEXY JOURNAL. I'm liking the new colour scheme. A lot darker, because the pink on the top goes better and the purple's good too. Was a bit too *bright* before. Sorry. I can do amazing fading colours. It's fun. You've never made me this worried. The words you say usually comfort me. They still can but last night you scared me. I even cried. :| I miss you.I want you.I need you.I think about you all the time.I think about you in the morning, afternoon, evening and night. You say you're 'insane', but the only reason you're insane is because you said you like me!:P ...So much work to do..... Don't want to do ANY. :( |
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Blurty for I wish I could be as invisible as you make me feel.
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crazy.
rejuvenated.
worried.
calm.
bouncy.
artistic.
thoughtful.