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[Tue 24 Feb 2004|09:45pm]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | both hands; ani difranco ]

long time no update, eh?
well, that's on account of i spend more time on my livejournal than this thing.
every time i come onto blurty it goes slower than the last time.
and there's pretty much no one left here anyway.

everyone who's on my friends list should get a livejournal if they don't already.

1 can't get enough of me - melt in my honour

BITCH ASS HO, FO REALZ [Mon 12 Jan 2004|09:51pm]
[ mood | chipper ]
[ music | jawbreaker, BIATCH! ]

i'm pretty sure that i did well on my prob & stat final. i'm so glad that class is finally over.

i tortured people with the digicam today. but none of the pictures are worth posting, and the ones that ARE worth posting are too embarrassing for those people, so i'll spare them.
awww i'm such a sweet girl. haaaaah.

i ordered 2 boxes of girl scout cookies from steph's little sister. w00t.


i need to take a shower. i'm so dirrrrty.


<3

post-shower cleanliness... yeah, i went camera crazy again... )


ps; i still have yet to rescue my howie day cd from the cold confines of daddy's durango. (yes, i'm aware that i sound like a spoiled rich brat. =])
and daddy's not hooooome ;(

i can't wait for this weekend.
boston = the most wonderfulest place on earth
there is much fun to be had.

3 can't get enough of me - melt in my honour

boy you just a stupid bitch and girl you just a no good dick [Mon 05 Jan 2004|08:14pm]
[ mood | busy ]
[ music | black tongue; yeah yeah yeahs ]

i have returned for a short visit. livejournal is just so much easier, and faster.

let's see... what has happened since my last update. (gee, if only i could remember...)
- i turned 18
- i pierced my lip!
- i got a digicam (w00t)
- christmas came
- christmas went
- happy 2004!
- the boy and i had our first... umm... miscommunication? i'm not sure what to call it.
- my dog, emi, had to be put to sleep. it's one of the hardest things i've ever had to deal with. i still haven't gone a day without crying (it happened on sunday, dec. 28th at 2 in the morning). i'm trying to deal, but it's gotten so hard. i really don't know what to do anymore. she was my best friend...

i wish everything could be shiny and happy again. it's getting there, and i can't wait til all this pain subsides.

melt in my honour

stolen from stealthislife [Wed 17 Dec 2003|03:04pm]
[ mood | angry ]
[ music | the future freaks me out; motion city soundtrack ]

[ x ] The Van Pelt v.s. Cursive
cursive
[ x ] Verbal Assault v.s. Sunny day Real Estate
sunny day real estate
[ x] Embrace v.s Frodus
your mom
[ x ] Pixies Vault v.s Hot Rod Circuit
hot rod circuit
[ x ] The Faint v.s The Rapture
the faint... but ohh the rapture owns as well!
[ x ] Elliot Smith v.s. Sparta
elliott smith (ps-- the mars volta is WAY better than sparta)
[ x ] Hot Water Music v.s. Traluma
hot water music
[ x ] Tokyo Rose v.s. The Jazz June
tokyo rose
[ x ] Mae v.s. Bright Eyes
mae
[ x ] The Blood Brothers v.s. Swing Kids
blood brothers
[ x ] My Chemical Romance v.s. My Bloody Valentine
my chemical romance
[ x ] 18 Visions v.s. Thursday
18 visions
[ x ] The Promise Ring v.s. The Promise Drive
the promise ring
[ x ] Jets to Brazil v.s. Pedro The Lion
pedro the lion
[ x ] Modest Mouse v.s. Braid
braid
[ x ] Britney Spears v.s. Christina Aguilera
christina aguilera

3 can't get enough of me - melt in my honour

she thought it would be fun to try pornography [Fri 12 Dec 2003|09:01pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]
[ music | beautiful; belle and sebastian ]

i love turning into my driveway late at night and seeing it lit up with beautiful white lights in every window.

i love knowing that you're only a few minutes down the road.

i love the flower in my hair.

i love falling asleep with my dog laying beside me.

i love the way my pillow smells.

i love wearing the same sweatshirt and jeans every day.

i love christmastime and the beauty that comes with it.

i love snow.

...and i love you

-- but, i hate having to take pills for breakfast every morning, just so i can love all of those other things.




p.s.-- i love my kittens too.

1 can't get enough of me - melt in my honour

eljay anyone? [Sun 07 Dec 2003|10:19pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]
[ music | poor souls; owen ]

anyone have an eljay and wanna add me as a friend?
i'll add you back, fo sho.
i need more eljay friends.

4 can't get enough of me - melt in my honour

are we wasting our whole lives sucking candy-coated bullets from the chemical gun? [Sun 07 Dec 2003|09:18pm]
[ mood | blah ]
[ music | i know where the canaries and the crows go; blood brothers ]

i figured it was time for an update.

so, the victory dance was last friday (nov. 28th). there are some pictures here. i'm just too lazy to copy & paste that entry from the eljay to the blur-tay. everyone looked spectacular, you should really check out the photos ;)

work has been the same. usual 5 hour shifts every sunday night until closing.
but tonight lois let me out 30 minutes early, which i was happy to do. yesterday was my first FUN day at big y. EVER. there was no one there due to the storm, so we just did whatever we wanted. which included val ordering in chinese food and then watching people do donuts in the parking lot.
friday was INSANE at big y. everyone and their brother came in because they had to "stock up" for this big nasty storm (note the sarcasm). i didn't even get a break cuz it was so damn busy.

christmas is almost here. which means all the decorations are going up around the neighborhood, and it's almost time to get our tree!
christmas is my ultimate favorite holiday, even though i don't believe in religion. but the spirit of it is just so wonderful!

on a more personal level, i've been having some ups and downs. i get stupidstupidstupid thoughts in my head, and then i get nervous and start convincing myself that i do in fact have reason to be so doubtful, but then i feel guilty for ever even thinking that way. and then i get so confused and upset that i break down and cry because i have no idea what else to do. and still, i don't know why i get so worried.
and lately i'm starting to worry that i'm losing my best friend. we never hang out anymore. one of us is always busy doing something else with someone else. we're both going through some tough shit, and it's not easy not having my best friend in the whole wide world there to talk to.


but at the same time, i'm so deep in love that there is nothing out there that could kill me.

melt in my honour

gonna push some little girls tonight [Sat 22 Nov 2003|10:58pm]
[ mood | scurred ]
[ music | thank you for not moshing; reel big fish ]

MCLA seems like a really nice school.

PROS AND CONS
+ beautiful area (the berkshires = lovely)
+ small campus
+ small student population (less than shepherd hill)
+ equestrian clubs
+ psychology major
+ english/communications major
+ quiet campus
+ 5 minutes from MASS MoCA
+ 1/2 hour away from Jiminy Peak, and very close to other ski trails
+ i have a good chance of getting accepted
+ i MIGHT be able to have a car there (which means the 'rents are trading in the van for an SUV)
+ opportunity to participate in student radio, newspaper, and literary magazine
+ avg. 13:1 student to teacher ratio
+ study abroad (in scotland & australia)
+ school trips to foreign countries
+ PLENTY of internship opportunities at great places

- close to 3 hours from home, 3+ hours from boston
- isolated town
- feels like you're in Deliverance on the drive through the mountains (i swear i heard the dueling banjos)
- nothing palladium-like in the area, which means no shows except for the local acts that perform at the school

...so, as you see, the pros outweigh the cons by far. but of course i have more research to do. i believe Hampshire College is the next visit on the list, and then Salem State. i've decided against Pine Manor, mainly because it seems like a sort of "frou-frou" school, and i don't like the idea of going to an all girls school. i hate girls sometimes.

and all day i was thinking that i am terrified of leaving home & having to live on my own with a bunch of people i just met or don't even know. i am scared to death of leaving high school. i'm scared to part with everyone i love.
i. am. so. fucking. terrified.

everything reminds me
You are "Everything Reminds Me of Her"
usually, you can handle getting over things, but for some reason...
Which Elliott Smith Song Are You?
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melt in my honour

will someone please call a surgeon [Sat 22 Nov 2003|12:41am]
[ mood | sleepy ]
[ music | nothing better; the postal service ]

time to update. even though i really just want to go to bed.

i just got back from seeing Gothika. pretty good. reminded me of The Ring, though. but it was way better. yes, i screamed.
hmmm sentence fragments...

sooooo yeah, the show on thursday. amazing. i don't really like moneen, but yanno, it's all good. i found bort and melissa and watched moneen from the back of the palladium. after they finished i ventured off and found emily, kait, and bill.
taking back sunday was, of course, wonderful. the crowd sang along with pretty much everything except the new stuff, and the pit looked insane. i obviously didn't venture into it, mainly because i loathe crowd surfers and i dislike mosh pits. i used to love mosh pits. hmm... so anyway... saves the day were the last act, and they were actually pretty good. they've very much improved since the last time i saw them. and at one point it felt like chris was teaching my yoga class. "let's send all of our energy down to the floor, out through our toes..."
we saw STD's setlist before they went on, so we knew what was up. thankthelord they only played something like 3 new songs. the rest was the wonderful old stuff. INCLUDING FIREFLY!!!
didn't see the boy for pretty much the entire show, 'cause he was off having fun without me... pfft. so i stood with mother-in-law, father-in-law, and grandma (emily, bill, & kait), well, that was when grandma wasn't off hooking up with young boys. and i got dripped on. the palladium was leaking. on my arm.

and today we got out of school early, because there was no water pressure. that fucking rocked. so i went to applebee's with the boy, champ, little champ, kim, amber, emily, and cait. that was the funnest time ever.
"HITLER TV!"

then i worked for 3 and a half hours. poo.

and then i went with my mommy and the boy to the fashion outlets to look at yet another dress, but it was freaking ugly and didn't fit right. then they made me try on another dress that i didn't like at all, and it was even worse on me. but my mom liked it on me. what part of BLACK and STRAPLESS doesn't she understand? she keeps finding these blue or white or pink strappy dresses which i don't like. oh well, i'll humor her i guess. the dress i already have is perfectly fine. the more i see these other dresses, the more i adore my little black one.

anberlin was at the palladium tonight. i wish i could've gone.

it's time for bed. i have to be up at 7:45 tomorrow so i can go visit MCLA in North Adams.
byebye
<3

oh yeah,
p.s.-- i can no longer go to the show on sunday. i'm scheduled to work until 9:15. once again, i'm the furking closing cashier on a sunday night. i really wanted to fucking go to that show. grrrrawr!

2 can't get enough of me - melt in my honour

you know all my favorite singers have stolen all of my best lines [Mon 17 Nov 2003|06:12pm]
[ mood | numb ]
[ music | blue carolina; alkaline trio ]

it's been a little while... hmm.
i got my v-dance dress... and it's none of the ones i posted earlier. and it's still not actually a DEFINITE dress. but whatever.
my car is on groundation again. pfft.

i just got a cavity filled, and the entire left side of my face is numb. i hate that feeling. i want it to wear off really soooooon...

not much more to say, 'cause i spend more time on the livejournal and the mindsay

later weirdos.

2 can't get enough of me - melt in my honour

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