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So today was just a great day.
I actually enjoyed my swimming period today. Usually I hate it ..like i love the class and if it was 8th period it would be my favorite but uh..swimming at school 1st period. umm no. So its over tommorow and we are having our water polo tourney. Good times. I met the most amazing girl monday. Her name is amanda and Im really just awed by here. We had said hi a few times and when I page second period and i would go into barth's class she would be like "who is the freshman cutie" or "hey gorg" hahah and so finally i found her on myspace and we talked online and now we talk CONSTANTLY and we are really good friends and..she makes me smile..so much. I love you mandersss . Saalllssaa. ;)
Today adam and I finally hung out all night. It was fun and juust like old times. Its so nice to know i still have him as one of my best friends. We went to this amazing hair place but im not giving the name because NO one else can know about it..because..im sweet like that. This guy is a designer and he worked in n/y and his assistant was like anaizing my hair and she loved it and wants to restlye and give me color. Itll be kick ass so hopefully I can get out there next weekend. Me and adam just walked around coventry village for like an hour and got cofee and..we just talked about everything. :) So yeah. Thats pretty much it. I miss updating and I miss your comments. :)
Keep it real.
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do you not adore my new wallpaper? hmm. :)
So im off to movie night with Rachie,Moo,Jacob,Adam,Josie,Kristyn&Andrea... :) The best kids youll ever meet.
niggga out.
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[23 Feb 2005|11:08am] |
I love how i get sick from adam and the person he was making out with all weekend is fine.
So i got a bootleg copy of the onyz hotel tour...damn her fucking ancle.
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So i had the craziest dream and if your gunna make fun of me Ill fucking kill you. So avril came to town and like I was on the marketing end of the show (promoting kinda like) and well I didnt end up getting a ticket but kryssy and dani got in and they were in the fornt and I can still picture the stage.. it was sweet. Then I woke up. Yeah. So tonight is Valley Forge's winter formal and possibly my last dance ever with my Valley Forge friends. Kinda depressing but Hopefully we will make the best out of it. Katiee and I are going together so itll be a grande time. Uh yeah. I saw phantom last night with the madre,aunt moni, and uncle al. Good times with the old people. I wonder what we are gunna do after the dance tonight? No clue. Adam finnnallllly gets his car this next weekend!!!!!!!WOOOOT WOOOOT FUCKIN WOOOOTT. Let the good times roll. Its gunna be amazing and the first things we are gunna do.. Crocker Park.. Easton (ammmazing) and go get rachel and drive her around since she drives us evvverywere. I cant wait. i have a jar of change labeled "gas money' haha. So yeah out. Leave me love.
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Whoa. So the main drama in life right now is where the hell am I going to school next year? I really would like to transfer to holy name and my mom is calling admissions this week to get information. It would be awsome to go there ebcause its a privite school and college's are oviously going to look at me before they would any public school kid, but I would miss valle forge. Its not as easy as it seems, switching schools would be so hard. Ive already had soo much change this year that I honostly dont know what to do. Whats one more change? At holy name they have many buisness options that I definitly wont have at forge (even with the levy passing) like a class in marketing!! That would totaly sae me from having to pay extra money to take extra classes in college. Having a good high school background is totaly necessary and useful when applying to a good school. I tookreally good classes at school this year but next year they only let us register for 5.5 credits out of an 8 credit day..... so thats 2.5 study halls and an all year lunch. I had 7 full periods with no lunch this year and my grades are good. I dunno. Im frusterated but I have plenty of time to weigh my options. Who knows what could happen?
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[07 Feb 2005|04:25pm] |
:)
Life is good ya'll. I'am never on here anymore.. or am I ever motivated to update so Ill just type and see wurr this takes me. So lately its been all about Jess. Jess. Jess.Jess. Jess. and then we decided just to stay friends. I dunno. Whatever. We are way too much alike and we are really close and such so here Iam again on my own. I totaly screwed everything up with melissa and ended that all for Jessica and look who lost it all after all? Adam is deciding to be really extra shady with me now that he has mo in his life. That sucks. Whatever. Like Im not even motivated to fight for anything anymore. I kinda feel like a waste of space right now you know? My grades were great.. 3.69 overall for b quarter and all a's,b's,and c's on midterms. I hang out with Rachie almost everyday (which i totaly love) and yeah. So dave mathews "crash" came on yesterday and I started crying.. it sucks not having that lil clique. I really honostly do miss it. But then I come back to reality and realize how all of us are SO totaly different and how it was going to end eventually... so im kinda glad it ended how it ended..but them Iam not at all. Im just rambling now. ... The musical revue at forge is over. Thats kind of a relief but I became close with marina so i guess it was worth it. She is soo awsome. So I finally decided what I want to happen with college. I really want to do buisness.. for sure.. and the field Iam interested in is marketing. So Im thinking.. maybe fashion merchandising or marketing in the entertainment industry.. something that involves pop culture and theatre and music and fashion..stuff that i enjoy. We'll see.. I sent away for information from NYU, Ithica, UCLA, Cornell, and a few other little schools. Those schools are OVIOUSLY dreams but who knows what could happen right? My family is good and we have finally started going to church again even thoughof couse we cant agree on one.. i wanna go to ph baptist but mom wants lakeview and anthony would rather us not go at all. I love... Mo, Rachie, Adam, Katie, Corey, Kara, Andrea, Katelyn, Chrissy & Kryssy. Random love to people who make me smile.
Me and Chrissy are supposed to hang out this weekend.
:)
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riiight?!
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:) :) :)
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| ANOTHER poem from kara. |
[16 Jan 2005|12:43pm] |
a night in parma
Last night we went on an adventure
even though it was a very cold temperature
it was snowy and cold
dammnn that janitor was really old
so we ventured into aladins castles
and we looked like little white assholes
the we got a picture sketched
and then we made scott play fetch
he went into a drug dealers store
and said give me chagne for that whore
when katelyn and ali joined the fun
we went to tgi fridays and nobody got some....food.
So I colored a picture and scott said "hey look there's holy name hicks"
before all that we went to johny applestix
So back on track we left fridays in a snap
then we went out in the night
and down a shady ally were we though we would get into a ghetto fight
we saw coreys neon (how could you not)
and we praed it wasnt keyed on.
We were in the parma ghetto
and the people were waitin for a ride on the "metro"
All the people were pretty
it look like we were surounded by brothas of fittty!
they same in all colors
and we liked like we were burnt toasts butter
so this is the end my friend
and the story of our night in parma heights.
- Kara.
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| NO NO GRANDMA MOSES! |
[12 Jan 2005|07:19am] |
aww. lyndz sent me a whole load of eb photos.
good times.
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[08 Jan 2005|12:48am] |
whoa. hey. so tonight i hung out with melissa adam and katie. I think I actually like melissa and katie says i have a chance. Kinda excited but kinda like..eh.. i like her alot no doubt its just im never sure of myself. ever.
i love you. that is all.
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| a poem from kara. |
[05 Jan 2005|10:34pm] |
Dear Scott,
You make me sweat
Like I just jumped out of the pool and im all wet
Sometimes when it rains
It reminds me of the pains
That I decide to hide
Way deep inside
When I come to parma
I say babie lets get in on-a
And when I sing PPPEEETS to you
Ill wear nana's coat too!
I know you think about me day and night
And I say "dude that shits tighhht!"
and then I smile so Im happy for a long while
Only when we hide behind trees
And break into peoples cars without there keys
you bring to my knees
but thats just between you and me
Even though we are not having an affair
Its fun to play pretend everywere!
When I lay myslef to sleep
your skinny body is what i weep.
So as youcan tell
Im going to hell
for the way i feel is so unreal
that i just dont know
what the hell happened to my babie toe!
< 3Kara
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[04 Jan 2005|04:38pm] |
and im honostly getting my hair done today. im scared. ill miss my afro-ness. but eh. I need a change. Chance IS good. I have an appt at maxelle's then im going to hollister to buy a few pairs of needed jeans and a few new track coats! <3
keep it real. you. oh you.
its picture time.
:)
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[03 Jan 2005|10:08pm] |
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All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending.
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Wow. 2005.
I seriously cant belive it is the year 2005. When I think back on 2005 and it was the greatest year ever but also one of the worst. Lets start with pro's and con's.: I got too see two amazing avril shows with dani kryssy and treeny and we had the fucking time of our lives. I got alot closer with alot of my theatre friends who are amazing and i love you. I started high school. Blah. Im so young it kinda scares me when I honostly think about how young Iam and how I have had and have been offered and taken oppertunities some of my senior friends will never experience. I went to homecomming that rocked soooo hardcore and I totaly got close with someone who I thought I loved. Figuring out who you want to love is impossible..dont try to figure out who you want to love because it will get you no where. Love is something that you feel. If you look at a person regardless of sex or looks or anything and you feel something inside you, be true to yourself and admit your feelings. It is ok. Everyone will still love you.. I promiss. Also this year I learned love isnt something you cant make happen, its just something thats there. I love sooo many people. I love all of my friends (true friends). Also I learned alot about friends this year. I have honostly met over 100+ new friends through school or through theatre or from family etc and after getting to know people I know that not all of them are true friends. Im still in the process of weeding out who is true and not. Its kinda sad but I dont want to be around people who are going to use me and who are not really there. Its pointless. I think mentally 2004 made me grow up. I couldnt bitch about cerfew or come home late because my mom needed me (and still does) soooo much in 2004 that I had so much responsobility just with her that I had to step up and be an adult and get home on time and take care of everything. It honostly sucks. I couldnt stay out last night on new years eve because I have the responsobility oftaking care of anthony this morning and afternoon. I was totaly pissed I didnt get to go out with adam and everyone but then I thought about how much more important it is too my mom that I be home for my brother then it is for me to go out and get wasted and wake up at 5 pm tonight. Eh. I defintly have not lost the emotional part of me. Whoa I can get offended or pissed or sad like nobodys buisness. It sucks but it helps me understand what Iam feeling and personally I think its healthy to let shit out, even if it means hurting someone. There are like a few people I want to shout out for 2004.
Adam-For being the most caring understanding dude I have ever known.
Kryssy-For smiling and being so strong through everything this year. I really wish we could be close again. I miss you so bad.
Lauren- For getting me through the nightmare of pets and for allowing herself to get close to me. I love you. Corey-For forgetting our whole past and becomming one of my true few. Thanks.
ALi- For being the best..ever..always there during school when I need you.
Katie-I thought I knew what we were but then it kinda all fell apart. I still care about you.
Rachie-We our so close again and I appreciate all you do for me and I know we will be friends for forever.. your my partner in crime.
eh and so many others..mo,wayne,josh,jimmy,jackie,katrain,jen,kate,japes,kate leigh,jessi,linda,kara.. etc...
Its been a crazy year. I relocated and all. Bahh. I think this entry is done because there is so much I want to say to so many people but in fear of judgment and fear of hurting hearts I will keep something a mystery.
Thanks for everything 2004.
but I fear I have nothing to give.. <3
P.S. And to you, you know who you are.
Iam here and you can talk to me about anything.
I care and I promiss I would not hate you.
You can tell me.. its ok.
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First Name: Scott
middle name: eeewww
nickname(s): Scott
gender: male o milllion
birthday: April 15
height: 5'9
hair color: browny
eye color: brownyy
do you wear glasses or contacts: my fake glasses that corey hates.
do you have braces: nope
is your hair long or short:long for a boy
where were you born: Parma
current location: Parma
zodiac sign: aries
how many languages do you know: 1 and almost kinda sorta french
bad habit: biting my cheek, being way to insecure, offending people, cutting people off.
piercings you have: none
piercings you want: my lip
tattoos you have: none
tattoos you want: something small someday
.today's date: december...22
the time: 12:28 am
: pets :
do you have a pet: mmhmmmm no
do you like them: " "
what do you do with them: " "
are you still in school: holla
did you drop out: no
least favorite subjects: ugh fuckign french with madame asshole.
most humiliating moment: i dunno. too many..what do these ?'s have to do with pets? Iwas in a musical revue called pets once. Good times. Kara should do the whole show by herself IN nana's coat.
: favorites :
numbers: 3
shoes: I don't know.
saying: your mom.
tv show: Degrassi (when i had money to have the n) and now ROSEANNE! love her.
sport: tennis and soccer
vegetable: all
fruit: grapes and strawberrys..all of them really.
candy: anything fruity like nerds or starburst
gum: orbit
candy bar: hersheys..plain and simple.
ice cream flavor: cookie dough without the annoying choc. chips
color: navy blue
season: summer
holiday: christmas
type of music: whatever's good..it depends on my mood
thing in your room: my avril-ness.
place to be: anywhere fun
tv channel: the music video channels and the movie channels
overall food: pasta's fun
store: hollister
fast food:steak and shake.
restaurant: ruby tuesdays or carrabbas
shape: stars
time of day: night
mall: beachwood
board game: well that game we play at coreys..i dunno.. good times.
car: anything
word: ass
month: april
team: your mom
possession: my avril stuff.
: what's the first thing that comes to mind when
you hear :
eminem: ghetto
dog: bull
sexy: Avril..duh.
britney spears: im pissed i didnt get to go to her show with kryssy!
nsync: justin
real world: karamo..he is not gay.. i dont buy it.
orange: lip gloss
choice: vote
jack: roberts
rainbows: lester
cherry: patty bailes
cucumber: veggie
shark: death
bat: cave
leather: bondage
whip: chains
america: the beautiful
water: ski
volcano: magma!
:private life :
do you love anyone right now: of course
have you ever been in love: no
do you love more than one person: as friends, i spose
how many hearts of have you broken: bo clue
how many people broke your heart: two
so what is your bf/gf/crush like: amazing
do you have a picture of him/her: plenty
do you have a picture of yourself: plenty
do you go by looks or personality: both
: would you ever :
bungee jump: maybe
sky dive: i would pussie out.
swim with dolphins: definitely
scuba dive: sure
go rock climbing: yep
eat shit for $1,000,000: yup
turn your back on your friends for personal gain: no
who's hot: lauren and katie
steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfried: almost did this year
cross-dress: only at cassidy with my ebenezer afro!!
lie to the police: yeah
run from the police: i would love to.
lie to your parents: if I had to
walk up to a stranger and kiss them: not unless they were seexy
walk out of a restaurant without paying: yeah
: have you ever :
flashed someone: um depends.
told the person you liked how you felt: yup
been to Michigan: yep
gotten really REALLY wasted: yeah
gone to jail or juvi: nope
skateboarded: yes
skinny dipped: yes
stolen anything: yes, but it wasn't a big deal
kicked someone's ass: well when me and kryssy and treeny used to fight we would all just chase and beat the fuck outta eachother.. hahah.
pegged someone in the head with a snowball: yep
broke a beer bottle: yup
flipped someone off: plenty of times
gone on a road trip: this summer with kels.
gone on vacation without adult supervision: this summer with kels.
been to a concert: yup
been to another country: not yet
talked back to an adult: sure
got pulled over: not me personally, but I've been in the car
got in a car accident: yes, but I wasn't driving
broke a law: yep
given money to a homeless person: yeah in toledo.
tried to kill yourself: nope
cried to get out of trouble: yeah
kissed a friend's brother or sister: no..?
kissed a brother or sister's friend: yeah
: opinions :
what do you think...about pop music: It's fun
about flag burning: disrespect.,..plain and simple
of the war on terrorists: I think terrorists are shit faces.
about suicide: fascinatingly disturbing but really reallly horrible.
about people who try to force their opinions on you: i respect it because i do that to people all the time.
about abortion: ya gotta do what ya gotta do and im kinda a femminist so yeah/
about rock/metal music: some of it's annoying but i respect it.
where do you think you'll be in 10 years: hopefully in california settled down
who do you think you'll still be friends with in 5 years: kryssy. i know i will be forever.
: what did you do :
last birthday: dont recall.
last weekend: i dont remeber..i was with adam and rachie all weekend though.
christmas: went to grannys like the old days. things are so different. and i hate it.
thanksgiving: grannys.. " "
new year's eve: partied with kryssy and then went to aarons
halloween: saw Avril in philly with danni and kryssy..awosme..oh av.
easter: grannys and good times.
valentine's day: don't remember
: the last :
thing you ate: pizza
thing you drank: pepsi cherry
thing you wore: my jeans and tee
place you went: chris's
thing you got pierced/tattooed: your mom
person you saw: my mom
person you hugged: lauren..for like 5 minutes.
person you talked to: mommy
song you heard: LIES by billly
what are you eating: nothing
what are you drinking: nothing
what are you wearing: my hollister jeans with my hollister tee with a hollister plaid shirt and my underwear and enw socks form kate...wow yeah.
any shoes on: nope
hair: um...well it's on my head
listening to: BILLLLLY
talking to anyone: i was talking to adam.
: yes or no :
are you a vegetarian: FUCK YEAH!!
do you like cows: i guess. i dont eat them
are you a bitch: definitely
are you artistic: sometimes
do you write poetry: yeah
can you ski: no, but merc and kate want to teach me.
are you british: occasionally
did you ever give barbie a haircut: i did when i was seven and jackie my neighbor wanted to sue me.
would you eat mac &cheese with hot dogs in it: my mommy makes it but hotdogs are fucking sick
are you short: no
are you tall: no
are you a typical teenager: I don't know..sometimes we all are..but honoslty now aays nothing is typical
do you shop at hot topic: no. i used to like it was my god.
: random questions :
if you could be any animal, what would you be: a dog.
if you had to eat and drink one thing for the rest of
your life, what would it be: french fries and capri sun
do you remember any of your dreams: yeah
do you dream in color or black and white: psh, i dont know
do you admit when you need help with a problem: no
can people read you like a book: i dunno.. can they?
what's your biggest fear: losing my friends. people talking..wow...
do you talk a lot: yeah.
are you afraid of clowns: no
do you like spiders: no
how about grape kool-aid: sure
do you drive: yeah sorta with jp and sarah.
are you spoiled: no
are you anti-social: when im around random people yeah.
any last words: i love you but i hate school.
now that this is over, what are you going to do: go to bed.maybe write something. i dunno.
what is the time now: 12:45
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New layout. woot woot!
So hey everyone. ITs officialy winter break. yeah. Its been pretty fun but kinda boring because a whole shit load of family was in for the holidays this last weekend to see the two shows I was in and give gifts etc. They are all officialy gone as of this morning so I have already made plans with kate,kara,corey and possibly clare to go sledding this afternoon. Im really excited. Then tonight its either to Chris's house for a christmas party or out with rachhie. Then tommorow at 7am! I'am going with Andrea and her dad downtown to his work (he is a lawyer) and then some last minute christmas shopping at tower city with andrea. Good times for sure. After I get home tommorow Adam and I are gunna chill. I need some time with adam since I never see the loser anymore because of katie and whatev. So everythings fine and dandy. Im leaving for gram's down home, on christmas day at about 5 am and then celebrate with them untill the 29 and be home for new years eve. I still have no clue what Im doing. My mom wont let me know if she is gunna be gone or not but she said I can definitly go whereever i want. Ill probobly do something with rachie, just because she is hott like that or maybe ill see what treeny and kryssy are doing! WHo knows what could happen (name that song..you know it I KNOW you know it) Ehh. So I miss my shows already. I bitch and complain during the runs when Im up on a saterday at 8am but in reality i really do love it. I love having everyone around and happy. Aleece and Aaron are official and Im totaly happy about that one. Lauren and I used to tell Aaron during PEEETTS how amazing of a couple they would be and look what happened. So thats life. I dunno what else to say. I think Im getting closer with a few theatre people who I used to kinda push away. I dunnot why i did because Im learning he is definitly one of the greatest friends ever. Kels called me about the trip out west this summer already and Im too pumped. Cant wait. I hope Diana lets me assist with starbright again this summer because I had alot of fun last summer and I could totaly use the money. I need to start saving again. I blow all my money i get on clothes or movies and I used to be soo into saving. Soco concert january 25 with hidden in plain view. So excited Im pretty sure Ill pee my pants if i get up front. Rachie and I are going together to that one. It promisses to be amazing. I really have nothing else to say.
Merry Christmas to everyone. I really hope everyone is well.
Keep it real.
P.S. I think im actually gunna make this public again soo .. yeah.
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