The only thing I could think was, I don't have a black dress to wear to my nephew's funeral.

Raiden Ra
01 November 2007 - 13 January 2008

Raiden is the Japanese god for thunder and lightning; Ra is the ancient Egyptian sun god. How could a baby with such a strong name ...

Oh, fuck it. I can't even write this through all my tears. I held myself together so well today; I went to work and did my job. I didn't talk to anyone, but I was okay; I didn't have this dead feeling inside, knowing that a baby I held on the day he was born isn't here anymore ...

Tune: Dixie Chicks, "Godspeed (Sweet Dreams)"
Mood: So very numb