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Today was a hard day for me. It just seemed like it was never gonna end. i got up when I didnt wanna...my mom tried to get me to do something like a tutorial for something dumb and i was just like...no. I went to class and it seemed to take forever, cause it was like "me llamo nora" "soy de west grove" do do do. It was boring, so I filed my nails and checked my email. I didnt get so bored as to talk to smarterchild, however, so big improvement. My family watched this serial killer mystery and i got the answer within the first 10 minutes. Go nora for watching way too many Law and order/monk/murder she wrote's. My new headset for my computer rocks. I like talking into it. Pat ruins suprises so well. lol. I love him guys. Not like I'm in love with him, or he's my boyfriend but like. He's my best friend. (minus Jesus of course) but it's like. He's the only guy that has really really cared for me. And, he thinks I'm beautiful. Gosh, I'm just...not used to it. There's this song that I just saw the lyrics of. I want you to read it. I wonder if other people relate or just me. I'm gonna post it on blurty too, but it's like. I think I'm forever gonna feel unprotected and unloved without someone there to tell me it's okay. And I finally feel like I have that with God. and pat. it's like...they both love me so much for exactly who I am. and think I'm so beautiful, I mean, one more than the other of course, but...it's not what I'm used to. Especially when there are no alterier motives. Where does all this come from. When you are weak, I am strong... Phi. 3:?? right? i forget the verse, if you know tell me. I know I just read it today...weird. I gotta work on pride. we are all children of God, Nora, appreciate that. *sigh* I cried a lot today, to my mom. Everything should be so simple...but life makes puts these mirrors everywhere, so when you just need to walk forward, you dont know where forward is. you run into mirrors everywhere and they keep bumping you back on track till you finally get it. Sometimes I just wanna know what's wrong with me...no, wait, all the time. I cant remember a time where I ACTUALLY liked all of me...does that make me incredibly lost? I have a lot to ask God's help for. I need Jesus so much. So much I'm going up to my room, let me know if you need to talk to me...IM my cell or better yet, call me...whenever you need to chat. I love you all <333 Nora*
( the song i promised )
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