Melzilla

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10:05pm: You basterd you.
10 years ago.
The things happened 10 years ago,
Yet it haunts me for life.
I want to scream. I want to cry.
I want to hunt you down and kill you.
But most of all I want to ask why.
Why did you do it?
How did you get the idea to do it?
10 years. From kindergarten to Sec School.
You still haunt me.
You've made me what I am today.
Everyday I think of what happened.
I can truly never be happy.
A deep hurt resides inside me.
A hurt that no one can cure.
When I behave like a bitch towards guys,
it's because of you.
You make me fear them.
You make me fear you.
I've even forgotten your name,
all I know is that you're 14 this year.
You've destroyed me.
But I recovered.
But now you're again slowly killing me from the inside.
Memories triggered off suddenly.
The past I want to hide from.
The past I want to run away from.
Yet when I close me eyes I'm haunted.
The past I try to hide.
But how I behave and act now is affected by it.
A horrible thing that no one should go through.
No one.
Much less a 4 year old.
Yet it happened.
Now this 4 year old is 1 month away from her birthday.
But she cannot forget.
The deeds you did.
You horrible sick fiend.
How could you have done a thing like that?
I want to forget.
Begin life anew.
I want to tell someone.
But I'm ashamed.
No one except me knows.
How would eveyone behave towards me if they knew what happened?
Would they pity me, shun me or cheer me up and tell me to forget?
I can only hope there's such a thing as karma.
You'll one day get retribution.
For hurting a little girl.
A little 4 year old girl.