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I've realised for a very long time that when I wake up tomorrow, I won't have to go to SA for the first time in 12 years of my life.
that was just being random.
another random fact: I have slightly less than 24 days before I become property of the SAF.
I'm a man living on borrowed time.
to YOU - the person reading this: have a blessed 2008! :)
So the A Levels have been over since the 20th, and although I can't honestly say that I think I really did excellently well for all my papers, I still think I did a pretty decent job on most of them. Except maybe physics 1,3 and econs 2..
Ok, enough about that. This is the last time in my life that I'm going to derive utility from wasting my life away..so let the party begin!
Today marks the official end of my 12 years in St. Andrew's, so not blogging about it will be a cardinal sin.
Today, for the first time since God-knows when, I've been feeling torrents of emotions that are so all encompassing that it's really impossible to describe how I'm feeling now. Today was a awesome and wonderful day that I believe I'll treasure and remember till my dying day. Leaving a school which I have called "home" for the past 12 years is a really difficult thing and I know that no matter what I may say about SA, the blood that flows through my veins will truly only ever be, white and blue.
Singing the school hymn for the (second) last time made me feel a kind of warmth in my blood, the kind of warmth that I get only when I feel extremely proud of something. - It's the kind of feeling that I only got as I sang the school hymn from the bottom of my heart back in 2004 in St Andrew's Cathedral when I was being commended as a prefect back in SAS. And as I sang, I thought to myself, and believed with all of my heart, that truly "nobody is here by chance." It was not a mere accident that I opted for SAJC, no - it was God's good, pleasing and perfect will. This has made me more determined than ever to really study hard for the A Levels, and to be called back for College day next year.
And to my beloved classmates from 06S24, if you ever get to read this, do know that I've really treasured the past year with you guys. And today, as we huddled together (for what could possibly have been the last time), I made a mental picture in my mind, and I just want to say that I really treasure you guys. I really look forward to having the time of my life with you guys after the A Levels and before NS! Jiayou for the A Levels, and I sincerely hope that ALL of us can go back for college day next year to collect prizes.
I now close the bittersweet chapter of my life which has been JC, and I am now earnestly and eagerly pressing on towards the A Levels, with my eyes set on nobody else but God. St Andrew's has moulded me into the person I am today, and for that I will remain eternally gratefull. The 12 years of my life in SA have now come to a close, and as the song the teachers sang today goes "Today is where your book begins, the rest is still unwritten."
Up and On.
【[c=47]Dreamer[/c=47][c=4]♥[/c=4]】 [c=21]倩女幽魂 [/c] says:
ara
【[c=47]Dreamer[/c=47][c=4]♥[/c=4]】 [c=21]倩女幽魂 [/c] says:
do batch 02 proud
Luke's 12 year love/hate affair with SA draws to a close. says:
hah
Luke's 12 year love/hate affair with SA draws to a close. says:
i will
Luke's 12 year love/hate affair with SA draws to a close. says:
i will
【[c=47]Dreamer[/c=47][c=4]♥[/c=4]】 [c=21]倩女幽魂 [/c] says:
i wished i have more mental will strength to abstain certain stuff that hindered my education progress. not that its bad now or would be in the future, but really regretted always falling at the critical period and never made it to a jc or sorts
【[c=47]Dreamer[/c=47][c=4]♥[/c=4]】 [c=21]倩女幽魂 [/c] says:
you must.
God, help me find to strength to do it.
so I got BEDDD for prelims....how the hell am I supposed to take my A levels like that? I mean of course I could argue that I performed relatively better than others etc etc. but hell, if you take the results and subject them to some serious soul searching, like ask yourself "Is this what I really want to get for prelims when it's a month away from the As?" or like "shouldn't I be getting As and Bs now?" - thats when you know you're in shit.
And the worse thing is, I'm starting to have serious doubts about my abilities to score As. I mean hey, all but the most optimistic (and some may say foolish person) would feel that way. But alas, there is no limit to the human propensity for day-dreaming and fantasising, and the clinging to vain hopes in the evidence of overwhelming evidence, and to nurture unrealistic expectations and ambitions. Well, out of the compost sometimes grow surprising blossoms of novelty and success. So, I shall continue to cling on to whatever little hope I have, and march on to face the A Levels with a sling and a stone.
Ad Victoriam.
an amazing comeback for maths paper 2, and I'm on cloud 9.
Dear BC,
though you may be gone, you are certainly not forgotten.
Be at peace.
8 more days and there's really no more escaping now.. so whether I like it or not and regardless of how badly prepared I am, bring on the prelims.
16 weeks to the A Levels. It's time to do or die, buck up or shut up.