Sunday, September 7th, 2003
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10:53 am - started out bad turned to good
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WOW I HAVENT WRITTEN IN HERE FOREVER!
well yesterday i wasnt aloud to go to the show because i had to go to the airport to pick up my mom.. damn i wanted to go sooo bad... well yah so i was really upset and right when my mom gets home shes bossing me around i had a great week and 1/2 when i stayed with my grandma because she didnt boss me around i could do whatever i wanted.. and now my mom is here i have a FUCKING BED TIME! thats soo gay! i hate my parents soo much its grrr well on another note.. last night i was soo bored so i asked my grandma if my friends could come over and she said yah so i invited steph rach and colleen ahah they are soo funny i love them and they cam at like 830-9 i forgot so at first we talked and listened to music then we watched american wedding haha it was awesome i saw it already but its even funnier the second time haha .. they were all amazed that my grandma has like an apartment in her house hehe we were all alone it was soo cool ... haha no bugggin of other ppl... hehe so yah thats pretty much it.. me and rach had wayyy too many smartees and we were soo hyper during the movie hehe.. well my dad just called and told me we are leaving for florida on the 17th... so that gives me time to hang out with my friends more... hehe it will be cool... well im bored and now im gonna leave bye buh
later
~Nick
current mood:  dorky
current music: Dashboard Confessional- Ender Will Save US All
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Friday, August 29th, 2003
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11:36 pm - dont deserve
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"dont deserve"
the days pass and i fuck up even more...
i dont deserve the sweet smell of you
no matter how hard i try ....
i dont deserve the friends i have
i ruin everything i touch...
i dont deserve the stuff i have
why should i even be here...
i dont deserve anything
i can never do anything right...
i dont deserve you
written by me please ask before you take and CREDIT ME!
current mood:  sad
current music: Boys Night Out-The Only Honest Love Song
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Tuesday, August 26th, 2003
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6:57 pm - late september
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the wind blows soft as we pack the memories away...i can see the tears rolling down that beautiful face...my lies of seeing you again flow around the empty room...i kiss your wet cheak and say see you soon...you dantly raise your head and say hopefully... my mind is blank with nothing to say...i raise a brow and kiss you one last time...we walk hand in hand through the empty place...if only you knew whats on my mind... more lies fly out as we say our last goodbyes... i wave as i drive away... the scent of you still on my lips... i stare back knowing as in late september ill never see this place again
written by me please ask before you take and CREDIT ME
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Monday, August 25th, 2003
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5:33 pm
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Saturday, August 23rd, 2003
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4:29 pm - fuck everything
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im fucking tired and im fucking done with this fucking house... i hate it fucking here... i get punished for stupid fucking reasons... today i got punished because i told my sister she couldnt fit in the car wiht my cousin and me... so she fuckign goes cryign to my mom adn i get in trouble.. i mean come on now... how fucking gay is that... so now i cant go out today.. i mean im moving and my parents are complaining that i got out everyday and stay out late... DUH! im leaving all my friends why wouldnt i fucking hang out with them... ugh im soo fucking pissed right now i couldnt fucking kill... FUCK EVERYTHING... MY PARENTS FUCKING SUCK
current mood:  pissed off
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Wednesday, August 20th, 2003
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11:16 am - yo
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yo suckas.. im bored.. its my moms b day today so i have to hang with her but umm yeh shes sleeping ehhh so im just online! ehh yeh im gonna go .. todays jamies last day here :-(
current mood:  amused
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Tuesday, August 19th, 2003
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10:28 pm - good times!
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haha today i went to amandas house to just hang! well thats what i was supposed to do.. anyway... we ended up going to the movies to see Uptown Girls... at like 6 jamies dad came to pick up me amanda jamie tanya and dan to go to the movies...hehe we got there early(the movie didnt start until 710 ) so yeh we just walked around hehe we went in stop and shop and i had my digital cam so we decided to take pictures of random funny things... it was soo fucking funny haha ... yeh then me and dan went into KB Toys while tanya amanda and jamie went into mandies... well yeh KB got me mad because i used to think it was the coolest store when i was little it was soo great... so then i go in there and its just boring now... it means im growing up! i dont want to! ahhh hehe im a loser... well then we snuck food and drinks into the movies... ( marshmellows chocolate gramcrackers gummy bears skittles some sour candy sour patch kids and then we got all diff drinks.. hehe me and jamie got amp energy drinks) so we sa t throught the movie and when it was boring parts i got really hyper because of the energy drink haha i think i got kinda annoying hehe well then the movie was over and jamie got upset because i guess she was upset shes leaving in 2 days... its sad :-( welll yeh i tried to make her feel better but i guess it didnt work... umm yeh then i came home and just came on the computer.. well now im here sitting here writing this long ass entry hehe well yeh i think im gonna go for today... i miss laken... and jess.... well ill ttyl have fun night!
wow i just realized that i have many mood jumps i go from depressed to hyper and happy in liek a day.. my friends make me happy :-)
current mood:  hyper
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Tuesday, August 12th, 2003
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7:19 pm - wtf?
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yeh w/e im done i fucking hate this life in this house.. i cant deal with it anymore.. ok well my mom said i couldnt go out today because ive been out everynight.. but wouldnt u be out every night if u were moving in like 1 week and u wanna stay with u friends as long as u can?? i would but then i got mad at my mom and told her i was gonna run away and she goes fine i dont care... so obvously if i left they wouldnt give a fuck... and then my sister gives me atttitude so i give it back and i get in trouble.. whenever she yells its always my fault but if i yell at her its still my FAULT! what the fuck i cant even thinka bout it any more because if i do i will serously kill someone ... im at the fucking end rit now and its looking like shit and no one would care if i jumped off the edge... i mean basically im a good kid and i get GREAT grades and its all for my parents its always been for my parents but this is the shit i getin return maybe i shouldnt try anymore.. maybe i should be a bad kid.. maybe i should just die.. make everyone's lives and everything fucking better wouldnt it ... or would u even realise im gone.. w/e FUCK U
current mood: pissed off
current music: uranium=FUSE
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Tuesday, August 5th, 2003
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5:59 pm - upset
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hey guys im depressed ... well i came home from having a good time help jamie with sweet sixteen stuff and then i come home and my mom calls and says "the real estate called... they said our closing date is in 2 weeks" that means in 2 weeks i wont live here anymore.. i wont be in this house anymore.. but i will stay at my grandmas until i get a house in florida... so yeh... umm im bored and tired... i unno y because i woke up at 11 today.. thats the longest i have ever slept.. weird huh? well umm im gonna go tomorow is the aba and seras victoria show... maybe that will make me feel better... im gonna go eat something then finish up decorating jamies guest book, bye
current mood: sad
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Monday, August 4th, 2003
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9:32 am - weird
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i feel weird... i unno i have no feelings right now whatsoever... weird huh? well sat night i went to the mall with dan and amanda and also amanda's aunt cathy and her friend bridget... they are good times :-) hehe yesterday my cousin meg came home from florida.. she bought a house :-X yeh so she came and picked up her dog and then me and amanda *my sis* went back to her house it was soo much fun hehe.. well today i have no idea what im doing..WEDNESDAY! IS THE ABA SERAS VICTORIA SHOW AT CEDAR! i cant wait !!!!!!:-) well im gonna go ttyl
current mood:  weird
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Wednesday, July 30th, 2003
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10:02 pm - la
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hey whats up?? im soo bored and tired i dont wanna go to bed today! hehe i cant wait till tomorow well first im going ot michaels grand opening! hehe with mich ash and carrie ... well yeh then we are gonna go to ADVENTURE LAND! its gonna be soo much fun :-) hehe well yeh im gonna go ttyl bye
current mood:  bored
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8:19 am - Survey
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Monday, July 28th, 2003
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9:04 pm - tired of this fake smile
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thats it im tired of it.. im tired of being fake and covering up everythign with this smile...
i wanna be skinny
i wanna have a girlfriend
i wanna be in love
i wanna have someone special
i dont wanna move
i dont wanna be sad and depressed anymore i wanna be happy
ehhh its stupid but thats what i want i dont wanna say things i regret i dont wanna wake up every moring wishing i didnt... man im fucked up.. im gonna go
*thanks cherry for leting me vent :-) ....*
*thanks to amanda anne for my icon and helping me wiht everything*
current mood:  depressed
current music: nothing
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Thursday, July 24th, 2003
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8:38 am - La
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hey guys yeh im bored and its 8 30 in the morning.. i went to the gym again today i felt liek i was gonna throw up it was gross but i stuck in there and kept going.. well yeh today i have no idea wtf im doing prob another sad boring day :-( well yeh imm gonna go ttyl
current mood: blah
current music: The Movielife-Kelly's Song
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Wednesday, July 23rd, 2003
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6:04 pm - lalala i tired :-/
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hey guys im really tired i keep having dreams that my dog dies and i keep waking up in the middle of the night its bad and also i woke up at 4 30 to get ready to go to the gym so yeh.. today at the gym was good.. i worked tris abs back and shoulders and i did a 10 min run at speed 4.5 on the tredmil at the end.. so yeh it was good then me and my dad got bagels :-) they were good then i went in the shower and cleaned up my room because my 1/5 was supposed to come over but she didnt :-( o well maybe another day so yeh im just here board hehe...
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yeah thats it for today hope u guys had a good day bye
current mood:  tired
current music: The Starting Line
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Tuesday, July 22nd, 2003
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8:56 pm - hyper+bored=not a good mix
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hey guys im soo HYPER ahhh im making weird noises and im bored so i thought i would write in here OKAY! hehe cherry my 1/5 is coming over tomorow ahh shes good times hehe well yeh today derek came over...:-/ it was fun LAAAAAAAAAAA im making lots of noises i dunno y maybe cuz i just had coffee i love it hehe O YEH CATIE RAWKS I LOVE HER! hehe well heres some quizzes
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current mood: hyper
current music: The Movielife
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10:06 am - Punished??
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hey guys well im punished i cant go out for a whole week just because i forgot to call my mom god damn this sucks i hate this family and also i got home at 9 and they sent me to bed..
current mood: pissed off
current music: rocko on the tv...:-)
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Monday, July 21st, 2003
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9:50 am - hey hey
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hey guys whats up?? nothing going on here yester day was soo much fun! i finally got outta the house woot woot.. hehe well i went to steph and then stephs mom brought us to alli's and then we had a picinic :-0 hehe well yeh and then we went back to stephs walked around and got MR SOFTY hehe it was good then i left.. now i think im going down port with laken maybe :-/ yeh so i made a new friend :_) hehe xbeautifulxsick check it out thats their blog hehe yeh so im gonna go ttyl bye
current mood: giggly
current music: the sound of my dogs barking.. its soo annoying
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Sunday, July 20th, 2003
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9:15 am - 2 nights alone
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hey the past 2 nights ive been alone and have not done anything.. its soo boring and i hate this house and no one will save me ! well i made a new friend hes soo cool his name is time and he has a blurty 2 just look on my friends page and his s/n is lifexlikexstars hes my friend caties friend.. he soo awesome.. haha anyway.. i want to do something today.. maybe ill hang with laken and sean if they want me 2.. it was their annerversary the other day 1 YEAR! good job! haha that sound soo corny well yeh haha im bored.... i want to go to a show soo badly maybe ill find one tomorow haha.... well im gonna go ttyl bye bye
current mood: bored
current music: "Best Of Me"- By The Starting Line
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Saturday, July 19th, 2003
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11:25 am - its been a long time
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hey guys sorry i havent been writing in this its been awile... umm yeh soo my b day was july 14th and i had a party that was awesome on the 12th.. well yeh i have another blog... http://bleedforyou.diaryland.com go check it out. well ill update later im gonna go see Pirates Of The Carriabean (haha cant spell) so i gotta get ready bye!
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