| Happy Birthday to me! |
[21 Jul 2003|12:23am] |
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Well Ok its offically not my birthday anymore but I couldnt get to my computer until now! Frankly....I wont be here long I think. Brian is still here after we spent the whole day together. He knows how to make me feel so wonderful......I dont feel at all like I'm 34. Baylee spent the day with his aunt Tracy so his daddy and I could celebrate. We had a day of shopping and running around the city....then we had a picnic in my backyard that he set up himself. It was romantic in every little detail. *smiles*
He's so incredible......he was by far my best present I could have gotten.....even if it was almost a month ago. He never ceases to amaze me....he's always doing something that just blows me away. I am so lucky to have him to hold me again....now I feel complete again.
I hate to cut short but I need to go. Talk to ya'll soon!
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I was sitting here and just remembered that I never really told anyone how the talk Brian and I had after the Bahamas went. It went wonderful....I actually feel silly about running away like I did. Now, because of that talk, tuesday is our 1 month anniversary. I always thought it was cute celebrating another month together....I missed that when we got married....now we're back to that little celebration again. I guess while I was away he paniced because I wasnt anywhere to be found....he almost called the police! I guess next time I leave...I better tell him! I really got an earful when I got home too....he wasnt a happy camper at all.
After a little talk, me apologizing, and an embrace....he said that he loved me and wanted to try again. I missed him so much.....I am so glad to have him here with me again. We beat all odds the first time around....we will this time too. Jackie was so happy for us when we were there for the Charity Golf thing. We havent told my mother yet....Bri isnt exactly on good terms with her.
Ok I need to go....I'll be around!
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Baylee squealed when he saw this!
We're back in Atlanta after spending the tropical storm and the 4th in Kentucky. Its incredibly hot here. I am thanking heaven for my air conditioning! I took Baylee for a dip in the pool and Brian came over for a while. There really isnt much to talk about I suppose but I wanted to update with more than my dragon!
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I'm alive...seriously! I've just been a bit busy since getting home from the Bahamas. I've been in Kentucky heloing Brian with a charity golf thing. AJ was there which was really nice. He kinda walked in on me feeding Baylee and the look on his face was classic when he lifted the blanket. You see, I breast-feed soo he had a BIG surprise. *laughs* I tried to stop him....really! We are staying here in Lexington until the weather dies down some. There was talk that the storms left over from that tropical storm were heading for Atlanta so we decided to just stay.
Anyway I just wanted to update since its been a while and all. I should be around more pretty soon.
7/3/03 Edit: Yes Brian, AJ, Jackie, Baylee and I were in an accident Monday. I didnt bring it up because it wasnt a big deal but then I thought it might be better because I didnt want ya'll to hear from anyone else. AJ's knee is bothering him a bit but other than that we're all fine, shook up but fine!
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| I <3 the Bahamas |
[19 Jun 2003|01:57pm] |
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I got here a couple days ago with Baylee. I told my mom and sisters I was going but thats the extent of it. Its kinda my replacement for Rome......since I didnt go. I spend the day being a tourist and walking along the beach with my son. He loves the sand and the water. I've had fun so far down here. I rented a nice car to get around in too! I've spoiled Baylee rotten down here....ofcourse I always spoil him. I turned my cell phone off and leave it plugged into the charger in my room. If there is some emergency my family knows how to contact me. Its so nice down here and I may come down here again someday. Everyone has been great too. I'm almost not wanting to go home after this weekend.
I may be running away from something too coming down here.......the phrase "We need to talk" hasnt brought me much good lately and hearing that scared me. Last two times I heard it.....wasnt good......one of those times was from the person who said it to me the other day.....Brian. I'm sure I dont need to say what happened then.
Ok Baylee and I are going for a little walk on the beach!
( Couldnt Resist! )
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| When Kiss Comes To Love? |
[09 Jun 2003|11:53am] |
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The Hero Awards were wonderful! It was alot of fun hosting and having Brian up there made it even better. He kept me calm and I ended up being a great co-host. He gave me a kiss on the cheek and told me good luck and that I'd be just fine. He was right....as always. *smirks* I was glad he was right for once though.....I didnt want to make a fool of myself in front of so many people.
After the awards though......I did the unthinkable.
I kissed him! Oh my God I kissed him. He kinda kissed back but I pulled away and was all "OMG I'm so so so so so sorry!". I was mortified. Whats worse is that I didnt need to be mortified...well atleast not because of the kiss. I should have been mortified because of the un-necessary apology. I found out it wasnt necessary when Brian said "Leigh....its ok....dont be sorry." and he smiled and kissed me back! *smacks forehead* I was totally idiotic. After I got home....I just kinda sat there....he says he tried calling but I didnt answer....well if I had heard the phone....I would have answered...but I didnt hear it.
Its been four days now and he's over here playing with Baylee. I really dont know whats coming out of this kiss. I know what I want but right now I dont know what I'll get. He knows how I feel and I am beginning to think he feels the same way...
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| Home again! |
[04 Jun 2003|03:07pm] |
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I just got back to Atlanta at 11am today. I am so nervous about the Hero Awards....I've never hosted any show before and ofcourse Brian will be on stage with me so I dont want to let him or anyone else down. I know some of Brian's fans will be there because as long as you could come up with $200 for a ticket....you could go. They hate me because of the divorce and think I broke up BSB and that I hurt Brian. I just hope that nothing happens because of their feelings about me. I'd be mortified if it did.
Baylee is taking his afternoon nap and when Brian gets back into town tonight he's coming for dinner. We've been talking all week and he's been spending quality time with Baylee. I finally am seeing how amazing of a father my ex husband is. He was crawling around on the floor with him and laughing and making noises. Its the cutest thing I've ever seen.
My emotions have been bouncing all over the place like a bouncy ball. Its been that way ever since I called and told James I wasnt going to Rome with him. He was mad at me and still is. I didnt want him so upset but I should have expected it.
Ok I need to go....Baylee is awake because I hear him babbling.
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| Its funny how things change |
[28 May 2003|02:46pm] |
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I didnt go to Rome........only four people know why and for now it stays that way. I am now at Kevin and Kristin's because I felt Brit needed alone time and that I was just in the way and also the brunt of her stress.
Thats really all I have to say as of now because the rest is history in the making!
Brit- I'm always a phone call away if you need me.
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| Rome......here I come! Well LA first |
[23 May 2003|02:29pm] |
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Well I leave in like ten minutes for the airport. James is loading everything into the car as I type. I am going to see Brit in LA for a few days then on Monday I fly to Rome, leaving Baylee in her care. I havent talked to Brian in a while....ever since I told him about the trip and everything. I wish I could.....and to let him know that if he wants to see his son to go to Brit's. I found a song that in some ways fits how I feel right now. This is my last try......if nothing comes of this.....then I give up.......
( Parting words )
Ok I need to go ya'll. I'll talk to everyone when I get back I'm sure. I'm always here for all of you! I'm a great listener if you ever need to talk.
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| Rome.....here I come! |
[19 May 2003|09:26pm] |
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I decided to go to Rome. *nods* It'll be good for me....very good for me. A couple people told me I should go....so I am. If James has more in mind while on this trip than I do than I'll be making an early trip home. I am hoping that he doesnt have a dual motive.
I told Brian and I must admit I was kinda shocked at his loss of words. He was silent for a few minutes before telling me to do whatever makes me happy. Before I could answer he said something along the lines of "LeighIhaftagobye..." then he hung up and I havent been able to get ahold of him ever since to tell him Baylee would be with Brit while I'm gone.....well as long as she's back from Vancouver by then.
James told me we'd leave Atlanta on Friday and I could stop and see Brit until he got settled in Rome if I wanted. Thats good he said that because I had wanted to visit her so we could catch up with one another.
Ok I need to go and find out what the weather will be like while I'm in Rome so I know what to pack.
Brit- Let me know if I can still come to see you in LA before going to Italy ok?
Anyone else- *waves* hi!
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James called me today and ofcourse I was ready to talk about my mother's day....but this is how it went....
Me: Hello?
James: I want you to go with me to Rome.
Me: ..........
James: Please...it will be fun and you deserve a vacation.
Me: I have to think about this.....I cant answer right now.
James: Allright....call me with your answer when you figure it out.
Rome? With James? I honestly dont know if I should go. I want to see Rome someday but seriously....I dont think I could be away from my son that long....and I dont know if its wise to take him to a foreign country at his age. James didnt even say when this little trip of his might take place either. I need to know that. I cant go if it interferes with my little stint as co-host of the Hero Awards here in Atlanta on June 5th. I was reminded of that recently too. "Do you still want to do this with you and Brian being divorced and all?". Yeah...Brian is my co-host. And when I make a promise I keep it.....so ofcourse I plan to do this!
As far as this trip is concerned.....I truly think James has something up his sleeves. He knows I dont need to leave the states to get a vacation....but he wants to take me to Italy? I dont know....maybe I should just go with him. I think I know who to ask......
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| My First Mother's Day! |
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Yesterday was my first ever mother's day as a mother and not just a daughter. It was amazing :-)
I open my eyes and I must admit it was a total shock to find my ex-husband in my bedroom. Bri was there with a breakfast tray with all my favorite breakfast foods on it. He had this adorable smile on his face that he gets when he does something sweet. He sat the tray down and told me I wasnt going to be doing any work today....that he was taking over and I was resting. I wasnt about to argue ofcourse....because if I can sit all day....I will. He sat down and we talked while I ate. We talked about alot and it wasnt bad at all. He and I are still very close after all we've been through. He went to take my tray down after I finished and ofcourse I found a box on my nightstand. I knew it was from James because He gave it to me before he went home to spend the holiday with his own mother. I opened it and saw it was this beautiful locket/bracelet. The locket had a picture of Baylee in it and the braclet sparkled with diamonds. They were wonderful...and I loved them but...I didnt want anything flashy for mother's day....I wanted something simple and frankly it I wanted something inexpensive. I heard someone say "Is that from James?" and looked up...I knew it was Brian and just nodded. He asked my why I was disappointed and I told him it was too much....that it wasnt about expensive gifts for me. He then sat the gift he and Baylee had made for me...it was a framed paper that had Baylee's hand prints and footprints on it. Here Bri had stuck Baylee's hands in blue paint and his hands in red paint and stuck them on the paper. It was adorable and just what I wanted. *smiles*
I'd type more but someone's at the door so maybe later!
Brian- Thanks for making my first mother's day the most wonderful day ever for me!
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*shrugs* I dont have anything going on in my life hence nothing to write about....so here's a quiz that I saw!
Britney Spears
Which female singer are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
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| I'm lurking! |
[06 May 2003|03:01pm] |
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I know I know....lurking is a bad bad thing....but I have a good reason...honest! I'll get to it eventually!
Yesterday we had awful storms roll through Atlanta...I hate storms! The tornado siren went off plenty during the day, which Baylee hated the loud noise it makes. He also seems to be afraid of thundersotrms. My poor baby was crying and carrying on and I couldnt calm him down because the thunder kept coming. I ended up putting his playpen in the basement so he could sit and play while we stayed down there during the warnings. We called Brian too, just to see how he was doing and if maybe his voice could calm Baylee some. I am very happy to report that it did calm him down....alot actually. He giggled when Bri made funny voices. I was so happy to have the reaction from Baylee that this did.....I can only imagine how Brian felt. We ended up sleeping in the basement because I didnt want to take any chances of not hearing a siren at 3am or something.
Today the storms are back full force...which is why I am lurking. I figured it was better to lurk instead of getting on AIM then having to go a few minutes later. I shouldnt be on here at all but I wanted to update and I type pretty fast lol.
I sat in the basement with my son last night and realized at that moment how much I missed having a man around. I felt secure with Bri here....I felt secure when James and I were together too. Without either or them I feel so unsafe and, well, lonely. Maybe I need to stop waiting for something that will never happen and move on. Maybe I'll finally cave and let Tracy and Suzanne set me up with somebody. They've been dying to. *giggles*
Ok its starting to get bad again. Maybe I'll be on later!
Brian- Thanks for helping yestersay. Maybe he is finally ready for some quality time with you. Call me to tell me what you think ok?
Brit- Nice rap! Real....um....creative. *laughs* I've heard worse....trust me!
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| I love sunny weather! |
[28 Apr 2003|02:11am] |
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I've been enjoying the weather this weekend so thats where I've been since Saturday. *smiles* Baylee loves it if we go outside and he can crawl in the grass.
James is an amazing cook....and an even better babysitter! He allowed me the best sleep ever! *pauses and bites her bottom lip* Friday we got an awful storm....blinding rain and the wind was bad too. The sirens went off numerous times during the storm.....I didnt want him out in it. So I asked him to stay....and he did. Nothing happened ofcourse because we arent together that way and he slept in the nursery so I wouldnt have to get up when Baylee woke up.
We spent Saturday outside.....James is wonderful with kids....he'll be a great daddy someday. *smiles* We went for walks and took Baylee to the playground for a few hours. He loved that!
*yawns* I need to get off here but i thought I'd update real quick while I was on!
Brian- Welcome back to Atlanta!
Brit- *waves* Hi!!!!
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First I want to say congrats to Kelly and Benji! I hope you're life together is wonderful!
Well I think Brian was headed back to Georgia today after FINALLY getting all of his stuff packed lol. I'd imagine he'd get here today or tomorrow depending on when he left or is leaving. I swear he and I talk more now than we have in a long time....alot of friendly banter and just laughing. I love it....its like he and I are best friends. I could settle for that....he can be my best friend any day! I told him how I felt and to be honest I thought I scared him away completely...as a friend or anything else.....but I didnt. He's coming here to try and build a relationship with his son that he doesnt have right now. He's missed so much.....and I feel awful about it....I really do.
*smiles a bit more* Baylee and I had a playdate with my ex...James Berlau. For those of you who dont know....he played Keeler in Olive Juice with me. Shortly after my divorce he and I met up and I found out he and his wife had split as well....and well we started dating. I think it was the idea of possibly having to be a daddy that scared him so after a month or two we went back to being just friends. Anyway...he told me that he'd like to come over and maybe cook dinner for me so I could relax...that it looked like I desperately needed that. He told me he would help me with Baylee since it seemed I was doing this all by myself. *sighs* Why does everyone who wants to help me seem to try and trash Brian? But James is coming over to make dinner and let me take a nice nap. I GET TO SLEEP!!!!!!!!
Anywho...I need to get off here to get ready for my "date" *grins*
Bye!
Brian- Give me a buzz when you get into town ok? Baylee and I have a house-warming gift for you!
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| Survey! |
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Basic’s
1-First Name : Leighanne
2-Middle Name : Reena
3-Last Name : Wallace
4-Nicknames : Leigh, Leigh-Leigh, Anne (not many people call me this one)
5-Birthplace : Marietta, GA
6-Current Residence : Atlanta, GA
7-DOB : July 20
8-Height : 5'6 give or take lol
9-Shoe Size : 6
When was the last time you …
10-Fought w/ a parent : My mom and I fight alot lately
11-Fought w/ a friend : Not recently
12-Got so upset you vomited : Too many times to count
13-Cried : A few days ago
14-Had Sex : Lets see.....hello not telling!
15-Kissed or was kissed by somebody : Its been a month maybe?
16-Talked on the phone : Today.
17-Smiled : Just now at Baylee
Who/What ..
18-Do you idolize : Brit, Jackie (Brian's momma)
19-Do you hate : No comment
20-Are you jealous of : Jealousy isnt healthy
21-Do you wish you had : ..........
22-Makes you cry : alot of things
23-Confuses you : um tons of stuff has been confusing me
24-Makes you smile : Baylee, Tyk and Litty when I see them
25-Do you spend most of you free time with : My son
26-Do you wish you spent more time w/ : Brian
27-Do you miss : Kristin (Kev's wife), Amanda Latona, James
28-Gives you that funny feeling when you see them : Um....
29-Is the greatest musican of all time : James Taylor
30-Is the funniest person you know : Anyone here....ya'll are great
31-Is the hottest boy you know : *bites bottom lip*
32-Is your best friend : Brit! Much love!
Favorites
33-Model : Chad Cole
34-Actor : Richard Gere
35-Actress : Jessica Lane
36-TV show : Friends
37-Movie : When Harry Met Sally
38-Color : Yellow
39-Song : "Secret O Life" by James Taylor
40-CD : "Thankful" Kelly Clarkson
41-Letter : *rae* um L maybe because its starts the word Love? lol I dunno
42-Word : Hurr
43-Phrase: "Later Days!" dont ask....Baylee loves the disney show "Weekenders"
44-T.V Channel : NBC
45-Hair Color : Blonde?
46-Clothing Brand : Gap
47-Store : Gap lol
48-Mall : Any!
49-Resturant : Olive Garden
50-Rap Star : Um I'm not really into rap period
51-Diva : Celine Dion
52-Month : June
53-Font : Something graceful
54-Cartoon : Winnie the pooh
List five of your favorite boys and five girls and tell why
Girls-
1. Britty- She's a great girl and we're very close
2. Kelly- She's a sweetheart and alot of fun
3. Natty- She's crazy!
4. JL- My lil sis!
5. all the other girls!
Guys-
1. Brian- We'll always be close and he's my baby's father
2. Nickerson C- He's a great guy! Sweet and always nice to me
3. AJ- Always tempts me to bring out a fun side of myself!
4. Justin- My favorite celeb burper! And I want a rematch in that racing game!
5. And ofcourse the rest of ya'll too!
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Happy Easter ya'll! *looks at clock* Oops ok its not Easter here anymore being 12:30am and all. Baylee and I spent the day with my family....he crawled all over and ofcourse my neice and nephew were in hot pursuit. He tuckered himself right out and was ready to go to sleep by 8 o'clock.....he's been asleep ever since. *smiles* He hasnt a care in the world.
I talked to Brian briefly after talking to his mom....Jackie and I are very close even with the divorce and next thing I knew I heard her saying "Here's Brian!" and there he was! He was telling me that he thinks he's almost done packing and ofcourse I had to tease him about all the University of Kentucky stuff he has. I swear he needs a whole house just for it! He and I joked for a few more minutes before he had to go eat dinner. He asked about Baylee's crawling and ofcourse I had to tell him that our son has turned into an absolute terror. I wont even get into the stuff he's done but he's become trouble with a capital "T". I am getting plenty of exercise chasing him around the house and the yard.
I'm sorry I havent been on AIM lately....I just have been too busy doing things and ofcourse spending the holiday with my family. I'm even lurking now but thats because I am on my way to bed after I hit update.
Actually...I'm going to do that now while I still can keep my eyes open!
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[17 Apr 2003|12:02pm] |
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Baylee and I got into Atlanta late last night. As of this moment he is crawling around all grins. He just loves this new thing he's learned....once he starts I cant get him to stop! I was hoping he'd get to spend time with his daddy but I guess Bri must still be in Lexington packing.
When I called Brian to tell him about Baylee crawling....I could hear it in his voice that he was upset he had missed another milestone in Baylee's life. It hurts me to hear him this way....I wish I could help. But what can I do? *sighs* He's going to borrow all my Baylee videos when he gets back into town and settled into his house. I documented EVERYTHING Baylee has done from day one.
I ran out and bought Kelly's cd Tuesday and havent stopped listening to it ever since! Kelly its wonderful! Baylee sings along....well the way babies sing since they cant talk! lol. Its great and I have a feeling I will be listening to it for a long long long time!
AI2.....I watched expecting anyone but Kim to be eliminated......I was very very very disappointed because I thought she did a great job! I wish you the best in the world!
Baylee misses his Auntie Britney and his Auntie Jamie-lynn very much I think.... *pouts* He's grown attached to them....which I think is cute. I think we'll have to go see them again when the time is right. *grins*
Allright I need to go give him his lunch and myself too!
Oh and Justin......congrats on the Best burp award! lol
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