Amy

2:04pm: Doctors for Amy..
I went to the Doctors this morning. To wrap it up shortly I managed to get some meds in an attempt to get a regular sleeping pattern.. Sonata.

Same as no_regrets_05 on El Jay! XD

I hope it works. In time I would like to work and I don't want to get the sack for sleeping on the job. :3 Better be no side effects too.. I do not want to look a like a zombie for the rest of my life.

We shall have to see if my typing style has changed within the next fortnight or so, won't we biatches? I mIghT sTaRt tYpIn LiKe DiS aNd AnNoY yOu.. but I shouldn't think so, that took me 3 minutes to type. XD

6:39am: Blah!
Blah.. what is sleep?

You know you get that feeling.. that feeling where nothing seems to matter? Yeah, i'm feeling it.

Two more days of taking those twins to school, which means two more days of the stares. I really would do something about it but I learnt the hard way how observant little children can be. Don't exactly want Jacquie and Tia to beat the living daylights out of Nikie, do we?

Christmas shopping with Uncle John on Saturday.. which is going to depress me. All I really buy for are my uncles, Rei and her family and Nikie and her family. Sometimes Stacy if I see her in the build up. I see all these children buying presents for their Moms and Dads and I can't do that.. and it makes me cry.

Blah.

I am so getting meds for insomnia. It's clogging up what brain power I have.

Love you all.

6:29am: After the weekend I have had..
.. insomnia keeps me up all night?

CUNT.

I'm feeling pretty pissed off. Saturday was an all nighter being it was Lee's late housewarming party and Friday I was up half the night sick because I cannot take a lot of alcohol to dave my skin. I was looking forward to getting some shut eye.. i'd have had more luck asking Bush to be the vicar to mine and Rei's future wedding.

Even though we aren't even engaged yet. XD

Sorry about not posting either biatches. :3 Busy weekend. Will tell more later today.. I promise.

10:26am: Good morning!
It's good for me anyway. Today I am off to see The Incredibles with Rei and Nikie. No fake kinky threesomes this time. XD

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Dunno what else to write. Probably have lots to tell later tonight. :3

6:07am: Wondering, just wondering
6 am and I can't sleep. Haven't been asleep all night to be truthful. No wait, that is a lie. I had a nightmare about Mom and Dad and it woke me up in shock.

I seriously miss those two and I am often wondering what I might have grown up to be if they were a bigger influence in my life or to be more precise, my teenage years. I can remember always being close to Mom, how I squeezed her hand so tightly and screaming like a little rat when it was my first day of school. I remember her home made pizzas and that trip to Niagara Falls. I was only 7 but to see this huge waterfall in all its glory was such an amazing sight for me. Then a mere 7 and a half months later Mum was gone.

Don't cry Amy, you were 8 years old..

Dad did his best to raise me on his own but it was obvious that he missed Mom. At times Dad was like my bigger yet more childish brother but at others he wasn't there when I needed him as like all men he wasn't any fucking good with emotions. He's a bastard anyway as he left me, taking the wimps way out.

This is why I hate people who think their families are shit because they fucking well are not. All they are doing is care for you and while it may not be how you want them to do the caring act the love is there, somehow. Don't you bloody well have your 50 cents with me, I have had no parent for 4 years.

Amy, you talk bullcrap when you are deprived of sleep. Go away from the computer..

6:15pm: An update of sorts
I am fucking poor at this updating lark. Why did I even bother to have two journals when my laziness level is always permanently low?

Whatever.

Rei is thinking of leaving college, blaming all those those think she's thick for starting at 18. I don't see the deal.. 50 year olds go to college. She claims to be tough does my Rei but when all is said and done she is a big softy. Go past her extreme height measurement and you get a lovely girl with a naughty side in the bedroom. My eyes only.

Went to the local skate park this morning to watch people show off. Done it on a whim, out of boredom.. think it made things worse. Didn't help matters when I got whistled at and this guy comes up and puts his arm around me, starting to make a conversation. One thing I must say though.. when you say to guys that you are a lesbian it really knocks them for 6. Twats their little egos it does.

.. or it makes them fantasize. Whichever.

3:18am: UPDATE!
I must update this more often and not just my LJ.

1:54pm: Insight into my life
I hardly know you and we will probably never meet, but if you are watching my journal then you should know about me. Only fair, right?

No life story, just a few little facts.

[*]I was born as Amy Joanne Bryan on April 14th 1988.
[*]My Mom was involved in a fatal car accident when I was only 8.
[*]Dad overdosed four years later, still mourning heavily for his wife.
[*]I used to live with an uncle, but May this year saw me get an apartment of my own.
[*]Sexuality.. lesbian. Knew I was one at 14, haven't looked back.
[*]I make out i'm single, but I have a girlfriend. Her name is Rei and she is two years older than me.
[*]People ignore me in the streets. A lesbian girl with no family? I'm fucking shit to them.
[*]Despite people and their opinions, I haven't considered suicide. May not be perfect to you, but this is my life and I enjoy living it as it is.

Enjoy.. i'm going to get some sleep. Nothing to do till Rei pops over about 5.

Interview yesterday? Failed like usual. I am still a lazy bum.

1:45pm: Kuntsu is Japanase for cunt
Just so you know.

I'm Amy. I'm Canadian. I'm new to writing in journals. Please bear with me as I get things started. If I fail to keep this up, shoot me.

I also have a livejournal, feel free to add me there. My name is kuntsu.