| Das Wetter... |
[08 Jun 2006|05:43pm] |
Aktuelles Wetter Kaiserslautern
08.06.2006 07:00 Uhr
Wetter Temperatur (°C) 10.8
Bewölkung (1/8) Taupunkt (°C) 5.1
Windrichtung (°) Relative Luftfeuchtigkeit (%) 68
Windgeschwindigkeit (kn) 6 Luftdruck (hPa) 1026.8
Windböe (kn) 8 Luftdrucktendenz (hPa) +0.5
wahahahaa....k. that's some consolation of the cold here. hey, at least we are in winter. and they are meant to be in hmm.....summer? doesn't quite look that way eh.
i was at one tree hill the other day...and the thought came to my mind. it would be sooo beautiful with snow. sooooo beautiful. and sooooo soooo fun. hahaha. of course, what would beauty be without fun? all that snow, on all that hill. woah!!! waaa.....would be sooooo fun. like majorly fun.
but imagine all the damage the snow causes too =|
people freezing to death =|
pipes getting blocked =|
having to shovel your driveway =|
hm. and suddenly snow doesn't seem so cool anymore =|
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| my dearest new and improved CECIL 7.0.10, |
[06 Jun 2006|02:14pm] |
What is wrong with you?!?!!?
Why do you show me:
Weighted Mark: 0.93 out of 1.00
?!?! o_O
my assignment isn't really worth 1% is it? =|
it took a good 10 or more hours to do!
i suggest you go fix yourself soon cecil 7.0.10. I preferred Cecil Classic.
yours sincerely with no thanks to you and your creators,
-alau037
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| not quite the most effective way of evangelism |
[06 Jun 2006|02:06pm] |
something i found on the net:
Why are you idolising him? It's wrong idolise and worship a mere, sinful, mortal fallen earthly being. When worship belong to The Only One, True Immortal G-D alone. 'No idolators will inherit the Kingdom of Heaven...' 1 Corinthians 5. You have broken the 2nd Commandment ' You shall make for yourself an image in the form of anything on the heavens or earth below.. you shall not bow down and worship them.' Exodus 20. Checkout needgod.com
woah!!
but no, not that amazing k. just serves to piss people off...as shown by the reply:
Yeah ok, so anyway this is an auction for a marker pen?! Perhaps you should check out needtochilloutandseethingsforwhattheyare.com - thanks PS if this is my worst sin for the day then I'm probably doing quite well ;)
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| the amusing things... |
[30 May 2006|10:24pm] |
"One such cloak belonging to Kamehameha, King of Hawaii, is reputed to have used half a million feathers from 80,000 birds."
hahaha. i know i shouldn't be laughing. but hey..it's just funny k.
k..time to be more culturally sensitive. good thing i'm done with epics report though :)
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[27 May 2006|05:31pm] |
isn't it *insert appropriate adjective* that soccer can bring people together, yet the very mention of Jesus turns people away?
http://www7.nationalgeographic.com/ngm/0606/feature1/index.html
how likely is this true?
" In 1992, the only time apart from this year that Ivory Coast played in the final of the African Nations Cup, the sports minister enlisted a battalion of fétisheurs—juju men—to give the Ivoirian team a supernatural advantage against Ghana. The story goes that when the minister reneged on promises to pay the fétisheurs, they put a hex on the team, which suffered a ten-year run of disappointing results. In April 2002, defense minister Moise Lida Kouassi approached the witch doctors to make amends, offering them bottles of gin and large sums of money. The hex was lifted, and presto: World Cup qualification."
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| now, this is the purpose of http://www.trafficnz.info/Traffic3d.do :) |
[24 May 2006|09:17am] |
Route: State Highway 1
Between MT WELLINGTON HWY and MT WELLINGTON HWY
Location: Motorway on and off ramps in both directions
Updated: 24/05/06 08:04
Lanes Closed: ALL LANES
Advice: The traffic lights at the on and off ramps to the Mt Wellington are out due to technical problems. Please avoid the area if possible.
Expected Duration: Until further notice
From: 24/05/06 08:10
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| the ampl infection |
[24 May 2006|08:56am] |
model;
set ordered TODO_TODAY;
param TimeReq {TODO_TODAY};
var Start {TODO_TODAY};
minimize WastedTime :
sum {i in TODO_TODAY} Start[i] *TimeReq[i] *-1 + 1200;
subject to NeedToMuckArnd :
{i in TODO_TODAY: ord(i, TODO_TODAY} <> first} Start[i] > Start[i-1] + 30;
subject to ProperLunchTime :
1300
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| ich kenne Dich |
[22 May 2006|02:39pm] |
updating my bookmarks, i stumbled upon:
http://www.users.drew.edu/~jlenz/whynot.html
and reading it, i don't know how to respond. yet i know, (nicht wissen sondern kennen) that Jesus is Lord, and was divine and human at the same time.
is it worth it to make the most important people in my life unhappy merely because i choose to do what i believe without any logical reason as the truth? against all logical deductions, why? yet, i cannot wait for sunday night to come.
i don't know why the beautiful autumn colours don't seem so brilliant to me the past few days. i feel lost, alone, and of no purpose. not that i really understand any of these. neither is this time the worst that i have felt such waves of emotions, not that my store of emotions is large enough to create waves anyways (maybe it's like waves in one of those blow up pools you put in your garden).
indeed, we cannot rely on humans. 3 out of 4 most important people in my life have stepped back. if not at their own choice, upon my actions.
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[22 May 2006|11:20am] |
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can't find my green highlighter :'(
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| bitte. ich flehe dich auf. |
[21 May 2006|09:54am] |
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it's sunday morning. it is such a beautiful day. one of those days, where people just go....wow. at the myriad of colours, the harmony in the trees. ever been to one tree hill or auckland domain over this period? it's sooooooo awesome. like, really. leaves that are decaying on their trees are testimony to His beauty and creation. like wow. yea. so autumn :)
in my life, i think i've been the terminator only once. and the terminated so many times. actually, before i came to this realisation, i was being an ass and thought that i was always on the terminated end. but no, i've been the terminator before too.....and that feels way worse than being the terminated. so i think i'd take being terminated any time now. it just kinda painful. but hmm, pain is better than guilt. definitely. knowing that i have tried, even if it doesn't seem so, that's good enough i suppose.
talking with someone the other day, and we both agreed that yep, spring and autumn, were the most beautiful of seasons...and indeed. it is the change in things that seems to worship Him. change. how important is that? i feel just like those leaves now...decaying.....just one thing. i don't wanna let go of the branch though =|
i want to worship. it's so releasing. heh, how selfish of me huh. hahahaha. worshipping coz it's beneficial to me. o well, what's new.
wirklich, will ich immer ausdauren.
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| job applications =| |
[20 May 2006|05:19pm] |
i hate filling up job applications. having to sell yourself. if i don't believe in the product, how do i sell it? =|
for example:
Specify your most relevant leadership experience*
o...come on.....if i had leadership skills, i wouldn't be applying in a graduate programme where people just join in, and get taken through yet another processing system not unlike school and uni. why am i applying for a graduate programme? someone...tell me.
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| the about:blank look -> behind the scenes |
[12 May 2006|07:53pm] |
if you've seen me enough, you would know my about:blank look. even if you don't call it that, you know it. you probably refer to it as one of the following: stoned, lost, empty, that msn emoticon, blur.
behind that is one of the following (unordered!, insert appropriate <...> as required):
- hmm....hmmm...HHHmmmm...
- now, if i were to type SHIFTS union ({p in SECTORS}) FLIGHTS maybe that will generate some of my feasible shifts.
- i wonder what HE's doing now. hmm... :)
- lalalalalalalalalala...
- hmmm...Hmmm..feel like now la...hmmmm....where to get a?
- hmmm...lalalalala. ooo..sun. alalala. ooo...hey, didn't i see this person walking that way just now? ooo....lalalalala....
- hm...i wonder if this person knows exactly where they are going?
- blaaa...
- so, what does affinitely independent points mean again? hmm...how to answer that question aa? hmm..where to look in the notes?
- lalalala....laaa...lala....laaaa......
- what keywords should i use to find out about generating feasible shifts in ampl?
- laa.....lalaalla....lalala
- i wonder if...i wonder if......naaa, i know if i think about it more and longer, i will see that that's not the right thing to say about someone.
- i wonder what meant.
- waHaHaahAhaHa...i wonder when is going to find out i'm just kidding. waHahahahAHA...
you know what i feel like now? i feel like hot jujube tea from taller park. the weather for it is coming...ooooOOOooo :) :) :)
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| love |
[12 May 2006|07:47pm] |
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if i have ever said i love you to you, be afraid. cause most likely, i was lying. i don't think i'm capable of loving anyone. i'm neither patient nor kind. so yea....be afraid. be even more afraid if i said that before i ever mentioned Jesus to you.
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| someone's been reading the psalms alot lately huh... |
[25 Apr 2006|07:47pm] |
"Those who trust in the LORD are like Mount Zion,
which cannot be shaken
but endures forever."
- Ps 125:1
i want to be like mt zion.
but lately, i've been more like my graph of local optimas......like a seismograph.
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[23 Apr 2006|09:58am] |
it's raining. the weather reflects my mood huh. God cries when we hurt....yet He doesn't say sorry. ever realised that? hahahaha. but duh, what do you expect? coz there is nothing for Him to put right, as everything already is. maybe, maybe, maybe, He would say tut mir leid. that it afflicts Him too...
i feel like something i had a right to has been taken away. but what do i have rights to? not even the time in my day, not even a single breath i take. yet when will i ever realise that completely? nothing is mine, but all is His. thank God for that...so dependent..so so so frail and weak and in such utter need. all the bleeding time.
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[15 Apr 2006|09:10am] |
"Unless the LORD builds the house,
its builders labour in vain.
Unless the LORD watches over the city,
the watchmen stand guard in vain."
-Ps 127:1
tell me, when will the builders know that they have laboured in vain?
when the completed house they have managed to build falls over? when the roof starts to leak? how do we know when the LORD is building a house? how i do know if my house is being built according to His plans?
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| Jealousy and Envy |
[11 Apr 2006|05:48pm] |
There is a distinction between jealousy and envy. To envy is to want something which belongs to another person. “You shall not covet your neighbor’s house, his wife or his servant, his ox or donkey or anything that belongs to your neighbor.”
In contrast, jealousy is the fear that something which we possess will be taken away by another person. Although jealousy can apply to our jobs, our possessions, or our reputations, the word more often refers to anxiety which comes when we are afraid that the affections of a loved one might be lost to a rival. We fear that our mates, or perhaps our children, will be lured away by some other person who, when compared to us, seems to be more attractive, capable and successful.
Dr. Gary Collins, in Homemade, July, 1985
"Those are the passages dealing with a man's jealousy about his wife. But I think we can learn about a man and wife from God's jealousy as well. (I specify a man and wife, because jealousy is only appropriate if one has a reasonable expectation of faithfulness, which expectation can only come through marriage.) God, through several of the prophets (Isaiah, Jeremiah, Hosea, Ezekiel, Zephaniah, and others) expressed that he was a jealous God because his people Israel, his bride, had gone off and committed adultery with other gods, which were no real gods. This jealousy was a righteous jealousy. That is, he had the right to expect faithfulness and had proof of unfaithfulness. That last is important. God didn't give in to idle suspicion, but acted on proof, on the nation of Israel flaunting their adultery in his face. God did not give in to uncontrolled jealousy, but offered the offending wife an opportunity to make amends and become faithful to him again. In his jealousy He did not cut them off altogether. In like manner, man's jealousy should be founded on a reasonable expectation of faithfulness (marriage) and a reasonable suspicion that one has broken that covenant. Mere flirting is not a sufficient cause for jealousy. Man can control that jealousy. We have to make choices, but one of the choices we make should be self-control. And jealousy should not close off all hope of reconciliation. Extreme, uncontrolled jealousy of the selfish variety wants to punish and divorce. God's righteous jealousy wants to bring the adulteress back into the covenant of marriage for keeps. "
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| the cost of things... |
[05 Apr 2006|06:46pm] |
$61.05
o_O
yea. monetary costs hurt. but i suppose they don't hurt half as bad as emotional ones huh. if only there was a pricetag on an ounce of joy. unfortunately there isn't, or else things would be sooo much simpler. if only money could buy everything.
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| hahahahaha |
[27 Mar 2006|04:59pm] |
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i'm ceasing to function. wow. ahahahahaha.
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| a rather depressing thought |
[26 Mar 2006|08:00pm] |
what happens when a prayer seems to be answered, but then, not?
What happens when expectations are raised and then dropped, seemingly from the 100th floor, plunging down to the asphalt? What happens when you believe something so strongly and can honestly, truly see it taking place down the road. possibly tomorrow, or at most next week...maybe, maybe, maybe.....at the very best, next year. but what if it never takes place? never, not in this lifetime anyways. then what?
what happens when we think that love is all about getting what we say we want? what happens when we think that God seeks for us to be happy and painfree, all the time?
what can i say...only what kept me going in my last few weeks in germany...'so that they may know that I am God'. the running theme over all the havoc in ezekiel. all for the glory of God.
but, what happens when we focus our eyes on the small fact that we are just pawns in this huge universe? then perhaps we can only be thankful to wake up every morning (if waking up is a blessing).
some days, i wake up wondering if this trinity of God exists. i know, it might sound like the silliest of things to even doubt, but i do.
what do you do when you see someone you love going down a path you are totally convinced is wrong? and that they will regret it, and further in the future, they will cry and hurt soooo much, as you once did, in the not so distant past. and what if, they walk down that foggy path seemingly unafraid, totally given over. will you lose them or gain them back after their embarkation?
what if you were the one going down that path? the thrills and joys and anticipation of the journey marred only by the thoughts and desires of someone you love...how can you calm them while moving ahead, forging ahead into what you know (only in your heart) is right and good?
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