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Kristyn's Blurty:
| Tuesday, May 4th, 2004 | |
| 11:06 pm | Please Send Back If I could catch a rainbow I would do it Just for you And share with you Its beauty On the days You're feeling blue If I could build a mountain You could call Your very own A place to find serenity A place to be alone If I could Take your troubles I would toss them In the sea But all these things I'm finding Are impossible for me I cannot build a mountain Or catch a rainbow fair But let me be What I know best A friend That's always there |
| Saturday, April 17th, 2004 | |
| 2:36 pm | If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane I would walk right up to heaven and bring you home again No farewell words were spoken No time to say good-bye You were gone before we knew it And only God knows why My heart still aches in sadness And secret tears still flow What it meant to lose u No one will ever know |
| Wednesday, April 14th, 2004 | |
| 1:44 pm | the thing from adams funeral that i said in front of everyone "This is eternity n all I've promised u, today for life on earth is past but here it starts anew. i promise no tomorrow, but today will always last, n since each days the same day, theres no longing for the past. but u have been so faithful, so trusting n so true, tho there were times u did some things u knew u shouldnt do. but u have been forgiven n now at last ur free. so wont u take my hand n share my life with me." so if tomorrow ever starts without me, dont think we're far apart, for evrytime u think of me, im right here in ur heart." |
| Monday, April 12th, 2004 | |
| 12:51 pm | my grandpa didnt hide the $20 |
| Saturday, April 10th, 2004 | |
| 9:23 pm | what do you think it feels like to see someone you love fade away to keep self inflicting this pain no matter what you say as far as hes concerned hes buzzing and everything is good but it isnt all that simple especially from where im stood everytime he does it all these tears i shed what if i wake up tomorrow and find out he is dead he doesnt know what hes doing its slowly taking him away something will eventually knock him down and no longer will he be able to play he is slowly changing his habit really grows hes turned out to be the man nobody knows i dont want to lose him it wont be the same please put your cards down and leave the game. |
| 8:58 pm | I guess I haven't updated this in awhile. Time for me to vent.....I'm warning you now, so watch out. I'm sick....I'm reeeeeallly sick. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. I mean, seriously. I've ran out of things to do. This is like...2 weeks, and it SUCKS. You have no idea. I think I'm going to the doctor's on Monday, hopefully they can do something for me. And then I still have to go in for my ankle, whenver I get better. My shoulder and ribs are fine. Its just my damn ACL and ankle. AHH!!! On a better note, I think I'm done with drugs. They're bogue, bogue..whatta fun word. But seriously, I have school, and soccer (when I get better) and someone I love. And I know that if I start them up again, then all that will be ruined. I already have Ev made at me:-\ We barely talk anymore, I think I'm gonna sit him down tonight tho. I have to make things better. But yah, and then if my parents were to find out, I'd be back in rehab, and it just wouldn't be good. That can't happen again. I wrote a poem today, and Ev put it in his profile...that was nice, I think. Mia's away message didn't make me feel all that comfortable..at all. Because I have a strrrooong feeling that its' about me. I know she's not supposed to get to me, but it's kinda hard. Losing friends ALWAYS gets to me, no matter how bitchy they act..: You think ur SO fucking cool Wearing ur badge of insincerity like a purple heart, When we all know u haven't fought a battle on ur own Your entire life! So where the hell is Mr. Tough Guy When she's not around? You're so disgustingly weak. I'd rather soak your clothes in keroseine And light u up like a cigarette, Than to watch u take one more step toward a guy, that you don't deserve. I'll light u up like the fag u are. I hope you get hit by a speeding car Driven by a driver just as careless as u. So whose gonna drive u home, When ur drinking urself stupid? And there's no one left to hear ur pointless begging? But PLEASE, Don't think this was written to glorify u I just wanted everyone to see how useless u r. YOU'RE NOT WORTH THE ROPE I'D USE TO HANG YOU I think...I just feel lost right now. I know I'm a real happy, optimistic person. But I really miss Adam. And I dont like losing friends. And I dont like people being mad at me. And I have a fear of being hurt. I love him so much, and I don't think he'd hurt me. If you read this....please tell me, IM me: freakishlyme22 or yummchickn22. Please, something. But I doubt people keep track of this, NOT SOUNDING NEGATIVE THO! Death never lives Life never dies. If your going to question Then don't tell lies. Never look back, Always be proud. Come in with a smile, Never end with a frown. |
| Tuesday, March 23rd, 2004 | |
| 11:38 pm | 9.23.96-3.6.04 Do u still love the lil' bugs? Do u still carry a pocket full of pennies for good luck? Do u still eat your cereal without milk? Are u still gonna sneak in the other room to look at our Christmas presents? Do u still think about me? |
| Saturday, March 13th, 2004 | |
| 2:21 pm | MRS. C.-...So the blue forms are for the boys and the pink ones are for the girls, isn't that cute? JAKE - (Looking at pink sheet someone gave him) Yeah, I forgot my gender! |
| 2:17 pm | [Talking about Jake's car] NICK - Well cars were made differently in 1975. JAKE - Yep. It was a good year. I havn't had much trouble with it. NICK - [starting to joke] Well you bought it new. JAKE - Actually I picked it up used back in '78. [short pause] ME - [being serious] Wait...Did you really buy it in 1978? [Mind you, Jake is 17] Me- is really me...I changed it from "Kris"...being it was in Rachels' profile. |
| 2:15 pm | Ok, and this one....in class one day..: THE SUBSTITUTE: OK, now can anyone tell me Japan's major economic problem? KRIS: Godzilla? [sad thing is, I wasn't joking] |
| 1:41 pm | New Year's I was reading Rachel's profile the other day, and she had this in there [New Years: 3:00 AM] NIKKI - Let's all be quiet now so we can sleep. [slight silence] KRIS - [with foot raised high above her] "MY FOOT IS IN THE AIR!" (and then we didn't get to bed until 7) |
| Wednesday, March 3rd, 2004 | |
| 10:57 pm | well, this is my update: i went to tom's game yesterday. awww and hmm...i had to leave early because i forgot about my appt on monday n my mom rescheduled it for yesterday. and hmmm i went to the game without telling her n left cam n ev at home. but i can walk now! no more crutches:) that was my update. |
| Friday, February 27th, 2004 | |
| 9:41 am | I'm no longer single...I love Tom |
| Tuesday, February 24th, 2004 | |
| 5:58 pm | things that happened to me that made me crazy -When i was 5 my mom lost me in new york -A squirell attacked me because i stole his nut -My cousin told me the facts of life -Rach hit me with the door and made me fly 10 feet -My cousin cut my hair when i was 3 -Jonnaaayy droped a math book on my head -Matt fell asleep on the fone with me -I feel outta my chair 8 times in 1 hour -I had to listen to mr.crowder for an hour -I was riding a horse and fell off backwards -I got the chicken pox in Disney World ...you know there's more... |
| Friday, February 6th, 2004 | |
| 12:23 pm | Ummm....yah, things aren't going to change, I'm fine with it. On a happier note.....Taylor yelled at me lol, with the whole ACL thing....lol hahaha.... Ok, not much else to say... |
| Wednesday, February 4th, 2004 | |
| 8:52 pm | I went to the doc's or pyschatrist...whatever you wnana call it. Yah...I still have add...adhd really...but it hasnt' gotten any better, they think it got worse. I'M GONNA HAVE ADULT ADD! |
| 8:42 pm | B is for how beautiful I am I is for how intelligent I am T is for how talented I am C is for how cute I am H is for how hard I'm gonna hit you if you ever call me a bitch again!!!! |
| Tuesday, February 3rd, 2004 | |
| 11:23 pm | Call me Unfaithful... Call me Nothing... It Doesnt Bother me... Your words are worthless... Respect me Please... Because watch me... i promise you ill make it one day... o yes ill make it... oneday.. you'll be the one parking my diablo.. |
| 10:46 pm | Was @ the doctor's from like....4:45-5:15/5:30ish. But nooo, I had to go to the hospital until 10. Had X-Rays and an MRI done. Tore the ACL behind the Meniscus... Now I'm probably getting surgery AND IT BETTER BE SOON BECAUSE I AM NOT LEAVING SOCCER! Current Mood:  bitchy |
| 3:58 pm | OK, so I didn't get to talk to Tom as much as I would have liked to yesterday. Well, we kinda talked. And I don't know how much we'll be able to talk today. Hopefully Wednesday will go better.... |