Lover Boy

11:42pm: School soon...
Well, I don't have much to write about... I will try to manage though. School is going to start soon and I don't really care. It is my last year and it should be pretty easy. Who knows though? It might be the hardest year yet. I just hope I graduate.... I am in a way looking forward to go back to school to get this year over with. I can't wait to graduate and go to AAI and become and auto technician and then enroll in a 4 year school to be an architect. I don't know what my time schedule will be so I may change my mind. I want to be done with school.... I want to be 21 and at a bar right now... Party Party Party.... Yeah, that'll happen.... Oh yeah on the 29th I forgot to tell everyone that it was Katy and my 9th month anniversary... I can't spell tonight and this thing doesnt have a spell checker that is wroking... So you will just have to deal with my incorrect spelling.... Well I think I am done for now... I am going to go play pool....

11:42am: Back!!!
I just got back from California. We went to San Francisco. We, as in Katy, My mom, doug and I. It wasn't that bad of a trip. It was actually kind of fun. I had fun just being with Katy, but we also went to fishermans wharf. It's almost like an outdoor mall, there was a lot of stores and a few restaurants. We walked around and went into a few stores on the first day. Me and katy also had our picture taken. It wasn't a bad picture. It's actually one of the best ones we've taken. At least so far... We went camera crazy with her disposable camera. We were acting weird. We didnt take many picture with until the last day. We never rembered to take pictures. I think the best part of the trip was after the hot tub, Katy and I walked around for about 30 minutes just talking. I love times like those. On the 2nd day we went back to fishermans wharf and saw the sea lions and finished looking at the stores. Me and Katy wanted to go to the beach but my mom had other plans. We left instead. But thats about it...

1:44am: Forced!!
I am not writing of my own free will... Katy is forcing me to write. JK She wants me to write, and I want to write for her... I am really bored! I guess this is a solution to my extreme boredom. I really have to be in the mood to write, and I am not in that kind of mood. So, here goes my attempt to write without the motivation.

.......................................................dot dot dot.............................................can't think.......................boredom................................................

Today, I went over to Ambers and tried to set up her internet for her computer but they have no ethernet cable outlet in their computer so I couldn't help them. I did tell them what they needed to do. They had all their stuff to connect but it isn't all assembled. Their internal modem isn's installed, but they can't install it unless it doesnt void their warrenty(however you spell it). I might have to help them install it, but I dont think that they can... I'm gonna go now! bye

11:30pm: Katys gone
Today Katy left... I'm kind of sad but happy because alone time kinda sounds good, along with my bed back. The main reason I am happy is because she gets to go to the doctor to feel better and hang out with her dad. My first day on my new meds without Katy being here. I forgot to take my pill, but since she is such a great girlfriend she reminded me to take it. I don't know what i would do without her. Uhm, so anyways im on this medication called Geodon, if you want to know about it research it. I am really bored with her gone.. My meds make me think less... I dont think that is good, but i also cant think... Jk It doesn't really change me it does make me think less so I am not like a ummm ::scratches head:: a umm phone jack on the net. A lot of info going through a little bitty space. Not that i have a small brain or anything, I am really intelligent and my real friends know that. It's just that only so much can go into one thing... IT's almost as if you were putting 500 jellybeans into your.... nose. Yeah, just not going to work out effectively. SO on to the reason why I am taking an anti-psychotic. I might have bi-polar disease, but I am not bi-polar yet. I won't officially have it until my early 20's or late teens. Thanks to my father, I inherited his bi-polar gene. No biggie, I'm a smart guy I will manage. I am gonna go tell Katy that I am done writing so she can read it. Good-Night!

12:36am: I had to leave...
Well, I am at home. Without Katy.... I don't like it at all. I miss her so much. It was so much fun being with her. I loved holding her anytime I wanted. She is one of those people that you could hold for hours and care about nothing else, but the thing is, she isn't just that. She is so much more. She is the girl of my dreams plus a whole lot more. I love just being with her. She makes the world seem perfect. Last night and this morning were a reality shock of just how perfect the world is not. I hate when she crys, it feels as if my heart is being torn apart. I hate hearing it but I love it at the same time. I love it for the fact that it means she is comfortable around me and willing to share her feelings but it hurts me. Thats why I dont like it. I guess I will just have to get use to those things. Eventually, I will. I have the rest of my live to adapt to it.

I am getting kind of tired, as you can tell from my mixed writings. I am going to go now...

Oh I almost forgot to tell you guys, Katy can come over tomorrow. I am so tired I almost forgot...

Good Night