Tuesday, June 3rd, 2003

Time	Event
5:18p	Proud to be an American.... *clicks to Blurty and goes to update, turning his WinAmp on, discovering American Idol and Country music in there* Damn Ameircan Idol and how great they all sing. If I could sing like that, I'd be lead singer for Mest. Yes, Tony, I'm out for you. *laughs* Jere is seriously melting down. Matt, get your ass on AIM and talk to the motherfucker. He needs to tell you something. I need a girlfriend. Yes, a girl. I have to stop fucking around and settle down. I miss having someone there, someone who I can depend on, someone who will love me for ME and not Mest or anything else like that. I want to be loved again. I want to be with someone. I'll probably end up getting drunk again tonight. *clicks update* Current Mood: sad Current Music: American Idol Finalists / God Bless The USA (Comment on this)
6:06p	What. The. Fuck. Jere came out to Matt and said he liked Matt. Not only that, but Jere tells me he's liked Matt for five fucking months. FIVE! He never said A THING to me. That, and Matt is TOTALLY pissing me off. He says "he needs to think." How fucking obvious is it that he has a thing for Jere? How fucking stupid can two people be? Why don't they just accept each other and go with it? Why can't anyone around here see how fucking lucky they are? God, I feel so stupid...I feel like I just pushed Jere and Matt over the edge. I was pressuring them and I fucking over did it. [I actually cried because of what "Matt" said. I'm not joking. Scary, isn't it? And it's just a role play, they say, pssh.] I don't know why I'm thinking they should immediately go together, maybe I'm fucking drunk, but that's no excuse for how I treated them. Matt said this: Imposter Matt: But you're not the one sitting here, just figuring out that you might be bi, when all the while you thought that you were straight. You're not trying to figure out wether to try and go with something that may not be there anymore. You're not reeling with the fact that you not just like you're best friend, but love him. You're not tearing apart at the seams, Nick! God, just let me cry. Please. Current Mood: indescribable Current Music: Kelly Clarkson "Anytime" (Comment on this)
10:25p	Jere + Matt = Makes Nicky upset then happy Jere and Matt are dating. WOOHOO! They made me mad (grr) but now they make me happy (yay!). It's cool cos Jere was upset for the longest time. Now Jere's happy. And now, I'm off to go egg and T.P. Tony's house. Cool. I'll write about it later. Current Mood: giggly Current Music: Mr. Pibbles being a bitch (Comment on this)

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