August 24th, 2003 @ [08:05pm] -  mood :  curious After this update I'm going on an update srike because no one ever comments me. And when they do, they're sucky comments. So, yeah. *updates* 6  Looking For it

Friday, August 22nd, 2003

August 22nd, 2003 @ [07:34pm] -  mood :  crappy I am bored. It's not very much fun when I'm bored. *insert sad face here* So, yeah. That's about it. I checked out some local bands tonight. They weren't half bad. That's what my nights have been. Listening to little bands who play in the back of shitty bars trying to get a deal. God does that sound all too familiar. Now 'm depresses. Yuck. 1  Looking For it

Wednesday, August 20th, 2003

August 20th, 2003 @ [10:56am] -  mood :  accomplished -  music :  korn - did my time Yaaay for Quinn and Branden. I'm so happy for them. Now Quinn will not be emo any more. *does a little dance* And he won't get lung cancer from emo cigarettes. Yeah. I made two people horny today. How cool? From bouncing and talking about llamas. Wowness. Chris might do bad things to my parents Llama Lucy. Eek. Jere locked himself in the bathroom. Double eek. Looking For it

Tuesday, August 19th, 2003

August 19th, 2003 @ [11:43am] -  mood :  creative -  music :  Fountains of Wayne - Stacy's Mom Stacy's mom has got it goin on, she's all I want and I've waited for so long... That song rocks your mom and mine. Yeah.... I'm bored and so I'm updating cuz I'm bored and I don't have a lot to say so yeah again. I wanna see 'Cadillac' now okay? Go find it for me. Quinn people love you, k? I do. You rock. Be unemo. 3  Looking For it

Monday, August 18th, 2003

August 18th, 2003 @ [01:44pm] Who will you be a groupie for? by plaid_aint_punk Username? Who you will Jeremiah Rangel How many times you will do it 207 When February 6, 2047 Created with quill18's MemeGen! 7  Looking For it

August 18th, 2003 @ [01:21pm] -  music :  the used again - blue and yellow I'm bored and Benji is trying to ignore my Spencers Adventure. Blah. No one likes to talk to me any more. I must be boring. Quinn and Nick died on me twice. Yeah, Andrea needs to do me a favor and leave me alone because I don't want to deal with her right now. 9  Looking For it

August 18th, 2003 @ [12:49pm] -  music :  The Used - Box of Sharp Objects Who will you have a threesome with? by i_rape_sporks Nickname Date March 21, 2012 Where An elevator First Person Lars Frederickson Second Person Benji Madden Created with quill18's MemeGen! 1  Looking For it

Sunday, August 17th, 2003

August 17th, 2003 @ [05:56pm] So, yeah. I havent talked to Jere for a couple of days now. I really miss him. I just hope my last update didnt scare him off. Today I went to the arcade with Sarah. We havent hung out forever. It felt good to act goofy with her again. I'm bored and The Used is taking over my mind. Ugh. 4  Looking For it

Wednesday, August 13th, 2003

August 13th, 2003 @ [08:46am] -  mood :  sad -  music :  Ryan's laughing *stretches and takes a sip of his water and starts to type* I've been meaning to make this update and somehow I haven't had the time to. But I am now... *runs a hand through his messy hair and stifles a yawn* Jere asked me to marry him on Monday. I was totally shocked and I was kind of scared. I love him. And I do want to spend my life with him. But I don't want us to end like he and Matt did. He swears it won't. He says i'm his world, his life. I've never had anyone love me the way he does, and... I don't know. It's weird. Growing up all I ever really had was my mom and my sister. My dad and I have never been close and the day I told him I was bisexual was the day he said I was no longer his son. When Ryan came along his concern was that his only grandson would turn out gay. He tried so many times to convince my mom to adopt Ryan so he could have a "better life". I am fully capable of being a father to Ryan. I don't really know how he'll be when he's older but I can say that I love him and always will. If he can't accept me then I won't hesitate to send him to live with my parents if it would make him happy. I really do wish he had a mom who cared about him, But she couldn't deal with a kid and she couldn't really love him. I do. I have so much love for him I can't explain it. He's beautiful and I'd give my life for his happiness. *leans back in his chair and reads over what he's typed* I do have a point to all this rambling. My point is that though it has taken 22 years, my life is finally starting to figure itself out. I have the best family and friends that anyone could ask for. I can't stress enough the fact that if it wasn't for my friends I wouldn't be alive today. It's cheesy and stupid, but true. I can't help it. ( Thanks ) Back to Jere. I am in love with him. There's no denying it and I'm sure it's more than obvious. I was on the phone with my mom and Sarah for 2 hours last night talking about it. They're both very happy for me. My dad, however, told me not to bother showing up at any more family events if I was going to have "him" with me. That kills me. It really hurts. I'll never make my father happy, but I've stopped caring. I'll always be his son wether he accepts it or not. He'll always be my dad and I'll always have his blood. *looks down at Ryan who's giggling and playing with the dog* I'll never understand why my dad does this to me. *pulls Ryan's hand from the dog's tail and tells him to play nice* Well, we've got Father Son time now. So, it's time to pop in the Bob The Builder DVD and relax a little... *smiles as Ryan screeches "Bob!" Clicks 'update'.* Looking For it

Monday, August 11th, 2003

August 11th, 2003 @ [09:55am] -  music :  more of The Used - Blue and Yellow I should have said somethin but I've said it enough by the way your hands were shakin rather waste some time with you That song will forever be stuckin my head. That, or this one :: I am the man who will fight for your honor i'll be the hero that you're dreamin of New Found Glory and The Used must be beat down. Sorry. I love you guys. But stop. Anyway, I was suppose to go to Dairy Queen yesterday with Benj, and then we got Jere and Tony but when the 4 of us got together it got a lttle...weird. Not like that! But yeah. So I left. And then Jere left. And then Jere and I...had fun, to say the least. Mmm. *smiles* Yeah. So that's my story. 3  Looking For it

Sunday, August 10th, 2003

I probably wont be around tomorrow so.... August 10th, 2003 @ [04:09pm] -  music :  New Found Glory - Don't Wanna Miss A Thing I could stay awake just to hear you breathing, Watch you smile while you are sleeping, While you are far away and dreaming, I could spend my life in this sweet surrender, I could stay lost in this moment forever, Where a moment spent with you is a moment I treasure, I don't want to close my eyes, I don't want to fall asleep, Cause I miss you baby, And I don't want to miss a thing, Cause even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do, I still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing Lying close to you feeling your heart beating, And I wondering what you are dreaming, Wondering if it's me you are seeing, Then I kiss your eyes and thank god we're together, I just want to stay with you in this moment forever and forever forever And I don't want to miss one smile, I don't want to miss one kiss, I just want to be with you right here with you, Just like this, I just want to hold you close, I feel your heart so close to mine And just stay here in this moment, For all of the rest of time I love you so much. You're my life. 6  Looking For it

August 10th, 2003 @ [10:23am] -  mood :  horny -  music :  The Used - Blue and Yellow OmfYouCan'tScrewYourBigBrotherThatsWrongButOhICanSoKissMyAss. I need to stop this obsession but I can't. What am I obsessed with? *sigh* Everything. This friggin band. *shrugs* I don't even know what I'm talking about. But yeah you can guess what that is. ( mmm...yeah ) ( 4 Da Teenies Rox ) 10  Looking For it

Saturday, August 9th, 2003

hmph August 9th, 2003 @ [12:42pm] -  mood :  curious -  music :  The Used - Buried Myself Alive Where is everyone? I'm bored. Guess what, every time I buy a new cd I listen to just that but I haven't bought a cd in ..... almost a month. So I was going through my new ones and yay I'm obsessed with my The Used cd again. I've been listening to 'Bulimic' and 'The Taste of Ink' over and over. But not right now. I like this one better ..... If you want me baaaaaaack you're gonna have to aaaaaask!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love this song. Besides that, I am a vampire thingy and I suck blood. Ooooh uber creepy. ME AND BENJ STARTED A BOY BAND! And Tony, Joel, and Jere are in it too. We're called 4 Da Teenies. We rock the Spoon Song. I bought more Riot Girl stickers that is all. 3  Looking For it

Friday, August 8th, 2003

August 8th, 2003 @ [10:44am] -  mood :  geeky -  music :  Fuse - Currently SP's 'Addicted' which I don't like ((sorry to everyone I kept leaving yesterday, my comp was being stupid)) Spoon spoon spoon Spoon spoon spoon Gonna spoon ya Gonna spoon ya That's the spoon song. Sebastien doesn't like it. But I do. So does Nick. So, yeah. Benji likes it too, it makes him scream like a teenie. Jeremiah was a bullfrog, he was a good friend of miiiiine. ---- I don't remember the rest of that song but it's cool. I'm sorry I made you think I didn't care. I hope you know now that I do and I always will. Nick is a tulip big ol' prickly cactus. Yay. Simple Plan is on TV. I don't like this song. Blech. 5  Looking For it

Thursday, August 7th, 2003

August 7th, 2003 @ [04:22pm] -  mood :  crappy -  music :  Me First and The Gimme Gimmes - I Believe I Can Fly I honestly can't think of much to say at the moment. I wish I knew what was going on with everyone. *shrugs* But I'm happy that Quinn and I are still friends. I don't know what I'd do if we weren't. Okay, I desperately need to stop acting so emo. Everything is going to turn out alright. Everything will be fine. *nods slowly* I'll convince myself soon enough. 4  Looking For it