i moved.
some of you know where to already.

if you don't, let me know.
yes, you can comment. ü

Date:	2004-05-02 10:04
Subject:	italklikethis.
Security:	Public
Mood:	ditzy

taktena, i missed writing.

aside from Roannita that catches me on once in a while, i have completely lost touch with Blurty. and yes, for me, that is a heartbreak. i missed Carlo's laughtrip kwentos about everything and anything, Bea's daily re-runs of her days, Mixz's bubbly entries, Sheila's words that she had seemed to pick out from my own mouth.
i missed that stupid update button that freezes, if not flat out ignores people. don't even get me started with the Friends tab, that was the one i automatically hit when i logged on.

wala lang, i just didn't get the chance to do this for very long -- so yeah. i'm backtracking.

i have a new job. i work as my sister's official utusan. funny how she ended up as my supervisor, funnier how she doesn't always bribe me into working. HARHAR. on a scale of 1 to 10; stress-wise, i'd give this job a 20. hirap e, you barely have the time to scratch your head. a peepee should be 2 minutes MAX, sureball kasi when you get back to your desk, you have a brand-new stack of day orders to process. nonetheless, i am addicted to the hype. i am addicted to the frustration. i am addicted to the pay (hahaha i'm honest). i am addicted, period.

other than moving out, getting stuck with a net-less apartment for almost a month, revamping 95% of my daily routine -- i'm still pretty normal. not much has changed, really. maybe my hair, which is red and brown now.

wala lang, trip ko lang magkwento. harhar.

this is where my heart is. cheesy na kung cheesy, but my hands get all excited when i'm in Blurty. and i just wanted to say hi. *waves*

watchapment, guys? ako, ayos lang.
kayo, kamusta? *yakaps*

Date:	2004-02-26 21:40
Subject:	bagong buhay;
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy
Music:	lost prophets; last train home

MISSED THIS would be an understatement.
and i need a new way of saying i missed you.

i reactivated my Friendster account.
heartpuncture(at)yahoo. add me again? YAHOO.

mi vida is still a Picasso --
but instead of harking a bad comment about its disarray, i'm sitting back to be flooded by sincere color.

*yakap* kayo, kamusta?

Date:	2004-01-21 13:43
Subject:	not again would mean nothing;
Security:	Public
Mood:	hyper
Music:	audioslave; gasoline

i kind of moved. (yes, kind of. i will write here. kind of also.)
this still works. a couple of brainchilds here and there, it's good to keep one thing not totally empty.

all you have to do is ask.
really.

Date:	2004-01-20 14:55
Subject:	i felt kinda crazy;
Security:	Public
Mood:	hot
Music:	311; all mixed up

31 q&a's won't hurt, i promise.
( i was here for a while. )

"sinong unang-una sa buhay mo?"
"wala, chong."
"nyek, di nga. diba yung mga babae may order sa buhay? sayo, sinong una?"
"wala nga."

nag-iisa lang kasi siya.

Date:	2004-01-15 17:08
Subject:	i'll take whatever i can hold;
Security:	Public
Mood:	hopeful
Music:	dashboard confessional; hands down

random ngawngaw;

• my dad turned 48 today.
• pati fingers ko barok. i was writting a comment for Patty summer_stargirl, sinulat ko wicked GREEN (read: wicked grin). i'm not sure if it's my LaSallian-ness or my kabarok-an that's on a dangerous level. probably both.
• i've consumned 10 chocolate coins over the past half hour.
• i want a cigarette. (but i will not! -- yeah right.)
• it's official. i'm sick and tired of Nelly's Dilemma. and yes, they're still playing it.
• beach trip on Sunday. i shall reunite with my place of solace (nampucha, ang drama o!) and make fun of crabs. labo.
• icebreakers are better than altoids. way better.
• i CAN'T make myself watch a scary movie. yesterday i came up with all possible reasons to finish Freddy vs Jason. i even went "manood ka ng nakakatakot, para pag kasama mo si Jayr, yumakap ka nang yumakap! ayos lang yan!" repeatedly in my head. sad to say, i only sat through the first 30 minutes. tss, WUSS.
• they played a Backstreet Boys' song a while ago. syempre sinabayan ko diba. perst lab e. (mahal ko parin! HAHAHA, ayos.)
• my definition of school. aba't aasa pa!
• "..your kiss might kill me." talk about nifty lyrics.
• Cali heat is back. love, love, LOVE. ♥
• i want cornick.
• "fo' rizzeal, dizzude! dayuuuum, i'm gon' see ya by tha crizzib latez, aight foo'?!" if you talk to me like that, please forgive me if i ACCIDENTALLY sock you right in the nose.
• long weekend. Saturday, Sunday, holiday Monday. Martin Luther King Jr., kung sino ka man, mahal kita dahil wala kaming pasok dahil sayo.

i have a feeling my papers are going to get fixed this year. it's probably the working-amnesty-proposal that brought this on. whatever it is, i'm seriously having good vibes. woman's intuition -- HA!
it's hard to go against a man's pride, but it's ALMOST impossible to compete with a woman's intuition.

breathe, candy. breathe for luck.

Date:	2004-01-12 21:34
Subject:	%X;
Security:	Public
Mood:	indescribable

i'm
going
to
go
crazy.

i already am.

Date:	2004-01-11 10:00
Subject:	to the days when i thought i knew;
Security:	Public
Mood:	cheerful
Music:	fountains of wayne; stacy's mom

i'm the 6th person to do this probably.
Mixz m0onflower, you're dangerous with a handful of nostalgia. (brit accent) dangerous, i say.
thanks, pretty pretty you.

( stolen with permission. )

my senior class had the BEST class picture; the most creative, the most unique, and the most bangis. if you didn't click on 'image' to see the uniforms, i suggest you scroll up and hit the link.
and why, you ask, did it make it in the yearbook?

(winks)
now you know.

live Jesus in our hearts? forever.
nakampoo.

Date:	2004-01-08 11:58
Subject:	because it's much better heartfelt;
Security:	Public
Mood:	nostalgic
Music:	jordan knight; close my eyes

may kaibigan ako dati, araw-araw kong kausap. madalas yung mga usapan namin pang-magkapatid. siguro ganon na nga, halos magkapatid na kami.

lahat naiba sa isang iglap. ako, siya, sila, yung sitwasyon -- lahat nagbago. sa tagal ng pagkakaibigan namin, nakakatawa nalang isipin na kami pa yung hindi nagkaintindihan. nakakatawa na nakakalabo ng utak. ngayon, hindi ko alam kung anong nangyayari sa buhay niya. itabi ko yon sa kondisyon na halos gawin niya na akong diyaryo dati, aaminin ko, nakakalungkot kahit papano.

alam ko masaya siya. masaya ako na masaya siya. may katagalan rin kasi na hiningi niya yung pagkakataon na humalakhak nang hindi plastik, ngumiti nang hindi pilit. naalala ko pa dati, sabi ko ipagdadasal kong hindi niya siya ma-depress -- niloko ko pa na ako kasi yung iniistorbo niya. syempre, tawanan na ang kasunod non.

naalala ko lang.
sa totoo, nakarinig ako ng kanta at naalala ko lang bigla.

..na wala sa isang araw na hindi kami magmurahan na solid, mapa-"tangina ka, men!" o mapa-"aba, ikaw ay isang pakker!" pa yan. syempre hindi kami seryoso, lagi lang naming ginagawa.

..kung pano niya tawanan ang pananalita ko. bentang-benta sa kanya ang hirit na "basta laaaaaaaaaang (long pause) may masabi." sobra rin ang pagka-aliw niya sa mga salitang "olopong" at "ocox", pati yung "kadi-re" na super quick emphasis lang sa re.

..yung isang beses na kinapalan ko ang mukha ko at sinabayan ko siyang kumanta. akala ko tatawa siya sa huli, pero ang sinabi niya, "maganda boses mo kung hindi mo ginagago." sinabihan ko siyang gago pagkatapos non. nahiya ako e.

..ang walang kamatayan niyang panunukso sakin sa dalawang Atenistang kaibigan namin. panahon pa ng #cuties yon.

..mga alias at alias-making contests. oo, nagsuffer din kami sa ka-corny-han na yon. nagkokopyahan pa nga kami e. blue and red yung akin, sa kanya black and gray.

..ang pagkawarfreak namin on certain occasions. pag galit ako, konsintidor siya. binibigyan pa ako ng mga ideas kung pano ko daw puede patumbahin yung kalaban. pakiramdam niya siya si Mr. Miyagi at ako yung karate kid. isa samin hindi nag-qualifty sa KAHIT ALIN dun sa dalawang posisyon na yon. hehe, umasa pa e.

..nag-imbento pa kami ng samahan, kasama ang isa pa naming kaibigan. ECM pa tinawag namin. wala naman kaming mga plano, gusto lang naming magka-pangalan. ganon kalakas trip namin e, kasing lakas ng kung sino mang HENYO na nakaisip ng pangalan na BERKS. inunahan mo kami, punyeta ka. :P

..siya daw ang tatay ko, at yung isa pang kaibigan naming babae ang nanay. unggoy daw siya na nagmahal sa isang aso, kaya naging cross-breed akong kawawa.

..mga kwento niya sa babae. magmula sa kilig hanggang sa galit, napakinggan ko lahat.

..kung pano namin palalain yung mga kadiri nang bagay. mga tipong "may nasagasaan na pusa malapit samin kanina. kadire." -- hihirit yung isa ng "a talaga? pisang-pisa ba?" na sasabayan namin nung isa na "hindi masyado. nagkalat lang naman ng pusa organs sa kalye."

..ang galit niya sa kamartyr-an ko dati. pag nagkwento ako sa kanya tungkol don, ang reaksyon niya lang ay isang mabilis at halatang basta-lang-masabi na "AH." yun ay kung trip niya pang magcomment. kung hindi, talagang tablado lang ako.

..palanca sa puting-puting-puting-sobrangputing sobre.

..kung paano namin lunurin lahat ng sama ng loob; na dala-dala lang namin ay kabaliwan, pinakabaduy na jokes sa mundo, eyebags namin, at ang pinakamalutong na halakhak ng dalawang magkaibigan.

naalala ko lang, na may kaibigan ako dati.
new year na, chong. kamusta na?

Date:	2003-12-31 16:21
Subject:	ready to take on the monkey;
Security:	Public
Mood:	complacent
Music:	smashing pumpkins; landslide

last chance to be annoying this year. hehe, NO LJ-CUT.

____ PLACES:
1) PLACE YOU HUNG OUT THE MOST IN THIS YEAR: bahay.
2) FAVORITE NEW PLACE YOU DISCOVERED: Santa Monica Beach.
3) PLACES YOU WENT ON DATES: uy, dates daw. i don't have those e, hehe.
4) FAVORITE VACATION SPOT FOR THE YEAR: San Francisco, definitely.
5) PLACES YOU MADE OUT IN (OR MORE) THIS YEAR: bahay ni Tito Tour Guide. yihaaaa!

____ PEOPLE:
1) PERSON/S WHO TAUGHT YOU ALOT THIS YEAR: i learned from everyone i know. yes, even from the unexpected.
2) AN OLD FRIEND YOU REDISCOVERED THIS YEAR: Louie Cayetano.
3) PERSON WHO TOLD YOU THE NICEST THING ABOUT YOURSELF: Jayr.
4) PERSON WHO DID SOMETHING REALLY GREAT FOR YOU (AND WHAT): from the top of my head, my boss and his family. they gave me a full-time job and kept me from getting laid off. and the trust factor, of course.
5) PERSON YOU SPENT THE MOST TIME WITH THIS YEAR: my officemates.
6) PERSON YOU DID SOMETHING REALLY GREAT FOR (AND WHAT): my parents. i'm still in this godforsaken country with them, right? hehe. seriously though, probably the support on all levels.
7) SOMEONE YOU WISHED YOU TALKED TO THIS YEAR: my lolo.
8) SOMEONE WHOM YOU STARTED A GREAT NEW FRIENDSHIP WITH: Pat, Nike, Jarmaine, Ron, Tinay, Jo, Sam, Charlie, Craig, Nin, Rena, and Kuya Alain.
9) OLD ENEMY/S YOU MADE PEACE WITH THIS YEAR: John and Rena.
10) SOMEONE YOU LOST THIS YEAR: Tagui and my ninang.
11) PERSON/S YOU KISSED THIS YEAR: my family, Jayr, beso sa ibang kaibigan.
12) PERSON WHO MADE YOU LAUGH THE MOST: my sister.
13) PERSON WHO MADE YOU CRY: Candy.
14) PERSON YOU DISLIKED WHEN THE YEAR BEGAN BUT ENDED UP BECOMING GOOD FRIENDS WITH: Ron.
15) PERSON YOU CRUSHED ON THE ENTIRE YEAR: Chris Cornell.
16) SOMEONE YOU WISHED YOU APOLOGIZED TO: i already did.
17) PEOPLE YOU WENT OUT ON DATES WITH: haha di na.
18) FRIENDS YOU WENT OUT WITH ALOT: Ron, Rena, Sam, and my sister.
19) COOLEST PERSON YOU MET THIS YEAR: Tito Lino, no brainer.

___ STUFF:
1) CLOTHING ITEM YOU WORE MOST THIS YEAR: jeans, trainers, white shirts.
2) NICEST PRESENT YOU GOT THIS YEAR: Jerem's logbook he made with my whole block. it hasn't arrived yet, but he said his ate sent it to me already. whoopa, can't wait!
3) FAVORITE SONG FOR THE YEAR: Mayonnaise - Bakit Part 2
4) COOLEST EVENT FOR THE YEAR: the whole San Francisco vacation remains at number one, hehe.
5) NEW HOBBY YOU PICKED UP THIS YEAR: photography.
6) BEST BOOK OF THE YEAR: Confessions of a Shopaholic. haha it's the only book i've read lately.
7) BEST MOVIE: GOTHIKA. undoubtfully.
8) MOST SHOCKING NEWS HEADLINE OF THE YEAR: Schwarzzy elected as governor of California.
9) FAVORITE FOOD FOR THE YEAR: L & L's chicken katsu and anything that has shrimp in it.
10) FAVORITE NEW ARTIST THAT CAME OUT THIS YEAR: maroon 5.

____ LESSONS:
1) WISEST THING YOU DID THIS YEAR: sticked to my principles.
2) STUPIDEST THING YOU DID THIS YEAR: lost control.
3) BIGGEST CHANGE IN YOUR LIFE THIS YEAR: i don't know. i feel more optimistic, maybe that's it.
5) SOMETHING YOU LEARNED THE HARD WAY: you learn more things the hard way. really, that's it.
6) GREATEST LESSON YOU LEARNED ABOUT:
A. LOVE - if it's at the purest state, you just don't lose it. no matter what.
B. LIFE - to each his own, and it's much better left at that.
7) BEST JOKE YOU'VE HEARD ALL YEAR: benta parin si Boy Bastos saken.
8) BIGGEST DISAPPOINTMENT OF THE YEAR: not being able to fly back for the holidays. sabi ko kasi one year lang e.
9) BIGGEST BLESSING OF THE YEAR: optimism. hope. faith. things i had to wait a long ass time for.
10) BIGGEST THING YOU DISCOVERED ABOUT THE WORLD: there may be lots of places that spell out beauty, but there will always be one place you call home.
11) BIGGEST THING YOU DISCOVERED ABOUT PEOPLE IN GENERAL: in one way, or another we're all the same -- so in one way or another, we should understand.

AND LASTLY!!!
1) GOALS/DREAMS FOR THE NEW YEAR: haha goals? i'll get back to you on this one.
2) PREDICTIONS FOR THE NEXT YEAR ON:
A. LOVE - siya parin. siya talaga e. (yes sexy, i'm talking about you.)
B. CAREER - i'm good with ManMedicalSupply,howmayihelpyou? job. nifty.

i haven't changed much over the past year.
tell me if that's a choice, or a mistake.

people can look at me and frown. i bet some are already judging me right now.
yet there are a number that can place the 2003 me with sheets from yesterday, stack them neatly in a box, place the cover on, and label it a year that was.

happy new year, people. chillax and bring in the booze.
Jayr, salamat. ass to ass yo, hehe. mahal kita, tandaan mo.

CHEERS.

Date:	2003-12-26 18:44
Subject:	twenty five to twenty seven;
Security:	Public
Mood:	high
Music:	parokya ni edgar; bigotilyo bonus track

another year has passed, and You have blessed me as a witness to the beauty You have given him. for every skill, every insight, and every step made in a day; i am thankful.
whatever You have set in Your mind, i'm sure they will go as planned. though some may take extra time, i have conviction that assures me of the way he's going to make You proud. i'm not the only person You've touched through him. the way he has been shaped by Your will and strengthened by Your breath -- he is as surreal as hope, and as true as life itself.

another year, Lord. with his courage, You have sent me places; with his ambition, You build me up; with his love, You prove my worth and meaning.

You ARE the Big Man Upstairs.
thank You for You.
thank You for him.

happy birthday, Jayr. ♥
much love.
one love.

Date:	2003-12-24 08:47
Subject:	kami bukas pa e;
Security:	Public
Mood:	drunk

merry, merry, MERRY chreesmants everyone.

gusto ko kayo yakapin isa isa, pero alam nyo na.
utang muna! hehe. next christmas, hopefully.

drink and be merry, like what duhkneez said.
hell, i already started. yowza.

merry chreesmants, again. i hope you guys have a good one this year.
*solid hugs to each and every* hah, there we go. :P

Date:	2003-12-18 00:10
Subject:	my true love gave to me;
Security:	Public
Mood:	uncomfortable

conyo kid: mommy, knock knock?
mommy: yes anak?
conyo kid: no, ma! that's not what you're supposed to say. knock knock?
mommy: who's DUR?

hehe, cute.

( 50 QUESTIONS. )

i want puto bungbong.
mainit, malagkit, matamis na masarap.

i know very little about some of the people on my friends' list. some people I know relatively well. i read your fic, or we have something else in common and we chat occasionally. some of you I hardly know at all. perhaps you lurk, for whatever reason. but you friended me and i thank you.

but here's a thought: why not take this opportunity to tell me a little something about yourself. any old thing at all. just so the next time i see your name i can say: 'ah, there's so and so...she likes alphabetising her CD collection.'

i'd love it if every single person who friended me would do this. yes, even you people who I know really well. then post this in your own journal.

Date:	2003-12-13 11:45
Subject:	Lord, sana nandito siya;
Security:	Public
Mood:	mellow

i did the ocho ocho on the dance floor last night.
call me ridiculous, i don't fucking care. however, in hopes of changing your mind, may i just give you the information that my crazy stunt scored me a pair of black pearl studs.

things i do for vanity. i, myself, shake at the very thought sometimes.

the food was okay, in a three-trips-to-the-buffet-table kind of way. after my second stump of mashed potatoes, i could already feel the fat building their camps on my thighs.
the room was beautiful. Radisson's ballroom. tablecloths all green and red, a small christmas tree on top, plus they didn't have the AC so high up too.
the band was WOW. we're talking about sheer talent here. kahit Christmas song nila, okay e. i'm just thankful they didn't sing my LSS of two straight days -- it's beginning to look a lot like KREES!mas. instead, like some sort of telepatheticshaggydelic power, they do Too Close.
Too Close big giant HUMONGOUS dose of adolescent nostalgia Too Close.
that song can make anybody feel young for at least 3 minutes. i could remember laughing at the memory of green plaid skirts, ankle high socks and leather mary janes.
it's funny how it takes me back to Dusit Hotel or Makati Shangri La, in that same situation of sitting down and dancing in my seat. syempre minus the gown and sneakers. (yes, you read. i had a gown on, AND sneakers. haha how funk.) pero makapal na mukha ko ngayon e, i eye my spot on the dance floor, and i do MY Too Close.
ohoy. kangkong candy, here we go.

now i have an idea how it feels like to be torpe. i was a boy last night, and dancing was my "prospect". it's one of those moments where phrases such as "ay, wag na nga lang" and "sige na nga" are indescribably overused.
YMCA, september, shake your groove thing, swing, tango, cha cha, freestyle. name it, i wrecked it. nobody complained, hehe. of course the ocho ocho, my "season-ender". there was a nurse who did it, too. she got a handkerchief, and i got earrings. hahahaha i'm fucking mean. you have to forgive me, this doesn't happen everyday. i made my parents proud. *snicker* right, like that really happened.

to sum it all up, this christmas party was good good pretty pretty. i didn't get shitfaced, but i'm sure you're all familiar with my natural drunkness' ability to ooze out once in a while.

so i guess it really is beginning to feel a lot like christmas.
only until i come home and recognize the longing.
i'm back to square one.

Lord, sana nandito siya.

Date:	2003-12-10 22:31
Subject:	i am with a broken smile;
Security:	Public
Mood:	creative
Music:	sugarfree; hintay

mmkay. let's see if i learned anything from my childhood.

...
they say that loving someone is the greatest and the hardest feeling of all time.
now, fill this goddamn olats thing up.

1. pano kung mahal mo pero di ka mahal?
-- mahal ko parin. syempre malungkot yon, but if i really love the guy that much, ganon talaga ang buhay. hihintayin ko nalang siya malasing. JOKE.

2. mahal ka pero di mo mahal?
-- ay, hasel. sabihin ko nalang in the NICEST way possible. if he throws a Pacino on me, wala na akong magagawa.

3. mahal nyo ang isa't isa pero hindi pwede?
-- at baket hindi naman puede? basta laban lang hanggang kaya, at kung walang naaapakang ibang tao. kung hindi puede dahil may commitment involved, ako mismo magsasabi sa kanyang bumitaw. (wayop, telenovela ha.)

4. pwede pero pinatatagal pa?
-- may tawag diyan, kaartehan.

5. pwede pero maraming ayaw?
-- hindi naman sila yung makikipagrelasyon e, ako. of course i'd let them talk, if their reasons make sense, i'm game with a decent compromise. if it works well between us, then the "maraming" would just have to deal with that.

6. pwede pero nagpapakiramdaman pa?
-- ayos lang, pero hindi ako magrerely masyado sa pakiramdam. syempre mas okay parin pag nakikita yung natural performance.

7. friends naman na pwedeng more than friends?
-- siguraduhin lang na PUEDENG more than friends. again, if walang maapakang tao, green light saken. otherwise, tigil-tigilan niyo yan.

8. kunwari pihikan pero hindi?
-- masama ang fake.

9. kayo pero pinagpalit ka sa iba?
-- haha hasel. yan ang dahilan kung baket pumapait ang hangin minsan e. i'd appreciate it if he talked to me first before he did something with another person. pag nalaman ko na kung ano-ano ang ginagawa niya sa iba habang kung ano-ano rin ginagawa niya saken, lintik lang ang walang ganti. (ANGAS.)

10. kayo na nga, inaagaw pa ng iba?
-- hindi naman maiiwasan yan e. meron talagang mga tao na ganyan ang ugali, ewan ko kung baket. wag lang siya magpaagaw. or else i will skin them both using plastic forks.

11. hanggang dreams mo na lang talaga siya?
-- pakawalan nalang. pano naman yung times na gusto mong maging masaya nang gising? (drama na 'to, kiiiiiiiiiids.)

12. friends lang tlga dapat kahit mahal mo?
-- isa-isa lang, mayn. "i'd much rather have you in my life as a friend, than not have you at all." diyan nagsimula yang textbook line na yan e.

13. madami pang iba... san ka ba dito?
-- depende nalang kung gusto mo pang maghanap ng iba. kung kuntento at masaya ka na sa isang tao, kahit gano pa kadami yung iba, baliwala silang lahat.

14. nagsisinungaling sayo na nakikipagusap pa siya sa ex niya?
-- hindi ko siya pipigilang makipagusap sa ex niya, may pinagsamahan sila non e. wag lang siyang magsinungaling tungkol don. actually, wag lang siyang magsinungaling sa kahit saan, ayos kami.

15. nahule mo na nakikipagbalikan siya sa ex niya habang kayo?
-- deputa, wala na kaming paguusapan.

16. nahule mong may iba, tapos gs2 niya kayo pagsabayin?
-- takte, ano siya, birthday? asa pa boy.

17. mahal ka niya pero hinde na siya masaya? (no other person involved)
-- sabihin niya lang sakin, ibabalik ko kasiyahan niya. (baket ang panget pakinggan sa tagalog?) his happiness means so much more than a lot of things. all he has to do is talk to me about it, really.

naculture shock ako don a. hahaha THANK GOD i don't have to deal with these babies.

if the Powerpuff Girls read my answers, i'm sure as hell they'd shoot me down.
love love love lo-lo-loveeeee, lo-lo-looooooove, makes the world go round.
*gunshots* damn you, Salazar!

Date:	2003-12-06 00:03
Subject:	kick in, amox;
Security:	Public
Mood:	calm

these drugs take a while to go down. i'm waiting for it.
not sure if i got this filled out correctly, i just put the first five off the top of my head.

a. audioslave. annie, my bebeh shih tzu. ooh, alfredo. atrial-septal defect. away from the sun.
b. babe. b-rok of the backstreet boy -- ohoyea, you read it right. boy names for girls. bionic. black and white photography.
c. cuddling. cable everything. calling people unique names. chris cornell. consolation ("that's my boyfriend!" hahaha that was insane.)
d. driving drunk, hahaha. dekadence01. dancing like a diva. double dares. dressing casual.
e. emo. eating like there's no tomorrow. eagle eye cherry. "easy lang, guys!". emergency room.
f. funkfaith01. frying hotdogs 'til they're dark brown. fishing -- for compliments syempre, hehe. far too jones. further seems forever. fiona apple.
g. gas, seriously (not the one you toot, the one you pump!). going places just because. getting a raise. my God -- your God too. gambas. grade school.
h. hakkinen. hanging out 'til whenever. hintayan. heat. "honk twice if you know the response!".
i. isaw, baby. internet. inuman -- hindi yung pacute ha, the kind where everybody lets out their deepest, darkest, most recent booboos. i has finally become a permanent us. irwindale.
j. jayr. jane's addiction. jollibugs and its masayang manok that you just can't beat. jamba juice. jack of hearts.
k. killing time. kris aquino's incredibly white skin. kakulitang walang hanggan. krispy kreme. kids.
l. living the day. love, and everything that's attached to it. long-playing conversations. long distance. lenny kravitz.
m. manila. making out. "man medical supply, how can i help you?". mae lynn -- there, i said it. mayonnaise.
n. nike momentums. nokia 3650. nickelodeon. "nifty". now.
o. one and always. "OLOPONG!!!". overjoyed -- that song. one week before departure date. orange orthodontic rubber bands.
p. premature birth. "pikel". practice makes perfect. presentation. playing two pieces on the piano.
q. quail eggs. quarterbacks. quincy jones. /quit. quentin tarantino.
r. repeating things that i say. racing people to the bathroom. release. rhyme and reason. reactions.
s. spontaneity. severo. stupid, the game. singing out of tune (heh, like i can do something about it). spanish.
t. truth. taken by surprise. travelling without walking. teaching, and being taught. trust.
u. underworld. underwear. uniting people of different walks of life. undressing the pretentions. universal studios.
v. vacations (flights that fulfill the "flying back" part, hehe). volunteering for POLIGOV. viva mineral water. valley view. vonda shepard.
w. watching people rock the fuck out. water. "warp ka, pare". willy wonka and the chocolate factory. wicks.
x. xerox. xenophobia. HA?
y. yes, yiz, yep, yeahba. yelling at birds (sorry babs, i can't help it). yield. yours. yeller.
z. zero regrets, man. that's all there is to it.

after all these years, i'm still illiterate when it comes to x. shame.

( high on what, you say? )
okay, the pink and blue pills hit me. goodnight, hotstuff.

Date:	2003-12-01 11:10
Subject:	for all my needs;
Security:	Public
Mood:	amused
Music:	beth orton; anywhere

it's that time of the month, kids.

( funkfaith01 (6:27:24 PM): we are perverts, we have no pants. )

paranoia or no paranoia, i know where IT'S been. that being said, i know where IT WILL go, because i will be right beside IT when that happens.

19 ones. the dog will eat the grass. ü

Paint what you know not what you see
Hope binds reason thankfully
Know how it when something fits
Then there's just a question of being it

And I'd do anything to see you smile again to see you smile again
But I'd go anywhere so as not to feel your pain
And I wanna live and the fear is all gone
I wanna protect and I know what it's from
I wasn't made of secrets like these
Chinese whispered memories

...
my mind is your gas tank, remotely located halfway across the sea -- but really, it's just at the very palm of your hand. empty it if you will. fill it up if you must.

already, my thoughts are larger than my own head. sometimes i know i have to stop thinking.
yet i don't want to. and i need to.

but i won't.

i want you to post anything that you want in reply to this entry.

anything. a story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love, an opinion, a critique--anything. be sure to post anonymously and honestly. post twice if you'd like. (maybe more.) then, put this in your journal to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your journal) have to say.

this can be about me, or anything you want. regardless, just use the "anonymous" radio button to post anonymously. you can reveal who you are if you want. i turned off the "log IP" option for this, temporarily. post what you'd like, or if you don't want to post anything, that's just fine.

thanks. ♥