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i typed one whole long lengthy entry.
and then i cleared the whole page.
wasted my time typing. totally.
i just realised i didnt wanna say those stupid trivial stuff anymore.
like why should i care to rem what i did today?
ok im in a big fat bad mood.
and i dunno why.
i was in a very good mood in sch today
fooling ard with eu in chem lect and doing disappearing acts with the rest of F8 when the LT is empty.
FUN. (:
and ikea in the night with yueting n paul.
we have BAD direction sense. hahahaha.
but now, oh whatever.
sometimes im really bothered by how the friendship among us have changed.
so much promised yet so much changed.
well, it's the problem with time, i guess.
time changes ppl and i can blame no one.
u know, sometimes i am acty afraid that the day will come and all of u will go with ur respective someone.
and i dunno what will become of me.
friends are like my world but i know deep down that one day i will no longer mean the same anymore.
like we can say friends forever and i know with u girls, it will be forever. u alw mean what u say.
but i guess the time will come when someone else will be more impt than the friendship we share.
im still such a baby.
i should grow up and mature and accept the reality.
yet i would rather sit here, wrapped up and hide myself from the world.
smile for me.
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[14 Aug 2005|05:52pm] |
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pw yest was fun. (:
let's see...
- dinosaur is a dictionary
- yelin has a really very cute dog.
- we r very noisy n laughy
- we only eat you tiao n dao poks in rojaks
- girls have sharp tongues. hahaha and we r pretty mean
- we r CRAVING for twister fries but nvm. (:
- oky is burnt from the sun
- words make us dizzy. or rather TOO many of them make us dizzy.
- i can walk to yelin house w/o getting lost
- we destroyed her tap.
- we ate a lot.
- we paraphrased a lot, struggling to make our WR more profound.
- oky needs a laugh. hahahaha
- our WR is wordy.
- tweety sings. and it used to be orange but now its peeling.
- finger food = lady fingers
- DINER DASH!!!!! (:
pufferfish makes me laugh.
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derrick's out.
i spent today going ard sch telling anyone who's willing to listen that im really very sad that derrick's out.
haha. its true. i AM sad. but im not like totally crazy over him and idolising him.
i just find him good enough and worthy to be competing in the next round with junyang.
yupp. and the song hen xiang ni is stuck in my head.
dont sit beside me in lect if u dont wanna hear tt song abt 10 times in 1 lect (ask sulin abt it :D)
haha. ok enough abt superstar.
today so doesnt feel like fri AT ALL.
but its ok. it feels good to slack.
and i realise some ppl r doing stuff that i nv ever thought they would do so in a milion years.
as in, those sort of things that you would expect other girls to be doing, but not erm.. them.
it just feels weird.
like i've been reading this book in modern english
and suddenly i find this long chapter at the back that's in "thou"s and "thee"s type of english.
so, me being me, i will go "HUH?!?!?!"
yeah. THAT sort of feeling.
pw tml at yelin's house!
shall have an early night.
sweet dreams.
pufferfish makes me laugh.
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[11 Aug 2005|11:17pm] |
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yesterday was fun, to the extreme.
stef n i met at about 2 plus and we went over to cine to buy tickets for the 245 charlie show.
but the tickets were SOLD OUT, so we walked over to lido, and the tickets were also SOLD OUT.
so we walked back to cine to buy the 445 show and its also SOLD OUT.
haha guess what we did in the end?
we walked over to plaza sing to buy the 7pm show
and mind you, that was the cinema i totally didnt want to go to in the first place.
ARGH.
haha, but its ok. the walk with stef was fun and the movie was pretty cute.
if theres something im sure abt in the next 10 yrs, it will be the fact that im gonna tie stef to my slingbag.
so she will be my best friend forever :)
and we've decided to start saving for our cottage. oh yes PIGGY BANKS!!
cos, aft yest, we realised there's a VERY high chance we will need the cottage in like 20 yrs to come.
haha, but its ok. i will have her and she will have me.
ITS A PROMISE. :)
siok n sze met us ard 4 and we bought the grandon nydc card togt!
haha so the 4 lazy us trodded over to wheellock and drank two large elephancinos at nydc.
YUMMY!!
hmm then we went over to have dinner at lido n i met some S47 ppl.
after food, me n stef went off for charlie!
haha, oh yes. on national day, i went over to aunt joanna's house to play, slack and swim. nice family gathering.
i swam quite a lot. was in the pool for a good 2 hours and i was really swimming.
i realise i like swimming alot.
thats all. checking outta here for tv. nights!
pufferfish makes me laugh.
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[08 Aug 2005|11:53pm] |
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today is slack. i haven been doing anything for the past few days.
OH GOSH.
ok. if i dont have family dinner tml, i shall go n watch fireworks with stef n sze at esplanade.
i have a date with stef to catch cute charlie on wed, then siok n sze will join us for some shopping n dinner! :)
yays. hahaha.
oh yes i found this somewhere. just though i will share it here.
and while i can try so hard to stop myself from these thoughts of you in the day,
my mind simply wander to your side in the night and i cant stop dreaming of u.
i can find one thousand reasons to tell myself that u arent the one,
so in the day i can safely say that ive stopped loving you.
but in the night, when my heart takes over, i realise everything is just but a lie.
pufferfish makes me laugh.
F6699
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[03 Aug 2005|11:02am] |
and i thought aft 7 mths i would hav learnt.
but apparently, i haven.
im stil as sucky a ct rep as ever.
it is so much more fun to be in class com last time in dunman than it is now.
and to think last time our class size was 30 sth and now it's a mere 24.
ok forget it.
fine. today is one of those days i wish i was back in 2a/4j.
with stef, siok, sze and i would be looking forward to the end of sch so we could go out n eat.
and hav so much fun. :)
I SHOULD MOVE ON.
it seems like every other week i would be here whining abt how i want to go back to the past.
I SHOULD STOP WHINING.
everyone else seems to have moved on.
so why am i stuck here?
do u remember the days when we used to say nothing can change us no one can stop us i wanna be like you.
we will be friends till the end, take on the world, just dont care at all.
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[30 Jul 2005|11:46pm] |
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this week was insane.
i left the college only at 11pm on thurs aft all the clearing up was done.
and i reported back to sch for some sci carnival briefing at 9 plus on fri's mon.
went for bio lect n half of chem lect aft tt.
then i had to go off to help out at e seriously REDUNDANT sci carnival.
like so crap la. im not really excited abt missing chem lect.
cos i suck majorly in chem.
OH NVM. as if i was even listening in the first place.
helped out at career fair this morn.
when i reached home, the first thing i did was to leap into bed and SLEEP.
i didnt even bother waking up to eat lunch. i just slept all the way till dinner.
IM SO FREAKING TIRED.
oh yes and i must do my work soon.
i hate my dad's working partner. seriously.
he's the biggest bastard alive.
i hope when he crosses the causeway to live with his mistress,
his car will lose control and dive straight into the straits of malacca.
it's SUCH a pity that the straits of malacca does not have any white sharks to gobble him up alive.
ok. im sadistic.
i'll be here.
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[27 Jul 2005|10:53pm] |
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haha.. my dad is interesting.
he just asked me if i was les.
OH WOW.
JOY.
do i really seem THAT against guys?
ok. nvm about that.
trying on nice pretty clothes is fun! :)
oh gosh. im so hooked onto this 75 bucks denim mini from zara.
yayness.
haha bought this pair of cute star earrings.
its really really sweet.
and its black.
monochrome. yeah.
hahaha.
what can i do.
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im happy today. :)
ok fine i was grumpy in the morn cos im grounded today and to make it even worse,
i forgot to bring my specs to sch.
and today was LECTURE day.
meaning even if i go for any of the 3 lects, i wont b able to see a single thing on the screen.
so i started doing my bio pract during econ lect n i ponned bio lect.
haha spent practically a good half of my day in the e lib rushing my undone bio pract n sleeping.
then i was amusing myself with my imitation of GORILLAS, which ck said looked like im dancing.
RIGHT.
and we saw someone doing funny things in the lib. it was HILARIOUS. hahaha.
hmm, had the cultural fiesta after sch but anyw, we were too busy having our own fun. :)
yes, we acty managed to hav our own fun in the hall. hahs.
and it was SO funny to dance couple dance with sulin. i was so busy laughing, my sides ached.
haha, and we went to support interhouse capt ball aft that cos lind n qinghui were playing.
OH the match against lynx was rather fun to watch.
yupp!
but now, im back home, my mum's back to nagging, im back to being irritated.
oh and my dad's joining in the crowd too.
my cant-be-bothered dad. CAN YOU HONESTLY BELIEVE IT?
what can i do.
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track finals today and sze took the 800m champ title home. :)
i AM SO PROUD OF U, dear girl.
i went down to support sze with stef and we were literally holding hands when they announced the results.
cos there was this girl who was neck to neck with sze and we were so afraid sze would be second.
and u could imagine how happy we were when we found out she's first.
i realised today that sometimes the little joys in life is when you see the smile on your good friend's face,
and you rem all the times you've had with her. and with stef n siok, of cos. :)
and u realise that in this cold hard brittle world, there is still a few ppl who u can cry and laugh with.
ppl who you can share your fear, your joy, your anxiety.
someone you can reach out to hug and bury your face in her shoulder.
tho now all of us r separated in diff classes with our own friends, our own lives.
but i pray with all my heart that we will alw stay the way we were in sec3, sec 4 and now.
roti prata, mutarbah (how to spell??), seoul garden, xiao long bao (at bugis!!!) and yes, kushin bo SOON.
plus viking rock!! our sinful 10 scoops at cartel. :)
i dunno why am i suddenly saying all this,
but now, i really feel like crying becos i miss you girls so badly, and i miss my life in dunman so much.
i cant fit in here at all.
its not my place.
i feel like a bimbo, an airhead, a mean girl, a bitch and a dumbo all rolled into one the min i step into my vj uni.
im not myself anymore.
how i wish i can be the cp ive alw been in dhs.
i dunno where has that girl gone.
but i noe i want her back.
what if i look into the mirror and i cant recognise who i see anymore.
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im in a bad mood today
VERY VERY bad mood.
its either monday blues or pms. oh whatever.
i realised that aft i came to vj, ive become fiercer, ruder and my attitude is getting worse.
somehow i find that if u r too nice in vj, u'll get bullied.
its not like in dhs where everybody's nice.
its a totally diff case here. and i stil hate it.
plus guys here r useless.
seriously.
im getting very very very irritated with a few guys now.
and i realised the ppl i bitch abt are ALL GUYS.
im sorry if there r any guys reading my blog now.
i didnt ask u to read anyw so whatever.
yes, they r just useless.
i mean, just look at Mr Kwok. he cant teach for nuts.
im so gonna fail my maths for promos again.
and my attitude in maths tut today sucked.
i had the total pissed look on my face.
oh well, i WAS pissed.
at least i wasnt pretending to enjoy his lesson.
cos apparently i DONT.
ok. stop being a bitch. time to sleep.
NIGHTS.
NAYNEBYILLB.
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[17 Jul 2005|10:52pm] |
to those who asked, i wasnt really angry when im writing my prev entry.
i was just pretending to be angry cos im DEMANDING a full apology togt with another 10 scoops of ice cream from my dear fren.
hahaha.. yes. and this time, it's ur treat girl. :)
im alw free for u. AND THE ICE CREAM.
yays.
today was slack. i did the gp presentation and it looked so nice.
ok so all i did was tons of copy n pasting but it was fun.
didnt do any work this week
im screwed but nvm.
wed gonna go choa chu kang stadium for track finals.
rock on, sze. u r my babe.
hahs.
wonder what will u say when u see this.
NAYNEBYILLB.
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its REALLY late and i should slp.
but anyw, ok i shall blog first.
first thing first, i CHANGED MY LAYOUT. hoho.
i spent almost 3 hrs just to find this stupid layout but nvm, i like it.
A LOT. :)
its so me. black and white. im such a monochrome.
but yes, i still find it pretty tho its just black and white.
today was nice.
went for the ct sc housecom bonding session during which we played shi zi lu kou.
fun!
there's sheryl, joyce, clarrisa, grace, en qing, jasmine in my grp and yupp, it was FUN.
we ate such wonderful high end stuff.
in fact, the way we ate made us seem like a bunch of rich kids hanging out at siglap.
oh and we walked A LOT. what nice exercise. :)
aft the bonding session i went back to siglap's cafe cartel to meet stef, siok sze. :)
oh n i cant believe the fact that for all sze and i hav done, for all the words we've said, it was all a LIE.
i feel so darn cheated.
at least it was slightly better for sze.
she didnt have to waste her fri night entertaining 2 goons who were having a hell of a fun time.
AT THE EXPENSE OF ME.
argh.
oh wells. what's new?
im alw the one getting cheated the most.
cos im dumb and stupid and i dont seem to know whats real from whats not.
ok fine, thanks a lot for reminding me of that.
i trust ppl too easily.
NAYNEBYILLB.
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had FUN today at ash's house with ash n eu. :)
we watched 13 going on 30 and hot chicks in tt nice cosy basement of hers,
n pigged out on nice keropoks!!
it was SO fun.
and 13 going on 30 is such a sweet movie.
yays.
tried to do some homework but well, it didnt quite happen.
hahaha. but yes, it was FUN. :)
i wish every fri would be this fun instead of me being stuck in sch ushering.
in fact, im so used to being stuck in sch every fri
that it felt weird to be able to slack in ash's house so early in the afternoon today.
but still, OH YEAH.
tml will be gorgeous.
yupp im going back to vj in e morn for ct outing of some sort then im going out!!!
with stef sze n siOk.
hohoho girLs, ice cream time! n i WANT my 10 scoops this time.
NOBODY is stopping me.
ive waited LONG enough.
:)
NAYNEBYILLB.
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ok im tired.
and i dunno why am i updating.
oh yeah went ash's house today and it totally ROCKED. :)
nice house, girl!
hahs then we watched 13 going on 30 halfway n those girls got the song stuck in my head.
lalala.
haha, then went for gm which caused me to nearly freeze to death in tt undergrd LT.
and erm... ok tt's abt it for today. wed is slack.
OH. me, ash n eu r gonna play floorball for ursa tml!
haha and to think ive NEVER touched a floorball stick in my entire life.
and i hav zero idea how to play floorball.
what a joke.
im so gonna laugh myself silly in the field tml. hahaha.
and sat wil be fun. I HOPE.
PIGGING OUT SESSION.
:)
one way or another i gonna catcha catcha catcha catcha.
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[11 Jul 2005|11:21pm] |
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in pain. AGAIN.
my stomach hurts so badly every now and then, and its getting more and more frequent.
and to be honest, im scared.
cos i dunno whats wrong inside my belly.
argh. and it sucks.
i used to have very bad gastrics problems.
and now that i fixed that, my stomach starts aching on a weekly basis.
i dun wanna go to sch in pain tml.
but i still will.
what an idiot.
oh and for heaven's sake,
stop telling me that you screwed up mids when i see you got a nice little C while im stuck with Ds and Es.
AND DONT TELL ME YOU ARE VERY SAD COS YOU DONT HAVE AN A.
oh please.
A?
A?!?!?!!?
like A for apple?
ok. the letter A apparently doesnt register in my brain nor does it exist in my world any longer.
dont phunk with my heart.
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[07 Jul 2005|11:32pm] |
when u brush past me without a second glance.
i freeze and stare at your retreating back,
my heart stuck in my throat.
thats when i realise you are still the one i love.
when you sit there staring at me,
i dropped my books down the stairs.
all because my hands grew too weak under your gaze.
thats when i realise you are still the one i love.
when i see girls all around you,
i walk away silently, swearing not to cry.
my heart shattered within my brittle soul.
thats when i realise you are still the one i love.
with all the small little things,
like when u sat across from me and smiled.
when i looked up and saw u looking at me,
thats when i know for sure you are still the one i love.
but destiny is a frightening game and im destined to lose.
but you are stil the one i love.
-from the blue jeans mag.
oh wells..
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ok im quite screwed.
like really screwed.
sure, i expected to do badly for mid yrs.
in fact, i was so convinced tt i wil flop badly this time tt i told myself if i pass maths n chem, i will be happy.
and yes i did pass.
but barely.
so now, im not sad but neither am i happy.
its hard to be happy with my kinda score but im not exactly sad cos i know i didnt put in much effort either.
i mean, hello?
what can i expect when i dont go for lectures, i dont do my tuts, i pon lessons to socialise in the canteen.
and my fave activity is to sleep in the lib.
like wow. i seriously deserve to flop, man.
so i cant whine becos there's virtually nothing i can whine about.
im reaping what i sowed.
right.
so now i just gotta figure out how im gonna break the news to my mum that her daughter here has a D and a E.
and i will seriously laugh if i get a A and another D.
then i will get DEAD.
wonderful.
and im getting increasingly unhappy in vj.
(oh its not abt mid yrs.)
its like i speak and hear but i dont feel.
i dont feel for my class, i dont feel for my s25 frens, i dont feel for the council.
i dont feel a thing at all.
and ive nv been this emotionless, this cold in my entire life.
sometimes i wish i had the guts to turn and walk away but i dont because i cant trust that u will run after me.
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ok lets start with the sat of my nice n long weekend of absolute freedom.
had urban infest today!!!
tt's like some kinda carnival at cine celebrating youth day.
so anyw, me siok stef n meLo went ard in this big black infest tee,
asking youths wat's their passion in life n asking them to draw it down. hahaha.
wat an interesting qns right?
i thought most of those ppl towning will just ignore us and scuttle away.
but boy, am i wrong. :)
many teens stopped and helped us draw and some of them were so funny n amusing.
lemme see if i can stil rem the more memorable ones.
there were the fairfield girls n their girlgirl boyboy drawing, the tote bag gang, the balloon fanatics,
and of cos our entertaining peanut trio.
hahahaha, the peanut gang was so amusing la.
-winks at stef n siok- :)
ok then jenny joined us in the evening,
and we had dinner after slacking at the tables near the cine box office for an hr.
ooh then we went to play FOOLS BALLS in the aracde.
its great fun la!!! totally. hahaha
we SCREAMED, we SHOUTED, we HIGHFIVED, we HUGGED and we got all EXCITED in e arcade.
hahaha.. jenny even lifted the whole table a few times when the ball got stuck.
now i noe why so many ppl seems to love it.
its so FUN!
now for sun.
spent my sunday with stef siok sze towning. haha yeah again. :)
we shopped, talked and had tons of fun simply just by crapping with each other for the entire day.
oohh i really REALLY miss them.
they r stil e ones i can say nonsense to and they will understand my nonsense.
ok, this sentence alr sounds like nonsense. haha.
yupp. hope to meet up with u girls more often!
ahh... im satisfied.
wanna go swim tml. but i forgot to wash my new swimsuit up.
shall wear my old one then.
heaven knows ive fallen.
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