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[14 Dec 2005|12:30am] |
i havent been writing my dear short stories for almost a year already.
i guess ive lost my touch but still, here goes...
this gift.
she remembered...
the time she saw him smile from across the room and it was as though he was smiling at her.
for her.
and her heart flew out the window.
she remembered...
the time she stood sullenly at the stall, playing with the dumb candles that refused to stand.
she was singing "i'll do anything" and she wondered how good it will be if he was there.
she looked up and what she saw took her breath away.
he was there. right in front of her. watching her vandalise all the candles.
she dropped the candles and ran.
away.
she remembered...
the time she hid in the toilet and cried.
she felt so alone because things were just so hard.
she left the toilet and almost walked right into him.
he was there.
again.
she remembered...
the time he hit her head with his bag and she was furious because he was rude.
he didnt apologise.
then he did, over and over again.
she didnt even dare to turn around and face him.
she was so afraid.
she remembered...
the time his friends pushed him against the glass panel in the library.
she saw him from the other side of the panel.
and she saw the cutest smile she had ever seen before.
she remembered...
the time when she skipped lectures alone to rush up her uncompleted homework.
and she felt so tired for she hadnt slept much the night before.
the library was so cold.
so she got up and walked to the door.
he reached at the same time as her.
he opened the door for her. she thanked him. he smiled.
her heart soared.
she remembered...
all the mornings when she met him on the way across the carpark.
and she would stare at the ground for she didnt want to look at him.
but she would be so happy for the rest of the day because she had seen him.
she remembered...
the time he had to go for competition.
she was so very worried.
and when she heard he had been victorious, she was so glad.
never mind that he came back looking blacker than a piece of charcoal.
she just wished she could tell him 'congrats'.
but she couldnt. they didnt even say hi to each other.
she remembered...
the silly little things he did.
the ones that made her laugh while she was being baked under the sun.
the ones that made her laugh after she flopped her exams.
she watched him quietly and always, no matter how unhappy she is, she would smile.
because he had that power on her.
he already did from the first day she saw him.
just a smile and the rain is gone. always.
he was just that special.
but he would never know.
she cant forget he once made her smile and will always be the one who make her smile.
she wishes all the most wonderful things for him on this night and forever.
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[06 Nov 2005|12:46am] |
haha. its been a joke.
a joke that ive played on myself.
FUNNY.
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[11 Oct 2005|11:26pm] |
im moving.
http://telling-me.blogspot.com/
but i may come back here.
i kinda miss this blog a lot.
fieryangelx.
it holds many secrets and happy memories that i will never forget.
ciao.
heading for a brand new beginning...
and i will forget that you once made me smile.
F6699
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| so long |
[07 Oct 2005|11:07pm] |
tanned!
im black, brown, red and everything like someone sunburnt.
BUT im very very happy today! :)
swimming in the noon (literally) burns my face till my cheeks look like small fugi apples now.
ha! but im still so so happy.
and taking 48 all the way to holland v just to eat thai express is really quite lame.
BUT its really really good fun!
gotta admit holland v is a brand new exp. :)
haha im really happy happy hapy today!
ok now im really too tired n too burnt to blog so i shall not nag ard too much.
just wanna say i had tonnes of fun today!
i love you girls everyday!
oh yes, n when siok is done with her promos, we will whack nydc.
counting the fact that we failed to today.
ha! looking forward.
smile me a cookie monster smile and brighten my day.
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[06 Oct 2005|11:37pm] |
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last day of promos.
yes, i know ive been looking forward to this day since forever.
but now that im finally here, it doesnt seem like anything much anymore.
the joy the freedom the feeling of being released are all OVERRATED.
ok so we hit town today aft our wonder math paper.
we wanted to watch 40-yr-old virgin which happens to be m18.
SO, the young ingenious us bought IN THE BLUE tickets and crashed the 40 yr old virgin theatre.
haha! the crashing part was really really funny!
we were like laughing non stop and when we walked in we found some s27 ppl behind us.
HA!
so we arent alone. in fact there were MANY of us crashing 40yrold virgin.
and its a REALLY funny show.
very corny but its really that kinda laugh-though-its-not-funny show.
good show to release promo stress. (:
hmm sometimes you know how it feels to be out there socialising, making new friends, and then once in a while,
you just feel like crawling back to where u belong.
thats how i feel now. (:
smile me a cookie monster smile and brighten my day.
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[30 Sep 2005|04:18pm] |
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so im supposed to be studying.
but i think ive seriously reached saturation point and i seriously have no idea what i shld be studying now.
as in, i feel super super unprepared but i dont seem to know what else should i be studying.
ARGH.
4 days is really too little to do anything, but its even worse when i spent 4 days doing nothing.
and to think i was still telling myself after gp that i will work super hard to grant myself conditional promotion.
im seriously not in ANY mood to study or to work hard or whatever.
i guess the past few weeks of non stop mugging n promo-papering have drained off my zest to be a true-blue mugger.
ok another nice song.
I see the questions in your eyes
I know what's weighing on your mind
You can be sure I know my part
Cause I stand beside you through the years
You'll only cry those happy tears
And though I make mistakes
I'll never break your heart
Chorus
And I swear by the moon
And the stars in the sky I'll be there
I swear like the shadow that's by your side I'll be there
For better or worse
Till death do us part
I'll love you with every beat of my heart
And I swear
I'll give you every thing I can
I'll build your dreams with these two hands
We'll hang some memories on the wall
And when (and when) just the two of us are there
You won't have to ask if I still care
Cause as the time turns the page
My love won't age at all
And I swear (I swear) by the moon
And the stars in the sky I'll be there (I'll be there)
I swear (and I swear) like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be there (I'll be there)
For better or worse
Till death do us part
I'll love you with every beat of my heart
And I swear
And I swear (I swear) by the moon
And the stars in the sky I'll be there (I'll be there)
I swear (and I swear) like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be there (I'll be there)
For better or worse (better or worse)
Till death do us part I'll love you
With every single beat of my heart
I swear I swear I swear
smile me a cookie monster smile and brighten my day.
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[28 Sep 2005|10:55pm] |
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gp today was bad. period.
it was the hardest, suckiest, worst gp paper ive ever done in this entire pathetic year.
oh yes and i have a nice joke to share.
qns : 'breaking news'
ans: news is regarded as an object and they broke it.
DONT ASK ME WHY I WROTE THAT.
yes yes its really bad BUT its really quite funny.
as in when u look from my point of view u will find it pretty hilarious.
ok i should get back to work n stop blogging.
4 more papers to go before absolute freedom.
smile me a cookie monster smile and chase my blues away.
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[25 Sep 2005|11:05pm] |
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im losing count of my days.
im forgetting which day im having which exam and which exam im having on which day.
OK DONT MAKE SENSE.
mugging is hard. i cant seem to concentrate and NOTHING is going in at all.
oh i spent this evening taking pics with my bro and my dear piglet.
the pics look nice. (: i love my bro.
ok back to mugging.
smile me a cookie monster smile and brighten my day.
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[24 Sep 2005|12:06am] |
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its been a boring muggerish useless week.
hmmm siglap's cafe cartel is a very very very good place to mug.
they play really good music, the huge couch is super duper comfy, there is endless supply of bread for you to munch on
and the very very good thing-- u can stay there for hours and they wouldnt chase you out.
ahhh, i love that place. new place to hang out for mugging times. (:
oh yes. nice song from shades of truth!!
i cant believe im acty chasing hk serials with my promos in a week but anyw, yes, this is a wonderful song. (:
n julian cheung rocks big time. he looks like mickey mouse. YAYNESS.
"In Another Time" Lyrics:
YOU AND I WERE NEVER MEANT TO BE TOGETHER
AND NOW IT'S TIME FOR ME TO GO
BUT, DEEP IN MY HEART YOU WILL ALWAYS STAY FOREVER
IN ANOTHER PLACE; IN ANOTHER TIME
SO, WALK WITH ME AND LET HOLD YOU CLOSE
AND WE WILL SHARE THIS LAST MEMORY
AND DREAM ABOUT OUR LOVE AND WHAT IT MEANS
TO LOVE SOMEONE ENOUGH TO SET THEM FREE
IN ANOTHER PLACE; IN ANOTHER TIME
IN THE SPACE BETWEEN ANY REASON OR RHYME
SOMEDAY WE'LL HAVE IT ALL AND OUR LOVE WILL SHINE
IN ANOTHER PLACE; IN ANOTHER TIME
YOU WILL ALWAYS BE THE ONE ON MY MIND
IN ANOTHER PLACE; IN ANOTHER TIME
IN ANOTHER PLACE; IN ANOTHER TIME
i realise i could lie to the whole world,
but the fact is, i can never lie to myself.
still seeing something unspoken.
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| what a week |
[17 Sep 2005|11:21pm] |
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ok. i told myself i will blog tml when im dead beat and its the end of the week and i till wrap up the week with a good wonderful chirpy entry.
and i will off the com and go to bed and convince myself that monday will be great with the beach and frisbee and wonderful sandcastles that we would build.
i told myself i would off the com NOW aft my pw is done and go mug my bio. those stupid protein synthesis.
BUT I AM NOT DOING SO.
im online chatting, blogging, and doing nonsense. literally NONSENSE.
argh. i have such great self discpline.
oh this week was funny. i learnt many MANY new things from dear ash.
1) chem promos papers are alr IN MY HOME. it's behind the chem mid-year papers and not, as i thought, still lying in the printing shop waiting for ym to pick them up.
2) my calculator has a memory. i learnt how to store long numbers in the calculator instead of pressing them all over again like i used to do.
3) i copied her 9.1 maths tut ans cos our heavenly king cant explain for nuts and i think ash happens to be a better teacher than he is. OH just that she happens to skip steps all over the place. :) she's a maths prodigy.
and more interesting stuff.
1) i studied for 5 hours in the sch lib on wed. i LOVE the sch lib. esp when stef is with me. then its STUDY TIME. wondeful. i love that girl. :)
2) i listened during the arenes lect on fri and i understood all the ortho meta para nonsense. but its NO USE. they r not tested this promos.
3) my EOM is freaking short. argh. shall forget abt that.
oh and this week i did sth that i have no idea whether was right or wrong.
but well im straightforward. i say whatever i think.
sometimes i think my mouth shoot off faster than my brain.
ok fine. its my brain that's slow.
still seeing something unspoken.
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[11 Sep 2005|10:51pm] |
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lets see, school's starting tml, its 11 pm now,
and i just realised we have an econs test and chem spa skill b this week!
oh my goodness. i dont intend to start STUDYING at this hour.
ARGH.
i think im getting stressed about promos though apparently i dont exactly know it consciously.
night after night i have been having weird dreams that feel SO REAL.
its like i can wake up feeling as though i just lived through the whole THING.
ok. yes, stress. i admit.
one week is like wow, 7 days.
why does 7 days of hols alw seem faster than 7 days of sch?????
oh i hate maths btw.
its like qns 1, do one step, get stuck, flip behind for ans.
next qns, same thing happens. GREAT.
i dont wanna do chem. i will DIE.
ok i shld talk more to my motivator.
maybe then i wil get more things done.
oh yes and i want holland village SOON!
and it came true.
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| YAYNESS |
[08 Sep 2005|11:50pm] |
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today was major FUNNESS. (:
i went for dentaling with ash and eunice at hpb and it was just pure FUN.
so i fixed my teeth first and accompanied ash to wait for her turn.
then we got into a funky drawing contest.
WONDERFUL.
we drew all sorts of BALLS where the only diff between a soccer ball n a ping pong is the size.
and we drew pretty nicey distorted BIRDS where our PENGUINS looks like OSTRICHES.
gimli was a face with curls and gollum was oh so HANDSOME.
hahahha.
my arms were filled with pink lines and huge stars and ash's arms were filled with smily faces.
OH then it was seven elevening.
GREAT.
we stood there blocking the small puny pathway of the small tiny seven eleven,
trying to figure out how to microwave our food.
and after we mircowaved it, we spend another eternity trying to figure out how to take it out cos it was so HOT.
i saw a pair of TONGS so i passed it to ash, and we laughed ourselves silly again.
walked back to eunice house each holding a bowl and looking like wandering kids gobbling food in the middle of the road.
won STARES at our food.
YAYNESS.
then i watched ash struggle with my bottle n her small bowl and i didnt offer to help
cos i was too busy laughing.
ok today was GREAT!
and it came true.
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[07 Sep 2005|04:29pm] |
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i should have gone nydc with stef sze n siok today.
IM REALLY REALLY BORED.
and time seems to be crawling by me.
must be all the stupid faulty clocks in my house.
i mean, how can it only be 4pm now??
i feel as though ive been awake for 12 hrs though i woke up only at 11am today.
ARGH. im so BORED that im online at 4pm n there is virtually NO ONE else here.
no one to talk to, no one to entertain me.
IM BORED.
and i so do not want to study.
then its back again to the main reason why i didnt wanna go nydc today.
im in a really easy-to-piss-me-off mood and i know even if i go i will be having my huge attitude.
and my signature pout with the ultimate sulky face.
no point being a wet blanket and spoiling everyone's mood, yeah?
gimme some time girls.
i will get over stuff n be fine soon. :)
then its nydc and us again!
its a promise.
and i can swear ive never broken a single promise with u three.
there's something unspoken yet we both know.
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[05 Sep 2005|11:08pm] |
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ok.
i miss yueting mad fits of laughter,
i miss xinyi's funny way of talking about ppl,
i miss going to find all sorts of funny stuff in all sorts of funny places with paul,
i miss sheryl teasing me about bak kwa,
i miss ying ying's huge grin n maybe and lahuhs.
i miss staying back in school till late and going back home totally dead,
and i miss all the laughter we had.
ok fine, i admit it.
i miss the adhoc.
oh yes and whoever invented integration is the world's greatest pig.
there's something unspoken yet we both know.
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i found this somewhere and i thought it was beautiful.
i turned and walked out the door.
away from you.
i told myself when i wouldnt see, i wouldnt feel.
i told myself it was just one dream that would always be just that.
a dream.
i told myself destiny is in stories and i would never be with you.
but then i looked up and saw you standing before me.
your eyes told me something that my heart longed to hear.
and i know at that instant that i will wait forever
for you to know who i am.
:)
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[03 Sep 2005|11:04pm] |
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celebrating eu's birthday on thurs was fun. :)
we went bowling, which was pretty good, and chris topped the score board once again.
he is one guy who alw manages to thrash me in bowling n pool.
hahaha, but ok. my bowling was pretty good yest. i was closer to 100 this time. OH YAY.
we ate expensive stuff the ENTIRE day, from swensens to delifrance.
IM BROKE.
seriously.
i have like zero cents in my wallet now and i still have one whole week to go.
wonderful.
this is a foolproof way to ensure the fact that i will stay home n mug.
or rather TRY to mug.
i dont seem to be in the mood to mug at all.
i dont seem to be able to work as hard as i used to be
and i cant seem to sit down long enough without heading for my bed for swtiching on the black box called a tv.
its, like, i read the notes and my mind will start drifting off or i will start skipping parts which i find unappealing
and i wound up not understanding anything.
GREAT.
im still pissed at the stupid cell div qns in e bio lect test.
i stil dont see why its telophase, and i feel so much like strangling that stupid bio tr who is not explaining it.
ok fine.
im just making lots of noise.
IGNORE ME.
oh i love this song.
Every breath you take
Every move you make
Every bond you break
Every step you take
I’ll be watching you
Every single day
Every word you say
Every game you play
Every night you stay
I’ll be watching you
Oh, can’t you see
You belong to me
How my poor heart aches
With every step you take
Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake
Every claim you stake
I’ll be watching you
Since you’ve gone I been lost without a trace
I dream at night I can only see your face
I look around but it’s you I can’t replace
I feel so cold and I long for your embrace
I keep crying baby, baby, please...
Oh, can’t you see
You belong to me
How my poor heart aches
With every breath you take
Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake
Every claim you stake
I’ll be watching you
Every move you make
Every step you take
I’ll be watching you
I’ll be watching you
I’ll be watching you
I’ll be watching you
I’ll be watching you...
this song kept me through all the tedious auditions, rehearsals for the past few weeks.
and ive heard it so many times that i suddenly feel weird not hearing it again.
i wonder when will be the next time i can hear the band play this song again.
probably never.
but yeah, just thought i wil put it here.
there's something unspoken yet we both know.
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[01 Sep 2005|12:29am] |
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today was a good good day. :)
the teachers' day concert was a success! :)
contrary to popular belief that i will screw the concert up, i DIDNT.
hahaha, acty im just plain lucky to have good adhoc members.
once again, to everyone from tr's day adhoc, thank you so much for all your support.
thanks for staying back aft sch till late, day aft day, esp for the past week.
i know it had been hard on all of you.
thank you SO SO MUCH. :)
the feeling of working hard and seeing the work pay off is a great feeling.
im happy.
ok. went back to dunman aft the celebrations to play and hang ard.
weather's hot and i got baked under the sun during volley n cball so my cheeks r like some fugi apples now.
haha, it feels good to be back. yayness.
hmm... a stupid ball hit my cheek and it just went numb. er i mean my cheek not the ball.
so i was like prodding on my cheeks for the whole afternoon aft that.
anyw tml we r going out to celeb eu's bday!!!
happy birthday girl!!!
oh and as a small sidenote, im now crazy over rock bands. hahaha. :)
when u feel down, think of aluminium.. you can be so positive that you can draw all those around you closer and turn something that is seemingly ionic to covalent. :)
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i hope every single day of my life would be just like today.
i feel so... loved. haha :)
thanks to every single person who made today so so special to me :)
dont really have much time to blog today so i will just say,
I LOVE ALL OF YOU.
just the way all of you love me. :)
when u feel down, think of aluminium.. you can be so positive that you can draw all those around you closer and turn something that is seemingly ionic to covalent. :)
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i have successfully not been going for a term worth of econ lects.
WOW. nvm. econ is fun. econ is FUN. i will study by myself.
im glad we finished the frames today. will do the wrapping tml. :)
paul n i spent the evening at popular poking at wrapping papers and i realised popular has many pretty wrapping papers.
oh on my way home, i was hounded and pestered by this woman at the bus stop and she was really REALLY weird.
thank goodness sasi n ck came ard, and i almost screamed "SAVE ME!" to ck.
oh well, he did and i was like frantically running over to him like some small girl lost in a maze.
i alw attract weird ppl. they love me.
anyway, did i mention my pw is trashed?
cos apparently theres some BIG error which our most USEFUL member spotted but didnt bother to tell us.
it was SO PROMINENT (or so he says). wonderful. i must be blind.
ok nvm. i shall tolerate and smile.
im kind at heart.
i have NO LIFE.
i will be spending mon in the hall doing some stupid full dress rehearsal and decorating the hall into a pretty ballroom.
n my WONDERBOY better NOT scold me on mon
cos i should be out with stef sze n siok to NYDC to celebrate yet im sacrificing that to overlook the rehearsal.
i wil be in sch in that stupid stifled place facing my wonderboy, listening to him tell me about how i must control LIGHTS
cos they r oh so important in a teachers' day concert.
RIGHT.
this is how im gonna be turning 17.
wonderful memories...
i saw your face in a crowded place, and i dont know what to do cos i know i will never be with you..
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[25 Aug 2005|10:40pm] |
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bio lect test tml.
i shld be mugging now but nvm, i've decided tt i shall take a breather.
these few days had been tough on me, both emotionally and physically.
esp yest. i just couldnt take it anymore and the feeling was so horrible.
it was like on the outside, i know i looked pale and weak and tired.
and inside, i was crumpling in a way i had never felt before.
if it wasnt for sherli's and ash's tap and go dance, i think i would have sunk into major depression yest.
hahaha.
but now, i guess im pretty ok.
sometimes the stress makes the finishing line looks further than it should be.
but im determined to reach it.
and im not gonna screw it up. even if it does, well, i can swear upon my soul that i tried my best.
tonnes of thanks to paul n yueting for going down with me to ikea on tue again. :)
things would have been so much harder without you two.
i would join u all at sea regatta if i could, but i think i need the rest
and my grades are slipping.
i can bet my last penny that i have just failed my chem test spectacularly.
argh. ok forget that.
oh and if i have my way i will tell certain ppl to shut up.
acty i realise i dont exactly need to use the word 'shut up'.
my tone of voice, my expression and my body language alr unknowingly says so.
not that i mean for it to be like that.
ahaha, just ask my class abt my sudden outburst yest during pw.
anyw, nights. im tired.
i saw your face in a crowded place, and i dont know what to do cos i know i will never be with you..
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