| Who is this guy? |
[06 Feb 2004|08:49pm] |
I don't know if I ever said this, but the other day some boy randomly comes and hugs me. The next day he sees me through a window and waves at me. Today, I'm sitting in that gameroom in the fieldhouse reading a science magazine (yes, I'm a nerd =B). There was a woman in a tight suit and he goes "oo I like that. You got some like those?" and I was like "... heh i dunno..." ANd there was a man in a tight suit and he asked me if I liked him. And there were other things and people and it just went on like that. Then I went to the front and he happened to be there. He held my waist with one hand and said "hey". Then I saw him again and he put his arm out with his elbows bent and I put my arm through it and he said "you're gonna be my prom date?" and I said "heh maybe..."
Van told me to find out who he because we could become a thing. I was too shy to ask. I mean, how is it everyone knows ME but I don't know them?? What is it about me? What do I do that gets me noticed? Maybe its because I'm so friggin slow that you hear my name every 20 seconds. "Cmon Udoka." "You can do it, Udoka" "Good job, Udoka". Yes, thankyou for the empty praise. I think they do that so I won't feel llike so much of a loser. And I appreciate it. But I would love it if I could be so good at running that I don't need people to encourage me like that. It really makes me feel like I'm not good at whatever I'm doing. Unless someone can proove that I am good. And trust, I'm not good at running. Fastest time on a 200 was a what? a 42? Tsk. That's faster than some people but they're just being lazy. I'm actually working hard! And I didn't know the football guys would be paying attension. One boy called my name and started jogging all slow. Funny, haha. Hehe I'm pathetic!
So today I was thinking about yesterday's post and I thought "maybe I'm a little too dramatic." I mean, I feel depressed about myself. I really feel that I'm not of much use here. Not that I want to die, I just want something to give me a push because talking to myself won't work anymore. Plus, the thing on my foot I still have no clue what it is, but I doubt its what I thought. XD
Anyway, I feel like watching 20/20. That used to be my favourite show when I was younger. Watching the news and some girl follows a guy into a car and gets killed. I wonder what Maddox has to say about that. I personally think that she should have been more suspicious. ( More News )
Look at this quote! I love it! "If I had a gun, you know what I'd do? I'd shoot it at the sky to bring down heaven for you". *sigh* I need to put that on my history journal.
xoxo
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