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Sunday, May 17th, 2009
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1:34a - overanalyze?
I overanalyze the situation most likely. It's nothing, I just need the voice of reason to assure me so.
But he does make me cry a lot. Not tonight, but many other nights. He doesn't mean to and doesn't know that he does. But he does.
I don't know if what he said the other night was truth or fiction. I would like to think it's truth. That he cares and respects me enough for it to be truth. As all that I have said to him is nothing but the truth, even if all that I wanted to say to him has not been revealed yet because I don't have the courage and because I fear it will send him away.
Only time will tell, I suppose. I feel like I am running out of time. I feel as if he doesn't accept me in the long run, then I may never get over him and that I may never accept anyone else but him. He's captured my heart in a way that's never happened before, not even with the other two...I just have to let fate take the reigns. The unknown future is scary, but I have no choice.
current mood: conflicted
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