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Thursday, February 26th, 2004
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9:04 pm - WEE!
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I have switched to Live Journal! http://www.livejournal.com/users/endlessthought/ so go there instead. Don't ever come back here...because if you come back here...there won't beanything here...just this...staring at you...in the face...laughing at you because you're stupid enough to keep coming back here thinking that there will be an update. Don't worry...there won't be another update here...ever!
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| Monday, February 23rd, 2004
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10:44 pm - The beginnings of a story....
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It's not the best..and yes I know I'm not all that descriptive and blah blah blah...but here's the beginning of my story that I have so far....
The Story of Two Brothers
It was a warm summer day today. The birds flew about amongst the trees, singing their songs. The sunlight filtered through the leaves of the trees, shining brightly down on the cold, hard earth. Trees rustled gently in the wind, swaying back and forth. Just past the trees, there was a big, open field. Tall grass adorned this field, this too, dancing in the wind. Right in the midst of this tall grass, was a young man. The man sat there, letting the grass move about him, as if it were moving to keep him hidden, or protect him. This man’s named was Charlie Lancaster. He was about twenty-five years of age with blond hair and blue eyes. He continued sitting in the middle of the field, focusing, meditating, honing and sharpening his sense. His eyes widened as he sensed something coming from afar. He rolled over to the left, and crouched down low amongst the grass, keeping his eyes peeled for whatever was going to come at him. He wasn’t sure what it was, but he knew that it moved very fast. So fast, that it was almost undetectable. Charlie crept low to the ground weaving in and out of the field of grass, using it as a cover, as if it were a part of his body. He stopped in his tracks as he hard a loud, whoosh sound behind him. He quickly reacted with a back flip and spun around. He smirked as he thought he knew who it was. He’d be ready this time though. He crept closer to the ground, closing his eyes, concentrating for a moment. He shielded his mind and made it almost completely disappear, for he knew that his foe was also a disciple of mind. This way, he’d be harder to track. He stealthily moved through the grass again, hearing another whooshing sound to his left, and then to his right. His foe was getting ready for the attack. He stood up, sure of who it was now, and took his stance, digging his heels into the ground, planting himself firmly in the ground. Charlie crouched lower to the ground, taking his tiger stance. The whooshing sound sounded behind him, then in front. His foe was slowly getting faster and faster.
Before he knew it, he was sent flying into the air with a single punch. He quickly regained his balance and back flipped in mid air, landed on a nearby rock, and launched off of it at his assailant. Charlie again smirked as he extended out his arms clenching his hands into two fists, he nailed him right in the chest. His foe was sent backwards, flying only a few feet. He flew past him and landed in front of his attacker.
“You’re not as fast as you were last time Dante.” Charlie mocked him, still grinning from ear to ear.
Dante got up and then smirked himself, both of them looking at each other.
“I was just going easy on you this time, remember how badly I beat you last time?” he replied.
“Yeah…I remember, but you just got lucky. I wasn’t concentrating as hard as I am now.” Charlie shot back. Still crouching low to the ground, Charlie uses his left leg as a pivotal point and spins around, extending his right leg into a sweep. Dante jumped into the air, back flipping again, landing only a foot away.
“Nice try…but you’ll have to do better than that.” Dante took his stance and then extended his hand, motioning for Charlie to attack him. Charlie stood up, dusted himself off then bowed to Dante. He took his tiger stance once more, then closed his eyes, focusing his Chi, channeling his energy into his next attack. This would be one that Dante would remember for quite a while. Charlie was done concentrating. He opened his eyes wide and moved in for the attack.
That's all I got so far. Leave me a comment and tell me what ya think...I honestly wanna know. Just so you know...this story is going to involve Mage The Ascension characters that i've created. t
current mood:  creative
current music: MC Hammer - Too Legit to Quit
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| Monday, February 16th, 2004
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10:43 pm - It's the left of the right of the right of the left....
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Well today...good ol' Presidents Day. It's about damn time we got off for it. We always get off for Martin Luther King Jr. Day, and not tha the isn't important, I just think that presidents are more important especially Washington and Lincoln, but that's just me...and no, I'm not a racist. Well today started off great. I woke up this morning at like eight (yes I know) and I went to Shoney's and got the all you can eat breakfast buffet. That was good stuff. I ate lots of food. SO then I come home, and well all is good. I just sit down and relax and what not, it being my day off from school and all.
Well, some friends of mine and I had been planning a surprise party/get together for my friend Justin because he got accepted to Georgia Tech. So, at first, I couldn't go because I had to take my dog to training on monday's and what not. So I tell them I can't. We all get together after that and decide to do it on Friday. Well, I talked to my mom and she said that I didn't have to go to training, that I could go to the get together. So I call up my friends and we make plans to do it tonight, which was fun. So then they ask me "Hey you need a ride?" and well at first, I didn't, but then my mom got to realizing that I had to be there at six thirty and so did they for my dog's training, so I ask my friend if they can give me a ride, and they say "no" because they're all full. So here I am, about three hours before i'm supposed to be there and with no ride, and I can't get one. So then about ten minutes before I leave, I talk to my friends and tell them that I have no ride. Well then they "make room" for me ever so conveniently. This whole thing just kinda made me mad, cause ya know, they plan these things, and then they ask me, but they're always like "we can't give you a ride cause we're full" why is it...that (and not just these friends, but a lot of mine as well) I can give rides to everyone else, but when it comes time to return the favor I have to practically beg for a ride or I get no favor in return at all. What's up with that? This whole situation got me thinking about all my friends actually. I can only think of a small handful of people that are my true friends. I feel so sad because of that. I mean these small handful of people are people that if I wake up in the middle of the night, I can call them no matter the time and talk to them if I need to. These are people that will be and always have been, there for me to listen to what I have to say. These are people that if I have some sort of problem with them, I can talk it out with them and we'll fix the problem. These are people that respect me for who I am and they don't take advantage of me and take me for granted...which I feel a lot of my friends do. In fact, I can only think of maybe ten people in and out of school that I feel are my true friends, if even that many. I feel like the rest of my friends just see me as an "easy target" for jokes and other things. When i'm around a lot of them, all they want to do is make jokes about me a lot, and yes, I can take a joke. Those of you that truly know me know that I can take a joke any day of the week and dish it back out as well, but there comes a point to where you gottak now when to say when. There comes a point when someone has to say enough if enough, and i've reached that point. I feel like the vast majority of my friends just take me for granted and they walk all over me. The question I pose to them is why? Why do they feel that they have the right to do that? Why do they think they can do it? Sure...I will admit that I ignore a lot of the crap that I get from people, but that's only because I don't want to get angry at them cause I don't like to get angry as you all know. That's the only reason. It's not because i'm scared, or because i'm a pansy, or because i'm just a wimp, I just simply choose to ignore it, and if you call yourself my true friend, then you'll understand that and know that i'm not one to take crap from people. I really do feel this way. I want you all reading this to understand that. I'm not the guy that just sits there and takes shit from people, I can hold my own when I feel like it and when I need to. I am very well capable of sticking up for myself even though the vast majority of you think that I never do and think that I take shit cause i'm a wimp, or something like that. I'm sick and tired of everyone thinking that. I don't know why. I guess it's because i've been picked on a lot by people and i've taken my fair share of crap from a lot of people, but it's because I choose to. Let me just say this to you all, if you have to sit there and question wether or not you're one of my true friends, you're probably not. I know that sounds mean to a lot of you, but it's true. If you have to sit there and think about it, then you aren't. I'm sorry to say that, but it's true. I want you all to know that from this day forth, i'm no longer taking any crap from anyone. I'm not longer going to be the easy going type of guy that I used to be. There's going to be some changes. Perhaps they'll be for the best, or worst. It all really depends on how you look at it. If you're the type of person that's used to my easy going, do whatever nature, then you probably won't like it and if I piss you off because of it, then that's too bad. Things like this don't last forever. Also know that i'm only doing this because I feel that people have walked all over me for far too long. They've done it for long enough and now it's time that I start putting an end to it. To do this, it's going to take some serious changes in my personalitiy, and I really do hate to resort to being mean to some people and not tetting them have there way, and some people will get angry, but that's just too bad. I'm tired of taking this kind of shit from people. I'm not longer going to be the "easy target" for everyones jokes. I'm no longer going to take people groping me and making fun of me because I have "manboobs" or whatever you want to call them. I'm sure a lot of you are laughing at that comment right now, but whatever. I'll be the first to admit it, i'm rather insecure about my weight. I always have been ever since I can remember. Ever since i've wanted to lose weight so I could look better to people so that people would have an interest in me and i've lost some, but i'm still not too happy with it. Not that i'm going to go to the extremes to lose it, I won't , cause i'm not that stupid, but yes, I will say, I do worry about my weight. I know most of you don't think that i'm fat or that i'm overweight, but i'm just doing it so I can feel better about myself and maybe attract a few people. I've never been able to have that ever. I know that probably sounds stupid and dumb to a lot of you, but that's just what I think. Anyways, I'm done for the night. I doubt many of you will read this. No one leaves comments anymore except for a few, if i'm that lucky. So feel free to leave them if you want. Later.
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| Wednesday, February 11th, 2004
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9:54 pm - 'Tis time for an update!
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Well, I was sitting here and I was rather bored, so I decided that I thought it was about time I updated my journal. I just haven't been remembering to do it lately, otherwise, i'd be doing it more often, plus the site hasn't been up that much lately.....oh well. Not a lot is going on with me really. I've just been left to my own devices mostly. Been goin' to school, which i'm starting to absolutely abhor now. The only class I look forward to going to is my Web Page Design class and my Government class. Oh well. At least i'll have the next couple of days off...sorta. Tomorrow i'm going with my Pacesetter (Lit.) class to the movies to see Big Fish. That movie is so amazing. If you haven't seen it yet, then you should be shot several times, then be dragged off to the movie theater to see the movie. Trust me, if you love Tim Burton you will defenitly love this movie. I think it's his best one yet, plus Ewan McGregor is amazing in it. He's always been a pretty good actor, but anyways, enough of my plugging...on to other things. Friday is the technical "Senior Skip Day" so i'm skipping. I'd probably have skipped anyways even if it weren't. I'm starting to wear myself down here. I'm getting sick and everything. I need these days off. I've been running a fever and everything.As I sit here right now typing this I don't feel well. I feel like i'm about to pass out. To top it off, I haven't been getting a lot of sleep lately either. It seems like I keep waking up earlier and earlier every morning. I dunno what's wrong. I got out of my little slump of depression that I was in last week, It wasn't too bad, of course I didn't expect it to be, but i'm still in a non-caring. blah mood. I've also been working out a lot lately cause i've been trying to lose more weight (even though i'm sure you all are like NO SHUT UP, but don't worry i'm not one of those people that's like OH MY GOD I'M SO FAT I CAN'T EAT ANYTHING FOR THE NEXT FIVE YEARS) and what not, just so i'll feel better about myself, plus it helps me think about things when i'm down or when I've got a lot on my mind, and beleive me, i've had a lot on my mind lately. I'm still sort of bummed out lately, but as I said earlier, I don't really know why. I've still got that feeling inside of me that feels as if i'm still missing something, but I don't know how to get it, or even what it is. I didn't get a chance to work out today because I had to go down to the Art Institute of Atlanta for some financial aid stuff, which was pretty informative. I can't wait to go there, cause it's gonna be awesome. I'm excited. Well, it's beginning to be that time of the school year again, yes, I speak of prom. I know some of you are like wow that's so far off, but it'll be here before you know it haha. It doesn't really matter to me anyways because I don't think i'll be going this year. I'm sure some of you think that i'm crazy for not going, but I have my reasons for not. But I guess i'll just wait and see what happens with that. Even if I went, I wouldn't really know who to go with or who to ask. I might not go with anyone, but that is quite a bit of money to pay not to go with someone. Oh well, who knows what'll happen between now and then. It's really one of the farthest things from my mind. It's funny how things work out though because like a month or two ago I was all like YAY PROM! cause I thought it'd be fun, but lately i'm not so sure. It's like me and my friend Joe just totally switched places over the past month. Oh well, like I said, i'll just have to wait and see what happens between now and then right? It's just kind of weird cause i've been through so many ups and downs lately. I'm just waiting for it to stabalize so I can get back to normal. It's not like i'm freaking out over things type of ups and downs, just dealing with a lot of crap ya know? At least it's all starting to subside, for the time being. Sometimes, I think that it'll be all better, and it gets better for a while, but then it all seems to go to hell again. Just weird, I dunno. Anyways, I suppose you're all finding ropes to hang yourself with at this point so you can stop reading, so don't bother. I'll end your pain and suffering now. Haha...see ya later.
current mood:  blank
current music: Final Fantasy VI - Opera House Performance (Orchestral)
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| Monday, February 2nd, 2004
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10:29 pm - I'm a sad panda
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Have you ever been sitting there and you have this feeling inside and ya don't want to do anything with anyone anymore and there's something that you know you need, but you don't know what it is and you can't reach it? it's something that's just beyond your reach and no matter how hard you try, you can never reach it. well, that's how I feel now.
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| Sunday, February 1st, 2004
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11:04 pm
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Well lets see...where to start. Not much happened this weekend really, but it was a nifty weekend I suppose. We finished our Mage/Vampire crossover so now Sean is going to start up another campaign that's just straight mage that should be fun. I can't wait. I get to use my old character Charlie. Huzzah. So yes...much fun to be had by all! I suppose...I dunno. I'm in a blah mood today.
Hey I just realized something today. It was actually kinda weird. I don't give a shit about anything anymore. I am completely non-caring as to what goes on with anyone anymore. Why? I dunno why. I wish I knew why. But I don't. I'm just to the point to where I'm saying "Fuck it" to everything just because I don't care anymore. I can't stand to be around people lately, I dunno why I just get annoyed. There's only a select few I care to be around they don't annoy me. I dunno if i'ts just me or if it's actually not me...I dunno. I guess i'm just spent. I'm burnt out. I'm so jaded with everything lately I just wanna go to my room, lock my door, and not come out for the next few days. I'm to the point to where there's only like a few people that I want to talk to and the rest can just fend for themselves. I've just been through so much crap i'm just tired of it. Even when I go out with friends I don't truly have any fun. I just feel blah all the time. I guess i'm just at that point in my life where i've stopped worrying about everyone else. I just can't take it anymore. So I want all you people reading this to know that if I come across as being an ass for the next say week. or however long this lasts, don't take it personal, cause it's nothing against you. I'm just fed up with so much shit right now it's not even funny. So this is gonna be a pretty short post compared to the others. I'm out.
current mood:  blah
current music: Stroke Nine - Kick Some Ass
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| Tuesday, January 27th, 2004
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11:14 pm - 'tis been a while hasn't it?
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Well it's been a while since my last update haha...you know...I always seem to say that everytime I start an entry...have you noticed? probably not. Not many people probably read this anymore, but ah well. Not a whole lot has happened since my last post, just been dealin' with some shit with friends and other problems. Nothing I can't handle I suppose. This past weekend was senior formal. That was fun I suppose, it all started off well anyways. There was just too much drama and crap that went on. I swear..if the formal is gonna be anything like the prom, then i'm not going. I hate how like when I go to a dance, there's always some sort of drama. Which...there really is. If you don't beleive me, you can talk to me and ask me, I just don't want to post it here. But like I said, it was all ok, except I don't think my date had a good time which I was hoping she would, cause we don't get to do a whole lot together, and we were trying to date for a while, but that's not going so well either cause we're not really going anywhere with that. She's always doin' something else, which is fine, plus she's still hung up on the "too good of friends" thing, which sucks cause I wouldn't mind her being my girlfriend, but I guess it'd just be too awkward for her. I hate it. I told myself that i'd never let this happen to me again, but I did. I hate it how I always get my hopes up too. But oh well. I'm used to it by now I suppose. I just hate how she thinks that i'm oblvious to a lot of things. I guess she thinks that I don't pay attention, but I know more than she thinks I know. There's so much I'd like to tell her, but I can't seem to find the right words to express it, and I think that if I got it out in the open, it'd help things a lot. Things might not turn out like I want it too, but I think i'd feel better about myself in the end. I guess I just feel that there's a lot I haven't told her that I feel I should. But I just don't know how to say it. It was probably a bad idea to even tell her how I felt to begin with anyways, I dunno why I even bothered. Sometimes I wonder if I even still have a chance. So far, i've just been kinda sitting back and letting things take there course cause quite honestly, I don't know what else to do. I am at a complete loss right now. Plus I dunno if I am just jumping to conclusions or what...I probably am, but oh well. I guess that's just what I do to keep myself from trying to get hurt again, but it really doesn't matter. You can't ever really keep yourself from getting hurt no matter what you do. Anyways, I'm going to end this entry for tonight and go think about some things. Later.
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| Friday, January 16th, 2004
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11:52 pm - There comes a time....
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Well...This is going to probably be a lengthy post and i'm mostly posting this in reply to a friend of mine whom is going through a rather tough time. These are just a few things that I think that are key things to remember when going through life, they may, or may not connect or make sense with you, but at least just skim through it.
First off, there comes a time when you have to realize some things, beleive me. I've been there before, and it took me a while to realize these things, but i'm glad I did. You've got to remember that the shit people go through right now is meaningless. Compared to everything else, everybody's problems are miniscule and minute and they're not worth going through such pain and emotion. There are some things and people that just aren't worth that shit. You've got to realize this sometime man. Here's some advice, not just for him, but for everyone else as well. Think about who you're around everyday. What do you feel like when you are around those people? Let me tell ya, if you feel anything but love for these people (and you know what I mean by love...not the super serious kind) then you shouldn't be around them.. You should surround yourself with people that are going to make you feel better about yourself and people that like you for you and not just people that put you down and lower your self esteem. There are quite a few of my friends that need to realize something. No matter what happens in your life and what people tell you, you will always be worth something to someone, wether it be a lover, your family, your friends. I have lots of people that are very special to me and I wouldn't do anything in the entire world to hurt them. If you can't get the same type of reaction or respect, whatever you wanna call it, back from them, then they're not your true friends. That's something that we all, at some point, realize. True friends stick by you through thick and thin no matter if you're right or wrong. They always got your back. That's how me and a lot of my friends are. One also shouldn't obsess with trying to find "the one." You all know what I mean. We're all at this age where we start dating and getting girlfriends and/or boyfriends (depending on your sexual preference of course) Some people are lucky enough to find that someone to spend the rest of their lives with in school, and that's great. Other, unfortunately, are not. but that's ok. Because you know what you should view high school as? Practice. High school is just practice for when you get to college and start to get into the real serious type of stuff. I mean for god sakes we're high schoolers! We're anywhere between the ages of 14-18!! We still have the next ten years to decide who we're going to be spending the rest of our lives with! This is a really big step for most people, and it's one that should not be made so hastily. Just remember that next time there's someone you like, and they don't like you back. It's not necessarily that there's anything wrong, some people just don't have those feelings for others. You can't force someone to like you. It's got to happen naturally. But always keep in your head that you will find the one for you someday. There's like elventy billion people in the world. You're telling me that out of all those people in the world that isn't anyone for everyone? That's a load of crap. Everyone finds their soul mate eventually. Just remember that.
Another thing that this person and of course, everyone else could learn this as well, you aren't a piece of shit and you aren't totally screwed up. No one ever is. Everyone has self-worth. If there is ever a moment that you, or anyone for that matter, should ever doubt this, then that is sad that you've gotten to that point. Depression can be a very powerful thing. I have been there. I know that all of you reading this think that I have such the perfect life and that nothing ever goes wrong within my life and my family, but trust me, you are so totally naive if you think that. There's a lot of shit that's gone on in my life, you'd start to wonder why I am the way that I still am. Beleive me, i've faced my share of hardships, my life is defenitely far from perfect. But even as you go through life and you face these trials and tribulations, you have to always keep one thing in mind, that you will get through it. I know that it's hard to keep a positive attitude, especially when things look to be getting really tough, but you have to try. I know it's been hard for me to keep such a positive attitude, but I try to always look on the bright side of things. In the end, it makes things better. I'm sure most of you are sitting there right now saying that I couldn't be more wrong and that i'm a naive little bastard for thinking it, but you should watch what you say, for I know far more than you think. But again...this is merely just a statement I am making. It is up to you as to wether or not you want to agree or disagree with it. I know that other things are harder to get over (like the death of a friend) but you have to put yourself in there shoes. If it had been you that had died would you want all your friends being depressed all the time and sad that you died? I mean yeah...they'd be sad, but there comes a point to where you can't let it interfere with your life. Just keep that thought at the back of your mind.
One last thing that you should realize is that you can't blame yourself, no matter what happens in any situation. You should be happy with yourself as long as you've done all that you can do, and all that is within your power. It's not your fault if you tell someone something and they don't listen to you. They cant say that you didn't warn them. They have no one to blame but themselves, and although it may lead to them getting hurt, that's just something you'll have to deal with because that's just a repercussion of there action. Granted...when/if they make these mistakes, you should still be a friend to them and be there when/if they need it (under certain circumstances of course). That's another thing that friends do for each other, they forgive one another for the things that they do. No one person can stay mad at someone forever. Eventually, weither it be twenty minutes or twenty years, they forgive each other. Hell after that long they probably don't even remember why they got mad in the first place. Just give it time man...give it time. You know what i'm talking about.
In closing, one just has to remember these things when they're facing hardships. Also, one should feel that they are never truly alone. I know that people may feel that way when they get down or when they get stressed and that no one could just never ever know what they feel, but there are people that do know and understand how you feel, and, you're never ever alone. You've always got some sort of support group you can turn to. Just remember that you aren't alone in anything.
I hope that at least some of this made sense to some people and got through to at least half of you. This is shit that i've been wanting to say to a lot of my friends for a long time. I sincerely hope that you all take me seriously on this and take what i've said into consideration.
ON A LIGHTER NOTE I GOT A NEW DOG :)!!!! ITS A SOLID BLACK COCKER SPANIEL! WEE!
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| Wednesday, January 14th, 2004
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10:32 pm - Superhero!
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This is a song by Stephen Lynch...the funniest man alive. If you don't know who he is...then FORSHAME!! GO DOWNLOAD SOME OF HIS MUSIC! Cause you can't get his albums anywhere.
If I could be a superhero
I would be awesome man
I’d fly around the world fighting crime
According to my awesome plan
And if I saw criminals trying to lie
Hurting other people and making them cry
I’d haul them off to jail in my awesome van
‘Cause I would be awesome man
Now, Some criminals want you to be a criminal
And they offer you things like drugs, alcohol
But we know what to do, kids
We just say ‘No’
If I could be a superhero
I would be Drug-Free boy
Telling the world of the evils of drugs
And all of the lives they destroy
Well I would take all the junk
He’s getting so high
With their needles and bongs
And their sticks of tye
As I burn them alive I would squeal with joy
Because I would be drug-free boy
If I could be a superhero
I'd be Immigration dude
I’d send all the foreigners back to their homes
For eating up all of our food
And taking our welfare and best jobs to boot
Like landscaping, dishwashing, picking our fruit
I’d pass a lot of laws to get rid of their food
‘Cause I’d be Immigration Dude
Kids, You can make up your very own superhero
If you could, Who would it be?
If I a superhero
Would you be justice guy
Making sure people get what they deserve
Especially women who lie
Like if a wife left her husband
With three kids and no job
To run off to Hawaii
With some doctor named bob
You can skin them and drain them of blood so they die
Especially bob
Then you would be justice guy
Or you could be more sutle
No, I didn’t mean to be vague
Give her the mad cow disease
Let him die of the plague
As long as they suffer for their terrible lies
Especially Bob
Then You would be Justice Guy
Yes then you would be a super hero like me
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current music: Stephen Lynch - Superhero
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10:18 pm - Because I have nothing better to do....
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Welll, I suppose it's time for my daily post. Not a lot is goin' on here really. Just chillin' and what not. I have decided that I am going to write a story. I am going to write a story about my two characters from Mage. Yes...I know that may sound stupid to the lot of you, but I think that it'd be kinda cool. You see I have two characters Charlie and Dante, that are both Akashic Brotherhood members and they're, i've decided, brothers. So I am going to write a story using them as the characters and there story, which i've been formulating for quite sometime now in that tiny little head of mine. It should turn out to be great...hopefully. I'll keep you guys posted on when I get some done if any of you are interested in reading it. If you are, then just leave me a comment or something or you know how to get a hold of me on AIM And what not. (I'm assuming you do since most of you are my friends that check this. If you're not...then how the hell did you get here?! EH STALKER!?)
Lets...see....what else to talk about? I suppose I could sit here and rant and rave about how irritated I am right now with some friends. Nothin' against them at all, it's just that they're facing some problems and of course, i'm one of thsoe people whom everyone comes to when they have problems and they need advice. This is something that I am proud of because i'm glad that people think that they can come and talk to me when they need to. So of course, I try to do my best and give them some assurance and advice. Whcih it's weird anyways cause most of the advice I give turns out to be right (not to brag, seriously) so they keep coming back for more when they need it, which again, I honestly don't mind. But when people come to me and want me to give them advice, and I do, then they don't follow it. It makes me annoyed cause they sit there and they wonder how everything turned out so wrong. Or they wonder why things didn't go there way. So...I ask them what happened or what they did and they don't follow my advice or anything, which of course, is perfectly fine, because it's there choice. But then...why come to me and complain if you don't take my advice? Then there are those people that act like it's just so hopeless so then they go to the extremes to fix things (NOTE: I AM NOT TALKING ABOUT ANYONE IN PARTICULAR WITH THESE STATEMENTS. I DEAL WITH PEOPLE LIKE THIS QUITE OFTEN) Just please know that it isn't hopeless. There are still things one can do to get through things. There always is. There is never any need to go to the extremes with things. Now, don't get me wrong, I do enjoy my friends and helping them whenever I can because that's what I love to do. I love to make people feel better about themselves and do good things for them when I can so they can be happy. Granted I can't always do that, I understand that, so I don't need people going like "well that's just naive if you think you can make people happy like that" and blah blah blah. Trust me....I know I am not that stupid.
Alrighty...now that i've wasted all your time by making you read that..well I didn't make you...but you know....
Sorry for the little rant...I just needed to get that off my chest.
current mood:  irate
current music: Trans Siberian Orchestra - Carol of the bells
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| Tuesday, January 13th, 2004
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10:38 pm - MIMES!!! WEE!!!
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CharlieLancaster: hmm
CharlieLancaster: no one has responded.
CharlieLancaster: people suck
MaraJade18934: yup
CharlieLancaster: they should all go knock themselves unconscious
CharlieLancaster: haha...that'd be funny...
CharlieLancaster: Just like mimes...
MaraJade18934: mimes should go knock themselves unconscious?
CharlieLancaster: yes
CharlieLancaster: yes they should
CharlieLancaster: cause it'd be funny
MaraJade18934: i'd be kinda painful for the mimes though
CharlieLancaster: bah
CharlieLancaster: did beth ever ask you the question of where had you rather live? in a world where all the members of congress were required to have afros or in a world where it was legal to crucify mimes?
MaraJade18934: the first one
CharlieLancaster: hmm...I dunno...
CharlieLancaster: yes...because a mime is a terrible thing to waste.
CharlieLancaster: but they should still go knock themselves unconscious
CharlieLancaster: yes...mass miming of being knocked unconscious....I think that'd be funny.
MaraJade18934: youre so weird
CharlieLancaster: and it's not like they'd really get hurt either...cause they're miming it
CharlieLancaster: so it's perfectly harmless
CharlieLancaster: and we get priceless entertainment
YOU SEE WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU GET BORED!? YOU START TALKING ABOUT MIMES!! OH JUST FOR THE RECORD...DON'T HATE ME, but I THINK IT'D BE FUNNIER TO LIVE IN A WORLD WHERE YOU CRUCIFY MIMES! you know why? cause you can crucify mimes, but it'd be mimed, so they really wouldn't get hurt. Mimes are so fun. There should be more mimes in the world. I need more entertainment in my life dammit!! Haha...isn't that weird? Man I sure come up with some weird shit. I wanna see penguins shot out of a cannon too. A penguin cannonball. I think that'd be funny. I'm not sadistic...I swear. I'm just excrutiatinglyl bored....you have no idea...man I wonder what it'd be like if I ever got drunk or high...I guess you'll all have to wonder won't you?
current mood:  indescribable
current music: Final Fantasy VII - Cloud´s Theme (Orchestrated)
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| Monday, January 12th, 2004
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10:40 pm - Weird times....
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Well...I was bored so I thought i'd make a post. As I make this post, I'm at a bit of a loss. I dunno why. I just have this feeling inside of me. It's a feeling that i've never really felt before, it's just kind of weird. It's a feeling inside that something is bothering me, but I don't know what it is. I've had this feeling for a few days now and I can't figure out. It kinds of feels like i'm missing something on the inside you know what i'm saying? It's just kind of weird. I wish I could figure it out. but anyways....I hope I figure it out soon. I haven't been able to sleep lately and It hink that's what's causing it, but i'm not so sure.
My brother came by today and showed us his new dog that he got. It's a mastiv. Those dogs grow to be huge in case you didn't know. As big, if not bigger, than great danes. It was a pretty puppy, but it made me miss my dog. It also made me want to get another dog, but I think that isn't going to happen because my mom doesn't want to get another dog. So i'll probably have to wait till I move out or something before I can get another one, which sucks, cause i'd like to have one sometime in the near future, but oh well.
I haven't done much today really. I hung out with my friend Chris and we played some Soul Calibur 2. I WIN! it was fun. Good fights and what not. We also played Turtles in time which is the best game EVAR. Then afterwards...I played Final Fantasy. I've been leveling up so I can beat the game. THen when I beat the game, i'm going to put it away and never play it again. I swear to god I don't know what the hell those people were on when they made it. Yep...afterwards, i'm going on a killing spree at Square-Enix right before I find the X7 Development Team and kill them. You know what else sucks? I need new glasses. But you know what? I can't get them. You know why? because our insurance is stupid and won't pay for it till two months from now and I really need them NOW. I can't see hardly at all except during the day, at night I can barely see anything unless there's a lot of light which means I can't drive at night. Gah...this sucks. I sure hope I can figure out what this feeling means. it's starting to bother me a bit. Anyways...i'm just rambling and bitching now. I'll talk to you later.
current mood: blah
current music: Hellsing - Baka Koe no Nirvana
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| Sunday, January 11th, 2004
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10:13 pm - It's been a few days, but all is good!
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Has been a while hasn't it? not too terribly painful for those of you who check often I hope, which isn't many i'm sure. Anywho! I went back to school this week. I have to say that i'm pretty happy with my new schedule because I have a lot of classes with more friends this semester then I did last semester, so I think this semester is going to be better overall, but I also think that things are going to be harder, plus it's already going to be harder to focus because I graduate. I can't wait till I graduate, but then again, it will suck because I won't get to see a lot of my friends either, because we'll all be busy doing other things and going off to college, but oh well. It's not like I see a lot of them as much as i'd like to now anyways. Although, there are still quite a few I hope I keep in touch with if even it's just on the occasion. We'll just have to see how that goes.
I had a good weekend I suppose. I spent the majority of my weekend hanging out with Peter and Jamie, of course, me and Jamie always hang out. We watched Arc the Lad and Trigun. I finally have seen all of Trigun. That series is like...amazing. Best series i've seen next to Cowboy Bebop. It was funny. You know what's sad? me and Jamie went through the two anime's and we picked out all the voices of the character we recognized from video games and other anime's. Yes, I know most of you reading this are probably sitting there and going "Holy crap...what idiots..they're nerds..." but hey who cares? it was fun. We've also come to the conclusion that Steven Blum (Spike's voice actor) always plays the voice of a character that dies. What the hell? can't this guy get any voice roles where he does die? Granted when Spike died it was badass, that was the best part of Cowboy Bebop is when he died just because he was badass and the ending was so badass. Sorry if I ruined it for those of you currently watching Cowboy Bebop, but you know what? ITS YOUR OWN FAULT FOR NOT HAVING WATCHED IT SOONER! HAHAHA!
Yup...voice acting is cool though except it sucks especially for video games because you only get paid so much and if the game bombs, you did fine, but if the game beats the shit out of all other games in existence, you get the shaft, but I stll think voice acting would be fun. I think i'd like to do some voice acting sometime in the future. Might be a nice little side hobby in case my other plans for the future don't work out ya know? Might not be a lot of course, but I think it might be something worth doing then everyone would know my voice! Just like everyone know's David Hayter's voice. Now I know most of you reading this are like "Yeah who the hell is that?" well you should know. And if you don't...then..go look it up. I also spent my time this weekend finding out some things about my friends. I found out that my friend Ashlea now has a boyfriend which she just sprung on me the other day, which was fine of course, just kinda weird cause it was outta the blue, and my friend mikey also has a girlfriend now which I found out a few days ago. Also, I found out that Jamie now has a girlfriend too. I mean what the hell! AM I OUTTA THE LOOP!? JESUS! COME ON! Just kinda weird, well not weird, just kinda outta the blue again and that many people at once as well. Either way, I am happy for all of them. I also helped my friend cope with some problems he was having to. I may have been a bit harsh in what I said to him, but I felt it was for the best and now I think he's doing better. I hpoe he knows that I did it for him and not just to be mean. Well...I didn't think I was being mean really, but I dunno. People interpret things differently than I do.
Anyways, I suppose that's it for today! I'll talk to you all later when I got more to say!
current mood:  exanimate
current music: Final Fantasy VI - Opera House Performance (Orchestral)
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| Monday, December 29th, 2003
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11:55 pm - Quick Post
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Hey you know what? I've been informed that I left a few things out of my last post! SO here it goes....
Alright...first off...Jamie has done it again. He made another bad joke...that was actually funny. You see...my friend Cora has been watching Johnny Depp movies all week, like nearly as many as she can and then Jamie, just being the comic genious that he is, says how DEPP-pressing! get it? hahahaha! Also...he has come up with another Mega Man X8 bad guy so here it comes...wait for it....WAIT FOR IT....POLAR HAMSTERDAM! BWAHAHAHAHAH! THAT ONE BY FAR IS THE BEST! I gotta come up with smoe more good ones too. We're gonna be rich as hell when we make this thing! WE'RE A FUCKING GOLD MINE FOR CAPCOM!
Speaking of which...I meant to tell you something funny about yesterday when Jamie was playing Mario Kart. You see.. the reason we played for hours was because we were trying to beat it on 150cc, which is the hardest difficulty in the game. Well I came up with a reason as to why it's so hard. As all us gamers know...Japanese gamers just have a natural knack for playing video games and being instantly good at them. Take that guy that can beat Mega Man 2 in thirty minutes without dying once and how he beat Super Mario Bros. 3 in eleven minutes. Well I know why it's so hard on 150cc. You see...what Nintendo did was they took the souls of their old japanese gamers that have long since passed on to the other side and put them into the AI of the game. That's why they kick your ass on 150cc. Because it is in fact not AI...but the souls of old nintendo gamers from ages past. Now...I know what you're thinking...you're thinking that it's getting kinda late and im on something, but it's true!! Plus...Jamie was so proud of himself for beating all those things on 150cc, and it is indeed an amazing feat, but again...one day...a japanese guy is going to be like "OH! YOU GOT MARIO KART! LETS PLAY!" and he's going to kick Jamie's ass in ten seconds. That's gonna be funny.
Now...for the totally random comment that's not going to make any sense to anyone that reads this WEEEEOOOWEOWEWWE WEEEEE! ahem...now that that's out of my system....
That's about all for now...catch ya later!
LOOK SEE!! THERES MY MOOD YOU SEE IT!? LOOK! SEE! FUNNY JAPANESE SYMBOLS WITH THE WORDS! LOOK! YOU SEE BETH! YOU SEE THAT!? ITS ALL BRIGHT! YOU CAN'T MISS IT!
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| Sunday, December 28th, 2003
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11:26 pm - Look! in the sky! it's a bird! it's a plane! No..wait..it's just an update.
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Yes...that's right! An update! IN LESS THAN A WEEK TOO! HOLY CRAP! YOU SINFUL BASTARDS BETTER GO MAKE YOUR PEACE WITH GOD RIGHT NOW CAUSE THE WORLD IS ABOUT TO END! BWAHAHAHAHAH! Anyways....ahem...
Well...not much has happend in the past few days. I've just mostly been checking back here. I got some pretty goofy responses to my last entry. Perhaps I should post more goofy stuff like that more often! Who knows...but one response in particular intrigues me...mostly because I can't figure out for the life of me who left it! It's the one entitled "dude" At first, I thought it was my friend Jamie, but then...no it wasn't him. Common sense told me otherwise, and of course, I asked him! So...i've narrowed it down to two people. It's either got to be my friend Daniel or Jordan. I dunno though. So if you guys leave comments try and leave your name so I know who they're from. I'm not gonna think you're weird or something! SO SIGN THEM! OR I SIGN YOU! That's right...AND DON'T BE A SMARTASS AND LEAVE A COMMENT ON THIS ONE EITHER WITH NO NAME! Great...now that I said that I know there's gonna be at least one of you assholes that does that, or hell! All of you may! Who knows! I swear...if ALL of you who leave comments do that and make me guess, I'm gonna be one pissed off panda! I'M GONNA TAKE THAT BAMBOO STICK I'VE BEEN CHEWING ON AND BEAT YE WITH IT!
Now that we're done with the ground rules...lets move on.
YOU KNOW WHAT I DID TODAY!? ABSOLUTELY JACK CRAP! I spazzed out a bit. Kirsten knows about that...in fact it was because of her. Once again Kirsten...thank you SO MUCH. I sat around and played Dragonball Z : Budokai 2 today! I don't care what the rest of ya think...I like Dragonball Z (just like I like Dr. Phil even though the rest of you absolutely abhor him) despite the numerous plot holes and the screwed up sense of time. Keep in mind that I do like it, but I too, make fun of those flaws...tis fun! I love that game though. If you're a fan of the series, which most of you reading this probably aren't, so you may want to just skip over this section, go try it. It's alot better than the first one. There's better characters, better moves and levels and enemies. It's quite challenging. I got all the way to the last level only to get my ass handed to be by Kid Buu. It wasn't fun. Jamie then came over today and he brought Mario Kart: Double Dash. That game is fun, but what do you expect?? It's Mario Kart. You can't mess that up. We played that for hours on end because he wanted to get the ALL cup or something...I don't remember. I got tired so I played something else. Even as I sit here typing this up, he sits at his house playing his game trying to unlock mirror mode, which, look at that, he did. Congrats to him. BAHAHAHAHAH Loser...just kidding of course. I really can't say much. I spent my day trying to get those damn capsules and unlocking more crap in Budokai 2, so it's all gravy!
Hmm...yesterday I had to go up to Rome to have a get together with my dad's side of the family. I got twenty dollars and a knife! Yet another knife to add to my collection. That's about all I have to say about that. SO YOU KNOW WHAT I'M GOING TO DO NOW?! I'm going to go ahead and finish this post cause i'm sure you're all tired of hearing my rants! But then again if they're rants about stupid people that's always fun to read ain't it? I hope I haven't bored any of you to death...yet...Anyways! Off I got! Later!
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| Thursday, December 25th, 2003
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10:15 pm - CHRISTMAS! WOO!
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Well, today was the big day folks! HA I SAID FOLKS! (kinda like someone else I know :-p) ANYWAYS! Today has been a great day. I spent the day with my family and opened presents and ate more food. Man am I stuffed! I hate how my family always cooks so much food. We have enough food to last us well into the new freakin' year! Oh well...it is good. But after today, I gotta start working out and what not again. I must say, this Christmas was quite pleasant. I got quite a few things. I GOT:
Gameboy Advanced SP
Super Mario Advanced 4-Super Mario Bros. 3
Golden Sun: The Lost Age
Castlevania: Lament of Innocence
Dragonball Z Budokai 2
Street Fighter Movie DVD
Bruce Almighty DVD
Drawing/Art Supplies and a Drawing book
and a few other things as well, too much to list really! Anyways, that was my day! I enjoyed spending time with my extended family as well. My brother, me, my cousin's husband Adam, and my cousin Jeremy played football afterwards. We even played this game where we had a football and frisbee and one person would throw the frisbee and then the other person would throw the football and try to hit the frisbee...quite a silly game yes, but it was entertaining for oh...about twenty minutes, then we played some football, or well, it wasn't really football. It mostly consisted of me running plays and catching the ball and guarding my brother when I had to. We only had three people at the time. Twas good times indeed! Lets see...what else to report...hmm...I beleive that's about it. So off I go to find something else to amuse myself with!
OH YEAH! ALMOST FORGOT! Ok...my friend Jamie and I, we've been working on a way to save the world. All I need is spikey yellow hair and a giant ass sword, and all Jamie would need would be the Squall Necklace and a machine gun, or a gunblade. Ok...here's how it's going to happen. As most of you nerds/geeks/poindexters know there's a Final Fantasy VII movie coming out next summer. Well, what's going to happen is, the head CEO of Square Enix (hehe....Squeanix...) is going to cancel it at the last minute! THEN! Jamie and I are going to get some of our fellow compatriots and march on the Square Enix HQ, sack it, and then get whatever unreleased footage we can. BUT! When we get there, we find out that some uber powerful bastard has possessed the head CEO of Square Enix, and it's up to Jamie and myself to stop him and save the world! Ingenious isn't it? Oh yeah...and afterwards, we 're going to get our own radio show and make the next Mega Man X game. We've already got working bad guy names like Carnage Cabbager, Tormenting Tomatoer, Maniac Metalmonkey, Anarchy Ardvark, and Horshoe Radisher just to name a few. Boy...my friends and I have such vivid imaginations don't we? Anyways! that's all for today! Until next time!
current mood:  cheerful
current music: Stroke 9 - Kick Some Ass
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| Tuesday, December 23rd, 2003
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11:37 pm - Well it's been a while...
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Long time no post eh? Oh I bet you're all just waiting and dying to see whats happend with me eh? Well...to be totally honest...not a lot has happened. I've pretty much been busy working on school stuff, but now i'm out for Christmas! YAY! I can't wait. I'm rather excited, plus! Two weeks off of school! That gives me some time to spend some time to spend with my friends and peoples! Yeah..confusing...I know. Anyways! I passed all my classes for the semester, no biggie there. I'm just glad that we're on break. I'm really getting tired of school. I just can't wait till I graduate, although it will be sad when I do because there's going to be a few people that i'll dearly miss being around, it sucks cause I don't get to be around them that much as it is. Lets see...what else. Oh yes...well nothing else really. I went and saw Return of the King along with everyone else on the day it came out. That was a good movie. I enjoyed it a lot. I went to a party at my friend's peter's house tonight. It was much fun, well mostly, but I had a lot on my mind. I've just been thinking about quite a few things. I really need to start working out again cause I haven't felt like doing it in a while. I also need to start running so I can get rid of some of my weight. My friend made a joke about me being fat tonight, and I know he was kidding, but i've been trying really hard to lose weight, and do things better, so it just kinda hurt. The more I think about it, the more I think about the things that I'm not good at. I wish I were good at a lot of things, but I dunno. I feel that sometimes people think i'm stupid or not cool or something. I dunno why I think this, I just do. It's weird. I enjoyed the party tonight, but I had a lot of things on my mind. Things that have been bothering me. Things that I don't really wanna post about...if you want to know, then just ask me if ya wanna know. Anyways, i'm gonna go. It's gettin' kinda late.
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| Monday, December 1st, 2003
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10:30 pm - CATCH UP TIME!
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Well, it's been quite sometime since i've updated my journal. People are starting to wonder why I haven't. Well, lets see, where to begin? I went on a date with kirsten last Tuesday, which was a lot of fun. It got cut short though cause she was exhausted, but that was ok cause I had a good time. I think we're going to go on another one. Then Wednesday, I went to cherokee county with my friend steven and keith to see Steven's fiance. She was ok...she was kind of bein' a bitch to him, but what else is new? right? Then Thursday was Thanksgiving so I spent the day eating turkey and what not with my family. Good stuff. Lots and lots of food. Then Friday I woke up at five and went shopping. I got a cool new leather jacket that's all cool lookin' and has a great lining. That night I went and saw Bad Santa, which was the most funniest movie i've seen yet. The next day I went and saw The Haunted Mansion which was ok, it was more serious than expected though, but ah well, it was still good. That was pretty much my weekend. The Mage game I was in ended, which makes me a sad panda cause I was starting to really enjoy it. I even thought of a cool thing I could've done with my character too! He's a shao-lin master so I should've taken the merit Parlor Trick and made to where he punched or kicked, the old fashioned martial arts sound could be heard...that'd be funny. Oh well, a VTM game is starting up soon so im going to be a part of that, so that'll be fun. I've been thinking of ways I can make my character better and i've been learning backgrounds and stuff on things that I didn't know. It's rather interesting. So hopefully, I will be able to play my character very well. This week should be interesting. I only have three more weeks of school left, for at least, this semester. God I can't wait to graduate. Im gonna be so happy. I'm so sick and tired of school right now. The things im learning are utterly pointless, the poeple are hopelessly stupid and serve no purpose to the human race whatsoever. I can't stand it. The only thing im going to miss when I graduate is my friends, and even then, I can still see them because I won't be going to college very far. I just can't wait. Aside from school, i've been in a really good mood lately. Im not sure what it is, probably a number of things. I've been doing lots of things with my friends, getting out more, and working out which is helping me greatly with a lot of things. So right now, im on easy street I guess you could say. The only thing that can make this more complete is if I get my license, which im going next week to get by the way, so wish me luck!...again. Lets see...what else to post about...I think that about covers it. I'm just in a really great mood. It's about damn time.
current mood:  happy
current music: bazooie - Wizards & Warriors Theme OC ReMix
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| Sunday, November 16th, 2003
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10:04 pm - WEEKEND UPDATE!
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Well this weekend has got to be one of the most interesting weekends of my life. I think i'll work backwards and start with today....
SUNDAY: Sunday was a great day. I spent the entire day with my friend Jamie "Ghey Pron" Retel. Haha inside joke for those of you who don't know. We went to the mall then we came back to my house and played some Resident Evil 2. That game rocks. It's my favorite RE like ever...probably because it was the first one that i'd ever played. Then earlier in the evening I went to the movies and saw "Elf." It wasn't that great of a movie, but I got to spend time with Kirsten, which was fun. Afterwards, we went to eat at Wendy's. Good stuff.
SATURDAY: Well, Saturday was just plain fun in itself. I went to my friend Sean's house and we RPed in Mage: The Ascension the entire day, from like one to eleven-thirty. I love to RP. It's so much fun. I especially like my character that I have because he is a shao-lin master. So basically, he can like beat the crap out of almost anyone, of course he isn't invincible by any means, but it's still fun. My character ended up having to kill two marauders. It was quite fun because I dunno...it's just cool to have your character do stuff like that. I had the help of my friend Travis's character by the way. Then afterwards, we met up with a really stupid female Gangrel. She ended up glomping my character because we kept her from killing us. Then we pretty much ended it, there was a few more things that we did, but that was basically the highlight of the RP.
FRIDAY: Well, this is the day that was probably the highlight of my weekend. I hung out with my friends Jamie, Kirsten, Cora, and Peter. That was a lot of fun. I went over to Peter's house and met Cora and Kirsten and Peter of course, there. We hung out, Then my friend Jamie came along as well. We stopped at Starbucks and got coffee, well they did, but I didn't. I don't care much for coffee really. Then we went to the Highland Point playground. It was fun, except it was unbeleivably cold out. So we just messed around and then well here comes the shocker to most of you probably (especially those who are regular visitors to my journal.) Well, I went up to the lake they had there with my friend Kirsten. We went for a walk and basically, she asked me on a date. I also experienced my first kiss that night as well, not that I expected it to be spectacular just like everyone keeps telling me, but it was still nice. I can't help but feel I screwed it up though. I dunno how or why, I just feel that I did, but all in all, it was a great time. Yep...a great day indeed!
So there you have it ladies and gentlemen. That was my weekend. I am now dating someone which does make me happy. I dunno when we'll go on the date...but soon...oh yes...soon. Where shall we go? I do not know! but soon..yes...soon....I shall...anyways...that's enough of rambling so im signing off now! See ya later!
current mood:  ecstatic
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| Wednesday, November 12th, 2003
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8:29 pm - Today hasn't been a great day...
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Man today just sucked. I woke up this morning and I was all set and ready for my driving test. I was a bit nervous but ya know, that's normal. So I drive an hour up to Calhoun to take my driving test, and I fail it. Which...wouldn't be so bad, but she counted points off on everything I did just about. Some of it I did deserve, but a lot of it I didn't. If you wanna know what happened, just ask me and i'll tell you, but I don't feel like putting it here. It just sucks cause I know I can do it, but I dunno why I did so bad. Some of it wasn't my fault though. Oh well. I'm going to go again and take it at some other place tomorrow I think. I should do better there because I know the course better. I can't wait till I finally get my license though. It's gonna be great!
Today also sucked because I've been arguing with my sister. I hate arguing with my sister. It really makes me mad though. Im sick and tired of her putting her friends before her family. She's still mad at me because I won't be friends with George because I have my reasons. She tells her friends lies that aren't true about things that I do. Then her friends get mad at me and they don't beleive me either. It really sucks. Then she got mad at me today because I have another friend, who hurt a friend of hers and she's mad at me because I won't take her friends side. I don't want to take any friends side because they're both my friend, so I don't want to afect the friendships that I have. But with the things I do, she just thinks that i'm being stubborn. She's never seen my side in anything. She's always backed her friends up way more than me. I dunno why. I've always been a good brother to her. Yeah, we've had our little fights but what brother and sister doesn't? ya know? but for the most part, i've been a good brother. I've stuck up for her when people talk shit about her behind her back, whcih people frequently do. Not a whole lot, but there still are people that do. Then she turns around and preaches to me about how I should still be friends with George. She also tells her friends things about me that aren't true. Like she was talking to one of her friends the other night and she said I was being mean to her and then her friend got mad at me, and this friend does happen to be a good friend of mine, that lately, seems to be getting into my business quite a lot. Now, I know I help people, but the things she's getting into really are none of her business. Im sick and tired of my sister doing this to me. She's done this to me a lot. I honestly don't think she realizes what it does to me. Do you know what it's like to have your own sister not beleive you on anything you say when you get into conflicts with people just because she "knows how the other person acts" well she should know how I am because im her own brother, but she doesn't care, or at least, I feel she doesn't. Anyways, that was my craptacular day. See ya later.
current mood: blah
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