Lauren's Blurty

I SUCK
So I can't remember if Austin and I played with Jorj on Thursday...I think it was Thursday..well anyways I sucked. Jorj fucking hates me and only lets me play with him for like 20 min. and then hurts the hell out of me. And then Austin is sad and gets hurt too.....DAMNIT!

So on Friday, hung out with Ryan Gramm for a bit at Subway during 3rd period. I'm such a worthless piece of skipping school crap.

Didn't work on my senior project.

Got sad cuz Austin didnt call me until midnight...that was saddish.

Beth came over - we went to Hastins - Caity and Siiri met us there - we rented porn, vag movie, nip/tuck, degrassi, and sid and nancy. didnt really get around to watching anything.

fast-forwarded thru the porn - it sucked because they didnt actually have sex. damn it. but there was a trailor for a new movie and it was called spider girl and she shoots web from her vag! HECK YES SHE DOES!

Nip/tuck is officially the greatest show of my life.

Siiri and Caity stayed the night - Beth went home around elevenish.

Caity and I slept in my bed and I got turned on.....*DEVIOUS SMILE*

Saturday I slept...like usual. Then went to fathers. Then left and went to this fundraiser thing with him in Bonner for this Hellgate soph. who is going to Switzerland. There was a silent auction and daddy got me 2 scarves that ROCK!

Then went to the Casual Drama cd release party with Byron and Nate. I've decided that whatever band was playing when I got there sucked my ass off. And I dont like Casual Drama either - they get boring really quickly. Saw Chris Moss. that was awkward. he was wasted and moshing and that was weird cuz hes a big black gangster guy...yeah weird. the best part of the thing was when they dropped this little kid who tried to crowd surf. HAHA.

Then went and picked up Austin and Nate, Byron, Zach and us went to Nates and I was there for 10 min before I left. It was good to see Austin because I hadnt seen him for over 24 hours and it made me sad and lonely for him.

I love him so much - Its weird. Byron told me I shouldnt love him. But I do - I'm not IN LOVE with him - But I love him. It most definately makes me sad when I'm not around him and when I am with him it seems like nothing could be better.

Anyways -- (longest entry of my LIFE!)

Sunday (Today)

I woke up - Made cinnamon rolls - Watched part of Bubble Boy and all of Con (the tv show). Then went and picked up Austin at Nates. We went to Zach and Caitys and kind of played halo...but i suck. Then we went and looked for the virgin suicides cd, returned the porn, rented some star wars game for austin, ate wendys, and hung out in the Wal-Mart parking lot and then I took Austin to work....

Austin touched my arm- I'm afraid hes gunna be mad - Maybe he is mad...or sad? or dissapointed. I'll talk to him about it tomorrow....I'm such a fucking hipocrit.

Came home and napped - Went to Perkins with dad - got a frickin awesome stuffed toy thing called Kelly Cookie. It rocks!!!

Hopefully Austin isnt mad at me cuz that would be devistating.

Current Mood: confused
Current Music: Adam's Song - Blink 182