Lauren's Blurty

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So I'm not about to whine or complain or anything. But I mean what the heck is wrong with people.

#1- I have no choice about college what so ever - its all up to my dad because he has money....

#2- Girls think that they have the right to go up to Austin and say how he is gross because hes dating me and i'm gross......

#3- I think Austin is mad at me about something but he won't tell me. And I'm kind of upset about this because he means a lot to me and to lose himm would be awful. and i can't fix anything unless i know what it is. I think someone told him something. Or maybe its because of #4....

#4 - I'm kind of getting the feeling that Caity hates me...she kind of ignores me and isnt like all hyperish around me like she used to. then i saw an entry in her LJ that made me think about myself. I mean I love caity and ive done nothing to her but I don't understand why I get that feeling and when i get that feeling it usually is true....

#5-Girls at my school are worthless pieces of crap and they steal your stuff and never give it back and then ware/use the stuff they stole. or start rumors or websites about you.....WOW.

Anyways I got all saddish after school and I randomly pulled up to caity and austin and austin jumped in with me cuz i was all crying and stuff. and we got my oil changed...then while waiting i told austin that i loved him, i didnt mean it, well i did, but i wasnt ready to say it yet, i mean its only been a week....but he said it back and totally made my heart lift..it was awesome. i've never been told "I love you" by a guy. and then went to my moms. and austin didnt seem happy there so we left. i think he hates my mom because he thinks my mom hates him. which isnt true because she likes him a lot. but i think that austin is starting to hate me.......god and if he does i wish he would just come out and tell me what i did wrong because i care for him a lot. If anyone reads this and knows what is going on with him.....please tell him to talk to me. I need to know. I can't go around without knowing....

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Tiny Vessels-Death Cab for Cutie