A Little Something - Now & Then

11:10pm: just...........
Eleanor Roosevelt - “So often people you admire at a distance do not mean so much to you after you meet them.”

Eleanor Roosevelt - “The things you refuse to meet today always come back at you later on, usually under circumstances which make the decision twice as difficult as it originally was.”

Unknown - “When you want what you've never had, you must do what you've never done.”

11:25pm: thug.....splash....bang.....zzzzzzzzzz
thug (me falling off bed)....slam (banging the loo door)...slush...slush (taking a shower)...sniff..sniff( me blowing my nose)....creak (opening my cupboard door)
bang (leaving for college)
this was how my day began!

there was not much of a difference the whole day long. there were prolong period of silence (cos i was being attentive in class) and then blah blah blah blah (cos i was being inquisitive in class) and then there was silence again.

gobble gobble gobble (hungry me doing justice to my stomach)
glup glup glup (thirsty me)
snoozzzzzz (sleepy me taking a power nap before the next session of classes)

splash splash splash (refreshing myself with mugs load of water)
bang (closing the door), pitter pat pitter pat (walking to college)

the afternoon was not much different from the morning session, except that there was one too many snoozzzzzzzzzzzzzzz *lol*, by my tired and sleep deprived batchmates. i stole a wink too only to be disturbed by a loud..... crash (no that was not me falling :-), it was the unfortunate tire of some unfortunate car). this fortunately or unfortunately, brought the class back to life.

blah blah blah blah blah blah (the prof in full steam)
dong dong dong (the clock signifying the end of yet another saturday torture, for some fortunate souls)

pitter patter pitter patter (feets running to grab that cuppa of coffee, before the next ordeal)

bang (door closed, signifying another beginning of another session, this time only a handful of unfortunate souls , me included)

blah blah blah blah (me giving a presentation)
cough cough (a distress soul not knowing what was happenning)
ahhh hmmmm oooooo (unsure me)
clap clap clap clap (my role for the day over. now i can sit quitely,with my eyes open and ears shut and my mind wandering where i'm not supposed to,at least in class *wink* ;-)!)

creak.....push......thug.....sigh....ooopss ( chair pushed backed, people hurrying to leave, books dumped on table and exclamation of relief. DONE for the day!)

pitter patter pitter patter (walking back to hostel)
chom chom chom goble goble (so very hungry !)
splash splash splash (nothing like a good shower)
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz lalal lalala lalalala (relaxing with music)

in out in out in out (bored me, entering and leaving my room)
hahahh hahaha hahaha heee heee heee (sharing a joke with "J")
slam..sigh...slop (back in my room, in the comfort of my chair)

click click click click click click click click click click click click (browsing till i'm ready to snooze zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz)

10:33pm: not so ordinary
it's was not such an ordinary day after all. waking up in the morning all i could see ahead was classes, classes and more classes. well i did have lots of classes but then I also did something new. I chatted (thru the means of the wonderful creation called a cell phone) for quite sometime with a net friend. and knowing my reputation for blabbering (when i'm in the mood)this was no different. hopefully "he" was'nt bored. will keep shut next time and follow ur policy of "yes", "no", "and", "so", "ok"....... :-). I however doubt I'll be able to do that :-)

but, all good things come to an end. So i have to focus now on more pressing matters like reading about "Social ties and word of mouth referral behavior" * yucks*

8:17pm: BUD Day :-)
i don't have the energy or the time to post aahahhhhhhh going mad with the workload

well all in all i had a good birthday. my acquisition of the day includes:

a book called 'Geisha' by Liza Dalby
a fibre optic lamp that rotates and give out light of different colours.
a keychain from New York with "new york" written on it.
3 sexy tops
1 trouser (for office wear)
1 sexy denim skirt
1 saree (for office wear)
1 handbag (for office use)
lots of roses :-) (from "7s" and 3 sweet juniors)


and yes! my record is not yet broken.I did have a cake this year too!my fav one :-)chocolate!
and this is thanks to "7s". from across the miles he ensured that nothing was missing (except him :-)). Thanks for giving ur 99.5% to make me happy.
lots of people called, sms and emailed, even some that I did not expect. thanks for remembering me. it would have been a complete day if only ................

9:46am: Happy Birthday to Me! :-)

11:55pm: There are some things that should not be questioned. such as this post, on the last 5 minute of another year gone by...............
what prompted this???? well, I was browsing for journals and articles on consumer behavior and some link lead me to this, so here it is.....

I am not yours, not lost in you,
Not lost, although I long to be
Lost as a candle lit at noon,
Lost as a snowflake in the sea.

You love me, and I find you still
A spirit beautiful and bright,
Yet I am I, who long to be
Lost as a light is lost in light.

Oh plunge me deep in love -- put out
My senses, leave me deaf and blind,
Swept by the tempest of your love,
A taper in a rushing wind.

-Sarah Teasdale (1884-1933)

Disclaimer: not targeted to any species, living or dead, you are reading it at your own risk. if you have any comments, crib or complaints then it's your problem not mine!

12:16am: everyday banter
there was a storm yesterday night and the wind howled. i love the rain. thought it's not the first rain of the season it was still magical. the pitter patter of raindrops esp at night is a very soothing sound. the rain brings back a lot of memories. the ride to pune, the ride to daulatabad, the ride to the paratha walla and the arcade near baba petrol pump *sigh* anyways i still love the rain.......and I won't think about bygones. As long as i don't think about them I'll be fine.

It's been a rather uneventful day with not much work. I watched "sword fish" with S. Halle Berry and John Travolta. pretty ordinary movie. nothing to write about. Then i went for a treat with my friends. N and 3 others were traeting some of us with the money they won from a Quiz contest. I ate pongal and veg macaronni. I make better macaronni :-) stuffed myself silly :-). I was planning to do some studying but nothing happened. the universe conspired and the current went off. By the time it came back on I was in no mood anymore.

The 4 of us (S,J,N and myself) are going to Kolkatta tomorrow. girls day out. I don't have classes in the morning, one of my classes has been re-schedule and i'm bunking one of them. so it's pretty peaceful :-). N wants to do some shopping for office wear and I thought I'll buy myself something nice for my birthday. it's like a ritual for me. new clothes and a birthday cake :-). without these a birthday is no birthday. But then I think I'll have to do without a cake this time. there is no cake culture here. well there was once upon a time but then as time went by people forgot and slowly birthday celebration stopped, except within a small circle. I have friends here, good enough friends but not of a certain type. you know what i mean? I think after a certain point one stops making that kind of friends. Right? wrong? I don't know ! anyways I'm not expecting and as long as you don't expect life is fine......maybe...

looking forward to a good time tomorrow........

11:03pm: just a thought
we all need time alone

to think
to dream
to wonder

10:50am: great time
The party yesterday was a great success. The intra hall games was met with a lot of approval from all. The 1st year girls came in all their fineries. Sherya was looking especially good. She's a fun type girl. One can make out from her clothes and the brief introduction she gave about herself. There's this guy called Shrikant Rathi who won all the matches and is kinda sweet. I voted him as best dressed guy but sadly because of the male population in my class, Shreya won hands down :-). Michui played the guitar and sang two beauitiful song, and as usual I was the master of ceremony and got lots of compliments as well ;-)

I woke up today morning NOT with a hangover, cos i did not drink ;-) but with a bad dream nagging at my head. It scared me badly because it was almost real. I could almost see the shape of the baby. I saw it's eyelid and for a split second in my dream i remember saying that it was beautiful and had lovely eyelashes. I felt bad that I could not keep it. Althought I've always believed that an abortion is a necessity, if the couples involved were not in a position to get married or does not want to get married because it's too early or lots of other reason, I now think that's it's really difficult to do it. I wonder how people have ever managed to take the decision of terminating a baby even if it's just an egg at that stage??? ??? ???

I have lots of work now. A extra class at 2.00pm and 4 chapters to read as well as 4 articles. So I have to get cracking ........

12:13am: lots of fun
the party that was to have happened last sunday did not so it's happening tomorrow, and prelude to this we are having lots of intra-hall competition... TT, Volley ball, Carrom and chess. well i played carrom and TT. into the quarter round of TT but was defeated in Carrom by the same guy whom I defeated in TT :-) so i guess he got his revenge :-).

"J" and I went to Golbi today to buy some gifts for the various games. we could not get the trophy done in time so we got some other stuff like Mugs and crystals pieces.

looks like everyone is having a great time. Oh by the way this party was from us seniors to the juniors for the successful completion of our placements and also as a welcome party for them (althought rather late) since we were away on our projects when they joined college. a good chance at getting to know all of them well at least before we leave.

we had a good lecture today on Buyer's Behavior by an Ex. IIMA prof. she was good. No more saturday and sunday for me till exams are over *sigh*.

sleeping late again today, not because of workload, but because of the games :-)
chal......i've got a call for my quarter final match against a strong guy :~] he's one of the Hall champs (so no chance for me :-( )

2:31am: hangover
i saw the movie today "gone with the wind". it's not as good as the book. my recommendation is taht one should read the book before watching the movie.

this is one of those times where i have my hangover for a book last for a few days. the last time i felt this way was with a movie "life is beautiful"

7:20pm: at last
finally i've completed "gone with the wind"....great book. The book is about Scarlett O'hara, a young, spoiled, Southen belle whose whole life is changed by the coming of the Civil War. The book follows Scarlett's struggles and triumphs, loves and losses, with the backdrop of the Southern homefront in Georgia during the war. Scarlett o'hara comes across as a stupid, foolish, idiotic, strong, hardworking and determined women all wrap in one. Her longing for money, security, fame and standing in society is the central aim of her existence, until one day she realises that she has everything but no happiness or love, and when she finally realises this, all love is lost.

i've finished my presentation as well for tomorrow and i've finish reading the rather lengthy case on management of change as well.

fiddle dee dee (hahahahaa!)

11:59pm: he looks good, very good. looks very arty and i dig deep for that kind. oh i miss him so. memories flooding back fast. "the birds ate my bread crumbs and i don't know my way home"

11:24pm: lazy day
it's been one hell of a lazy sunday for me and i like it like this sometimes. hardly moved myself out of bed. been reading "gone with the wind" almost the whole day. finally at about 4.00pm i crawled out of bed to go for a cooking lesson in "chocolate brownie". it was yum........... I also went to church but felt very dis-oriented. i miss "7s" in church, it's a different experience with him. the rest of the eveining was no better. i took to reading again, but now realize that i have lots to do for the coming week, more presentations to give and so more late nights and lots of browsing. so leaving it at this today.

1:13am: touching
i saw a movie today or rather yesterday. The movie is called "Monster". it's not a scary movie rather it's a very touching movie about a girl who got into prostitution and wanted to get out but just got entangle into a bigger web. The story is based on the life of serial killer Aileen Wuornos (Charlize Theron), who was executed Oct. 9, 2002, after murdering at least six Florida men while working as a prostitute. In her 1992 trial, Wuornos pleaded innocent, saying she acted in self-defense to prevent being raped, a statement she later recanted. The film centers on Wuornos' life before the murders and her romantic relationship with Selby (Christina Ricci), a woman she dated while still turning tricks and killing men.

the artist have done a wonderful job with the make up and has totally transformed the beautiful Charlize Theron.
Here is a site that shows how Charlize Theron was transformed from glamour girl into the likeness of a hardened criminal.

oh hey i spoke with "small" after a long time today. she called and we chatted for sometime. really miss her.
well it's pretty late and without realizing i've chatted with "7s" for more than 2 hrs. :-) gotta sleep now.

snooze

10:45pm: i've changed my icon. nothing official about it. just found this cute too. so it will stay till i find another cute one or if i'm missing the old one too much.

i feel like crying...............not because of the icon thing...but generally. i need people around.

9:28pm: not a lot
inspite of the lack of sleep i functioned pretty well the whole day. the presentation i had on CRM went well and the prof. was impressed with all the effort i had put in.

so my hard work paid off. it always does usually. after that i slept a lot since i did not have any classes in the afternoon, of course this was aided by the heavy lunch i ate.

But then i felt pretty much empty throughout the evening. it's one of those phase that i go thru sometimes. those feelings of loneliness and no one to talk too. it's surprising how sometime in life you are surrounded by lots of people but very few with whom you can have a good time or just talk. thisis one of those days and i hate times like these cos it gets me in a depress mood. i'm also piss at myself. i broke a promise that i made of not visiting "her" blog. why do i still want to make things right with her?

i got bored in between browsing for material for another presentation that i have on ethics, so i generally surf the net and came across these cute cupid applications. you can check them out, they are FUN :-). here they are
Cupid1
Cupid2
Cupid3
Cupid4
Theo


i have to go thru a rather lengthy case right now and the mood is not right for sitting burried in books. i want to get out there and do some dancing have a night out and all that, but alas *sigh* this place does not offer jsut stuff. so i'll just have to do what i have to do...read the case. but i really wish someone would make me feel better, someone would just stretch out his/her arms and give me a hug.


*hugs*

1:08am: sleepy
yawn........ hmmmmmm.......snifff......cough cough........ ahhhhhhhhh
I have an important presentation tomorrow on CRM and still deep into it. wonder what time i'll to snuggle in. and class at 7.30am...oh boy! huhuhuhuhuhu

12:20am: hate
i've never hated anyone so much as i hate the entity. when will people see her "too sugary", "all nice and good", "overly friendly" and "please you always" side. gosh! I HATE HER grrrrrrrrr

it was written by "her" that at one point in time we used to like the SAME things and that would make her(meaning me) happy. now it does'nt.. Well how can it be? when liking the same thing means your boyfriend too, not taht the entity will ever admit it! and the entity says that i am being dis-illusioned. my attempt at reviving a friendship is looked at as lukewarm. what does she expect after a long gap of minimal communication.........FLOWERS? the entity says that I tried to make things better only becos i needed someone to listen? Look who id disillusion now. Ha! and who is she to make judgements whether i am satisfied with what i have now or not?. it's all about living a carbon copy of someone. first all that i had or do. now it's all about what the "other person" does. to the extend of doing the same as "letting go". strategic decision i say, and what timing...... HUH!

12:26am: WHAT?
WHAT'S ON YOUR MIND RIGHT NOW?

well on my mind it's caramel brownie :-)