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catalyst's Blurty:
| Thursday, March 31st, 2005 | |
| 5:36 pm | livejournal has bought my soul. you can see my new journal at http://www.livejournal.com/users/derelict17 sorry blurty. |
| Thursday, March 24th, 2005 | |
| 11:42 pm |  this is cool. |
| Wednesday, March 23rd, 2005 | |
| 10:41 pm | I just witnessed something kinda random...i was at the c store, talking to the clerk who i have gotten to know somewhat, and while he is checking me out he asks a guy who is rushing out of the store if he can help him with anything...the guy replies that he didn't have enough money. i left the store right after the guy and he happened to be walking the same way i was...he was wearing a carhart type coat and a green backpack, and he looked somewhat dirty...he looked like a homeless man. As i walked behind him back to my apartment he looked back and saw me walking, and immediately turned 90 degrees and walked behind an apartment complex...he kept walking on the other side of the fence as i watched him. after passing dunnhill, he stopped, looked behind him back towards the convenience mart, then took another 90 degree turn and hurridly walked away into the distance. make your own implications as to what i witnessed today. it was very bizarre. anyway, got a project to finish in the morning, so so long for now. take care. Current Music: Beck - Go It Alone |
| Tuesday, March 22nd, 2005 | |
| 11:16 pm |  woo |
| 11:15 pm | this morning i awoke at about 6 am with horrible cramps in my stomach...they were bad enough to wake me up and keep me awake for an hour, which is a lot, considering i am a pretty deep sleeper. to the best of my figures, it was a result of eating food before i went to sleep, and not washing it down with enough water...after drinking nearly a quart of water, the cramps subsided and i was able to sleep again. I would never bother to mention this story in my journal normally, but I found it ironic that the first time to my knowledge that i was woken up by stomach cramps due to lack of water in my stomach happened to be on world water day...yep, when i went to google today, i noticed a very blue watery google logo...clicking on it, i read that today is world water day, and people around the world are celebrating and conserving the most important molecule to our existence that there is. so, thank you stomach for waking me up today and helping me appreciate just how important water is in our life...thats all for now. i have to write a sedimentary rock project tomorrow, so i better get some rest for a long day ahead of me. oh, i got my hair braided today, which is really kinda cool...ill post a pic above this entry. take care. Current Music: grandaddy - lava kiss |
| Tuesday, February 22nd, 2005 | |
| 9:25 pm | There was a game tonight...iu playing purdue i think. i can easily know when we have games without reading the news, for all i have to do is look out my window and see if there is a traffic jam. after the game i can usually tell if we won or lost too...i think we lost judged on how everyone is kinda slowly walking home heads hung low...the whole town is sad now. but i'll be damned. i just checked the score online and we won 79 to 62. shows you what i know about bloomington and reading the overall emotion of the citizens based on a pair of people walking down a dark street outside my window about 100 feet away without me wearing my glasses and only having my blinds half open. :-D thats life, folks. take care Current Music: The Beatles - Cry Baby Cry |
| Monday, February 14th, 2005 | |
| 12:17 pm | I had a thought on the bus ride home from class...kind of a play on words. you can get information about certain topics, and birds can fly in formation. so, if you wanted to, you could get information about birds flying in formation. information about formations. cool stuff i think. thats a lot of formations. and the form that the formations take gives you enough information to form an opinion about the formations that the birds fly in. very informative. anyway, take care. Current Music: Mary Jane Lamond - Mo Ghille M?r Foghain'each |
| Thursday, February 10th, 2005 | |
| 11:34 pm | kind of a creepy yet a beautifully pensive tune...what does he mean in it. not your regular beck. if you have a good file sharing program download it, otherwise, IM me and i will be more than happy to send it to you. rocks are crazy things...i have a big exam on monday in my petrology class, so that is what most of my weekend will be consumed in. in other news, i wanna make more movies...i wanna write more music...i wanna travel...i dont wanna be in school, but i think i can tough out another year. its going to be a bitch of a senior year, but i think i can do it. then the big question is - what do i do wiht ym life? i want to travel somewhere. travelling and spending time outdoors. take care. Current Music: Beck - Runners Dial Zero |
| Wednesday, January 26th, 2005 | |
| 5:08 pm |  saw that online and thought it was cool. if you dont get it, you suck. :) Current Music: Beck - Hell Yes (leak from his album due out in april) |
| Tuesday, January 25th, 2005 | |
| 9:12 pm | This is the body of an email that i just got. persuade breath dogs - as plumvtree. bruise drink, v ude.anaidni twists criminals? as caused growing onevbut learning clock. ashamed spread: .sbk.nitsunga horrible: jury learned recieved. loudly smiles, - mary zealand unfolded. cool shit man. |
| Sunday, January 23rd, 2005 | |
| 10:38 pm | It is a sad thing that Johnny Carson died. perhaps even more sad is the way he died...in his sleep. I may be a strange person, but i want to die a long, painful, conscious death. See, for any of you who may not know already, i often consider myself an atheist. If there is a god, he hasn't done anything since the creation of the universe, and i'm not going to worship him. So, according to my beliefs, whenever I die, those will be the last moments that i ever experience anything...after death, i rot. There wont be a spirit emerging from me and entering the limbo between heaven and hell...i will just rot. So, whenever I do end up dying, I want to know ahead of time...i dont want to die in my sleep or get shot in the head...i would rather be shot in my leg and slowly bleed to death...at least i would have time to think my final thoughts. I also want to be able to experience death, just to know what it feels like to die. of course i can only know this once, and only in the moments before i die, so i hope that i die slowly. I hope this death doesn't come any time soon, 80 years wouldn't be too long to wait. Anyway, enough about death for now. I wanted to write a few days ago about a dream i had, but i forgot. the reason why this dream was so damn cool - i was levitating...just like i do in my movies, except that i could glide around a few inches off the ground. when i levitate in reality i cannot move horizontally, just vertically...so it was neat to be able to float around...and it really felt like i was in my dream. i had that weightless feeling that you get on roller coasters...anyway, thats all for now. things are more orderly and less stressful in my life now. about damn time. take care. Current Music: Dave Alvin - King Of California |
| Thursday, January 20th, 2005 | |
| 6:47 pm | fuck people who start shit. one kind and innocent gesture can be transformed by word of mouth into a completely different situation, causing stress and unnecessary bullshit. fuck anyone who tells stories in the third person, or fourth person...if your life is so dull that you have to talk about other peoples to entertain yourself, you have issues that should be dealt with. there used to be a thing called trust, which i tried to extend to everyone who i knew, but i have come quick to learn that very few deserve that. one of my biggest flaws, i suppose, is my inability to tell a lie about anything significant. i hate liars and lying. the only way to get through life is to be honest, and only say what you are absolutely sure of...so i wonder how some people are going to make it. sorry for my anger, i am just sick of certain people. take care. Current Music: System of a Down - Darts |
| Wednesday, January 19th, 2005 | |
| 10:37 pm | for any of you who care or follow, I have finally finished my organs series of movies...but if you havent seen the first three, watch them first before watching my latest. my mood has shifted around quite a bit today...right now i really dont know how to be...i dunno. i dont want to talk about it. take care. |
| Sunday, January 16th, 2005 | |
| 4:43 pm | Something really cool is happening...its 440 approximately, and sunlight was bouncing through my shades onto the wall, despite the fact that the sun is in the other side of the sky...so i looked out my window, and a bus was parked about a quarter mile away. the sun was reflecting off of the front of the bus and into my window...fascinating stuff. Anyway, thats all for now. |
| Wednesday, December 29th, 2004 | |
| 10:50 pm | today was dull. i really only left my apartment once, for about ten minutes...i spent the rest of the day wishing i had something to do...this is what break is all about. i did get some stuff done on my computer, though, which has become my life. I am so attatched to this machine. Since i recently installed a 200 gig hard drive, i have nearly 300 gigs total to use...processor is a little slow though. maybe i should overclock it. Anyway, life has its ups and downs, i guess it is sort of in-between at the moment. I am probably going to louisville tomorrow to make a movie in an abandoned crematorium...i just finished a movie last night which is about 18 minutes long...a sort of documentary. and in other news, thefacebook.com is becoming more and more addictive...its just amazing how small the world is, how everyone is connected through six or less degrees of seperation. there is a lot i still have to learn about this place, but each day brings interesting insights to the way that the world and the people in it work and function. it is all slowly starting to make sense. take care. Current Music: Ugly Cassanova - Parasites |
| Monday, December 6th, 2004 | |
| 11:33 pm | life is full of sad news I heard some sad news today. An old friend of mine from high school died last thursday...megan blanchard. and while i hadn't talked to her in at least a year, it is a difficult thing to accept. there are two rumors as to how she died, both equally horrific. but that isnt really the important part. i can remember taking her home one day and hearing her play the violin up in her loft. that is perhaps one of the most fond memories that i have. sometimes she would sit at our lunch table and spend 30 minutes talking with us about nothing...those are always the best conversations. i guess the memories are all that i have to hold on to now...you can never realize how the death of someone will affect you until it happens. sure, i have some regrets. I wish i would have kept in touch with her...i wish i could tell her now how much i enjoyed hearing her play. but i guess regrets dont really do any good. I should just be happy that I have memories of her that will remain. anyway, sorry for the sad entry. take care. |
| Sunday, December 5th, 2004 | |
| 10:00 pm | Okay, so i was talking to a friend about how i lost interest in this thing last night, and i decided today to add a little entry since I had some sort of an epiphany tonight as i drove home from work. On Friday I went for a hike around griffy lake with one of my close friends, and that allowed my mind to wander. We got on the topic of the noise of the city, because we could vaiguely hear bloomington off in the distance, and we discussed how big cities rumble and just have an overall sound that they generate. I am not sure why, but this fascinated me. I envisioned new york city from like 15 miles away and imagined being able to hear the rumble of the city...I could also see an aireal view of the giant lump that new york city is if you look at it from a far enough distance. I didnt think much about these thoughts at the time, but on my way home tonight I started thinking in this way again...seeing things for what they really are on a large scale...new york city isnt a bunch of buildings, it is a lump of concrete and steel which rumbles...i cant explain exactly how i am thinking, which is unfortunate, but it makes sense to me. I have also found that this viewpoint can be applied to just about everything in life, and sometimes you just have to step back and think about things cosmically. This new form of thinking gives me a rush whenever I employ it, maybe because i never thought about things this way before, or maybe just because its fascinating..either way, a new era of thought has been introduced into my life, and it has changed who I am and how i feel about things. i dont even really know how to explain how it has changed me, but it has. Like in geology, you cant look at a mountain as a big hill, but rather a long range of rock forced up by the collision of continents...thanks to my conversation with my dear friend, I have found a new way to think about life, and I think it will help me to understand many mysteries previously unexplainable...no, im probably not going to cure any diseases or discover a new law of physics, but I will be able to be more content in the little world that I have molded inside of my head, and being content there will make me content in the world around me. I finally understand. Take care. Current Mood: just dandy. Current Music: Beethoven - Waldstein Sonata |
| Monday, November 8th, 2004 | |
| 10:17 pm | Well, I kind of lost interest in this journal. It happens with every journal that i start, whether electronic or not. I recently have been constantly thinking and worrying about my life and what it is going to be like...sometimes it really bothers me, sometimes I am fine with it. At least working at target has informed me of something that I dont want to do for the rest of my life. I dont really feel like writing now, I just saw the link to my journal and thought i would try to write a post. Sorry, i cant force a post that doesnt want to be written. take care. Current Mood: avesefst Current Music: The Strokes - 12:51 |
| Thursday, October 28th, 2004 | |
| 10:19 pm | journals dont matter...none of this is important. this is just going to be a rant about negative things, so stop reading if you wish to preserve a good mood. I am not happy with where i am in my life...i want to be anywhere but here. i am going to school and majoring in something that i dont think i really want to do...but i am sort of forced into majoring in it because i dont know what i want to do and i dont have the guts or the time or the determination to take a year off and find out what i want to do so i can come back to school and major in it. better yet i dont think there is a major for what i want to do, because i want to do everything. i cant just settle down and do one thing for the rest of my life and be happy. i want to travel and hike and see all of the beautiful things in the world and make a fat paycheck doing it...i want to get married and have kids and live in the middle of the woods next to an ocean in the mountains with streams and lakes and serenity all around. I want to do anything but what i am doing, and there isnt anything i can do to prevent my situation. i just dont know anymore. i dont want to type this shit anymore so i am leaving. sorry. take care. |
| Sunday, October 10th, 2004 | |
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