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Friday, December 25, 2009
9:52AM - *rolls eyes*
Have you ever noticed that people who are in a hurry never listen to a word you say?
Take for example this lady I know. She wants her vacation to start ASAP, but the people who can say yes to it are in Cali on business. It is 6am there, and yet despite my telling her that she keeps trying to call them. They're early risers but also spent 3 days driving there, and just got there today. A bit much eh? I suppose we all do it.
As for life now, the week has been bad, but overall it's ok. Just tired a lot of the time. Today laundry, cooking a turkey and sleeping. *nods*
Current mood: 
annoyed
Thursday, July 23, 2009
8:12PM - You know...
I didn't realize how bad of a mood I was/am in until like just about ten minutes ago. Kiwamu just asked me to do something and I just really, really wanted to tell him to get stuffed.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
11:25PM
You know how weird it is to have in-laws now? It just is. I don't have bad ones. They're great actually. Just odd to me. Anyway, been trying to put together a scrapbook of our wedding. Never really did the scrapbook thing before. But then the last time I tried it, I was like 8.
Boss fired another person today. He is now officially stretching his staff beyond reasonable limits. I know it's not his fault he can't hire new people, but at the same time, none of us want to work overtime cause we're all exhausted from working so much overtime as it is. Now he has it where we'll have to come in at 5am and leave at 9:30pm. That is just BS. Come to the conclusion long ago to go looking for other work. I'm not going to get anywhere in the company, and frankly, working at a hospital is rather depressing to me since all I really see is sickness, injuries, unhappiness and death. Only good times you have is when a baby is being born. Problem is others see a cute baby, I see a new bloody customer in the world to pester me.
It's also to a point where if he fires me, I don't care anymore. I can actually take a week off then.
Now, it's state fair time coming next week. I guess I'm going. Oooooooh funnel cakes. Um, I know I actually opened this up to say something else, but now I don't remember what it was since I got distracted.
heeeey, donuts...
Current mood: 
apathetic
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
4:17PM - In the words of Chris Tucker:
DO YOU UNDERSTAND THE WORDS THAT IS COMING OUT OF MY MOUTH?!!
I am an only child. My mother only had ONE. Not two or three or four. But ONE. So dude quit asking me if I am your long lost sister. Quit asking your girlfriend to ask me if I'm your sister. I told you once before I am not his sister. That means: I am not his sister.
I ask again: Do you understand the words that is coming out of my mouth?
Current mood: annoyed
Sunday, March 22, 2009
5:55PM
I think images of Gackt's house burned into my brain...
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Saturday, February 7, 2009
9:33PM
I used to do everything myself for myself when it came to this. Whatever happened to that?
It seems I really am going to have to take two steps back, to eventually be able to take three steps forward.
I didn't think or care about what anyone's thoughts or feelings. I didn't care if it "was good enough for the public". I just did it. Now I worry about everything. It became a job somewhere down the line I think.
That's why I think I need to go back to the beginning. Why I have to be alone in this.
I am alone in a way. Might as well as use this solitary existence to be myself again.
Friday, February 6, 2009
4:23PM
It's sad when you have to cry out for help in the sense of having to ask someone - ANYONE - to be your pretend boyfriend for reasons to get certain people off your back... and stop chasing your ass.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
5:52PM - Jobless?
Well, it's is possible that on February 1st I may be fired from my job. The reason is simply the stick shift thing has come back to haunt me. The boss has said if I can't drive one by that date, I am fired. No, he is not joking. He told it to the shift lead.
So, the question is thus: Any ideas for where I can go now with just a high school education?
Yes, I graduated from High School. That's it. No, I am not going to college nor have any desire to.
Alternatively: Does anyone have a stick shift car I can learn to drive one with?
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
4:06PM - If I had a chainsaw right now
The dude would not have a head.
If I had bus... he'd be a human pancake.
I want to point out that I hate this man with every fiber of my being. From the skin you physically see to the small atoms that make up my inner tissues. To the muscles in my body to the blood pumping through my veins.
In reality I do not want him dead. But I do want him FIRED. Thing is if I talked to the right people I probably could do it... problem is with that, I'd get fired too.
4 Words: I hate my boss.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
1:34AM
You know, there's elements in TV Shows I like, and others I hate. Pointless, senseless violence is one of the things I hate. Randomly going upstairs I seen 2 men beating a 70 something year old man up for no reason. People wonder why others do stuff like that... yet the answer is right in front of them.
Yeah, there's violent people in the world. There are EVIL people in the world. But showing stuff like that just for the heck of it is so annoying to me. Plus there's always a factor people don't consider... violence begets violence in most cases... when I have violence in my stories, that IS the point of it. How pointless it is and evil begets evil.
Want a really big example of it? Kill Bill. Those movies are nothing but violence. But her violence and revenge was driven by an act of pure... disgusting cruelty that in the end was futile because the driving force of it was found to be obsolete.
This was on Walker, Texas Ranger by the way.
And I need to make a new Gackt layout... this one is all... hard to read stuff on and everything
Current mood: annoyed
Current music: Amazon Pyre ~ Xena
Sunday, November 16, 2008
5:24PM
WWWWWWWWWWWWWHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHYYYYYYYYYYYYY is he down here?
Thursday, October 9, 2008
11:21PM - For some reason this song is really speaking to me tonight on multiple levels...
Sparkling angel I believe
You were my savior in my time of need.
Blinded by faith I couldn't hear
All the whispers, the warnings so clear.
I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door.
There's no escape now,
No mercy no more.
No remorse cause I still remember
The smile when you tore me apart.
You took my heart,
Deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke a promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.
Sparkling angel, I couldn't see
Your dark intentions, your feelings for me.
Fallen angel, tell me why?
What is the reason, the thorn in your eye?
I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door
There's no escape now
No mercy no more
No remorse cause I still remember
The smile when you tore me apart
You took my heart,
Deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke a promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.
Could have been forever.
Now we have reached the end.
This world may have failed you,
It doesn't give the reason why.
You could have chosen a different path in life.
The smile when you tore me apart.
You took my heart,
Deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke a promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.
Could have been forever.
Now we have reached the end.
Current music: Angels ~ Within Temptation
Saturday, September 20, 2008
7:51AM
I managed to somehow sleep for 12 hours... in addition to just laying there for another 2 to 3. >.> Yeah, I was tired. Like to the point I was getting sick when I went to bed for a "nap". It just amuses me how when I take a sleep binge no one tries to get me up. Of course it could be dangerous if you did, considering I'll hate you for the rest of the day... but anyway...
Work has been insane all week because of the damage the city has taken from the hurricane winds we had here. Every day lines of cars... and most of it is people who are coming there just to go someplace with power. >.< I can see a mall or something, but a hospital?
Anyway, Ramadan is almost over, so maybe these guys I work with will be back to normal soon. One thing I've learned is that when men fast they get weird.
I wonder what I should do today? I know I should write at least some part of the day, and I wanted to go somewhere. I haven't written anything in weeks. Been wanting to, just haven't been doing it. It's driving me nuts. What is it that is holding me back? I have no flipping idea. I keep wishing I could just have some type of program that could describe the images and conversations in my head with no fault, and I wouldn't have to literally find the words to put it down. I'd have 7 books written by now if I could do that.
Right now I'm also torn between getting the Red vs Blue collection or the Bubblegum Crisis collection. They're both basically the same price.
Current mood: 
groggy
Current music: crickets chirping
Monday, September 15, 2008
10:41PM - I've decided non-chalent things can be x posted on my other journals so *xpost*
Today was evil-ness. The fun with downed trees and power lines and testing your knowledge of how to get to various places was again put on the line. Back was hurting and still is right now. Pinched nerve acting up. Also being feeling sort of nauseated like I normally do from it.
Didn't sleep even one hour last night. Like 10 minutes, and I had some weird dream. The only dream I really remember of late was the one where I was walking with some guy and it was in the woods and we were heading down a hill and the guy was freaking out saying that we shouldn't go down there because there was something out there that wanted to get us, and of course just then we hear some strange howls. But for some reason, even though it freaked me out a little bit I was still determined to take that road because it was the only way to get where ever we were trying to go. Of course I woke up before I seen the whole thing. I always find dreams with forests in them intriguing to me. I'm never afraid of the forest itself... it always seems to be the outside dangers that enter the forest. I mean I have had several dreams where I actually run into a forest in order to seek refuge from harm. It never makes sense... but in the forest it's like I know where I am going even if any other time I don't.
Anyway, onward to the woes of today. I get dressed and head out a little later than I would have liked and I find my car is dead. After fighting with it for several minutes, I have to call in late for work and get the parents up to take me to work. Afterwards we found out it was merely the battery. More on that later.
The roads to work were all pretty much blocked and only the hospital itself had power. Then when I get there my fellow pompous ass snob co-worker, is being a weirdo again today. What is it with this Ramadan thing that is making these Muslims nuts. So you're fasting. I don't care... Quit using it as an excuse for being an idiot. It was also during the course of this day that I realized I really do not like this co-worker. Not because he isn't nice to me and I can't work with him... He's just one of those people that if I was to deal with him outside work, I'd end up getting angry and probably slugging him.
Then I had a safety training thingy that didn't tell me anything I already didn't know, except to make me more leary of going to doctors and stuff. All it talked about was the mistakes doctors and hospitals made. Enough to make you freaked out. Since I was already tettering on the edge of a panic attack by this time (shaking hands and feeling nervous are some of the first classic signs of it coming on for me), the stories didn't help. But at least the time out away from the work I do, did. The boss was an odd one today too. He's telling me to clean up the leaves and branches in the way... but there's already someone there with a machine to do that with. Fortunately, I didn't have to see him anymore today. The less I see of him the better in my opinion.
Anyway, also during the break of this class thing I had to go to, I managed to spill a whole canister of half and half all over a cafeteria counter. Can we say there were divine influnences telling me I shouldn't have gone?
Anyway, after I got back it got slightly better but more confusing. I was able to go to a different location that is more low key for an hour in addition to just running podium (handling the paperwork and money) at my location. Realized the Chinese food guy was back. For some reason he was being extra specially nice to me today. >.> But then he was the last time. Most everyone else he was just sort of handing them their food and shoving them off unless he knew them. Ever tried having someone hold a conversation with you while they're cooking with knives and stuff? O.o You keep standing there wondering if they'll whack a finger off or something.
So, after getting that on the way back from a run I was apparently called by the office. Seems Shirwa called off or something and they wanted me to work. Um, shall we say no? No car, no way to get home, etc. Anyway... we didn't know all this until viola I get back to Main and I'm on podium again after Thomas leaves. Apparently some idiot told them I was staying when I said I wasn't. So, I spent the hour I was back there arguing with a bunch of men about the fact that I already said no. I don't have a car, so I can't. I have to go when my mother comes for me. Basically, it was probably fun cause no one knows how to close out in the night for Main or run podium for the night crew, except me and Shirwa. Yeeeeah, makes me wonder what happened. Anyway, when mom came she had my car. o.o
Found out as I mentioned earlier, it was the battery. Apparently the battery was so corrioded that they had to clean it off just to get a reading on it. It was all green and nasty. Basically the theory is that it was the original battery for the car. So, that was fixed. The car had been acting up for over a week and half now, but because dad was having so many problems with his car lately, I was trying to wait until I got paid next week before taking it in. The car had other ideas I guess.
Anyway, got home, ate and called Kitty to make sure she was ok. Then went to bed until like 8pm. >.> Then started looking around for a dress or something to wear to PMX and/or Ohayocon. I seriously want this. I just don't know if I want to spend $60+ on a dress. I really wish I knew how to sew clothes better. I still don't even know if I'll be going to PMX. My boss is still being an idiot. I also counted out my TAP hours, and I won't have ANY left by the time PMX is over. So, when I go to Ohayocon, I can't pre-reg cause I'm not sure exactly if I'll be able to go on Friday. Well all the good stuff is at night anyway. Now that I've rambled about stuff no one really cares about, I just basically came to the conclusion that I should just start posting on my private journal(s). I'm in one of those moods where I wanna talk it out, but don't feel comfortable with people knowing what I am talking about exactly. One or two people possibly. But not... a lot. Then of course you worry that you'll say something the wrong way. So... that's where it becomes a private journal.
Current mood: 
anxious
Current music: Beautiful Alone - Weiss Kreuz OST
Sunday, September 14, 2008
9:30PM - I went to Middle Earth and all I got was this lousy ring...
I went to Chillicothe for the weekend. More like 4 days. I'm sure they were all ready to get rid of me by then. I do thank Becky and her parents for putting up with me, feeding me and letting me sleep as long as I wanted for 4 days. Played games with Becky and also played with birdies and ferrets at Petland while there, and I have the scratches on my arms to prove it. We watched Lain on Saturday. Talked about one screwed up anime. Reminds me of Perfect Blue.
Today was spent at a local festival. We got funnel cake. <3 The rest was spent watching Escaflowne because I suck and never seen it. Then the power went out and after several minutes of that, I decided it was a sign for me to hit the road. That's when the real fun began. >.> Shall we say wind storm from hell? The whole way was spent dodging flying objects and trees in the road. Also, trying to keep the car actually on the road was... fun... Almost got blown off a couple of times. Get into Columbus and my knowledge of how to get home was tested since I had to take FOUR, yes FOUR, different routes that could lead to my house due downed power lines, whole trees uprooted, vehicles which had accidents and things such as this.
Get home and it was like I didn't leave. They were like "hurricane in texas is the size of cali." So, went out and untangled the dog's chain (this seems to be his new game which is getting annoying because I don't know how he does it), and finally about half an hour ago sat down to eat.
We tried calling out to my aunts in Texas, but the lines are disconnected, so maybe they're part of the evacuees. Hopefully they're ok. Hopefully my Kitty is ok too. Power was still out when I called her. I should have kidnapped her. :P
Current mood: 
lonely
Current music: Desert Love ~Dune OST
Saturday, September 6, 2008
8:52PM
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1:00PM - IMVU (I forgot I had an account there.
Does anyone have IMVU? Anyone want invited to it?
I recently recalled having an account there and decided to start playing with it again. So, if anyone wants an invite to join or anything let me know. Those that have an account my user name is tamashiinouta.
Current mood: 
nostalgic
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
7:51PM - I hate it when I'm like this... I'm sure everyone does too...
Another aimless day
Another useless night
I want peroxide hair
I want some neon light
I got a new life waiting
I can't wait to begin it
The thing that gets me down
To be young in this town
Is there's no future in it
I want a fine perfume
A powder blue corvette
If there's a slower death
Than living here and now they haven't found it yet
I need a man who knows what I'm really worth
And I don't give a damn about life after death
But I got to get some proof
That there's life after birth
Current mood: restless
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