| Girls only want boyfriends who have great skills |
[09 Feb 2006|11:06am] |
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I got an email from Dale to my school email<3
He put some stuff in it that I'm gunna put here so i can read it anytime I want
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"A girl asked a boy if she was pretty. He said no. She asked him if he
wanted to be with her forever. He said no. She then asked him if he would
cry if she walked away. He again said no. She had heard too much. She needed
to leave. As she walked away, he grabbed her arm and told her to stay. He
said "You're not pretty. You're beautiful. I don't want to be with you
forever. I need to be with you forever. And I wouldn't cry if you walked
away. I would die."
life is full of heartache and pain, but that is inevitable, so if you find
someone that is worth your while, don't let them go, love them with all you
have left, realize that hearts bruise and sometimes break, but all wounds
heal themselves in time. we'll make it through this together...
ive been withering away
each day that goes by
here without you
oh how i miss you
with each passing second
i fall in a trance
and i dont care
because you're not here
if only i could hold you
again ill be glad
but in the meantime
i can only wait here
in silence i hope i will last
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Its 11:11 make a wish
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Smiles and {her} laughter
its the only thing that I've been waiting for
a time
regardless of our distance and our hope...grows greater
trapped by pretty eyes and letters for all time
...the only thing that I've been waiting for
her persistent, pumping heart has purpose now.
her lingering lips have found a friend.
"i woke up this morning in a fever... but i wasn't sick. no, it was
different. i looked in the mirror and my cheeks were pink. [yes, it reminded
me of that Sunday when i first saw you.] my hair was a mess. but that's how
i like it. i had slept in my underwear because the covers seemed too hot.
maybe it was just me. ha, it sounded like a clever line you might whisper to
me. yeah, and i would smile and press my lips into yours. mmm...your kisses
are coated with hope. for me. and you."
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I love when butterflies never fade. Its awesome. Because you can still recall the first glace, first hug, first kiss. You can still recall that feeling in ever glance every kiss and every hug. I love it. And I love him. Hes comming tomorrow YES DALES COMMING TOMORROW. but i guess i should stop saying that because he comes every weekend so its no different then any other friday. However bad this sounds I guess im sort of contradicting(sp?) myself because in the last entry I said how sunday was a mistake and blah blah and how i regret it and blah blah but I guess I dont. I liked talking to him liek that. And I think i want to drink again this weekend liek that, so we can talk again. and eventually we'll have to have talks like that sober but for me its really hard to do. I forget who it was, maybe Dave, who compared me to a woman giving birth. Cus I can't do anything difficult with drugs. the "I NEED DRUGS GIVE ME THE DRUGS" thing was like me. accept no drugs just alcohol now.
im still writing my book and its comming along alright. I finished Charles' chapter but I think I want to write more about him. I did a little about my start on drugs and I'm focusing on the night when I slept with Dave and that whole trip right now. Then I'm going to move on to Spring Break with Liz and that whole deal that everyone knows about probably except Dale unless Nick told him. idk. whatever lol. Then I'm going to write about Christina and Michelle and Mandy and focus on a lot of high moments and fucked up moments and just moments in general and then move on to the school night when the police dropped Cosola off at my place. And that aftermath. Then I'm going to move onto Greg and then the summer and then Dale<3. Dave is probably the only one who I actually talked to about the book. He told me I should write it as I go in life. And like after I catch up with my past write in it once a month summerizing it. Which I think is a really good idea. I'm glad I can talk to him. He was telling me how him and his girlie sort of broke up. Which he told me when he was high and he didnt seem upset when he asked her out he was so happy and now idk. I need to straighten this kid out.
Yeah so now im going to do the 600 question survey Cosola did. So yeah<3
"you stumble then you fall, I wonder if you'll ever learn"
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[09 Feb 2006|11:59am] |
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| ~*~* Top 10 *~*~ | | ---10 Firsts--- | | First Best Friend::: | janette | | First Screenname::: | sassyxsisterx | | First Pet Name::: | lazy lucy | | First Piercing::: | ears | | First Crush::: | justin timberlake | | First CD::: | nsync | | First School::: | abc spectrum | | First House Location::: | freehold | | First Kiss::: | josh | | First Car::: | nuffin yet | | ---9 Lasts--- | | Last Time You Smoked::: | 20 minutes ago | | Last Food You Ate::: | a cheerio | | Last Car Ride::: | i drove to freehold yesterday | | Last Movie You Watched::: | weird science | | Last Phone Call::: | dale on the bus this morning | | Last CD You Listened To::: | dales mix | | Last Bubble Bath You Took::: | years | | Last Song You Listened To::: | there is | | Last Words You Said::: | see ya | | ---8 Have-You-Evers--- | | Dated A Best Friend::: | yes | | Been Arrested::: | yes | | Been On TV::: | no | | Eaten Sushi::: | no | | Cheated On Your B/F or G/F::: | no | | Been On A Blind Date::: | no | | Been Out Of The Country::: | no | | Been In Love::: | yes | | ---7 Things You Are Wearing--- | | 1::: | my notorious jacket | | 2::: | my cali where i lay my mack down shirt | | 3::: | pink bra | | 4::: | my notorious jeans | | 5::: | pink g string | | 6::: | green socks | | 7::: | polki dot shoes | | ---6 Things You've Done Today--- | | 1::: | woke up | | 2::: | got on the bus | | 3::: | talked to dale | | 4::: | sat with the girlies | | 5::: | went to class | | 6::: | smoked | | ---5 Favorite Things (not in any order)--- | | 1::: | dale | | 2::: | ciggs | | 3::: | kisses | | 4::: | sleep overs | | 5::: | sex... yeah i had to put that in there | | ---4 People You Most Trust--- | | 1::: | myself. | | 2::: | dale | | 3::: | cosola | | 4::: | myself. | | ---3 Things You Want To Do Before You Die--- | | 1::: | sky dive | | 2::: | go to amsterdam | | 3::: | have grandchildren | | ---2 Choices--- | | Vanilla or Chocolate::: | vanilla | | Hugs or Kisses::: | kisses | | --1 Person You Want To See Right Now--- | | 1::: | dale | Take this survey | Find more surveys
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[09 Feb 2006|08:56pm] |
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yeah life is gay. im gunna party it up this weekend. enjoy myself.
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[09 Feb 2006|09:25pm] |
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ugh never mind no parties for me. dales comming. i promise one weekend soon with be just me and the crew. i promise.
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