| weekend and life |
[06 Feb 2006|08:14pm] |
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super dooper shortness
friday me dale brittany cara michelle rob christina cos christina cass christine dan and andy were all at christinas and then everyone left but christine dan christina cas and andy. everyone else came to my place and had fun and christina left and slept and chicagos house and brittany and cara and dale slept over. we had fun. then christina got dropped off early and the girls left and me and dale chilled out. and i totally forgot that i wanted to go to the show and i was reminded in algebra that it was fucking awesome and i missed out on some crazy pits which made me mad but idc i was with dale. so we lounged around and went to home depot and places and got some stuff for my room and wow im leaving out crazy details i just dont feel like typing them all. so sunday we went out for a little bit got some books after cosola left from her lovely stop by my casa :-) we got back to my place and watched movies and then when he came back upstairs he said he was gunna have to leave whne he was planning on staying sunday night and see me off to school. so he got upset and started drinking but my dad said he couldnt stay but he kept drinking and i was upset so i was matching his shots and did 2 more then him actually and i was pretty bad. but i opened up to him. which i will prolly never do again. because i feel vounerable when i do that and i hate that feeling more then anything. i found out some things i didn't like as im sure he did about me. but we just realized that we are meant to be together and if i was only a few more years older we would go get married and there is one thing i will never forget that he said to me saturday night
"did I ever tell you I get that feeling... when I look into your eyes... I get that feeling. that feeling of falling in love."
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so dale made me a mix. and i dont think ive stopped listening to it since he left. i love him so much. today at school kinda sucked tho. i found out all my friends and even an ex of mine knew something about dale that to me is an EXTREMELY personal thing. and i didnt even know. when people who he hasnt even met know. its rediculous. and hurts. but i guess thats why its the past. because its supposed to hurt.
im writing a book. but no one will be allowed to read it. until im old and i finally get it published. the only person i talked to about my book was jimmy. hes a good friend and i miss the old him. but hey, people change. i changed. some people say for the worst. cus im not the nixon they know. and its weird when people say that around dale because he doesnt know of me like that. liek cara said to him "thanks for making chelsea not scary" and he just looked at me and said "why would you be scary" lol i didnt know what to say. im nixon? i dont flippin know.
i also found out today that my ex is dating my friend who is also an ex of someone that i slept with so theres this big giant circle of tension. but im proud of myself because im not even mad. i honestly dont care. but i think its kind of pathetic that they cant find new people. that they result to ex's of ex's of friends friends. like its a big world. honestly. oh well. as long as shes happy. i dont care about him tho.
i had a long talk with nick today. i havent hung out with him in awhile. and i should.
me and shelly are back yea michelle (6:35:41 PM): DEM DER PHERIDACTLYES and i love it
i want to hear ground folds acoustic version right now. i feel like i need to cry about something i havent cried about in a while. twisted? idk. whatever.
so basically im afraid my boyfriend thinks im pathetic and i regret sunday night.
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