| Final Inspection |
[04 Mar 2005|02:11pm] |
The soldier stood and faced God,
Which must always come to pass.
He hoped his shoes were shining,
Just as brightly as his brass.
“Step forward now soldier, How shall I deal with you?
Have you always turned the other cheek
To my church have you been true?”
The soldier squared his shoulders and said,
“No Lord, I guess I ain’t
Because those of us who carry guns can’t always be a saint.
I’ve had to work most Sundays and at times my work was tough
And sometimes I’ve been violent because the world is awful rough.
But, I never took a penny that wasn’t mine to keep…
Though I worked a lot of overtime when the bills got to steep,
And I never passed a cry for help though at times I shook with fear,
And sometimes, God forgive me, I’ve wept unmanly tears.
I know I don’t deserve a place among the people here.
They never wanted me around except to calm their fears.
If you’ve a place for me here, Lord, It needn’t be so grand,
I never expected or had too much, But if you don’t I’ll understand.”
There was silence all around the throne where saints had often trod
As the soldier waited quietly, For the judgment of God.
“Step forward now soldier, You’ve born your burdens well.
Walk peacefully on Heaven’s streets,
You’ve done your time in Hell.”
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| you mean blurty works? |
[14 Feb 2005|07:22am] |
it never fails .... when I don't feel like posting, Blurty pops up in record time
but when I want to say something, it takes FOREVER
and that's if it comes up at all
oh well
btw, I've lost my desire to call cadance. *shrug*
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| FINALLY |
[12 Feb 2005|04:34pm] |
over the last few days I have not been able to log on to blurty ... and finally today I can
sorta
I can look at my friends list, and update ... but I can't get into the communities I belong to....
rant coming soon, stay tuned
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[09 Feb 2005|11:41am] |
I have taken
hope
trust
faith
and torn them into little pieces
placed them in a box
called promises
and broke that also
now I sit here
looking at a pile
trying to put them
back together
I will put them back together
one piece at a time
one day at a time
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| why... |
[08 Feb 2005|07:08am] |
why do I
at the time I need people the most
make it impossible from people to reach me?
why do I
lock myself away in a dark place
then wonder why no one knocks?
why
when I should be trying to help myself
do I worry more about others
to those who are worried about me
I'm sorry
for making you feel that way
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[01 Feb 2005|08:17pm] |
you know that feeling
its like a pressure
right in the middle of your chest
not coming from anywhere
just .... there
the rush of emotions
all trying to claim that feeling
as their own
all trying to say
"I'm the cause of that"
do you know that feeling?
because I do
right now
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| what time does that clock say?? |
[21 Jan 2005|07:39am] |
I watched the presidential election live tonight ... I say tonight because it was played at 2:00am here in Korea. It was nice, although watching things live on TV is only partly good, real live is always better. One thing I noticed is that John Kerry was in attendance. John Kerry, the man who lost the election to George Bush, sat attentively and even smiled during the inauguration. Do you know what that means?IT MEANS HE'S A GOOD SPORT.let's hope others can learn from him.
oh, and now it's time for the rant. I got no problems with demonstrators, that have just as much right to express their opinion as I do. However, why do they think they can assault a police officer and get away with it? These knuckleheads throw something at a cop, then act surprised when the cop pepper sprays them. And then, just to prove they are total idiots, they do it AGAIN. Now, if I was demonstrating, and the guy next to me threw something at a cop, and I saw the cop pepper spray that guy next to me, what would possess me to throw something at that same cop? Or at any cop for that matter? would I be hoping the cop used all his pepper spray on the first guy? And if I did decide to throw something after seeing that guy get sprayed, why would I act shocked and surprised when I got sprayed?
I really don't understand people sometimes.
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[19 Jan 2005|06:01pm] |
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my fingers hover
over the keyboard
mind straining to
piece letters together
into words
piece words together
into thoughts
piece thoughts together
into something
coherent
I hate when I get like this
and lately
it happens way too often
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[17 Jan 2005|04:02pm] |
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I can't wait to go back to work. It always seems like a good idea to take 30 days off from work, but towards the end I'm so distracted and off focus that I'm lucky if I remember my own name. I need something to focus on, work is that thing.
Off time is nice, but I'm thinking I can't do this much anymore. I mean, take this much time off. Maybe just 2 weeks or so at a time. I gets to the point where I get nothing done, because I'll think of something to do, and then just before I start something else will catch my attention, oh yeah that needs to be done also, and so on and so on
Once I get back to work and into the daily routine, then all will be good. Maybe that's what is wrong, my routine being disrupted
I fear retirement, I think I'll go insane three days into it.
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| and again about the Tsunami |
[15 Jan 2005|02:59pm] |
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ok, now it seems that some foreign government person is saying that the death toll from the Tsunami is our fault (our = the US) because we should have warned them before it happened. According to this person, our weather facility in Hawaii should have been able to notify them in time so this could all be avoided.
what
the
fuck
first we are told we don't care because we didn't send help right away
then we are called stingy because we didn't give tons of money right away
now it's our fault from the beginning?
why don't you just blame us for existing in the first place, maybe if we weren't here the underwater earthquake that triggered the tsunami would never have happened. or maybe you should stop trying to find someone else to blame for your problems and start working on making sure it doesn't happen again
of course, that will probably be our fault too, for not giving you the proper teaching on how to protect yourselves.
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| rant pt II |
[09 Jan 2005|05:15pm] |
small continuation of the last rant:
"the world" wants to claim that the reason we (the U.S.) "waited" so long to provide relief for the tsunami victims is because we "hate" Muslim nations. Yet, out of all the nations who have contributed money, guess which ones contributed none?
Other Muslim nations.
Shouldn't they have been the first to help? After all, don't they have all that money from selling oil to us? Yet no one blames them for not helping, nor have they even mentioned it.
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[06 Jan 2005|02:16pm] |
it's been a little while, and I've been a little sick ... ok, I've been a lot sick, but I've decided to go on a little rant here.
Once again it seems like we (as in the US) will be the bad guys no matter what. We will never be able to satisfy anyone no matter how we try. My case in point? The tsunami relief. Now I'm not saying that we shouldn't help, but according to the world we didn't help *fast* enough. We didn't donate enough of our vast amounts of money (since we are the richest nation in the world, according to them) in a timely enough manner to make it appear that we cared. My first thought upon hearing this was, aren't we still at war?
Our Military vehicles and personnel are underarmored, and one reason was that we (the US) didn't have the funds to give all the armor out at the same time. But now, we are expected ... no, actually we were virtually ordered to give several million dollars for help. OK, let us just put those kevlar vests on hold for a sec, so we can give you all this relief money ... but wait, now you're yelling at us because our Soldiers are dieing, when a vest would have saved their lives?
NOTE TO THE WORLD: YOU CAN'T HAVE IT BOTH WAYS.
Personally, I don't think we should give you anything. We'll give you help when we feel it's necessary. Does that sound cold? How about this: you didn't sound the extreme weather alarms because you were afraid it would hurt your tourism. Can't have all the tourists leaving in order to save their own lives, right? Question: how's your tourism now? How many of those tourists that you were afraid of alerting will be coming back next year to spend their vacation money?
"You can't be the world's police."
"Oh my god, the world needs policing! Why aren't you doing it?"
*PS* You want the real reason that our Humm-V's are underarmored? It's this simple: They armored a Humm-V, then did a brake test. At a 10mph brake test, the halfshafts snapped. That means that they drove the vehicle at 10 miles per hour, applied the brakes, and the halfshafts (which hold the tires to the vehicle) broke in half. Now, ask me again why we don't have armor on all our vehicles?
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[30 Dec 2004|01:50pm] |
wow ... blurty actually works now ... too bad I've forgotten everything I was going to say
more to come......
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[24 Dec 2004|09:28pm] |
It's Christmas Eve
and it's snowing
it's not sticking
but I guess
it's the thought that counts
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[23 Dec 2004|04:41pm] |
there are certain places
where you are not allowed to say
"Merry Christmas"
because it offends people
instead, they ask you say "Happy Holidays"
...
well,
I am offended by my inability
to say "Merry Christmas"
wherever
and whenever
I want
so,
what are you going to do
so that I am no longer offended?
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| Baaa |
[22 Dec 2004|04:58pm] |
1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the sentence in your journal along with these instructions.
"Killing is a sin. I know that now; I knew it then. All else is rationalization"
Piers Anthony, On A Pale Horse
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[21 Dec 2004|10:15am] |
have I forgotten?
no, I never could
I'm just respecting
your time with another
I'm still listening
and I'll speak again soon
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| this one time ... at English camp ... |
[14 Dec 2004|06:34am] |
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this past Sunday I volunteered to help the Girl Scouts out ... I wasn't sure what I would be doing, usually when we volunteer to help the Korean children it's on a Saturday in the afternoon, this time was Sunday morning. Come to find out, the girl scouts were having a two day "English camp" ... an event to help the girls learn English better, meet new friends, and things like that.
Once we got there (myself and some other Soldiers), we were paired with one of the adult helpers (I don't know what they call them, sorry) and we went off to help with one of the classes. Mine was the game "body language", which was charades. For those who don't recognize either name, one girl had to act out a word, without speaking, and get her teammates to guess that word. There were four groups, and it was really fun.
One thing that amazed me, was after we were done withthe game we usually had a few minutes left, so the teacher asked me to say the words, and the girls would repeat them. Not only did the girls say exactly what I said, the said it exactly how I said it. They matched my inflection perfectly on every word. I was impressed.
The thing about me that amazed them, was the fact I have green eyes. Green eyes in the Oriental culture is extremely rare, so sometimes they stare without realizing it. It's all good though, it was a good time all around.
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[12 Dec 2004|07:55am] |
"Some of us see what is
and we wonder .. why?
Some of dream of what is not
and we wonder .. why not?
Some of us have to work
and don't have time for this crap"
- George Carlin
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[07 Dec 2004|08:13pm] |
it hurts me
to know
I've hurt you
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