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[29 Dec 2006|12:18am] |
You called me tonight.
For the first time.
You were bored in Michigan.
You basically called just to chat.
I was so excited when your name showed up on my phone.
I could feel my pulse in my fingertips while i was holding the phone.
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[29 Dec 2006|01:17am] |
They’re superficial, and I feel highly judged. (my parents’ friends.)
Also; How do I tell them?
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[29 Dec 2006|02:58am] |
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When I saw that he in fact added me and responded to my message I sent him, I squeeled like a damn school girl. :-)
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[29 Dec 2006|05:32am] |
i don't know how to be a girlfriend.
i'm scared i'm gonna be bad at it.
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[29 Dec 2006|05:42am] |
i always have you kiss my forehead because he used to.
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[29 Dec 2006|10:01am] |
And then she's gone,,
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[29 Dec 2006|10:55am] |
Everyone says I'm very pretty, and somedays I think so too..
but my pretty is being wasted. =(
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[29 Dec 2006|05:53pm] |
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You also call me when you say you are going to, you don't ask me to leave when you are bored, when I'm sleepy you let me use your lap as a pillow, you hold my hand for no reason, you tell me how much you like me all the time, and you pay for everything.
I can't believe I let myself stay in such a shitty relationship for 2 1/2 years. I'm glad I've found someone new :)
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[29 Dec 2006|06:26pm] |
you only ever want to meet up when I'm with someone
Sometimes I just feel so lonely
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[29 Dec 2006|08:13pm] |
i like him
AGAIN
but i want him more this time
and im determined not to let him go again..
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[29 Dec 2006|08:54pm] |
im sorry.
i couldn't bring myself to go to your funeral.
i got up, got ready and everything for it.
but leaving the car and seeing your mum walk up the hill there to the church made me feel so heartbroken and well, there is no way that i could possibly describe how i felt .
so i went for a coffee instead.
and cried for you.
yes i know its pathetic.
the secret is that i pretended to everyone that i went. to my parents, to my friends.
and i really don't know why.
i think it's because i felt so fucking bad for not going.
believe me i do. i really wish i had gone and said goodbye for the last time.
im so sorry baby.
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[29 Dec 2006|08:59pm] |
I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles
In our eyes are mirror images and when
We kiss they're perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate that God himself
Did make us into corresponding shapes like
Puzzle pieces from the clay
And true, it may seem like a stretch, but
Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled
Head when you're away when I am missing you to death
When you are out there on the road for
Several weeks of shows and when you scan
The radio, I hope this song will guide you home
They will see us waving from such great
Heights, 'come down now,' they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away,
'come down now,' but we'll stay...
I tried my best to leave this all on your
Machine but the persistent beat it sounded
Thin upon listening
And that frankly will not fly. You will hear
The shrillest highs and lowest lows with
The windows down when this is guiding you home.
i can't help but think that this song describes us perfectly
despite the fact there there IS no us. and i'm afraid if i
tell you this is how i feel, i would just scare you off
because your ex-girlfriend told you the exact same thing.
[ and you were 'in love' with her, too ]
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[29 Dec 2006|10:46pm] |
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( fomg )
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[29 Dec 2006|11:30pm] |
I just cant take it anymore, okay? I hate life. I hate it all. Im so sorry, but this is how it has to be. I cant keep living like this. and Its impossible for me to change, so the only thing to do is just end it all. Ive tried everything else, i swear. Im sorry. Im so sorry. I really think this will be better, not just for me but for everyone. I hope you all understand.
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