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[14 Dec 2006|12:00am] |
i'm terrified this time is going to be like all the rest.
i swear i'm done, but then i can't say no.
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[14 Dec 2006|12:02am] |
secret: i lol'ed for at least a good 10 minutes when i saw this.
i feel terrible but it's fucking hilarious!
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[14 Dec 2006|12:11am] |
as bad as it sounds, i hate hearing about people i consider to be unattractive having sex or talking about sex or making gross sexual puns.
it just creeps me out.
it may seem hypocritical, because though i am not all that attractive, i don't constantly make sexual references.
i also hate hearing about ugly people drama.
it's not worth my time.
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[14 Dec 2006|01:43am] |
every time someone kisses my forehead, i still think of you.
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[14 Dec 2006|02:27am] |
This photo was one year ago today.
I can't delete your name off my buddylist and Justin always asks me why,
I still hope I'll see your name sign on and you dying will be a big joke.
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[14 Dec 2006|10:58am] |
as gross and disgusting and weird as it is,
i would love nothing more than to fuck my manager.
he's only 25, not that attractive, but oddly, i'm attracted to him.
and that's the ONLY thing i can think about at work when he's there,
then when i come home from work.
hahaha, and i WOULD have put a picture of him on here,
but that's how not cute he is. or at least in his gay ass myspace pictures.
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[14 Dec 2006|01:31pm] |
SECRET:
My gay best friend is buying me condoms for my first time tomorrow.
I'm not even telling my other best friend about losing my virginity.
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[14 Dec 2006|01:59pm] |
i had sex today.
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[14 Dec 2006|03:08pm] |
 
she probably doesn't want to hear it.
but i'm sorry and i want her to know it.
She's right, always. But that's okay. It's true.
I'm a crappy friend.
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[14 Dec 2006|03:26pm] |
2 secrets.
i like him.
he likes me.
he just signed on msn.
with ''Bristonn<3...your amazing & I love you:D<3'' in his nic.
im scared.
this morning i went on a search for pills i could take before school.
im scared im going to find some and OD.
i need help.
sorry no pictures.
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[14 Dec 2006|03:37pm] |
2 secrets again. sorry
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[14 Dec 2006|04:15pm] |
I will not be happy with any Christmas gifts unless I get a yellow lab.
My perfect yellow lab died 4 years ago..
And I don't want to replace Jaeger, but I want one like him.
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[14 Dec 2006|05:49pm] |
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[14 Dec 2006|06:03pm] |
i can't stop crying...since last night. i dunno why
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[14 Dec 2006|07:17pm] |
Reading LJsecret makes me think that when I get a boyfriend he'll think of me as secondbest to some other girl he misses like crazy.
Either that or he'll think I have some other weird defect that he'll never tell me about.
It kind of makes me fear relationships.
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[14 Dec 2006|07:43pm] |
no picture.
i hate that i can't post anything with his name or anything to do with him on here.
you guys all probably know [of] him.
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[14 Dec 2006|08:08pm] |
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I'm not spoiled or anything I just don't like getting small presents,, like a ring or an Ipod.. I like it big! like a new computer or something..
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[14 Dec 2006|08:08pm] |
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Lately... A lot of things have been going to shit.
My dad is a drug addict and I have to drop out of school temporarily to get a fulltime job and move out on my own to get away from him.
My car has a definite limited lifespan, and when it dies, it will be irrepairable. But I don't know WHEN it will die.
I have a phone bill that's $400 for some reason.. and I haven't been able to pay it in 2 months.
I kissed a married guy. Or actually he kissed me... but it pretty much ruined our friendship... The bad part is that I HAVE to be around him. He's the VP of the college art club, and im the pres.
I've been gaining weight. And I'm struggling with self-image and self-esteem.. depression and axiety.
I've just been rejected by this guy I have the biggest crush on.
Secret?
Despite all of these things, I know there's hope! And I've NEVER been happier. :)
(sorry, no pic)
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[14 Dec 2006|08:17pm] |
if i could wish for one new trait,
i wouldn't want to be pretty or smart or funny.
i would want more self-control.
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[14 Dec 2006|09:50pm] |
I know you guys are happy with your new group of friends.
I JUST WISH YOU HADN'T TURNED YOUR BACK ON ME.
the first two girls on the left were my best friends from the beginning of freshman year to the first couple weeks of this year.
but we never see eacother in the hallways or anything. so we never talked.
(second in from left) we were best friends from kindergarden to 7th grade-ish.
and then we were best friends from the end of 8th grade to the summer before this year.
Her attitude has dramatically changed. for the worse.
and she's spending so much time on her ghetto-ass boyfriend to care
about her grades and then she complains about them.
ragggh.
this is truly a sophomore slump.
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[14 Dec 2006|10:03pm] |
do i compromise who i am and what i've gained for what we were?
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[14 Dec 2006|11:24pm] |
i'm going to a sweet 16 tomorrow...
and i'm scared that i'll be the biggest one there. I'm not fat, but all my friends are really really skinny. There's gonna be guys there and I'm afraid no one will notice me because I'm not as skinny and beautiful as them. I haven't been in a social situation w/ guys in a while (i go to an all girl's school) and I'm freaking out.. =(
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[14 Dec 2006|11:54pm] |
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sometimes i worry i will never love a person as much as i love my cat, colin.
then i realize i don't care. he's all i really need.
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